You take fleeting years for the rest of my life

?The light rain on Tianjie is as moist as crisp, and the grass looks far away but there is nothing near it.Looking at the pattering spring rain outside the window, Lin Yan sighed slightly.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter go back and forth, just like human life. Spring is like infancy, summer is like adolescence, autumn is like middle age, and winter is a symbol of old age.Some people are lucky to spend their old age peacefully, while some people bid farewell to this world halfway.

We never know how long our life is, just like we never can decide our origin, but each of us will try our best to make our life last longer.We carefully protect ourselves from falling and getting sick, but no one can tell what fate is like.

Sometimes I see some people talking about "forget it if you die" all day long, but when he really collides with the god of death, he will look for ways to survive in every possible way, Zeng Jin is so indifferent to life , but when he really wanted to leave this world, he was more reluctant than anyone else.

"What are you thinking about?" Looking at Lin Yan who was sitting on the bay window in a daze, Mo Xiao stepped forward and said.

"Mo Xiao."

"kindness."

"What is your greatest wish in this life?" Lin Yan looked up at Mo Xiao with an unusually serious expression.

"Well... the first one is to be able to grow old with you forever, and the second is to be able to hold your hand and go around the world together." Mo Xiao held Lin Yan's hand and patted her gently shoulders.

"is it?"

"En." Mo Xiao nodded solemnly, "By the way, didn't you say you wanted to propose at the beach last time, then we'll make it next month, okay?"

"Yes, but after three months." Lin Yan caressed Mo Xiao's face, looked at her eyes, nose, lips, this familiar face had already been deeply imprinted on her for Lin Yan heart.

"why?"

"Because our team recently decided to go to South Korea for a three-month investigation, so... I have to leave for three months."

"Three months?!" Mo Xiao got up and stood up, it must have been too long.

"Do you have to go?" Mo Xiao looked at Lin Yan with great reluctance.

"En." Lin Yan smiled slightly.

"Do you have to go for three months?"

"Definitely." Lin Yan's answer without hesitation made Mo Xiao's heart cold.

Looking at the expressionless Mo Xiao who was leaning on the sofa, Lin Yan continued, "We have been together for so long and have never been separated. This time I will take it as a test for you. During these three months, you are not allowed Text me, don't call me, hear me?"

"Why?" Mo Xiao looked at Lin Yan dumbfounded, looking very shocked.

"I said, this is a test between you and me. Time can dilute everything. If we still love each other as deeply as we do now after three months, I will marry you." Lin Yan squatted in Mo Xiao More forward, patiently explaining.

"Then you can't even send text messages?" Mo Xiao frowned, looking very dissatisfied.

"Well, no. If we can still fall in love with each other after three months of zero intersection, then we must be each other's true love, don't you think?"

"En..." Mo Xiao pouted and looked at Lin Yan, "Then what will happen if I send a text message?"

"Well... you should think about it yourself." Lin Yan rubbed her chin, turned her head away from looking at Mo Xiao.

"Okay, okay, I get it." Mo Xiao stretched out his hand to wrap around Lin Yan's neck, with a wicked smile on his lips, "Then let's go to sleep now."

"Lin Yan, why did you call us out today?" Leng Han crossed his legs and looked at Lin Yan meaningfully.

"Could it be that they asked us to be bridesmaids?" Song Ai also teased Lin Yan.

"I guess it must be." Leng Han and Song Ai looked at each other and smiled.

"Leng Han, Song Ai, I want to tell you something." Lin Yan's expression was serious, she didn't look like she was joking.

"What's wrong?" Leng Han and Song Ai became nervous unconsciously.

"I...I...I have cancer." Lin Yan said after taking a long breath.

"What?" Song Ai put down the coffee she was about to drink, are you kidding?

"Lin Yan, can you stop teasing me?" Leng Han pouted, who would believe it.

"I'm not joking." Lin Yan said solemnly, "This is the test report, you can read it yourself."

"This... is it true?" Leng Han's hands holding the inspection report trembled a little. At this moment, she hoped that this was Lin Yan's prank.

"Really." Lin Yan supported her forehead and admitted this fact that even she herself was unwilling to accept.

"What... when did it happen?" Song Ai stared blankly at Lin Yan, tears welling in her eyes.

"Just two days before my birthday."

"Then why did you tell us now?" Song Ai wiped away her tears, her voice choked up.

