[Attack on Titan] The Gate of Hakogawa

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"...Even if you say so, it sounds unreasonable. Since I knew about the existence of this animation, why did it change because of your transfer?" Levi thought seriously about Alan The story described, although all this sounds absurd, after all, everything that is as vivid as what I have experienced is just an animation, but from the perspective of what Allen said, everything makes sense and can be explained Why did I imagine the world of giants for no reason, but the most critical point was vaguely taken over by Allen, which was the real reason for his memory impairment.

Allen was silent for a while. He straightened his leaning body, put his elbows on his thighs, and clasped his overlapping palms under his chin. His slightly curved back made him look a little depressed, but his eyes were He stared gloomyly straight ahead.

"Actually, the original work of this animation is a relative of mine, but this story is not original by him. The provider of the story...is me. I started dreaming about everything about the world of giants when I was about five years old. The story Naturally, the perspective of the boy is Alan. Sometimes I experience everything in the dream through his eyes, and sometimes I am God’s perspective from outside, seeing things other than the world that the boy is looking at. Landscape, to be honest, I don’t know if this dream was influenced by me, or if there is some connection between the two worlds.”

"Almin and Mikasa, I think you know them. They are my childhood playmates and childhood sweethearts in reality, but they also play the same role in the dream, even the names are exactly the same. I didn't know I thought that the dream had no reason at all, and besides the two of them, no one I knew appeared in the dream, but this situation was completely overturned after I transferred to your school."

"Those familiar characters in the dream all appeared in reality overnight. The 104th trainee was my classmate, Captain Erwin became the dean of studies, and Captain Han Ji was a doctor from a nearby hospital. And you, the commander of the Survey Corps, are my class instructor."

"You know how shocked I was when I saw you for the first time. In the real world, we are strangers who have never spoken to each other, but in my recurring dreams, we are already able to communicate with each other. The relationship between support and entrusting your back is really complicated. We don't know each other at all, which is also true, but I feel that I have known you for many years. I should not regard you as him, but I still subconsciously I want to project my feelings for him on you, want to get closer to you, want to know you, want to touch you, want to become a special existence in your heart again, not only in dreams but in reality.”

"Actually, I should have told you these words a long time ago. I have been thinking, if you had known about my dream from the beginning, maybe you wouldn't have struggled alone and ended up in a dead end."

"But I don't want you to be aware of my anxiety, and I don't want you to misunderstand who you are as a substitute. In fact, after I really get along with you, I know that you are not the captain of my dream. Although you have similar But maybe because of the different birth and living environment, there is actually a big gap between you and that soldier commander, and I gradually stopped mistaking you for him, you are completely different Compared with the illusory captain who only appeared in dreams, I prefer not to be burdened with the past. I worry about the little devil in the class every day. Sometimes I get angry, but most of the time I work hard for the students. You are gentle and approachable."

Allen showed a dreamy smile as if recalling some sweet memory, and even his voice unconsciously softened a lot, as if the cherished memories would be easily broken if they were not handled carefully.

"I think I was very lucky. You accepted my confession on the day I graduated. Later, I went to university. Although I couldn't be with you all the time, I was still very happy in such days. I thought We will go on like this forever, but from a certain day I found that your mental condition gradually deteriorated, the sleep time became abnormally long, and you began to have the same dream repeatedly, sometimes even in a trance You blurt out things about the world of giants, and you spend more and more time in a daze. Occasionally, when you just wake up, you mistakenly extend the world view in your dream to reality. Although you will wake up soon, as time goes by , and even the time you need to be awake becomes longer and longer, until one day, you wake up and don’t remember the reality anymore.”

"From that day on, the world of giants has replaced reality, and we around you are also regarded by you as characters in the world of giants. You have completely left reality behind."

The overwhelming information and emotions made Levi unable to breathe. Although Allen only narrated lightly, how could those plain words truly reflect Allen's emotions when facing all this? Just imagine if he In my own words, can I do better than the youth?

Levi suddenly understood why the young man in front of him was surrounded by a sad atmosphere all the time.

Yes, when his own existence was denied, when he was forced to play an illusory role, how sad and desperate he must be.

"Didn't you try to do something?" Levi couldn't help asking.

However, Allen nodded, his soft face softened instantly, and his tone became cold.

