Strawberry West Toast

"Pei Yiwei?" Wang Zhen shook his hand in front of him, "What are you looking at?"

Pei Yiwei hugged him, hid him behind her back, and looked out the window, but there was nothing there.

He went to the window to look out. Their room was on the third floor. It was almost one o'clock in the morning, and there were almost no tourists on the beach.

"What's wrong?" Wang Zhen followed.

"It's okay, my head hurts a little." Pei Yi turned around slightly and took him to sleep.

The next morning Wang Zhen went downstairs to get breakfast, and took Pei Yiwei's portion back to his room.Pei Yiwei leaned on the sofa, holding the pair of white AirPods in his hand, and seeing Wang Zhen came back, he asked him, "Do you remember when you gave this to me?"

"It was given during the Chinese New Year, why do you ask this?"

Pei Yiwei said: "Recently my memory has declined."

"Is it too stressful?" Wang Zhen sat next to him and rubbed his hair. "Don't think about studying when you come out to play. Let's go for a drive later."

"Well," Pei Yiwei said, "have breakfast first."

Jiang Yu and Cai Zhuoxi were waiting for them at the car dealership, Yang Hang took Xue Xinyi away first.Not far away, Huo Shi rode a black lady motorcycle, crossing the seawall along the beach.

"Huo Shi is too cool," Jiang Yu marveled at her back, "Look at Cai Zhuoxi, every girl can ride a motorcycle."

"Human girl is taller than you." Cai Zhuoxi didn't bother to talk to him, and borrowed the owner's balance bike to play.

The seawall leads to the beach, which is gentle and wide. Some tourists drive colorful cars for photography to take pictures on the embankment.Pei Yi lighted the fire slightly, the motor made a small chugging sound, Wang Zhen sat in the back and whistled, and they set off.

The sea breeze is mild and moist, and there is a slight tingling sensation on the cheeks, which are sand grains in the wind.The hot sun melted the air, the milky white beaches on both sides glistened, and the heat waves on the dikes were as hard as solid.They passed through the throbbing heat, and for a moment it was as if the skin was on fire.Wang Zhen hugged him tightly, her cheeks were very close to his neck.He looked ahead and couldn't hear Wang Zhen's breathing, but he knew he was there, and that feeling made him very happy.

At the end of the seawall were some shops. Yang Hang and Xue Xinyi were sitting outside a cold drink shop. He parked the car in front of the door. Seeing them coming, Yang Hang threw two fans at them.

"It's too hot today," Yang Hang said, "Let's not go out at noon."

"Okay," Wang Zhen fanned himself and sat down, "Why are you the only ones? Where's Huo Shi?"

"Sister Huo is going to go to fish therapy," Xue Xinyi pointed to a nearby shop, "There."

"A glass of strawberry sparkling water." Wang Zhen said to the waiter.

The waiter looked at Pei Yiwei, and Pei Yiwei said, "Same as him."

Yang Hang leaned back on the chair, holding a can of soda in his hand, and said, "It's May in a blink of an eye. Thinking about going to Beijing for so long, I feel empty."

"When are you leaving?" Wang Zhen took the sparkling water from the waiter and pushed it to Pei Yiwei, who pushed it back.

"At the beginning of June," Yang Hang said, "do you want to come with me?"

"Let's talk about it, we haven't decided yet."

Yang Hang was a little surprised: "It's already May, and it hasn't been decided yet?"

Wang Zhen let go of the straw and leaned back in the chair: "Isn't it better to learn more about children's culture before walking?"

Yang Hang shook his head and smiled: "Brother Zhen has changed his sex."

After Huo Shi came back, they called Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu and Cai Zhuoxi were visiting a library by the sea, and asked them to eat first.They found a small restaurant to eat lunch, and then chatted at the cold drink shop. Xue Xinyi had the habit of taking a nap, so Yang Hang took her and Huo Shi back at one o'clock.

In the evening, the sun sets and the temperature begins to drop. Tourists go to the beach one after another, and more people swim.Wang Zhen put his sneakers next to a sculpture on the shore, stepped onto the beach barefoot, and sat down on a dry sand surface.

"Drink some water." Pei Yiwei handed him a bottle of mineral water.

Wang Zhen unscrewed the lid and drank it.

"How long is the training camp?" Pei Yiwei asked him.

"Eight," Wang Zhen said, "Nine early, but generally no more than ten."

On the way back, Pei Yiwei slowed down and slid slowly on the seawall. Wang Zhen hugged him to sleep and was carried into the room by him.

