Love before marriage

The blood pressure and heart rate beat each time, Chi Heng was very uncomfortable, and sweated all over his body.Everything is ready in the operating room, and now we are waiting for the number of the fetal heart rate to jump to an optimal number, so that the state of the fetus is the most stable and the safety of the cesarean section is greater.

Lu Mingyan hugged Chi Heng in his arms, kept changing towels to wipe his sweat, then turned to ask Dr. Cheng, "Go into the operating room! Don't wait any longer." Every minute he waited, he felt that Chi Heng was suffering a lot. 1 minute of sin.

Dr. Cheng frowned, but still shook his head, "No, we have to wait." He hurried to the bedside and pressed Chi Heng's hand, "Can you persist? Is it uncomfortable? If you can't persist, you must say .”

Chi Heng nodded very shallowly, "Okay... let's wait until the child is ready..."

Zhou Xueli was so anxious that she was about to have a myocardial infarction, tears streaming down her eyes, and asked the nurse to help change the dressing while wiping.On this point, it was rare for her to agree with Lu Mingyan, and they both urged the doctor to perform the operation as soon as possible.

There is a constant temperature control in the room, but Lu Mingyan's forehead is also covered with sweat, and he didn't notice it at all.Chi Heng leaned against his chest, and when Lu Mingyan anxiously urged the doctor, he turned to look at him, then slowly raised his hand, and wiped the sweat off his face with the back of his hand.

Although the relationship between the two is stalemate, Chi Heng's actions seem to be just subconscious habits.

As soon as Lu Mingyan grasped his hand, his brows frowned tightly, "Let's have the surgery now, shall we?"

Chi Heng just wanted to say why you are more nervous than me, but as soon as Lu Mingyan finished speaking, the fetal heartbeat number jumped up, the doctor stared at it for another half a minute, and found that it had remained the same number, he relaxed He turned around in a hurry, pointed out the door, and said to the assistant beside him, "Operating room!"

Lu Mingyan had already greeted the doctor, saying that he would go in with him on the day of the operation, and in order to be eligible to go in, he had watched a lot of cesarean section videos, and he had also given strict training for it. for this training.

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Lu Mingyan was quickly changing into the isolation suit, but Chi Heng grabbed the corner of his clothes and asked in surprise, "You, what are you doing?"

"Go in with you!" Lu Mingyan quickly got ready without raising his head.

Chi Heng was taken aback for a moment and then persuaded: "Don't, don't go... There's really no need to do this, you're still nervous around me..."

The nurse pushed Chi Heng to the operating room, and Lu Mingyan followed quickly.

Chi Heng held his hand tightly and shook his head vigorously, "Go back, don't follow..."

Lu Mingyan held Chi Heng's hand instead, but he had already put on a mask, and it was not convenient for him to speak, so he made a hissing gesture with soft eyes.

Chi Heng knew that he couldn't persuade him.

If it was in the past, Chi Heng might not understand Lu Mingyan's insistence and why he came in bloody from the surgery.But ever since he recalled the past, he knew what kind of feelings and obsessions it was.Just like when I rushed forward without hesitation, even if I was hit with blood all over my body, I still had to ask "Are you okay?"

Love may be a matter of two people, but giving is only a matter of one person.You can hope that the other person understands or responds to you, but you can't ask for it.Don't take giving as a threat, this is the meaning of giving.

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It was the first time for Dr. Cheng to perform this kind of operation, so he was inevitably nervous. The first half of the operation was extraordinarily careful and took a long time.Fortunately, the whole process was basically smooth, and there were no difficult emergencies.Lu Mingyan has been standing beside Chi Heng, watching quietly.Chi Heng originally thought that he would feel uncomfortable and nervous, but in fact he didn't, he didn't have time to worry about these at all.Probably because Lu Mingyan's expression has always been soft and focused, occasionally meeting his eyes, he would use his eyes to signal Chi Heng to rest assured.Gradually Chi Heng no longer felt nervous, and quickly entered a state of complete relaxation after the anesthesia.

Lu Mingyan has been standing next to Chi Heng, never leaving.During the operation, he felt uncomfortable pain a few times, so he could let Chi Heng hold his hand.