"It's okay, lymphoma is nothing, Lin Yan, we're going to the hospital for surgery now." Leng Han suppressed the tears in her eyes, and after she finished speaking, she pulled up Lin Yan who was sitting on the chair, and was about to go out.At this moment, her mood was as if she had fallen to the bottom of the valley, as if someone had immersed her in a lake full of ice, it was a piercing pain that pierced her heart.

"Leng Han, it's useless." Lin Yan shook off Leng Han's hand, looking at Leng Han who was in a daze, Lin Yan stepped forward and hugged her tightly, "It's okay, Leng Han, life is like this A process has a beginning and an end, do you understand?"

"I don't understand, I don't understand..." Leng Han cried loudly on Lin Yan's back, and the crying caused everyone to look this way.

"Okay, okay, stop crying, everyone is watching you." Lin Yan patted Leng Han on the back, like a mother coaxing her own child.

"Lin Yan, have you talked to Mo Xiao?" Song Ai asked Lin Yan while comforting the depressed Leng Han.

"No. I was afraid that she wouldn't be able to accept it for a while, so I lied to her and said that I was going to South Korea for a three-month investigation." Thinking of Mo Xiao, Lin Yan's just stopped crying like spring water She rushed up like a girl, who she thought would be with her for a lifetime, but now she wants to leave her behind.For Lin Yan, this was crueler than death. She would rather not meet Mo Xiao from the beginning, so that Mo Xiao would not be hurt because of her.

"Why three months?" Song Ai wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes.

"Because the doctor told me that I only have three months left." The conversation between the doctor and her that day inadvertently appeared before Lin Yan's eyes.

"Are you Lin Yan?"

"En." Looking at the doctor opposite, Lin Yan nodded.

"Where's your family?" Looking at Lin Yan who was alone, the doctor asked again.

"My family... didn't come." Although Lin Yan had no parents, she already regarded Mo Xiao as her family in her heart.

"I think it's better to wait for your family to come and talk about it."

Hearing the doctor's words, Lin Yan felt even more uneasy, and her intuition told her that the fainting this time might not be that simple.

"It's okay, I'm already my age, doctor, please tell me." Lin Yan insisted.

"According to your test results, you have lymphoma." The doctor handed the test report to Lin Yan.

"What?" Lin Yan was shocked, and she even felt that the doctor was joking with her.

"I just fainted, simply fainted, why is it lymphoma? Did you take the wrong test report, my name is Lin Yan, Shuangmu Lin, female Kaiyan." Lin Yan flipped through the report card indiscriminately until She didn't stop until she saw the two big characters "Lin Yan" in the name column.

"Doctor, is there something wrong with your equipment? You can take it for testing again." Lin Yan suppressed the tears in her eyes, holding on to the last hope, there must be a mistake, it must be a mistake.

"Ms. Lin, there is nothing wrong with our equipment, and we have inspected it three times. The inspection report we are providing you now is true and valid."

"Really?" Lin Yan held the report card and slumped on the stool.

After being silent for a long time, Lin Yan felt that she had gained some strength, and her heart gradually calmed down a lot.

"Doctor, how long can I live?" Lin Yan, who was waiting for the doctor's answer, seemed to be waiting for the results of the college entrance examination. This answer could be hope or despair for her.

"Three months."

"Three months?" Tears slid down Lin Yan's cheeks and hit the table one by one.

"If you are willing to undergo chemotherapy, then..."

Lin Yan got up slowly and mechanically opened the door.What the doctor said afterwards was completely unimportant to her, because the "three months" just now had already sentenced her to death.

"Three months?" Song Ai exclaimed.

"What do you mean, three months?" Leng Han who was leaning behind Song Ai was also completely awake at this time.

"I still have three months to live." Lin Yan pursed her lips and looked up at the sky outside the window.I used to feel that life was like a year, until I was really about to leave this world, and I suddenly realized that another life is too little.But human life is only once after all, like a fresh flower, it will wither after blooming.

"Wait...wait...let me take it easy." Song Ai stretched out her hand to ask Lin Yan to stop talking, life is unknown, you can never guess what will happen in the next second.Song Ai used to be dismissive of this kind of talk, she thought that there were so many right and wrong in life, and it was more about peace and tranquility.But today, she has a new view on the definition of this sentence.Life is indeed like a plate of chocolates, you never know what you will get next.Yesterday I was arguing with Lin Yan, saying that I would be good friends for life, but today Lin Yan said that she only has three months to live, why is God so cruel?Some people live their whole life in peace, while others suffer suffering and torture one after another.