"That's the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life." The young man said in a low and terrifying voice, his eyes were quietly burning with anger against himself, and the hands that were only lightly clasped together unconsciously Hold tight.

"I directly denied your worldview, shattered your values, and told you that the world of giants does not exist. It is your delusion and dream. You don't believe it, so... I will take you out of the door, and I will let you see the world The real look."

"I originally thought that as long as you saw this world with your own eyes, you would walk out of the shadow of the dream, but I was wrong. Instead of stepping out, you chose... Self-denial, you are crazy, to be precise Your mind is broken."

"Later, Miss Hanji and Mr. Erwin came to knock you out and calm your spirit temporarily. You almost...will die. When you woke up again, I didn't dare to do anything. It doesn't matter if I play anyone if it means losing you."

"But I don't think I don't care as much as I imagined." The young man laughed at himself, "I've always held on to the slightest hope of bringing you back, so when Miss Han Ji told me about this plan, I didn't care about it." I hesitated to agree, but this is indeed the last time, I promised myself that if I don’t succeed this time, I will play Ellen Yeager, that giant boy forever.”

"...So, the cooperation between the castle, the uniform, and Erwin's guys is what you call a plan? Is it acting?"

Facing Levi's unsteady questioning tone, Allen hesitated for a moment and still nodded honestly.

"I can roughly infer the time period you are in in the dream world in cooperation with your daily life, otherwise I would not be able to respond to the corresponding dialogue. Your dreams are always reincarnated over and over again, the starting point and the ending point It's not always the same, but only this old castle representing the former site of the Survey Corps and your first encounter with Allen will appear in every reincarnation."

"We took this method to prevent you from being directly stimulated."

"This plan is inspired by a psychotherapy method called Hakoniwa Therapy. In Hakoniwa Therapy, the doctor will give the patient a sand table and the sand objects or toys placed in the sand table. The configuration of the patient can intuitively perceive the inner world of the other party, and guide the communication between the conscious and unconscious deep in the patient's heart, thereby stimulating the development and perfection of personality."

"The plan we use is the reverse application of Hakoniwa therapy. We put you in a world you are familiar with, but deliberately create a sense of discord and disharmony in this world that you will notice. In this place, to guide yourself to doubt the world, and when the deep-rooted concept is shaken, that is our opportunity, and it is the only opportunity that can make you accept the truth."

Allen's explanation completely solved Levi's doubts about the various things he encountered before. Those flaws were deliberately created to let him realize, doubt, and seek the truth.

The smell of chemicals wafting from the castle was the result of trying to restore the building to fit the dream world.

Brand new uniforms were made especially for this show.

The missing three-dimensional mobile device is because such a weapon does not exist in this world.

A false lie is an intentional line.

In the end, deliberately obliterating Allen's existence was just to make him obsessed with seeking the truth.

All, one ring within one ring, are all designed.

It's really... It's hard to be angry, it's better to say how much effort and time it takes to complete all this, maybe even money, just to make him wake up, it's impossible not to be moved.

Although there is still not much sense of reality, even after knowing everything, the so-called truth.

Allen has revealed everything, without a trace of hiding.

He tilted his head to look at Levi, his eyes were full of tenderness and pity, and a trace of love was entangled in the eyes full of emotion. Bathed in such eyes, Levi could feel the kind of preparedness. To be cherished and cherished.

However, although he could feel Alan's affection, he didn't know whether his feelings for Alan were just influenced by dreams as Alan said, or whether they really came from the youth in front of him.

There should be expectations in the eyes of the other party. After all, it took so much effort to get to this point, but Levi did not see similar emotions in the eyes of the young man. He guessed that it must not be without it, but the depression was too deep, too deep, So deep that the young man himself has forgotten how to express it.

Why do you want to do this?In fact, just leave him alone, or send him to a mental hospital. What kind of persistence can make a person cooperate to such an extent at all costs. Is this guy an idiot?

This is very similar to the Allen he knows, a character that sticks to the end, never turns back until he hits the south wall.

Now, he can accept the fact that the Alan in front of him and the Alan in his dream are two people, but is this true?After all, as Allen said, his dream started after he met Allen, and the person who first cultivated his relationship with him, and the person who left his impression after his first contact were all Allen in reality.

So maybe, the Allen in the dream world is actually the projection of the real Allen in the giant world. After all, they may be the same person from the root.