Love before marriage

Chi Hengtian got up before dawn, tucked Xiaobao's quilt, and went out lightly.I drove around to find it first, but there is no autism rehabilitation or training center in this place, only one or two educational institutions for disabled children.He doesn't think his child is disabled, so he doesn't want to send him to these places.

I searched around to no avail, so I had to drive the car home again. I lived in an old residential building without a garage, so I had to park the car in the parking space outside and then walk back.Chi Heng was thinking about things while walking, and planned to send the child to a normal kindergarten. In that lively environment, it might be more effective to improve Xiaobao's condition. After all, only by getting along with normal children can he get closer to normal people.

Chi Heng was too focused on thinking about various possible situations, and didn't notice that there were people following him after he came out of the underground parking lot.

Could it be that I was overwhelmed or too vigilant so I had hallucinations?After all, I haven't had a good rest these days, and the probability of hallucinations due to excessive nerve tension is indeed higher than usual.

Chi Heng rubbed his eyebrows vigorously, inspected the residential area in that area, asked the old man who bought soy milk and fried dough sticks, and finally confirmed that no strange strangers appeared nearby, so he was a little relieved, bought breakfast and went back Home.

Little Treasure had already woken up, and he didn't see his father when he woke up. He wasn't afraid and didn't cry. He just lay on the bed and looked at the pattern on the ceiling.Perhaps this is a "big benefit" of children with autism, because they have low awareness of the outside world, and they are sometimes very quiet. In the eyes of outsiders who don't know the situation, this may be called "well-behaved".

Chi Heng put the breakfast on the table and went to the bedroom to pick up the child and dress him up. Xiaobao stretched out his hands and feet very cooperatively. No matter whether the child could understand or not, Chi Heng would take the trouble to give the child the opportunity whenever he had the chance. Teach "this is the hand" and "this is the foot", and of course don't let it go when putting on clothes.Children with autism do not have normal receptivity. Generally, children can do it ten times, but they need a hundred times, and they may not be able to do it.

Chi Heng rubbed the child's little feet and did a short massage. Xiao Bao shrank back, but now he did not repel or refuse.

"Little Lu Xu, good morning."

Xiao Bao looked at Chi Heng with dark eyes, but he didn't respond, he just blinked.

Chi Heng smiled, kissed the child, and carried him out of bed.

Xiaobao walked forward like a toddler, shaking his head like a duck.At first when no autism was detected, Chi Heng once thought that Xiao Bao was so cute, but looking back now, he is full of sadness.

Chi Heng didn't have time to take care of these seventy-seven and eighty-eight sad emotions, so he hurriedly cheered up and followed up, went into the bathroom with the child, and continued to teach him hand in hand.

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Fortunately, after Chi Heng's consultation, several kindergartens finally expressed their willingness to accept a child like Lu Xu, and would tell the kindergarten teachers to give this child special care.Chi Heng was very grateful and proposed to pay double the tuition as an extra fee. The young female teacher said, no need, in fact, we accept good babies like Lu Xu every year. There are not a few such children, and we just do our best. A meager effort.

One month ago, Chi Heng sent the child to the kindergarten every day, and stood outside the window watching silently. He stayed there all day long, carefully observing Xiaobao's various reactions, so that he could prescribe the right medicine in the future.But in this way, he could no longer take care of his work and had to resign again.There is no source of income but there are still some deposits on the card for them to continue to live.

During group activities in the class, Lu Xu wandered aimlessly alone. When he saw that other children had already sat down and were about to listen to the teacher tell a story, he just imitated others and sat down—sitting far away. Stay away from other people.Fortunately, he can basically follow the teacher's instructions, sitting in his seat and listening to the story from beginning to end, although he never communicates.Then, when everyone stood up and was about to leave the classroom, he also stood up slowly.During the whole observation process, Chi Heng saw that Lu Xu was sitting alone all the time, and no one disturbed him.However, if other children take the initiative to hold his hand or talk to him, he will still respond, but it is a bit slow and not very enthusiastic.In the future, maybe I can get rid of other children and talk to him more and take the initiative to find him.

After Chi Heng taught for so long, Lu Xu finally learned simple words like thank you and hello, even though he said them without any emotion.The situation is still not optimistic, but after all, a little bit of progress is not.

