[Attack on Titan] The Gate of Hakogawa

? "In my last dream, Alan died, but life still has to go on. I kept him in my heart and moved on, but I think at that time I didn't have many memories of the world. "So you freed me from that world.

Because if that world continues to run, he will only be a walking dead.

Allen reached out to cover Levi's left hand on his knee, the soft palm tightened slightly, and the warm heat penetrated the skin and flowed into the apex of their hearts.

The young man turned his head slightly, and the expression on his face was obscured by the sideburns on his forehead, making it hard to see clearly.

"Sometimes I think, what is going on in the world of giants? There are so many people in this world who have watched that animation, but among the people I know, only you and I are doing it repeatedly. Regarding the dream in that world, other people also appeared in the dream but didn’t know about it, so I guess, maybe this is not my fantasy, but a memory belonging to the previous life or the parallel world.”

Allen paused, and his peaceful tone suddenly became low.

"On the one hand, I am grateful for this memory, which made me connect with you, but on the other hand, I hate it so much. In that dream that keeps repeating, as Alan's perspective, I just hold regret But I faced it with a satisfied attitude. After all, before I died, I guarded the city wall and protected you. However, you who witnessed Alan’s death with your own eyes, can you really let it go so easily? Every time you dream, you go deeper into that world One point, and experiencing those tragedies over and over again will only make you more attached to the change of the ending, which is why I think it is a memory, because it is not like a dream that will be affected by the consciousness of the person It is more like an established history that is only presented in the form of a dream, and what kind of subjective mentality we have as bystanders will not cause it to change in the slightest."

"I think the reason why you keep wandering in the dream is because you subconsciously want to reverse the ending no matter what, but you can only experience the same plot over and over again, and the overly strong will and mood make you If you can’t get out of that circle, that’s probably the beginning of the chaos.”

Allen tightened his hands suddenly, the oppressive force even Levi felt a little pain, but Allen didn't notice and just kept talking.

"I have always felt deeply guilty about this, why didn't I notice it at the beginning, you clearly shared your dreams, but I felt very happy like a fool, thinking that I was valued, Didn't know you were entangled with it."

"If I knew that your life would be messed up because of meeting me, I would have avoided it from the beginning. You have no obligation to inherit this memory. Such a sad ending It should be buried quietly, because now you have nothing to do with the captain in the giant world."

Alan tilted his head to look at Levi and smiled faintly, his face was calm as if he didn't care, but his hand that held Levi tightly betrayed his mood.

Looking at Allen like this, Levi suddenly made a move that he would never do normally. He put his five fingers into the gap between Allen's palms and clasped them behind his back, and pulled that hand against the on his own heart.

"Alan, do you know what I think?"

Levi's voice was low but steady.

With the back of his hand pressed against the soft skin, Allen could feel a slight vibration from the opponent's chest, and the warm resonance gradually calmed his heart.

Allen finally gave up his forced smile and flattened the corners of his raised lips until those rounded outlines were replaced by stiffness. His expressionless face contained a hint of sadness, solemn as if planning for the worst, but those green eyes But the pupils could not help showing a little bit of expectation and hope.

Levi stretched out his other hand and lightly tapped on Allen's chest, his crow-gray eyes stared at him firmly.

"Since I have regretted countless times in my dream, how can I let it happen again in reality? It is because I care about you that I want to change the doomed ending. If you are meaningless to me If so, then whether we know each other or not, this dream will have no effect on me."

"Just because that person is you, do you understand?" Levi pressed his index finger heavily on Allen's chest "What I want to change is not the ending, but I know that this is definitely not the real ending, I don't Accept this ending."

Levi said word by word, obviously a willful and self-sufficient speech, but it made Alan feel incredible peace of mind. The heart that was originally ups and downs in the air, ready to face the most severe sentence, fell safely in an instant.

He blinked in a daze, then as if he had understood some mystery, he showed a small smile, and said softly but definitely.

"Then can I think so? Because in that world, there are regrets that cannot be let go, and we want to achieve it no matter what. In order not to miss each other again, the gods let us in this world meet, and only let us two Sharing this memory that was impossible to know."

"That's not a bad idea." Levi slightly raised the corners of his mouth, the painful parting was just to meet you again in reality, so death seemed to become fearless.

Very innocent words, but he didn't hate it.

