restless youth syndrome

Feel free to let them go.

"Chen'er, let's go home, shall we?"

I felt like my stomach was rolling. I, an ordinary citizen like me, couldn't face the scene just now. I even felt that if I were to watch it again, I would vomit on the spot.

"What's the rush, we haven't finished our accounts yet."

Zhang Zechen's embrace instantly made me feel cold. I looked up and found that he was looking at me, his eyes still uncertain.

"What... accounts?"

He smiled and pushed me onto the bed, I thought he was going to get me in this place, but I was wrong, although he was groping on my legs, it wasn't sex.

"Lele, look." He unbuttoned the cuff button of his left hand, and there was a very hideous suture mark on his wrist. The wound should be very deep, and it seemed that the stitches had just been removed not long ago.

I felt distressed, but he smiled.

"There are too many people who wanted to kill me and tried their best, but they all ended in failure. But you succeeded. If it wasn't for Ah Liu, I would have died."

He stroked the scar, and on his right hand, another scar from before loomed.How did the Word remain?

I had no time to think about other things. Apart from distress, I was afraid of seeing him take out the gun again.

"Lele, I'm afraid of losing you. If I let you run around again, I'll die of pain." He pressed that thing against one of my knees, "So, since I'm willing to die for you For the sake of it, you should do something for me too."

The sound woke up the tired sleeping child again, and at the same time made my brain go blank for a moment.

The bone-piercing pain knocked me out of consciousness for a split second, and I thought I was going to pass out from the pain, only to be brought back to reality by another pain, a shot in my other knee.

Zhang Zechen whispered something in my ear with a gentle tone.

I can't hear anything, I can't see anything, I don't want to hear anything, I don't want to see anything.

I suddenly hated this person, this person named Zhang Zechen.

God, what have I done wrong to make me suffer like this?

Is it because I am Qi Le?Just because I am Qi Le, do I have to suffer this crime?

why me?Why am I Qi Le?

Do I want to?I can't choose!Is it my fault that I was born? !

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts!

I obviously love you so much, why do you treat me like this?Why can't you treat me as gently as you treat Bai Yushi?Treat me with the love of a normal person?

Zhang Zechen, you will regret it, because I love you more than Bai Yushi.

I am not great, but I will not betray you.

Let me die, I don't want to live anymore.

God, let me die, or go to hell, I don't want to see Zhang Zechen again, just seeing him, my heart is tortured.

Why, I can't bear Bai Yushi's love.

I also want to be with you, like a normal couple.

Why, I'm Qi Le? ?

No.19 Patient Personality Death

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I always remember those two months, it is unforgettable for me, but I always want to treat it as a blank two months.

That was Zhang Zechen's first and cruelest abuse of me.

It was not long after we met, when I proposed to leave, he suddenly became angry for no reason.

I did find it weird at first, but I didn't have a chance to think. After being injected with drugs, my consciousness was completely out of my control.

Remember what I said, he cut my body shallowly with a knife, and stirred in the wound, my nerves were extremely clear, and I couldn't make a sound.Not long after that, Pell came to sew up my wound, and after that, I didn't make any further descriptions, and the time jumped to two months later, and I followed Zhang Zechen willingly.

This doesn't seem to make sense.

If a person's will can be changed by such a small knife, then I believe there will be many more lunatics in the world.

It is impossible to change the will so easily, because the torture I have suffered is not limited to this.

What I want to talk about now is the two months that were vacated.

The last person I saw was Per, who came to stitch me up, and the medicine wore off, and I fell asleep immediately.

After waking up, I opened my eyes, but I still couldn't see anything.Out of my impression of Zhang Zechen, I thought he had blinded me, but in fact my eyes were covered with a cloth.It took me a long time to adapt—it was a long time for me at that time. Thinking about it now, it should have been more than ten minutes. I realized that there was someone in front of me. It was Zhang Zechen. I didn’t need to listen or look. The unique sandalwood And the smell of Marlboro is enough to conclude.