Chi Heng had quite a lot of savings in the past few years, at least 60 or [-] yuan was no problem, but most of it was transferred to Lu Mingyan's company that time, and there was not much left.Especially if he lives outside with his children for three or four years alone, the expenditure must be greater than the savings, and the previous savings will continue to be consumed.Now that the amount in the bank account is less than [-], Chi Heng began to worry about money. He never worried about such trivial matters before.

He had no choice but to dismiss his mother, take the children to school and take care of them himself during the day, and now he has found himself a job at night as a truck driver on the night shift.It can't be compared to the day shift. There are only a few tasks at night, and there are almost no options. How can serious and important things be left to do at night.Chi Heng would never consider bars, nightclubs, and entertainment venues with mixed fish and dragons, but he can only find an ordinary crash.From ten o'clock at night to four o'clock in the morning, six hours of staying up late.

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Chi Heng started to suffer from nosebleeds a few days ago. When he was cutting vegetables in the kitchen, a large drop suddenly fell directly on the back of his hand; or when driving at night, blood suddenly came out; another time when he was taking a bath for Xiaobao, he thought it was just The water splashed on his face, but he didn't raise his hand to wipe it off, Xiaobao reached out to wipe it off and said, "Red...red..." At that time, Chi Heng had just finished teaching him to recognize numbers and began to learn to recognize colors.

I thought that the reversal of day and night made the body's mechanism a little disordered, so this symptom appeared.Chi Heng didn't pay much attention to it, but he also took time to go to the hospital for an examination, but I don't know if the hospital did not check carefully enough, or he was really healthy, so no cause was found out.Chi Heng has no time to study carefully, and continues to live.

At that time, Chi Heng didn't think it was so difficult. They were very happy and fulfilled with Xiaobao every day, although it was also very hard.He didn't miss Lu Mingyan that much, not at all.What he missed about him was only at the very beginning, that is, when he first left Beijing.Those few months were in a state that Chi Heng could hardly believe, as if the other party was in his mind all the time, and he couldn't erase it.So when his new life just started, even when Chi Heng went to Beijing on business, he never went to the old places to take a second look.

He felt that he was not used to the new state, so he was so addicted to the past, and the reason why he never thought deeply about it.It's just that it's hard to fall asleep in the dead of night, and I keep looking at the lights of thousands of houses outside the window until dawn.

After that, it really got better gradually, he had slowly adapted to it, and was too busy to think about Lu Mingyan.

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On that day, Chi Heng was finally able to take a rest. In fact, the so-called rest was just going home a few hours earlier. At around two o'clock in the middle of the night, Chi Heng dragged his exhausted body back.He opened the door, locked the door, and went straight to the bedroom without turning on the lights.He has always slept lightly, especially recently he has noticed something is wrong, no matter how tired he is, he cannot sleep deeply.

In a blur, he seemed to hear the sound of the anti-theft door handle being gently turned by a key.This is not the past. Without Lu Mingyan by his side, no one else can open the door except himself.

Chi Heng opened his eyes. Fortunately, the surroundings were not particularly dark, the moonlight was bright, and the outlines of objects could be seen without turning on the lights.Chi Heng got up quietly, there was a small knife in the drawer of the bedside table, it was time to use it.Chi Heng took it out and walked towards the security door.He was barefoot, so he could pull out the knife while walking without making a sound.

Chi Heng stared at the doorknob, watching it being unscrewed little by little with a blank expression. There was a "click", and in the silence of the night, the sound was not particularly small.The people outside the door were probably afraid of waking up the people inside, so they waited patiently for a few minutes until they were sure that there was still silence inside, and then they dared to open the door slowly.

The door was tentatively pushed open a little bit, Chi Heng expected that the eyes of the people outside the door must be looking down first, so he didn't shy away from it, and stood there without moving.So as soon as the door was opened, Chi Heng's shadow was first seen, elongated by the pale moonlight, projected on the ground, it was extremely huge, and he was holding a handful of pointed things in his hand.

The people outside the door were obviously taken aback by this scene, couldn't help exclaiming, and immediately took a step back, but their feet stumbled, and the whole person fell to the ground with a heavy muffled sound.