"Alan, I still don't remember what happened in reality. I may still be unable to separate myself from the influence of the dream for a long time. Although I can understand and accept what you said, I still can't remember it. If I don’t feel real, I may still be lost, but I will work hard, try to let myself know the world again, try to remember the past memories, although I am very embarrassed, but you will accompany me, right?”

Levi clasped Alan's palms tightly, and the warm energy stayed in the opposite palms, just like their hearts confessing to each other.

Both Levi's words and his actions surprised Allen. The young man suppressed the surging emotions in his chest, and asked repeatedly as if confirming, "Is it really okay? If you still want to stay in this world, it's okay." Relationship, no matter where you go, I will be by your side."

However, Alan's words did not know which nerve touched Levi's. Levi suddenly threw off Alan's hand and stood up. He looked down at Alan's eyes impatiently and mockingly "What are you talking about, you, you obviously started it, but you still want to regret it now, tell me where the exit is, if you want to stay, you can stay, I'm already planning to leave."

Allen froze for a moment, before his mind could react, his body responded first. He raised his finger and pointed to the white door facing the bed.

Then he smiled knowingly, the kind of really relaxed and wanton smile, he pushed his hands back and used the reaction force to turn over and stand up, he passed Levi and approached the door, and he turned slightly sideways Lai stopped in front of the door, and he stretched out his left hand, palm up, as an invitation gesture to Levi.

The green pupils of the youth are full of smiles.

"This is the door of Little Garden, Levi, do you want to go out with me?"

"Ah, of course." Levi stepped forward and took Alan's hand without hesitation.

The young man took out a necklace from his arms, he turned around and carefully placed the necklace in Levi's hand.

The hard metal object on the palm of his hand still had body heat, and the familiar outline shining with copper luster made Levi feel like a dream.

Unexpectedly, after going around, the key returned to him again.

Levi closed his palms, looked up at Alan, but saw complete trust in the other's pupils.

I won't let you down anymore.

Levi didn't hesitate anymore, he pointed the key at the lock, and with the flip of his wrist, there was a crisp sound of gears loosening.

Under his gaze, the door slowly opened, dazzling white light penetrated into the room from the gradually widening gap, and the dark shadows were driven away step by step until the light enveloped the whole room.

In the hazy halo, the two looked at each other and smiled at the same time.

What kind of world would it be on the other side of the light?The thought flashed through Levi's mind, but the warmth from the clasped hands soothed his worries.

There is nothing to worry about, because the person next to you has already promised, will always be together, and will never miss it again.

Levi tilted his head to look at the room behind him, curls of dust were floating in the air, they slowly sank under the sunlight, and the scene in the pure white space remained the same, but he knew that only he could see, one by one The figure that emerged, with wings symbolizing freedom embroidered on their hearts, those people either smiled or waved at him encouragingly, Levi closed his eyes, and nodded to them subtly.

Thank you, and then, farewell.

After completing the final salutation, Levi turned his head without hesitation. He stared straight ahead and stepped out of the door. He clasped hands with Alan, and the two figures with their backs to the door walked closer and closer. It was so far away that it was completely engulfed by the light, and disappeared beyond the door.

The door of Little Garden closed slowly, but this time, no one was left behind.

-Finish-

postscript

?I'm so touched. The novel that lasted two years is finally finished. In fact, this novel is also my first finished novel. It's really not easy.

From the time I started taking TOEFL tutoring two years ago, until I actually came to the United States and lasted for a year, I stopped writing in the middle, until I suddenly had the idea of ​​filling this hole for a special reason, and I didn’t It's pretty incredible to think that the first finished novel was written in America.

This article was originally just a very simple brain hole, inspired by a fan manga I saw on Tieba. After I had a little idea, it was just a short article, but the procrastination syndrome and perfectionism I have always had Once again, not only did every novel become a long story, but this rare short story was also lengthened into a medium-length novel by me, and the originally simple story became much more complicated.

In fact, I originally only wanted to describe Alan who was a bit dark and sick. The structure of the whole story was designed to satisfy this impulse, but once I started, I couldn’t stop, and the characters involved became more and more More and more, in the end, just give up on yourself and write seriously.