"Lin Yan..." Leng Han sobbed, at this moment she really didn't know what to do other than cry.She used to feel annoyed when she saw other people crying, and thought that person was particularly worthless.But now she finally understands that crying is the only solution when faced with things that she can do nothing to change.

The three of them were silent for a long, long time, until the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on the edge of the river beach, until the sky slowly turned into pitch black.Song Ai looked at the black coffee in the cup without saying a word, at this moment she didn't even have the courage to drink it, because she could no longer mix any trace of bitterness in her heart.Leng Han has been crying silently, as if she wants to dry up all the tears in her life at this time.

"Okay..." Lin Yan let out a long sigh and said everything that needs to be said. Since it's only been three months, all I can do is to cherish it.

"Let's go." Lin Yan got up and pulled the two of them up.

"Xiao Ai, you will see through that cup of coffee, and you, Leng Han, all the eyeliner you painted were lost by you crying." Lin Yan pointed to the weeping makeup on Leng Han's face.

"Where are we going?" Leng Han's voice became hoarse because of crying for too long.

"Let's go to all the places we want to go now." Lin Yan took the two of them by the hand and came to the brightly lit street, looking at the flashing neon lights on the side of the street, watching the endless traffic flow and the bustling crowd, at this moment Only then did she truly feel that the world was so noisy and prosperous.

"Don't be sad, you two, I'm thinking about it. If you are always so depressed, then my last three months seem to be meaningless, so we have to get angry, understand?" Lin Yanchao The two said loudly.

"Yes, to be happy in life is to be happy to the fullest, don't let the golden cup be empty to the moon." Song Ai echoed.

"Okay, then let's go take pictures now." Leng Han wiped away his tears and snot and said.

"I took more than 100 pictures last time." Lin Yan expressed her incomprehension to Leng Han's sudden thought.

"Isn't it good enough? From now on...just...never...never see you again." Leng Han began to cry again as he spoke.

"That's enough, Leng Han, if you cry again, you won't be able to see me now." Lin Yan said and wanted to take a taxi home.

"Okay, okay, I...I won't cry anymore." Leng Han said while tugging on Lin Yan's sleeve.

"That's the way to behave." Lin Yan gently wiped away the tears from Leng Han's face.

"Okay, there's Xiao Ai, you have a smile." Lin Yan said while looking at Song Ai who was silently crying.

"En. Smile." Song Ai hurriedly wiped the corners of her eyes, and pulled out a smile.

"I know how you feel. But... in the rest of my time, I hope to see you all smiling." Lin Yan held the hands of Leng Han and Song Ai, looking at their smiles, although it was very Reluctantly, but it also relieved Lin Yan a lot.

Lin Yan, who played with Leng Han and Song Ai until midnight, finally returned home with her exhausted body.I often hear people say that youth is for wantonness, but Lin Yan uses her youth to live a life.In her memory, she doesn't seem to have the so-called youth, only to study hard and work part-time for living expenses.And tonight, she finally felt the taste of youth, although it has reached the end of her life.

"Why did you come back? Why didn't you answer my call?" Seeing that Lin Yan finally came back, Mo Xiao rushed forward and hugged her.

"I went to play with Leng Han and Song Ai." Facing Mo Xiao's sudden hug, Lin Yan felt very heartwarming, she knew that she had made Mo Xiao worry.

"Then why don't you answer the phone?" Mo Xiao complained.

"Maybe I turned my phone to vibrate and didn't hear the call." Lin Yan took out her phone and looked, oh my god, there were more than 100 missed calls.

"Do you know how worried I am?" Mo Xiao hugged Lin Yan tightly, and buried his face on Lin Yan's shoulder.

"I know, I know, I won't do this again next time." Lin Yan coaxed Mo Xiao softly.

Listening to the sound of wind and rain outside the window, Lin Yan, who was lying on the bed at the moment, felt extra warm in her heart, because Mo Xiao hugged her tightly behind her and fell asleep.

"Mo Xiao."

"En." Mo Xiao agreed in a daze.

"What will you do if... if I die?"

"Then I'll die too." Mo Xiao murmured.

"Mo Xiao, if I die, you must not do stupid things, do you hear me?"

"kindness."

"Otherwise I will hate you for the rest of my life, even if you are a ghost, I will not forgive you." Lin Yan bit her finger, tears slowly slipped from the corners of her eyes, soaking the pillow.

"No, you won't die, we will be together forever." Mo Xiao hugged Lin Yan tightly, she buried her head in Lin Yan's slender neck, and left a heavy one on it. Hickey.