Chi Heng pushed open the door calmly, "Squeak"...

Xie Tang raised his head and looked at the person in front of him. After confirming that it was indeed Chi Heng, he was still in shock, "I was scared to death...why are you still awake in the middle of the night..."

Chi Heng looked at him condescendingly, "I should ask you this."

His tone was cold and indifferent, without any emotion, without the slightest joy or surprise of meeting each other. Xie Tang felt disappointed and frustrated, but he quickly recovered. After all, he had been so many times, and he was used to Chi Heng's behavior.

Xie Tang patted the ashes on his body, stood up quickly, with a signature smile on his face, "Chenchen, let me go in and have a seat." After speaking, he sighed.

The two faced each other quietly in the dark for a while, and Chi Heng finally turned on the light.

Xie Tang heaved a sigh of relief, and immediately returned to his original appearance, his subconsciously frowned brows loosened, and he became more casual.Before Chi Heng agreed, he bypassed Chi Heng, entered inside uninvited, and sat down on the sofa.

Chi Heng closed the door and came back in. Xie Tang saw that the knife in his hand was really a knife, and his hair stood on end, "What are you doing with a knife? You are too scary."

Chi Heng glanced at him indifferently, "defense."

"When did you find me?" He has already changed his life with a new identity, not even called "Chi Heng". It is not easy to find him in the vast crowd.

"Medical records." Xie Tang didn't hold it up. "Your child has a fever and you are very anxious to see a doctor. You forgot your current name in a hurry, so you just filled in 'Chi Heng'. Then I followed the name and found it. You." With the identity and power of the Xie family, it is not difficult to search the huge medical records, but the difficulty is that there are a lot of people with the same name and surname, and it may take Xie Tang a lot of effort to exclude them one by one.

After a few minutes of silence, Chi Heng asked again: "Why did you come to see me?" His tone finally softened a little.

Xie Tang stared at him for a few minutes, from the slightly disheveled hair to the blue eye circles to the slightly tired face, he felt uncomfortable watching, first lowered his head, "I'm sorry..." for making you like this .

"You have nothing to do to me. This is my own choice and has nothing to do with you. You don't have to pity me. I have been here for three years and I am living a good life." Chi Heng was very calm.

"According to what you mean, you still plan to continue?! Why are you so stubborn?!" Xie Tang got up suddenly, walked in front of Chi Heng, knelt down, clasped Chi Heng's shoulders with both hands, "come back to me Isn't it good? Don't worry about Lu Mingyan, don't worry about the Su family, and don't need to care about the opinions of the accidental world, I can handle all of these! As long as you still like me, you can be with me, you don't have to live your current life at all!"

"I'm still happy to live the life I have now." Chi Heng still had that stubborn look, "Don't force your own wishes on me, okay? What you said was not what I asked for."

A capable person will inevitably have his own pride and temper, and Chi Heng is no exception.He didn't seek the so-called comfort and enjoyment. If that was the case, he would pretend nothing happened and let himself compromise. Whether it was Xie Tang or Lu Mingyan, it would be fine to continue with them with compromise.

"I know you don't care about this, but do you have to make yourself so tired? How long do you think you can last like this? You are indeed still young now, wait another five or six years? Can you still do it?"

But Chi Heng still said: "I can." His tone did not weaken in the slightest.

Xie Tang slapped him on the table angrily, "Do you think I don't know what's going on with that child?! How long are you going to hide his condition? Many autistic children have professional caregivers. You have to take care of your children at work, what a fart! I don’t believe you won’t be exhausted in a year or two!”

"No, the child is very good and smart. He will be getting closer and closer to a normal person. When he grows up, he will be sensible. After sending him to school, he doesn't have to be guarded all the time. I can come back and continue working."

Xie Tang felt helpless towards Chi Heng, sighed heavily and let go of his hand, mocking himself: "If I had known this would be the result, I shouldn't have told you about Lu Mingyan, even though you didn't remember me at that time, I I can always find an excuse to get close to you and visit you. But now... you are no longer by his side, and it has become a luxury for me to even see you. It has been more than three years... Chi Heng, don't you think about it at all?"