The skin burned by the sun began to ache, not severe but unpleasant, Pei Yiwei went to bed and fell asleep after taking a shower.

He hadn't dreamed for a while, but tonight, probably because of exhaustion, he dreamed as soon as he fell asleep.

He dreamed that it was snowing heavily on the beach, and all the grains of sand turned into white snow powder. fell on his shoulders.

When he woke up, his face was full of tears, as if he had been ill.

"Don't go." He hugged Wang Zhen and said with difficulty.

Wang Zhen noticed his strangeness and asked him, "What's wrong?"

He suddenly woke up: "...Nightmare."

Wang Zhen patted him on the back, looked into his eyes, hesitated for a moment, got up and turned on the desk lamp, only to find that Pei Yiwei's face was covered with tears.

"Baby?" He was startled, and before Pei Yiwei could speak, he turned off the lamp.

Wang Zhen kissed the bridge of his nose. Thinking of the conversation in the evening, he couldn't say he was sad, but his heart was empty.

Wang Zhen slid down his chest, and he held his shoulder: "Don't."

Wang Zhen didn't answer, he unbuttoned his belt clumsily, and the button fell to the ground with a ding-dong sound.

He knew that there was no pleasure in doing this kind of thing. When it was over, Wang Zhen had tears in his eyes, his cheeks were flushed, and he looked cute and pitiful.

His breathing was a little heavy, and he stretched out his hand to pinch Wang Zhen's earlobe.

"If you say something, I won't leave," Wang Zhen said, "How is it?"

Wang Zhen hugged his neck in a very intimate gesture, but he suddenly felt far away from Wang Zhen.

"How?" Wang Zhen asked again.

"Let's go together," he said after the silence, "to take the exam and go to Beijing together."

On the afternoon of the third day, the group packed their luggage and returned to the city. Yang Hang was worried that Wang Zhen would delay the next class. He often lacked plans in doing things in the past, so he brought up the matter of going to Beijing for training.Wang Zhen said, "I'll go with you at the beginning of June."

Yang Hang said, "Have you agreed with Pei Yiwei?"

"It's not an agreement," Wang Zhen said, "Have you discussed this with Xue Xinyi?"

"Our situation is different. Xue Xinyi and I are in the same class, and we see each other every day. It's hard for you two to meet each other at school. Why don't you have snacks when you go to Beijing?" Yang Hang said.

"That's true." Wang Zhen nodded.

After returning to school, Wang Zhen began to be busy with selecting studios. The school had few art students, and the big studios didn’t like this piece of meat. There were only a few small studios for enrollment promotion. Decided to choose the studio for the winter vacation.This studio has a large scale, many repeat students, and a high rate of certification, so Yang Hang also chose it.Yang Hang's academic performance is not bad. He is the kind of student who learns easily but can take the helm in an emergency. It is a good choice to stay with him and take care of each other.

After choosing a studio, there is basically nothing to do. The only thing that matters is the grades of cultural subjects. Wang Zhen’s scores are basically enough for the several art colleges, but after the training camp, his grades will drop, and he may not be able to make up for the last three months. Pei Yiwei catches up every night. Watching him do maths, I want to help him raise his score before leaving, so that he can walk more steadily.

Tonight Wang Zhen stayed in 308 for a while, afraid that Pei Yiwei would wait for him, so he sent him a message in advance, but until the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Pei Yiwei never replied.After class, Wang Zhen called directly, but Pei Yiwei didn't answer.

Pei Yiwei usually has a very regular schedule, so she told Wang Zhen in advance that she couldn't go to an appointment. Wang Zhen hesitated, and walked to Wenshi's door. The lights in the classroom had been turned off, and there were only four students in the class who were studying the questions with the night lights on. There was no Pei Yiwei in it.

Wang Zhen called Zhang Yuan and Li Pei respectively, and they said that Pei Yiwei hadn't returned to the dormitory.Wang Zhen guessed that something was wrong with Pei Yiwei's mother, so he asked my sister-in-law on WeChat, but my sister-in-law didn't know about it, and contacted Hu Xiao'e to ask about Pei Yiwei's whereabouts, but Hu Xiao'e didn't know anything either.

"Are you in a hurry to find him?" Hu Xiao'e asked, "I'm in a hurry to call him tomorrow morning, I guess his phone is out of battery."

"Thank you, auntie, there is no rush," Wang Zhen said, "I just feel something is wrong... He is usually very punctual."

"Well," Hu Xiao'e said, "you rest first, don't delay your class tomorrow, contact him tomorrow morning and I will ask him to find you as soon as possible."