The harder Chi Heng pulled on the ground, the more uncomfortable he became.

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As the operation was coming to an end, Chi Heng's face became very pale, and his blood pressure was terribly low.

Fortunately, it was over, the red light that was on went out, and the cry of the baby sounded.

At that moment, all the medical staff present breathed a sigh of relief at the same time, took out the crying baby covered in blood, checked the scale, and before Chi Heng had time to take a look, the nurse carried him away Constant temperature room.

Not only Chi Heng, but even Dr. Cheng found out that Lu Mingyan never paid attention to the child from the beginning to the end. He held Chi Heng's hand all the time, or wiped Chi Heng's sweat. No excitement, let alone a trace of excitement.Chi Heng was suffering, and had no emotion or joy at all.When the child came out, Lu Mingyan even felt a sense of relief.

The surgical equipment and utensils were removed one by one, and the medical staff transferred Chi Heng to another clean stretcher bed. After Lu Mingyan took off his gloves and mask, he immediately hugged Chi Heng in his arms very lightly, "Chen Chen , it's all right...it's all over..."

His voice was hoarse and his eyes were reddish.

Chi Heng didn't even have the strength to raise his hand, so he had no choice but to give up the idea of ​​hugging him first, then turned his face to the side, leaned against Lu Mingyan's ear, and said in a low voice, "I didn't cry, so don't cry." ..." These were teasing words to soothe the atmosphere, but Lu Mingyan couldn't laugh at all.

That kind of bloody scene, if you only watch it once in your life, it will always be shocking and unforgettable.

Doctor Cheng said with a smile: "It seems that this child is destined not to please the second father." The second father refers to Lu Mingyan.

Chi Heng slightly bent his mouth, and then seemed to think of something suddenly, his eyes dimmed.

Lu Mingyan pushed Chi Heng out, Zhou Xueli rushed forward immediately, her face was covered with tears, Chi Heng's consolation was useless.In the end, the nurse pulled him away.Chi Heng was pushed to the ward first, and Zhou Xueli stood there, watching them leave.The phone rang suddenly, she picked it up, looked at it, and pressed the connect button.However, she didn't wait for the other party to speak, and said coldly: "My son is fine, the operation went well, there is no need for you to come over and give him a blood transfusion!" She hung up immediately after speaking.Then wiped away the tears and followed into the ward.

Dr. Cheng finished all follow-up matters in the operating room, closed the door, and instead of visiting Chi Heng, he turned to the duty room.

He walked over there with big strides, and he heard the crisp laughter of a child from a long distance away.He hurriedly pushed open the door and went in, pointing his hand out, "Dian Xiao, you go out for a while and buy a supper for dad, okay?"

Diandian was having fun, but when his father spoke, he put away the yo-yo and handed it to Xie Tang, "Uncle, I'm going down first, and I'll come up later to continue." Then he took Dad's wallet , ran down.

"Why are you so strict? Diandian is still young, and you use him as an errand messenger. There are so many assistants who don't need it. If you insist on calling Diandian, at worst, I will buy it for you..."

"Xie Tang!" Dr. Cheng approached Xie Tang directly, without talking to him, and cut straight to the point, "You deliberately provoked Heng, didn't you! You went too far this time! Xie Tang, do you have any brains?" Is there any measure!"

"Yes, of course I have my own sense of proportion. It is Lu Mingyan who has no sense of proportion. This kind of thing has been done. Now that it has become a fact, Chi Heng will know sooner or later, and he already knows." Xie Tang put away the just now. Laughing, his face condensed a little bit.

Cheng Yiyang grabbed Xie Tang's collar fiercely, "Surgery under such circumstances, the lives of both adults and children may be in danger, you know, bastard!"

Xie Tang let Cheng Yiyang move, his face was a little pale, and there was a trace of pain in his eyes, "I thought he knew it beforehand, and he was somewhat mentally prepared, so when he saw that piece of paper, his reaction would not be so big. ..."

Cheng Yiyang sneered, "I think it's revenge at all! Because Chi Heng didn't give you the reaction you wanted, you thought he would come to you without hesitation, but he didn't, so you started to resent him, resent him for revenge, he wanted him to Taste the pain, don't you!"