Chi Heng lowered his head, and the messy hair on his forehead blocked his gaze, "You came to me in the middle of the night, if it's just to catch up with me, then I advise you to go back quickly, I still want to rest... "

"I just came to visit you, that's all. I couldn't see you during the day, and I was afraid that you wouldn't let me get close when I finally saw you. So I want to come and have a look when you are asleep, so that I won't disturb your rest... ..."

Chi Heng was not confused by the tenderness, but asked: "Can't you just knock on the door? Why do you have the key?"

"Didn't I say that, I was afraid to disturb you..." Xie Tang's eyes suddenly dodged a little.

Chi Heng narrowed his eyes, "Xie Tang, what on earth do you want to do?" After all, he is a person who can't hide things, and it seems that any of Xie Tang's careful calculations can be seen through.

Under Chi Heng's gaze, Xie Tang couldn't hold back any longer, his face became anxious, "Do you think everyone is as heartless and heartless as you? Do you know? I miss you very much, I miss you very much. I just found you." You almost went crazy with joy..."

Chi Heng still looked at him like that, unmoved, it depends on how he explained next.But Xie Tang stopped talking immediately, hesitated for a while, and suddenly stretched out his arms, hugging Chi Heng's shoulders forcefully.

The action was so sudden that Chi Heng was slightly taken aback, but he didn't push away immediately because he was still in a state of calm.But Xie Tang's face was already flushed, he was the only one who was at a loss.

"Chi Heng, let's start over, shall we?"

Chi Heng was a little tired, "I have answered this question countless times, do you want me to repeat it?"

Xie Tang didn't speak for a while, but just as Chi Heng wanted to speak, he felt a burst of damp heat on the side of his neck.He frowned, stretched out his hand and pushed Xie Tang away.

Xie Tang was not angry, and his eyes were even burning. The kiss on the neck just now seemed to have given him great satisfaction, even if he was slapped across the face.He wanted to hold Chi Heng's hand, but Chi Heng refused, so he had no choice but to withdraw his hand, "I like you, of course I want to hug you and kiss you. But if you don't like it, then forget it. You still insist on being alone, that's fine too." , I will visit you occasionally as a friend, is that okay?"

Chi Heng sighed, but when he was about to speak, his face changed slightly, his brows were furrowed, as if he suddenly felt uncomfortable.

Xie Tang asked: "Can I give you another hug? I'll leave after I give you a hug. Just give me a hug. I won't go out of my way."

Chi Heng was so uncomfortable that he didn't speak, Xie Tang quickly took advantage of this moment to give him a hug.But he was afraid that Chi Heng would get angry, so he quickly let go.

Chi Heng lowered his head, unable to see the expression on his face, "You go."

"I know you don't want to be found, so I have deleted your medical record. Lu Mingyan and the Su family should not be able to find you. Everything is as you wish."

Chi Heng didn't reply, just stood up and turned his back, walking towards the bathroom.

Xie Tang didn't notice anything unusual at the time, he just thought that Chi Heng was getting impatient again, so he stood up and prepared to leave. Before leaving, he said behind Chi Heng, "Be careful recently, after all, your body Different from ordinary people, you must be more prepared. I heard from Cheng Yiyang that someone is looking for someone like you... He has been tracked before, and it seems that there has been some movement recently, you..."

Hearing a "bang", Chi Heng had already closed the bathroom door.Xie Tang originally wanted to see the child, but now he had no choice but to give up, close the door and leave.With a flick of his hand in his pocket, the previous key was no longer there.Xie Tang was taken aback for a moment, then smiled indifferently when he realized it, Chi Heng is so vigilant, he even knows to take away the keys, so it should be no problem to be on guard against outsiders.

Xie Tang left in peace.

Tonight's meeting with Chi Heng was still indifferent. After three years, Xie Tang wished so much to have an uncontrollable and affectionate embrace, and then reconcile.But the gap between reality and imagination is too great, one shouldn't have unrealistic fantasies about people like Chi Heng... In this way, Xie Tang is already content, as long as Chi Heng is not so disgusted and disgusted.

Xie Tang drove away, but when he put his hands on the steering wheel, he found two drops of blood on his sleeves, and he fainted.He frowned in displeasure, wondering when he would carelessly touch this thing, and finally realized after thinking about it several times to no avail. He was startled, and immediately got out of the car and rushed back.But the door was locked and he didn't have the key.