Wang Zhen thanked him, hung up the phone, and sat on the rooftop.

The roof on the fourth floor was left unattended and overgrown with weeds. After blowing the wind for a while, Wang Zhen stood up and prepared to look around the teaching building.

The phone suddenly vibrated, and the caller displayed "Pei Yiwei".

Wang Zhen quickly picked it up.

"Hello? Where have you been?"

On the other end of the phone, only Pei Yiwei's breathing could be heard.Wang Zhen was about to ask again, when Pei Yiwei suddenly said quickly: "I killed him, the medicine, the bottle."

"What?" Wang Zhen was taken aback.

Pei Yiwei's tone was different from usual, with an indescribable sense of tension, as if someone was forcing him to say so.Wang Zhen's first thought was that the debt collectors came to trouble Pei Yiwei, but then he thought that the security guards were on duty in the teaching area every night, and there had never been any incidents of outsiders entering the school to retaliate against students in the school, and felt that this idea was untenable. Hold your feet.

"Where are you?" Wang Zhen asked again.

"The bag. I killed him. Side effects." Pei Yiwei ignored his question.

Cold sweat broke out on Wang Zhen's forehead, what happened to Pei Yiwei?

He ran up and called Pei Yiwei's name loudly at Wenshi's door, but when there was no response, he quickly searched along the fourth floor.The lights of the teaching building have been turned off, and security guards will come to lock the door on the first floor.Wang Zhen's fingers trembled, and he asked Pei Yiwei again: "Baby, tell me where you are!"

Pei Yiwei did not speak, his breathing was heavy, as if trying to endure some kind of great pain.

Wang Zhen heard the sound of a bottle falling on the ground from the other end of the phone, his eyelids jumped, the teaching building was very quiet, and the sound came from the bathroom in front at the same time.

The light in the bathroom has been turned off. There is an emergency light on the wall, but the light is weak. Wang Zhen turns on the flashlight of his mobile phone and takes a step inside: "Pei Yiwei?"

There was a slight sound of shoe soles rubbing against the ground, and Wang Zhen had a strong intuition. He stepped into the bathroom, and there was a vague shadow in the darkness. Pei Yiwei's mobile phone was lying on the tiled floor, and the screen was on.

Wang Zhen's knees were weak, and the next moment, he ran forward and squatted in front of Pei Yiwei, holding his face: "Pei Yiwei, what's wrong with you? Pei Yiwei?"

Pei Yiwei looked at him straight, his eyes startled Wang Zhen - dazed and confused - as if he didn't understand what was going on.

It was already one o'clock in the middle of the night when I brought Pei Yiwei back to the dormitory. Wang Zhen moved into the student apartment after transferring classes. His roommate's door was closed, so he must have fallen asleep.

Wang Zhen wiped Pei Yiwei's face with a towel, Pei Yiwei woke up for a few minutes after saying those unclear words, and then fell asleep leaning against the corner of the bed.

Wang Zhen held the book "Schizophrenia" in his hand, and sat on the floor flipping through it.He has read this book three times and remembers the general content of each chapter.He turned to the symptoms section and began to read, over and over to make sure, until finally he put the book down and buried his face between his knees.

When the sky started to turn bright, he got out of bed, and Pei Yiwei had already woken up, sitting quietly at the desk.

"Pei Yiwei?" Wang Zhen looked at him hesitantly.

Pei Yiwei gave an "um", his voice sounded a bit dull.

Wang Zhen walked up to him and wanted to say something, but he just stretched out his hand and hugged Wang Zhen to his lap.

Wang Zhen said softly, "I'll take you to the hospital later."

Pei Yiwei hugged Wang Zhen very hard, making him a little out of breath.

The door next door rang and opened, and a boy walked out.Wang Zhen wanted to get off Pei Yiwei, but Pei Yiwei didn't let go. The boy looked over and was stunned, then looked away hesitantly, turned and walked into the bathroom.

Wang Zhen took out his mobile phone to ask Ma Zhinan for leave on behalf of Pei Yiwei, hesitated for a moment, called his sister-in-law, and briefly explained what happened last night.

The aunt hurried to the school. Before that, Wang Zhen finally persuaded Pei Yiwei to let go, but Pei Yiwei grabbed his wrist again and followed him for a moment, as if worried that he would leave suddenly.

Fortunately, it was already class time, and there were no students in the dormitory area, so the act of holding hands and walking would not attract attention.The sister-in-law was standing at the gate of the school. She originally wanted to take Pei Yiwei to the hospital alone without affecting Wang Zhen's class. The hospital rushes.