With the damp smell and the never-ending light, this should be the basement.I could foresee what terrible things would happen next, so I struggled desperately, but I couldn't break free, and I couldn't move, and the wound on my body was still aching.

"Lele, my Lele."

"My dear Lele, I love you so much, but you want to run away."

"I will not let you go, because you are mine."

"Lele, Lele, Lele..."

"I want to be nice to you from the bottom of my heart, why don't you accept it?"

"You are a bad boy, Lele is a bad boy, and bad boys will be punished."

"You clearly know that I love more than your flesh/body."

"Because you are Qi Le, I want to give you my best."

"Sometimes I feel that we are lovers who have been in love for decades."

"You know Lele, because you are Qi Le, so I love you."

"They said I was crazy, but I thought I was sober. If I don't fight for what I want, it will be taken away by others."

"Is it money you want? Bu Lele, I know, you long for someone to love/love you."

"I love you, I love you Lele, because you are Qi Le."

"You know, I've loved others before, but I don't think that's called love, it's just the emotional plunder of both parties. Isn't real love like us?"

"You will fall in love with/me, because you are my Lele, the Lele I love."

"Lele, Qi Le..."

Can you imagine someone with such words in their mouth injecting me with drugs?Although these two or three times will not lead me to a serious drug/addiction.He thought about using this to keep me on a leash, and I think he would have kept doing it if I hadn't become delirious after the injection.

I lost my voice for a whole month, I was completely paralyzed for weeks, I suffered from drug/addiction, I was branded like an animal and it still doesn't go away, I was severely dehydrated, Overdraft, excessive blood loss, and fainted countless times, I was still forced to have sex/intercourse without joy/sensation, and I was about to collapse in the repeated love words of people next to my ears.

At first I knew he wouldn't really kill me, but then I was afraid that even if I didn't die, I would have a mental breakdown.

But I didn't, and after two scar repair operations, I appeared in front of everyone intact.

At that time, I might have been a little possessed, otherwise how could I develop feelings for the perpetrator after enduring such abuse.

But no matter what the reason is, no one can deny that I have feelings called love for Zhang Zechen.

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The pain in my knee made me nearly faint, and I'm sure that even if it could be cured, the legs would never be able to move like normal people.

I looked at Zhang Zechen with wide eyes, never expecting him to do such a thing.

Why can he be so cruel?Do you not hesitate even to me?

I didn't hear a word of what he said in my ear afterwards, and all my energy was spent on the pain in my leg at this time, and the rest was used to hate this person.

I felt something hot on my face, sliding down my face and onto my neck.

"Don't cry, Lele." Zhang Zechen gently wiped the tears on my face.

"Zhang Zechen, how could you treat me like this? How could you...?"

"It won't hurt right away, this is the last time, so you will never leave me again."

"Aren't those two months enough? I obviously don't want to leave you, but you are with someone else!"

"I don't love him, Lele, I give you all my love."

He whispered softly in my ear, and kissed me lightly on the neck.

"You're crazy, Zhang Zechen, you're crazy..."

I bit my lower lip and closed my eyes.

My heart beat suddenly very fast, but I was very tired, the pain made my consciousness blurred, but my whole body was shaking again, I wanted to speak, but my throat was blocked by something.

——Go to sleep Qi Le, go to sleep.When you wake up, you are not you anymore.

There seemed to be a voice saying so, I tried my best to open my eyes, but I only saw Zhang Zechen alone.

—Don't listen, don't think, don't talk, go to sleep.When you wake up, you are not you anymore.

That voice seemed to come from the depths of my mind, never heard before but very familiar, it seemed to be my own voice.

- You are very tired, now you can rest.Go to sleep and don't worry about anything.When you wake up, you are not you anymore.

Is it really possible to fall asleep without worrying about anything?Will everything go back to normal after waking up?If so, let me go to sleep and end it all in the simplest way.

——Don’t worry about anything, just sleep peacefully.When you wake up, you are not you anymore.

——Let a stronger Qi Le live instead of you.

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