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Xie Tang knocked hard on the door and called Chi Heng's name, but there was no response.He yelled anxiously several times, and the people upstairs and downstairs were all woken up by him, and they all came out to check what happened, but the door in front of him still remained silent.Xie Tang was so anxious that he almost went crazy, he rushed straight into the house upstairs, no one stopped him as if he was insane, ran to the bathroom, and turned out the window, fortunately this is an old residential building, the upstairs The downstairs windows were very close to each other, Xie Tang grabbed the railing and jumped vigorously, not caring that his expensive coat was scratched by thick rusty iron nails.

Finally managed to jump down from the bathroom window, and immediately saw Chi Heng sitting slumped on the ground, his upper body lying on the edge of the low pool, with his head buried, the faucet was still dripping water, mixed with nosebleeds, turning pale red.

At that moment, Xie Tang was so frightened that he almost suffocated, his hands and feet were instantly numb and cold.But at the next moment Chi Heng moved and said something in a low voice, Xie Tang didn't hear clearly, but this weak reaction finally brought him back to his senses, and he immediately knelt down to support Chi Heng's shoulders and helped him up stand up.

Chi Heng was dizzy, his face was pale, and he was struggling to speak.

Xie Tang didn't have time to be strange and surprised, he picked up Chi Heng without saying a word, kicked open the bathroom door, and ran straight downstairs.

Chi Heng said intermittently: "No, I can't leave like this...the child...is still inside..."

Xie Tang had no choice but to put the person down temporarily, and Chi Heng sat down on the dirty steps of the stairs completely weak.Xie Tang quickly turned back, rushed to the bedroom first to have a look, and found that Xiaobao was still sleeping soundly, so he locked the bedroom and the security door before leaving.

At that time, he was too anxious and flustered, and had no time to think about it. In such a noisy environment, the neighbors were all woken up, but why did Xiaobao still fall asleep? !

He rushed down, picked up Chi Heng on his back again, and walked quickly to the parking place.At that time, Chi Heng was already in a semi-comatose state, and he asked with difficulty: "...Is the child there?"

In order to reassure him, Xie Tang comforted him, "Don't worry, I've already brought him here, just sit in the second seat obediently."

At that moment, Chi Heng dared to completely lose consciousness.

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He was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, but the examination results were very strange. Chi Heng was still in a coma and had already been put on an infusion.The doctor had no choice but to ask Xie Tang, "Is the patient engaged in high-radiation work? Does he work in a nuclear power plant?"

"No, it's just that he has worked hard and lacked sleep during this time."

The doctor nodded, "I know this, and the patient has hypoglycemia and hypotension, but this will not have such a serious result. The patient's sudden situation tonight seems to have been severely radiated. Of course, we have not really ruled it out. possibility of poisoning."

Xie Tang was upset, and suddenly thought that not long ago, Cheng Yiyang seemed to be in a particularly bad state, his face was pale and weak, and he often had nosebleeds for no reason, but he was not as serious as Chi Heng, after all, Chi Heng had a blood clotting disorder more than him.

what happened?Xie Tang looked down at the sleeping man, his lips were bloodless, and the light blue blood vessels on his eyelids became extremely obvious.Why did he and Cheng Yiyang both have this kind of illness?And the cause could not be found.It will never be a coincidence.

Xie Tang fell into deep thought.

There are too many similarities between Chi Heng and Cheng Yiyang, the latter also has forgetfulness and memory decline that does not match his age.Chi Heng's amnesia was caused by Lu Mingyan to make him forget himself, but what about Cheng Yiyang?Doesn't happen to also have another paranoid and perverted lover?Impossible, the probability is too low.It would be difficult for someone like Lu Mingyan to meet one, let alone two.

Xie Tang vaguely felt that he had uncovered some secret, but he was not sure, after all, there were too few clues.If you want to investigate the matter of amnesia in detail, you have to find Lu Mingyan.But Xie Tang didn't want to look for him at all, let alone talk to him, he just wanted to beat him up - why did you make Chi Heng forget me on your own? !Who gave you this power!

Xie Tang gradually became irritable, unwilling to think about this anymore.He held Chi Heng's face in his hands, and gently rubbed Chi Heng's temples.