Love before marriage

Hearing the slight movement from the other side of the door, Chi Heng slowly raised his head, his eyes were soft with sleepiness.Such a simple movement, in Lu Mingyan's eyes, is like a gentle slow motion.

How long has not seen.

When Chi Heng saw that it was him, he was stunned for half a second, his eyes became clear, he showed no expression, and looked a little indifferent.

Chi Heng quietly disappeared, Lu Mingyan and the Su family almost turned the four rings of the city upside down just to find someone, but in the end Chi Heng nestled here leisurely by himself, listening to music and playing with the children .

Lu Mingyan breathed a sigh of relief, walked over slowly, and closed the door smoothly.

Chi Heng slightly moved Xiao Bao, who was snuggling against him, and then sat up straight.Lu Mingyan walked to his side, Chi Heng looked up at him.

"Chenchen, will you go home with me?" Lu Mingyan sat down very close to Chi Heng.

Chi Heng was silent.

"Okay, if you don't want to go back, then I'll stay here with you."

Chi Heng frowned slightly, "Go back, I just want to be alone now."

"mad at me?"

"No," Chi Heng lowered his eyes, showing a somewhat alienated expression, "I was angry and annoyed at the hospital, and thought you were unreasonable, but now... I don't feel that anymore," I didn't feel that those three words revealed a feeling Leng Yi, "Can't you just leave me alone?"

"I don't want you to be alone," Lu Mingyan rebuffed, "You always make plans silently by yourself. Once the plan is made, you have to implement it. You never tell others, and you won't tell me." He held Chi Heng's hand hand, "I don't want you to leave me."

Chi Heng wanted to break free, but Lu Mingyan held onto it tightly, almost interlocking his fingers.In order not to affect Xiao Bao who was sleeping soundly next to him, Chi Heng didn't want to move too much and didn't want to make any noise. He was silent for a moment, and said in a low voice: "Since you know that I am stubborn and won't turn back once I make a decision, then You should give up now, because you can't change me."

Lu Mingyan looked at Chi Heng, and wanted to reach out to stroke Chi Heng's messy forehead hair, but just as he stretched out his hand, Chi Heng turned his face to avoid it.

The movement had to stop, but Lu Mingyan didn't take back his hand, but stopped in mid-air. Then, he gently but firmly stroked Chi Heng's cheek. Now Chi Heng couldn't avoid it, his face was turned away. come over.

"I won't give up. I haven't had this habit from the beginning. Otherwise, would we have what we are now? Will you be by my side?"

This sentence mentioned the past by the way, Chi Heng must be able to hear the meaning behind the words.He raised his head, frowned, and there was faint anger in his eyes, "You shouldn't have done that from the beginning! You should have given up!"

Lu Mingyan looked at Chi Heng with indulgence, as if he would never get angry.But it was that kind of connivance that made people feel extremely uncomfortable, as if it was nothing to him.

Chi Heng looked at Lu Mingyan who remained motionless, and after a burst of excitement, he was suddenly discouraged for some reason, and his tone slowed down, "Everything now... including your love for me, has become my burden, you know How miserable am I? You forced me to forget the past and the people I loved in the past, and then made me fall in love with you, be with you, and be inseparable. If you want to divorce, it will take three years..."

His incumbent "killed" his predecessor, but he himself has been kept in the dark. If it wasn't for this opportunity, he might still have no way of knowing about all this.

At the moment when the hospital was forced to push down a tube of tranquilizers, Chi Heng felt genuine fear of this person.Everything is under his control, and he cannot escape.

"Didn't you ever think that one day I will remember? Can you hide this matter for the rest of your life! It's just drinking poison to quench your thirst... Don't you feel bad about living with me like this for the rest of your life? What's complete? You still say you want to be complete It’s obvious that I’m the most incomplete! It’s just a doll you made!”

Lu Mingyan looked at Chi Heng who was much more excited than him, but his eyes became softer, and the corners of his mouth were curved, although the arc was very small.

"I'm different from you. You liked Xie Tang before, but no matter how much you liked him, you would still give up on him. You would rather miss him in your heart for the rest of your life than fight for him, right?"

Chi Heng didn't reply, but slightly lowered his head.I have to admit that what Lu Mingyan said was indeed right, his character is like this.

"Your choice is like this, but I'm not." He sat a little closer, forced Chi Heng into his arms, and clasped his left hand tightly around his waist. Think about it the moment you come in.

"You're right. I drink poison to quench my thirst. I'm selfish and greedy. I even want to keep it a secret for the rest of my life... Go back with me and continue to live a good life, okay?"

"Let me go..." Chi Heng closed his eyes in pain, "What's the use of keeping me by your side? How do you want me to face you? Lu Mingyan, I really admire you, you can still Face me as usual, if I were you, I can't say a word now!"

Lu Mingyan wasn't afraid that Chi Heng would get angry and agitated, what he was afraid of was that he would be discouraged and disappointed and never want to continue.Chi Heng said "let it go", which made him a little flustered.