At the beginning of this story, I borrowed the concept of Truman’s world, and then decided on this title because of the wrong concept of Hakoniwa Healing, but after checking the information, I found out, hey, Hakoniwa Healing seems not what I imagined Well, it doesn't matter, it can be explained according to the story~

I do not deny at all that many descriptions in the story are deliberately misleading readers. Although this is not a mystery novel, I still like to add elements of suspense habitually, hoping that readers will continue to be confused about what is going on. ?Is the captain crazy or something like that XD

I had a lot of fun myself, but the last few chapters were really typed out in a super rush state, and the final ending chapter stayed up until five o'clock to finish, and I almost passed out, so I hope I won't read it I got up too fast, although Alan was almost talking behind me, but I still tried my best to describe the mood of the two of them!

If you read it smoothly, you should be able to notice if you don’t skip chapters. I actually put the extra chapter in that place on purpose, and it’s more suitable to say that the extra chapter is actually a prequel, but I can’t disclose it at that time. .

Because the story starts from the perspective of the captain, many things may not be explained clearly or there are still doubts, or even inconsistent with the facts. Take the extra episode as an example. In the extra episode, you can see that Levi had already started to do about it at that time. It was a dream of the world of giants, and even Allen had appeared in the dream. At that time, Levi hadn't known Allen in reality, but even after he knew Allen later, he actually didn't talk to Allen very clearly. After this dream, my personal interpretation is that Levi is not a person who will take this kind of thing as a topic, and Allen also has his own concerns, so neither of them talked about this dream openly, so there are actually many Misunderstood, for example, Allen thought that Levi began to dream about the world of giants after he knew him, which caused Levi, who lost his memory of reality, to accept Allen's statement about the dream, because it was Allen's own Guess, and since Levi already forgot, let Eren say whatever he wants (laughs)

In fact, what I want to explain is that the real Levi is actually the same as Alan. It is because of that dream that he cares about each other, and then they become lovers. Of course, they are very mature people. When they really know each other Afterwards, the other party will not be regarded as the person in the dream, so this dream is an opportunity to link the two people who have nothing to do with each other. As Allen said in the story, maybe it is the mercy of God, so that they can Continuing with the frontier, as for whether this frontier is a previous life or a parallel world, I have not specifically set it, but there is indeed such a period of history somewhere in this world, and because God (readers and the author) does not want the ending to be forever Stop at such a sad place, let the fate of the two people intersect again and continue, and this time, it will definitely be a happy ending.

In addition, one thing I want to mention is that in the end, Levi was able to wake up and accept the truth in large part because he saw Alan in his last dream, yes, it was Alan in the lake , this Allen belongs to the previous life or the parallel world, he took the initiative to intervene in Levi's dream, in fact, in the reincarnation of countless dreams, only this last time, Levi found the secret of going to the basement under the pillow. The key, and then I was able to enter the basement and finally saw Alan, only this last reincarnation was special, it was Alan who didn't want to make Levi suffer anymore, so he put the key under the pillow, otherwise, from his standpoint Of course, he hopes that Levi can stay in the dream forever, after all, only when Levi is in the dream can he meet him, or just look at him, but in the end, as he said, he let Levi go , because he would rather never see Levi again than to let Levi go on in such pain, he wants Levi to be happy, and he knows that it is impossible for him who no longer exists.

In fact, this article has a lot of settings like the above, but it is impossible to explain it in the main text. After all, this is a story unfolded from the perspective of Levi. He will not write things he does not know, so I just I can explain it to you in the form of the following text~

In the real world, there are also many settings that could not be written in the end. For example, Petra and others are former students of the captain, and they have already started working. They came here to help the captain to participate in the plan, and then this plan It is a clinical experiment conducted by Han Ji's hospital in cooperation with the university. The purpose is to study the treatment of memory impairment. It will be implemented on him because the commander meets the symptoms. I rented a studio and built half of the castle, so the rain outside the window, the dark clouds, the scenery, etc., are all artificially produced, and they are special effects.

Then both Petra and Jean are wearing headphones to receive instructions from Allen and Erwin at any time. Although they have fixed lines, if Levi's reaction exceeds expectations, Allen will judge what to do Respond and tell them through the headset, of course there are monitors installed everywhere in the castle, so they can grasp Levi's situation in time, it would be very nervous to confront Levi, because Levi's reaction is a bit out of line It is expected that Ren will ask the monitor for help~

The end of the story stopped when the captain walked out of the door. As for the later stories, such as how to recover and restore memory, there is still a long way to go, but I think there must be no problem, because Ai Lun will always be with him, so let’s stop here for now. Thank you very much for your patience in reading and supporting. If there is anything you don’t understand, you are welcome to ask questions. I hope there will be a chance to meet~