out of control relationship

Qin Shuobei didn't come back.

Suddenly realizing this, Qin Yuan even found it inconceivable. Yesterday he specifically said on the phone that the teacher might take them out for dinner after returning, and it would be no later than nine o'clock at the latest.I said it again before hanging up the phone.

Considering that it is normal for a group of fifteen or sixteen-year-old children to get together and forget the time because of their playfulness, Qin Yuan waited for a while with suspicion.

ten o'clock.

And the abstract concept of time, converted into "anxiety" with real sense, may be able to explain Qin Yuan's current mood.He said to himself five times, "Wait a little longer," and then looked up at his watch for the sixth time. It was a quarter past ten.

Still didn't come back.

He was starting to feel that something was wrong.

With Qin Shuobei's behavior style, he seldom backtracks on his promises, and promises will be fulfilled even if they are trivial. He is never late for the appointment with others, and he obeys the rules almost rigidly. The child who came out of the night and didn't return home.

Time waits for no one, Qin Yuan forced himself to calm down.He found the phone number left by the teacher on the day of his home visit, and called the teacher without saying a word.

But there is a dry electronic tone on the other side of the microphone, and the number you dialed cannot be connected temporarily.

He panicked all of a sudden.

If it was said that he was able to analyze the situation in an orderly manner just now, and all his conjectures were overturned one by one, Qin Yuan was completely caught in a nascent fear.

If even the teacher lost contact... unless there was an accident on the road.

--problem occurs.

The heat of the night in August has not subsided, but the moment this idea was born, it made him shiver firmly.

Qin Yuan is not a person who is used to acting emotionally, but when a certain emotion affects and erodes the part of reason that can keep him calm, he needs to take concrete actions to fight against the panic.He had to do something.

So after a few slow and depressing deep breaths, he ran out the door with his key, mobile phone and flashlight.

In fact, he didn't even know where to look for it.

When he was a child, Qin Shuobei never got lost like other children. Because he was too introverted and had an animal-like instinctive resistance to the outside world, there would always be a nervous tension in the crowd. Only Qin Yuan could calm him down like those sedatives. calm down.

So he wished he could be inseparable from him and follow him wherever he went, but people have to grow up after all, and it took several years to correct this habit, although looking at it now, it seems that there is no difference.

He is still very clingy to him, tolerates his temper unconditionally, and treats him as the closest person.

That turned out to be the only thing that hasn't changed in ten years.

Qin Yuan stopped at an intersection and waited for a traffic light. His running speed was too abrupt compared to those walking. Someone was watching him. He lowered his head and shook his sweat-stained hair on his forehead.

The phone seems to be broken, there is no good news and no bad news.

Even if there is an accident, there will be movement.

He covered his face with both hands, bent down and inhaled vigorously, until his chest trembled, but he didn't want passers-by to see it, so when the green light came on, he stood up and continued running.

All the main traffic roads around here have been found back and forth. The small roads and street lights they often walk to and from school have been in disrepair for a long time. Because he is night-blind and has a little resistance to the dark, he still bites the bullet and walks through it with a flashlight. nothing.

He thought of calling the police, but the case of missing persons cannot be filed within four hours, and the most accident-prone time is often within these four hours.

Worst outcome...

For the first time, he felt afraid of something, so afraid that he didn't even dare to think about it.

I dare not go home.

The sweat that ran out of his body was cooled by the wind and stuck to his body, and the tight clothes bound his hands and feet, making it difficult for him to walk.

During the time he walked home, he made plans, including that he might not be able to sleep this night, waiting for someone to contact him at any time, what preparations should he make if he is injured, who should be held accountable if he goes missing, and if he runs away from home. How to register personal information and missing person notices.

He walked into the corridor and found that the lights on the second floor were on.

Maybe it was because he thought too much just now, which made him unable to react when he looked up.

Standing in front of the house was the person he had been looking for, wearing the same clothes as when he left, with a big bag full of dust on his shoulders, messy black hair piled on top of his head, looking down from the top of the stairs with tired and familiar eyes, he Call him like always, bro...

The following words were blocked in Qin Yuan's throat by the expression on Qin Yuan's face.

Qin Shuobei will never forget that moment until many years later, even though he was so tired that he would fall asleep in a second, he walked for three hours hungry, and when he got home, he found that the door was closed, and the person who had been waiting for him for a long time was not Instead of welcoming him, she rushed up the stairs and punched him in the face——

He looked at Qin Yuan's red eye circles, and caught the punch with his palm impartially. In fact, he was far better at punching than Qin Yuan imagined, but he just liked being a good boy in front of his brother.