Xie Tang did not refute, "Maybe..."

"I do hate him, he is really cruel..."

Cheng Yiyang looked at Xie Tang unreasonably, and almost wanted to punch him directly in the face, "What position and qualification do you have to say that he is cruel?! What if the things you did to him happened to your own fucking body? A bunch of bastards! You and Lu Mingyan are both!" Cheng Yiyang became more and more excited for some reason, perhaps because he was very sad tonight's hemorrhage operation, to some extent, he is the one who understands Chi Heng best.

Cheng Yiyang let go of his hand suddenly, and pushed Xie Tang back as if venting his anger.Xie Tang didn't pay attention, and hit the corner of the table with his back.

"You are nothing more than reconciliation and jealousy! You are obviously drugging him, but Lu Mingyan is forcing him to lose his memory. When it comes to which is more serious, Lu Mingyan seems to be more unforgivable than you. But even if Chi Heng knows, But he still didn't choose you, you're just being unfair, why does he insist on staying by Lu Mingyan's side, and doesn't look back no matter what."

After Xie Tang stood firm, he didn't care about the severe pain in his lower back, and looked straight at Cheng Yiyang, "So what? I just can't be reconciled, I just don't want to let go!"

Cheng Yiyang's gaze seemed to be able to see through the whole person, cold, judgmental, mocking, and condescending.

"You and Lu Mingyan, you are both too self-righteous, do you really think you can do without you? Let me tell you, all Chi Heng's responses are just pity."

As a rational bystander, Dr. Cheng actually never felt that Chi Heng had such desperate emotions as entanglement or giving up, at most it was disappointment.Leaving aside Lu Mingyan, Xie Tang is the first person Chi Heng has ever loved, but so what if he loves him?For those he loved, Chi Heng can ignore them and refuse to recover them, let alone let him seek life and death for love.

If it is purely based on feelings, then Chi Heng should find Xie Tang, and then stay with him no matter what, even if it is tortured and hurt.But Chi Heng knows that feelings are too unreliable. To put it bluntly, it can't be at a specific point in time, in a specific scene, in front of a specific person, and the hormones are off the charts. There was a gap, and Xie Tang happened to appear at this time, and his appearance and behavior were all Chi Heng liked. After a long time together, he would be easily moved. If he met Xie Tang after that youthful period, Chi Heng might not be able to tempted.If Xie Tang is not like this, then he may not be tempted.If the place where they first met was not a sunny London square, they might not be tempted.

So Chi Heng doesn't think that love is so romantic or rare, it's just a fragile emotional impulse in a certain period, and it's artificially over-beautified.Yes, he once loved Xie Tang, even after remembering him now, there are still feelings left in his heart, but that's all, Chi Heng will not do anything stupid for this feeling, because he With enough reason, reason told him not to do it.

Besides, Lu Mingyan, if he could show up earlier, Chi Heng would not have met Xie Tang first, but him, then Chi Heng might have fallen in love with him deeply.But when they met late, Lu Mingyan had already missed the period when Chi Heng was the softest, most youthful, most easily soft-hearted and emotional.Until now, Chi Heng may not have loved Lu Mingyan that much, but reason and the responsibility of marriage told him that he was a legal partner and could not evade his responsibilities, and the other party loved him very much, so he should respond and couldn't bear to refuse too much.

One is rational alienation and indifference, and the other is rational compassion and cooperation.The less emotional factors, the more rational people can be, and the less they will be driven by emotional confusion, so to a certain extent, Chi Heng is the one who really holds the initiative in this emotional game.He can let go and turn back at any time, forward and backward, it is up to him to decide.However, no matter whether it is Xie Tang or Lu Mingyan, they both like to force him, or they are unwilling to be passive, they will always resort to some means and strategies, and they will use unscrupulous means, even if it is extreme, such as forced amnesia, confusing the child's biological father, digging Mindfully looking for evidence against the other party, etc., these are all to force Chi Heng, so that Chi Heng can make the decision they want.

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"Xie Tang, I don't know what you said to Chi Heng, which made him suspect who the father of the child is, but just this time, I can be sure! The child has no blood relationship with you! If you are the biological father, You will be so cruel to your own child?! Will you provoke Chi Heng at this time?!"