The doctor asked Pei Yiwei to do a brain CT first, and after getting the results, he and the two chatted about Pei Yiwei's recent mental state for a while, thinking that Pei Yiwei suffers from depression, which may turn into schizophrenia in the future. Fortunately, they discovered it early. It was still in the controllable stage, so they prescribed some olanzapine and told them to supervise Pei Yiwei to take it.

Wang Zhen said hesitantly: "Don't you need hospital treatment? His condition is completely different from usual now, I'm worried—"

This is not the first time the doctor has faced this kind of problem. He interrupted him directly, and said helplessly: "Of course, his degree is considered mild. Our hospital is very short of beds, and we have to reserve them for the most serious patients. I want to hospitalize you guys." Go to a specialized psychiatric hospital."

The doctor's attitude made Wang Zhen very uncomfortable. He still wanted to ask, but my sister-in-law patted him on the shoulder and led him to the corridor.

Wang Zhen assisted Pei Yiwei to take the medicine in the blue and white bottle, and accompanied him to rest on the seat for a while. When it was almost noon, he suddenly let go of Wang Zhen's hand, and his eyes became much clearer, as if he realized that he was where.

He looked at the patients in the corridor. Those people moved along the corridor, most of them looked haggard and their bodies were sickly emaciated.When they saw three strangers appearing in the ward, they looked at them with half curiosity and half indifference, and then turned their heads to go about their own business.

After leaving the hospital, they found a restaurant on the side of the road and sat down.The sister-in-law seemed preoccupied, she put down her chopsticks after a few mouthfuls.

"Wei Wei," the aunt said to Pei Yiwei, "do you remember what happened last night?"

Pei Yiwei shook his head slowly when he heard her question.

Wang Zhen asked: "What did you mean when you said 'I killed him' last night? What did you see?"

Pei Yiwei was silent for a long time, and finally said: "I killed my dad because he lied to us and he didn't hand over the compensation for the demolition."

The sister-in-law showed doubts: "What do you mean by handing over the demolition compensation?"

Pei Yiwei said: "We made an agreement with him at the beginning of the year."

Wang Zhen said to my sister-in-law: "Well, he mentioned it to me before."

My sister-in-law shook her head: "It's possible that his father didn't mention such a big thing in front of me. In the past, the compensation for demolition and relocation was delayed for more than a year because his father didn't let go. Why did it suddenly change now?"

Wang Zhen's hand holding the chopsticks froze on the table, and asked Pei Yiwei: "Did you go to see your father on weekends a few months ago?" Unpleasant memories, I didn't take the initiative to ask, thinking about it now, this matter is a bit scary.

Pei Yiwei really shook her head: "I've looked for him, but he's not here."

"He went to other places to avoid debts in March, of course he is not here." At this point, my sister understood a little bit.

Pei Yiwei looked surprised.

After a while, Pei Yi said hoarsely, "I'll go back."

In the taxi, my sister-in-law planned to send Wang Zhen back to school first, but Wang Zhen declined politely. My sister-in-law persuaded her twice, but she didn't say anything anymore. The three of them got off in front of the unit building. Pei Yiwei went upstairs quickly, and took out the key to open the door. , I took out the white paper bag from the closet in the bedroom, and a pure white box fell out of it, with the Apple logo printed on the box.

Pei Yiwei suddenly sat on the sofa as if her strength was relieved.

Seeing Pei Yiwei's pale face, Wang Zhen asked him what's wrong.Pei Yi turned her head slightly and looked at him: "Wang Zhen."

Wang Zhen sat beside him.

"Go back to school," Pei Yiwei said, "don't delay your business."

Wang Zhen froze and said, "I won't return."

He added: "It doesn't bother me, I can read with you."

Pei Yiwei said, "It's different."

Wang Zhen was silent. After a while, he said, "Don't be afraid, I will accompany you."

The anxiety accumulated from last night to now was broken by Pei Yiwei's "go back". Wang Zhen couldn't bear Pei Yiwei to push him away at such a time. His voice was unsteady, and it sounded like he was shaking.

Pei Yiwei said, "I'm thinking about you."

"I'm not going back." Wang Zhen gritted his teeth and said.

Pei Yiwei stopped talking, he got up and went to the living room.

Hu Xiao'e was on her way back, and my sister-in-law went to the kitchen to cook a pot of longan and lotus seed soup to calm Pei Yiwei's mind. After Pei Yiwei finished drinking the soup, she returned to the bedroom and opened the textbooks on the table to start reviewing.Wang Zhen didn't make a sound, Pei Yiwei stared at the words on the book, and after a few minutes, he still stayed on the same side - that's a side effect of the medicine, it can make people hard to concentrate, it's a normal phenomenon, it means the medicine is working .