In fact, there were too many things hidden in his eyes, but Qin Yuan never looked directly at them.

In fact, he felt that Qin Yuan was about to collapse, but he was not willing to expose it.

In fact, he was a bit lucky, but he needed an explanation, and I don't know if Qin Yuan would listen.

In fact, he likes it so much.

At this time, it is superfluous to say anything.

He held Qin Yuan's clenched hand instead, leaned forward, and kissed his lips.

The sudden softness and warmth caused Qin Yuan to step back and almost fell down the stairs, but Qin Shuobei pulled him back and leaned against the door.

Because no one made a sound, the lights in the corridor went out immediately.It was as if the TV that was playing was turned off by someone, and the darkness savagely covered everything in front of him. He couldn't see anything, only the other person's breath was still touching his lips; he wanted to struggle subconsciously, But being hugged tighter and tighter.

"Qin Yuan."

He could feel Qin Shuobei's hand, the finger bones were clear and slender, the boy's unique rough palm rubbed the protruding blood vessels on the back of his hand, embedded between his fingers, and clasped his hand.

"I'm here, Qin Yuan."

He closed his eyes.

"I'm here."

That night Qin Shuobei never took the opportunity to speak to Qin Yuan again.

He couldn't find so many reasons as a last resort, but this matter has gone too far, and it is difficult to take countermeasures in the current situation of the two of them, so they can only avoid direct communication in embarrassment.

But he did what he wanted to do, even if it took several times more time and energy to make up for the consequences, he was willing.

Just as Qin Yuan thought, they did have an accident on the way back.

Before getting on the expressway, there was a difficult muddy road. When we went, the driver joked with the children that he hoped it would not be a rainy day. If the car stalled, we would have to go on a long march.

Later, everyone wondered whether this simple and strong county driver had some kind of supernatural prophecy ability, turning such terrible fantasies into reality.

As soon as they got off the highway, their car broke down.There is no room for people to place hope, and it is so bad that no amount of tossing will help.

The female teacher leading the team silently took out the sneakers from the bag and replaced the high-heeled ones. Looking at the white rain in the sky, she said, students, if you still want to go home today, you can go on the Long March.

So Qin Shuobei and the others walked for several miles before returning to the urban area. The soles of their feet were like red-hot iron plates. The teacher was very upset and called the parents of the students one by one to apologize. Qin Shuobei was one of the uninformed students.

And he didn't care much about this matter itself, he just thought that Qin Yuan was going to blame him.

So he declined the teacher's proposal to compensate them for a dinner, and hurried home hungry, only to find that Qin Yuan was not there; from downstairs, he could see that the room was lit, but no matter how hard he knocked on the door, no one came. In response, it can almost be speculated that he ran out in an extremely hasty situation, and he didn't even have time to turn off the lights.

He leaned against the door, the soles of his feet were still hot and painful, but his heart seemed to be filled with sour rainwater, the tenderness that had faded so long ago flowed around, disintegrating the strength he was once proud of, making him want to cry.

It was Qin Yuan who blushed first.

At that moment, he really saw that the longing and waiting that he thought would disappear forever, blossomed in front of his eyes.

Qin Shuobei was sitting at the table eating, the clock passed eleven o'clock, the neighbor with a child across the way had already gone to bed, and the night was quiet.

Ever since Qin Yuan put a glass of dried water on the table, he ignored him and hid in his room like the plague.Qin Shuobei padded his stomach a little, fearing that it would put a burden on his stomach at night, so drinking that glass of water would be the end of it.

Then he dragged his lead-filled legs and knocked on the door of Qin Yuan's room.

No one cares.

"elder brother."

He had expected this reaction a long time ago, so he just told the ins and outs of the matter on the door to help Qin Yuan get rid of the palpitations caused by this false alarm as soon as possible.

"That's it." He added at the end, "Brother, I'm sorry."

"make you worry."

He pressed his forehead against the door, perhaps because he was tired, or perhaps because he wanted to hear Qin Yuan's response, even if Qin Yuan didn't say anything, it seemed that doing so would bring him closer.

"If you want to hear anything," he said, "you can ask me anytime."

He rarely talked so much at once, his mouth was dry, and he was sleepy, but it wasn't just because of this.

"Go to sleep today, good night."

The important thing is that they still have tomorrow.