But Dr. Cheng's questioning made Xie Tang smile. He didn't seem angry at all, and he seemed to be winning, "You guessed wrong this time. I'm just so cruel."

This sentence is equivalent to admitting that he is the father of the child.Xie Tang's expression was light and light, as if he had been prepared for a long time, he was neither slow nor anxious, just waiting to see the trick.

Dr. Cheng suddenly had an ominous premonition, and he frowned, "What did you mean by that sentence just now?"

Xie Tang handed over a piece of paper lightly, "Come on, take a look."

Dr. Cheng cut it off, looked down, and his eyebrows jumped heavily.

There are several large characters on the paper: DNA test report.

Xie Tang rubbed the sore spot, and slowly sat down on the chair, "You are too busy doing things, as if you can't bear to find out the results, but Chi Heng always wants to know, can you keep it from him for the rest of your life?"

Cheng Yiyang looked at it at a glance, but the appraisal result displayed on it was completely opposite to what he originally imagined, impossible!He crumpled the piece of paper, crumpled it into a ball and threw it to the side, "Xie Tang, I'll do this test. When will it be your turn to meddle in other people's business! Don't stay here anymore!"

Xie Tang smiled instead. According to his obvious position, he is indeed not as high as Cheng Yiyang, but he has an unusual status and family background. Except for Cheng Yiyang, no one in the hospital treats him as a novice.

"Director, I didn't overstep the rules this time. It's true that Chi Heng entrusted you to investigate, but the one I inspected is for myself. I can inspect myself and my son, can't I?"

"Chi Heng's child can't be yours. I don't believe it. According to the pregnancy time, it can't be you. Xie Tang, is it interesting for you to tamper with the test report?"

Xie Tang took the time to retort: ​​"Of course Chi Heng knows how to calculate according to time. If I really couldn't do it, then he wouldn't ask you."

Cheng Yiyang was speechless.

"If you are also absolutely sure that the father of the child is Lu Mingyan, then why have you refused to do the test? You are also worried about the test result, aren't you?"

Cheng Yiyang no longer had the excitement and anger just now, he calmed down slowly, "But, even if you are the father of the child, so what, Chi Heng won't change anything because of this, why can't you let go?"

"Let go?" Xie Tang stood up slowly, and walked to Cheng Yiyang's side step by step, "Do you know how long I have been waiting for this time? From that night to the birth of the child now, it must have been ten months before and after. If he still doesn't remember me, then I'll just let him mistake it for sleeping with Lu Mingyan, and I'll tell him after the baby is born."

"Impossible! You clearly didn't know that Chi Heng would be pregnant...you only found out later that he had a child. How could you have carefully designed this trap ten months ago?" Cheng Yiyang's tone was very calm and sure, " You can't do that!"

"Then you go for a DNA test and see what it tells you." Xie Tang lowered his eyes and covered the expression in his eyes, "If I knew that Chi Heng was pregnant early on... those illusions before were all caused by me. I deliberately made it for you to see, I just want all of you to think that this child is Lu Mingyan's, and then wait until the moment it is revealed, and give you a 'surprise'. Do you think I can't do it?"

But Cheng Yiyang didn't show much surprise, but asked calmly, "Why did you do this!"

"As for why..." Xie Tang avoided eye contact, "Maybe you are right, I just want revenge. I am a good living person, why did Lu Mingyan erase me from Chi Heng's memory and life?" Clean it up! Then he stayed with Chi Heng as if nothing had happened, you said it would be fine if I died, but I'm still fucking alive! Isn't this treating me like a dead person!"

Cheng Yiyang took a step back calmly, "Xie Tang, you are crazy."

"I also think I'm crazy, but I don't want to turn back." Xie Tang gestured to hold the watch on the armrest—it was given to Chi Heng before, "You should do the paternity test that was given to Chi Heng as soon as possible." Well, the more you procrastinate, the more he can actually guess the result."

Cheng Yiyang replied coldly: "You are not qualified to instruct me yet."

"It's up to you, that's all I said." He shrugged.