After Hu Xiao'e arrived, she immediately put away all the sharp instruments at home, and the natural gas was also stopped.Wang Zhen walked out of the bedroom to make room for her and Pei Yiwei. She talked with Pei Yiwei for half an hour. When Wang Zhen heard the words "suspended from school" and "senior year of high school", he didn't dare to listen any more. He turned around and sat on the sofa. In the evening, Pei Yiwei Finally leaving the bedroom, Wang Zhen didn't say anything, just let him out for a while.

As soon as he entered the aisle, Wang Zhen hugged him.

Pei Yiwei patted him on the back calmly.

Wang Zhen's fingers trembled, and he took a few breaths. Pei Yiwei said you should go back. Wang Zhen's eyes were red, and he said goodbye to him and went back to school.

The next day Pei Yiwei went to class as usual, Ma Zhinan asked him about his situation, he only said that he was unwell after catching a cold, Ma Zhinan was very relieved of him, and did not ask any more questions.

The date on Friday evening was canceled due to Pei Yiwei's illness. Hu Xiao'e went home early every Friday, and stayed at home longer than before on weekends. The time when she was most seriously ill, she ran away from home and imagined that the car was a plant. Died in a car accident, she was worried that something similar would happen to Pei Yiwei, so he was not allowed to go out on weekends, and the tutoring of the subject teacher was also rejected.

Pei Yiwei would go to his bedroom at night, and he added two layers of soundproof door stickers to the door, and kissed Pei Yiwei under the blanket covered in sweat.

Pei Yiwei's breathing was heavy, and Wang Zhen's hands loosened a little, so he supported Wang Zhen's knees, hugged him to his lap, and let his knees relax.

There were beads of sweat on the bottom of Wang Zhen's nose. After hugging him for a while, his legs became damp and covered with sweat.

His cell phone vibrated, and the incoming call showed "Wang Xiuming".

Wang Zhen gestured to Pei Yiwei and slid the answer button.

"Hello?" Wang Xiuming said, "Your head teacher just called to ask me why I was absent from the parent-teacher meeting last Sunday. Why didn't you say there was a parent-teacher meeting on Sunday?"

Wang Zhen looked at Pei Yiwei and said, "The teacher will make up."

"When?" Wang Xiuming asked.

Wang Zhen said, "This Sunday evening self-study."

Wang Xiuming pondered for a moment and said, "Okay, take me to find a place then."

"Row."

"Well, then you are busy."

"Okay." Wang Zhen hung up the phone.

"Have you changed your mobile phone?" Pei Yiwei noticed that his model had changed.

Wang Zhen nodded: "The teacher confiscated my mobile phone when I was on stage."

"How did you get it?"

"I was arrested for reading WeChat in class." Wang Zhen said.

Pei Yi pinched his waist slightly: "There are only a few days left and I still can't concentrate."

"It's not that I'm not paying attention," Wang Zhen said, "Because someone is too slow to reply to messages, I'm in a hurry."

Pei Yi smiled: "Listen to the class carefully and earn some points."

Wang Zhen smiled and agreed: "Understood, I listen to Xueba."

During this period of time, Wang Zhen encountered a bottleneck in his professional courses, and instead of advancing, Liang Qing chatted with him a few times, saying that he had too many distracting thoughts recently and was not in a good state.Wang Zhen adjusted for a few days, but still couldn't get back to the state, and each drawing was worse than the last one. Later, he felt tired from the day-to-day practice, and he was very numb to painting, unable to find the joy of creation.

During the day, he can deal with all this calmly, but at night, everything is different.He searched a lot of information related to schizophrenia, and those terrible conclusions were what he thought about most before going to sleep.He didn't tell Pei Yiwei these things, he believed that Pei Yiwei was just sick, no different from a common cold or a fall, but Pei Yiwei's longer and longer silence and occasional incoherent speech when he was with him showed that the illness was not as optimistic as the doctor described .

In late April, the school exam results of the Academy of Fine Arts were announced one after another. The senior sisters of art students shared their results in Moments. Wang Zhen thought of Lu Yu in Beijing. Lu Yu took good care of him during the winter vacation training. He asked how Lu Yu was doing. Lu Yu chatted with him briefly, but not long after, his voice suddenly changed and he began to cry bitterly.

Wang Zhen listened silently, feeling helpless that he couldn't help, slid on the ground and lowered his head.