"It's still fine, why can't you continue?"

"Don't you think we're still 'ok'?"

Lu Mingyan cupped his face, "Forget about it, okay? Just pretend it never happened. Chenchen, we are still the same as before."

Chi Heng just thought it was ridiculous, "If I did this to you, can you just forget it as if it never happened?"

Lu Mingyan thought for a while, then nodded.

Heh, yeah, he doesn't care that you lose your memory and look like a fake doll, so he can easily forget about it.

Chi Heng didn't want to say anything anymore, and that surging tiredness came up again.He understood that he and Lu Mingyan were basically two kinds of people. He was used to being independent, honest, hidden, and self-aware; while the other was used to controlling and only wanted results.

"I've remembered Xie Tang now, that's the first person I fell in love with, and I still have him here," Chi Heng pointed to his chest and the position of his heart, his voice was exhausted, "You Don't you mind? Yes, I lost my memory, recovered my memory, and found out what you did to me, even the child is someone else's, you don't have to care about it, but I have someone else in my heart, it is destined that I can't love me like you love me, Love you, facing me like this, can you continue? Don’t force yourself to be together? Do you have to wait until everything between us is destroyed before you are willing to let go? Just like Xie Tang, even the only good things left You are willing to let go only when everything is completely destroyed?"

Lu Mingyan didn't reply for a while, his brows were frowned.But Chi Heng noticed that the moment he said "but I have someone else in my heart", the other party's eyes were dark and stern, just like the one he saw in the hospital, calm and cruel, as if he didn't care about anything, he didn't care about anything. It's all under control.

Subconsciously, Chi Heng was afraid of that kind of gaze, so he kept moving his body back, and finally broke away from him and stood up.Fortunately, Lu Mingyan didn't stop him either.

Chi Heng sighed, turned his back, "Forget it, let's go home, it's late, the child will catch a cold if he sleeps here."

He picked up Xiaobao, and his movements were so hasty that he almost woke the child up.

Lu Mingyan helped him in time.

Chi Heng went down with the child in his arms. At that moment, he suddenly felt a little flustered. This emotion was so inexplicable that he even forgot to put on his coat.

Lu Mingyan locked the door and quickly followed from behind. He could tell that the coat didn't seem to belong to Chi Heng, and he knew who it was after thinking about it for a while.So instead of carrying that one, he took off his own and put it on for Chi Heng.

-

Chi Heng went downstairs only to find that Zhou Xueli was also waiting there. She and Su's father were sitting in the car. When they saw someone coming out of the building, they quickly got out of the car and greeted them.

Zhou Xueli looked haggard, and her eyes became moist when she saw her son.

I don't know why, when Chi Heng saw his mother, he felt very guilty, unprecedented, and even ashamed that he couldn't lift his head.It seems that many things that mothers worried about him but thought impossible have happened now.It turned out that what he insisted on was actually vulnerable.Suddenly I can understand why my mother was so angry and worried.

Chi Heng suddenly thought of a word, self-inflicted.

Zhou Xueli took Xiaobao from Chi Heng's hand, and seeing her grandson's little face sleeping peacefully, her tense nerves were finally relieved a bit.Then he raised his head and scolded Chi Heng, "You're living more and more now, and you're acting like a brat! I call you, and you dare not answer it now, right? Well, actually, I don't want to bother with you either. Anyway, you won’t listen to what I say, but don’t bring the child to suffer, holding it for so long and disappearing, the child’s pants are wet and have not been changed! You will get sick after being bored for so long!”

Chi Heng stretched out his arms and hugged her suddenly, Zhou Xueli was taken aback.

"Mom, I'm sorry to make you worry so much, I promise I will never do it again."

No matter how angry she was, the anger disappeared at this moment, leaving only a deep sense of helplessness, "You are just tossing around, there is no need to suffer a lot, you have to go... nothing will ever... I don't believe it, Who made you..."

Chi Heng leaned against her ear and said something in a very low voice, but Zhou Xueli fell silent immediately.It was a whisper that only mother and son could hear.

After a while, Chi Heng let go of her, and smiled at her very gently, "You've been in fear for most of your life, don't worry about my son anymore, live your life well, the longer you live, the younger you are."

"You're so young..." Zhou Xueli also smiled, and then suppressed her smile, "The grandson will stay with me for a few days, and he can no longer suffer and suffer with you, all of them are unreliable," she looked at Lu Mingyan again I took a look, "I don't bother to care about what happens between you, and I don't care, you are all adults, don't make it worse than children, solve problems by yourself, and if you solve them, you are eligible to beg children with me .”

Chi Heng kissed Xiaobao on the forehead, and Zhou Xueli carried it away, stomping on her high-heeled shoes, without looking back, and straight into Father Su's car.

It's like a separate picture.

After a certain distance, Chi Heng still vaguely heard Su's father's surprised voice, "You should smile when you see Xiao Chi, why are you crying?"

"Who dares you to care so much?! What nonsense, hurry up and drive..."