Cheng Yiyang's gaze was too sharp, which made him feel uncomfortable, as if everything had been seen through. This was a well-designed scheme by him, how could it be broken so early!

Xie Tang turned around and opened the door to go out, just in time to meet Diandian who had come back from buying a late-night snack, perhaps to change the subject and feel uncomfortable, he patted the child's head with a smile, "Come on, uncle will take you to eat barbecue .”

Just when Diandian was about to agree, Cheng Yiyang interrupted in a cold voice, "Don't go!"

Xie Tang glanced at Cheng Yiyang, Cheng Yiyang still looked cold, Xie Tang raised his eyebrows, feeling inexplicably annoyed, he picked up the child, "Let's go, ignore your father, he has a convulsion tonight." Without saying hello to Cheng Yiyang, he just took Diandian away.

Xie Tang didn't dare to look back. To him, Cheng Yiyang was like a sharp-edged man. That look of seeing through everything was really annoying!

As if running away from the desert, he walked a long distance in one breath, until he was reminded a little bit, and he stopped as if he had just woken up from a dream.

Put the child down, took a deep breath, took out the cigarette and lit it, trying to calm down the ups and downs.

It also takes courage to obliterate the truth.

At that moment, he suddenly "admired" Lu Mingyan, how could he be able to get along with Chi Heng for so long as if nothing had happened.In terms of this level, I am still a bit short!

Xie Tang laughed at himself and smoked hard.

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Although it is a premature baby, it is not light at all. It weighs more than five catties, and it has reached the weight of a normal baby. It is lying in a special incubator. Compared with other premature babies, it looks very heavy from a distance. Like an abrupt hillock.

As soon as it left the mother's body, it was sent to an incubator for 48 hours for observation. Chi Heng couldn't hold back and ran over to look at it, but he could only see the vague outlines inside the boxes through various glass windows.

Two days later, the nurse finally brought him over. The little one was very quiet and was still sleeping soundly when he was carried.Chi Heng couldn't wait to look at it, and Lu Mingyan was also watching beside him. After watching for a few minutes, he asked, "...Is there any mistake?"

The nurse smiled and said, "No, we all have numbers. Newborn babies are all like this. They are wrinkled like monkeys. They will look better when they open up after a while."

Chi Heng didn't stay with the little one for long, and it was quickly taken away again.Premature babies generally have to stay in the incubator for five to seven days, or even more, until it is confirmed that everything is normal before returning it.

After the child was born, Chi Heng's body recovered quickly, and the nurses and doctors did not restrict his activities. He often went out by himself, and he didn't know where he was going. Sometimes he would go all morning and afternoon.During the recovery period, the two stayed overnight in the hospital. One time when Lu Mingyan woke up early in the morning, Chi Heng disappeared.He thought Chi Heng was taking a walk below, but he couldn't find it no matter how hard he searched, as if he had already left the hospital.When Chi Heng came back in the evening, Lu Mingyan asked him where he was going, and Chi Heng said about work.After returning, Chi Heng went to the thermostatic room to look after the child. It lasted two or three hours, and it was almost time to go to bed again.

During that period, Chi Heng talked less and less, and often went in and out alone, no longer needing company.Every night before going to bed, Chi Heng would look out the window and think about something quietly.

Based on Lu Mingyan's understanding of Chi Heng, he felt vaguely uneasy and worried. He always felt that Chi Heng seemed to be leaving him, but Chi Heng might not have made up his mind, or he had other concerns, and Chi Heng was silently weighing in his own heart. .When the time is right, he will bring it up.

The truth of amnesia is a hurdle between them. Chi Heng didn't mention it again because he took into account the atmosphere of the two of them getting along and showing some affection for each other, but it doesn't mean that he pretends nothing happened.

Lu Mingyan felt that after the child was born, their relationship was going backwards, and he was afraid that it would return to the previous state, or in other words, be worse than before.

Backing off, Chi Heng might be able to adapt, but Lu Mingyan couldn't, and he didn't even want to.It's like giving a lollipop to a child, stuffing it into his mouth, giving him a taste of the wonderful sweetness, and then withdrawing it immediately.No one wants to change.

Chi Heng remained calm until the day he was discharged from the hospital.Because of the quick recovery, the hospital stay was shortened by half, and she was discharged early after only seven days of stay.The little ones can also be taken home.Chi Heng seemed to be busy handing over work in those few days. During the day, the two of them took care of the child alternately. If neither of them was free, they would send the child to the hospital and pick it up in the afternoon.

At first, Lu Mingyan didn't know that Chi Heng was planning to resign, and thought it was a handover. Later, when Chi Heng had a lot of time to take care of the children at home, he realized it.

That day when Lu Mingyan came home, he opened the door and saw Chi Heng sitting on the edge of the sofa teasing the children, just like teasing a cat, waving his little fists in the air.

Lu Mingyan walked over, hugged Chi Heng from behind, and asked calmly, "Why did you resign?"

Chi Heng replied: "Now is a special period, and children have to be watched 24 hours a day."

"We can look at it differently. You don't need to resign."

Chi Heng didn't speak.

Generally speaking, if the partner is willing to resign at home to take care of the children, the other party will be moved and delighted.But your partner is not an ordinary person, but Chi Heng. He resigned not because he willingly accepted being a canary, but because he already had other plans in his heart.

Lu Mingyan gently kissed Chi Heng's ear, but was avoided.

"Can you tell me what's on your mind?"

Chi Heng was silent for a while, and the movements of his hands also stopped.

Lu Mingyan hugged Chi Heng tightly, "Chen Chen..."

Chi Heng broke away from him, carried the child to the nursery, and carefully placed it on the crib.The child looked at him with dark eyes.

Chi Heng smiled at it, went out lightly and closed the door.

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"I think we should have an adjustment period." Chi Heng walked to the other side of the sofa and sat down, speaking in a gentle tone.

Lu Mingyan asked tentatively, "Separate?"

Chi Heng didn't nod, but remained silent.

Lu Mingyan's eyes dimmed slightly, he walked up to Chi Heng and hugged him, "You can do whatever you want, but don't tell me to separate."

A person who never showed weakness had a hint of begging in his tone.

Chi Heng's heart trembled, he choked up, and suddenly couldn't say a lot of things he had prepared in advance.

Lu Mingyan sensed Chi Heng's intolerance, and hugged him even tighter, "You've been around the child for the past few days, and you haven't talked to me properly. Chenchen, we should be the closest, shouldn't we?"

"I'm not talking to you right now..."

"Chenchen..." Lu Mingyan gently put the person down on the sofa, and kissed him little by little. Chi Heng wanted to hide, but he couldn't.

"Tell me, why do you have to resign?"

"I just said... because of taking care of the children."

"Then you don't have to resign, I will resign, and I will take care of the children."

"Don't be stupid, you can't quit."

"Don't even think about breaking up..." He kissed hard.

Chi Heng gasped, and kept shrinking inward.Lu Mingyan was simply overwhelmed by him in this regard.

Just when Chi Heng was getting more and more confused and flustered, the child's crying suddenly came, interrupting everything.Chi Heng pushed Lu Mingyan away and stood up, straightened his clothes casually, and walked in a few steps.

Seeing that his father hadn't come in for a long time, the little one felt uneasy and began to cry. After Chi Heng went in, he picked him up and coaxed him, and the clear and clear crying gradually died down. Looking at Chi Heng, he choked up softly and hiccupped repeatedly.

Chi Heng took a bottle to feed him, and then the little guy stayed up all night, and looked at his father after he was full, even if he only waved his fists, he was very happy.

The night passed like this, and the conversation between the two was in a mess without any progress.

In the middle of the night, the child fell asleep and cried again, probably because he was hungry, so Chi Heng got up from the bed again in the middle of the night, went to the disinfection cabinet and refrigerator to find the feeding bottle and breast milk, and then brought them back to feed.After feeding, he slumped on the side of the baby's crib, put the baby to sleep, and then went back to sleep.

The next day, Lu Mingyan sent the child to the hospital early, and then returned to pick up Chi Heng for an examination.But this time they switched to a different hospital.Now that Chi Heng can do the examination like a normal person, Lu Mingyan took him to a hospital with acquaintances and connections, and of course it was a larger and higher-level hospital.