-

Without Xiaobao by his side, the atmosphere between the two of them seemed even more uncomfortable.There was silence all the way, and when the two returned home, Chi Heng felt tired and still didn't want to talk.But Lu Mingyan was familiar and intimate, kissed Chi Heng on the cheek, handed him the towel, and told him to take a bath quickly.

It's like nothing happened.

Chi Heng went to the bathroom without saying a word.After taking a shower as fast as possible, he got dressed and came out within a few minutes, but he didn't wear pajamas, but a shirt and pants, as if he was going out.

He saw the wedding ring on his ring finger—it followed him, and it hadn't been taken off since that day.When Lu Mingyan held his hand, he always liked to turn the ring lightly, and then stroke his fingers carefully one by one.

Chi Heng took off the ring forcefully, leaving a faint red mark on the original position.

Lu Mingyan was busy with something in the study, when he heard footsteps approaching, he stood up, walked slowly towards Chi Heng, hugged him naturally, and stroked Chi Heng's slightly wet hair, "Are you going out at night? Why? Dressed so formally." He smiled and said, "Where are you going? I'll accompany you."

Lu Mingyan is so keen, he can more or less always guess what Chi Heng is thinking and what plans he is planning, and he has his own way to deal with it.

Chi Heng stuffed the ring into Lu Mingyan's palm, "I know I can't leave now, give me three years, I want to be alone in these three years, if three years later, we can still be together..."

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Lu Mingyan interrupted him in a deep voice, looked at the ring in his palm in disbelief, and when he raised his head again, his dark eyes were gloomy, "Don't make such a joke."

"I'm not joking." Chi Heng was inexplicably anxious and flustered, perhaps because of the expression on the other party's face, "If it wasn't for the three-year marriage limit, then what is in front of you is not only the ring, but also the divorce agreement! "

Lu Mingyan pondered for a while, and said, "Returning the ring, negotiating a divorce is fine, but you said that you want to be alone, I don't agree to this, let you live alone for three years...I don't allow it."

Chi Heng couldn't help getting annoyed, "You are like this, and I still have other people in my heart, how can we still be together in this situation?! Why do you have to force me?"

"I didn't force you, never..." Lu Mingyan took a step forward and grabbed Chi Heng's wrists, "We are just like before, you just need to cooperate with me, even if you don't want to respond..."

Chi Heng frowned deeply, and shook off the opponent's hand forcefully, "But I just want to be alone..."

"Don't you already like me? Why do you have to leave? I can wait for you to forget Xie Tang completely..."

"It's useless, don't force me..." Chi Heng kept backing away until his back hit the large desk.

-

Lu Mingyan grabbed Chi Heng's dodging hand, and put the ring back on Chi Heng's finger without saying a word.Chi Heng has been curling his ring finger tightly and refused to wear it. Lu Mingyan put it on his middle finger. That finger is slightly thicker than the ring finger. Chi Heng felt it hurt to put it on. tight.

"You asked me, you still have Xie Tang in your heart, can I continue with you like this. You left before hearing my answer, I will answer you now..." Lu Mingyan clasped Chi Heng's hands In front of his chest, his lips were close to Chi Heng's forehead, Chi Heng could no longer move back, he could only keep leaning his upper body backwards, the coffee cup on the table was knocked down by him, and the hot liquid splashed on Chi Heng's back, But he didn't realize it, he just bent his elbows tightly and separated them.

However, Lu Mingyan hugged him tightly again and again, his tone was still so calm, a little scary.

"I don't care, how could I care about this?"

Lu Mingyan doesn't care whether he has memory, whether he is aware of the truth, who the child belongs to, or whether there is someone else in his heart. He may have suffered a short period of pain, but he will always return to his original calmness and certainty, because no matter what, he wants to The results can be obtained by any means.And the result he wants is Chi Heng, it's that simple.

Chi Heng was in pain, but Lu Mingyan never let go, the strength in his hand was heavy, but his kiss was very light, he lightly pecked Chi Heng's forehead, and held him tightly until Chi Heng stopped struggling.Only then did Lu Mingyan loosen his grip a little, and pushed the ring up to the base of his finger——clamping it tightly.

"We are married and belong to each other. I don't want you to leave, and you don't want to think about it. You look at me now, just look at me. I'll wait for you to forget Xie Tang slowly. But I can't do nothing Do it, I have to go to your heart... I can't wait for a few years, I can't wait at all, if I can, I really hope you will completely forget him in the next moment."

Chi Heng turned his head uncomfortable, "You're crazy! Let go of me..."

It was at this time that Lu Mingyan realized that the hem of Chi Heng's shirt was stained with coffee stains.

He quickly let go of one hand, and lifted the hem of Chi Heng's shirt. The skin on that piece of skin was burned red. He gently reached out, but the other hand still held Chi Heng firmly. The wrist does not let go.

He caressed the skin there little by little with his slightly cool palm, and pressed it tightly, then lowered his head and fondled Chi Heng's ear tip.