Love before marriage

The journey was very long, and Chi Heng didn't know where Lu Mingyan was going to take him. It might be the Lu family's main house, which was big and far away from the outside world, and no one would notice no matter how long it was closed.And if the child is there, even if Chi Heng is grounded, it won't matter.

Chi Heng felt that he was still half asleep and half awake, and his energy was in a daze, as if he was sleepwalking.I don't have much strength in my body, and I don't want to move.Chi Heng leaned his head against the window and opened his eyes slightly.It was raining heavily outside, and there were occasional thunder and lightning, but the car was still very quiet.When the car turned a corner, Chi Heng knocked his head, and his body involuntarily tilted to one side, Lu Mingyan stretched out his arm and took him into his arms.

The back of his hand inadvertently touched the back of Chi Heng's neck, and he found that Chi Heng's body temperature was a little high.In fact, since that day, Chi Heng's cold has not recovered, and he still has a fever from time to time.It's just that he hasn't had time to take care of himself for so many days.

Seeing that Chi Heng didn't resist, Lu Mingyan hugged him a little tighter, letting Chi Heng lean on his chest.

"There is still a distance, you can sleep for a while." He said softly, and then asked the driver to turn off the air conditioner.

Chi Heng slowly closed his eyes.

It's strange, before I barely fell asleep but often bounced restlessly, but my body was too tired to wake up, now I'm still so tired, my eyelids are heavy, but I can really fall asleep.

People's habits are really scary. He feels that he has really started to hate this person, but his body and subconscious mind still maintain the previous habits. As long as Lu Mingyan is there, all floating emotions will truly find their roots before they are willing to stabilize.What a powerful subconscious mind that must be!There has been a gap between them for three years, why haven't those damn habits been worn away...

Chi Heng fell asleep, his breathing became much more stable, and his tight fists had already been loosened, hanging down by his side.

Since Chi Heng came back, the atmosphere between the two of them was either cold and alienated or tense, as if they were going to fight several times.It's rare for Chi Heng to be quiet and docile at this moment, and he still looks a bit cute when he's snuggling up.

It seems that the past few days have really tossed and exhausted people to the point of collapse, otherwise, as long as there is still a sliver of energy and strength, Chi Heng will probably push him away.

Lu Mingyan raised his hand to stroke Chi Heng's hair, and then rested his hand on it.

He felt that this scene seemed like a world away.Chi Heng used to be so clingy to him that he couldn't drive him away, but now?Would rather have a stranger than want him to come near.

Before that, how long ago?five years?six years?Eight years, ten years...

No one is born lonely, they are all slowly changed by the things they experience, and Chi Heng is no exception.When his father was still alive, Chi Heng was still a little rambunctious, laughed a lot, and liked to pop up from behind people unexpectedly. Every time Lu Mingyan was scared by him, he still had a sense of accomplishment.When I was young, I didn't think much, and I didn't care about the disparity in status, status and family background. If you like to be with this person, then stay with him. It's as simple as that.At that time, Chi Heng was still living in a small rental house, while Lu Mingyan was always in the big house.Chi Heng would sometimes be bullied and chased by gangsters. Although he couldn't beat him, he never complained or had any psychological shadows. Every time he would either turn around and run or play smart to get away.After he was done, he would tell Lu Mingyan all these things, and there was a little complacency in his words that he felt that he was very powerful.But at that time, Lu Mingyan was too lazy to bother.He had to get in touch with Chi Heng, because he knew that Chi Heng would be designated as his "experimental subject" in the future, their lives must intersect, and the "experimental subject" had to be cultivated slowly from a very early age, and everything went according to plan.Otherwise, Lu Mingyan didn't want to have too much involvement with Chi Heng.

But even if he didn't have much enthusiasm, Lu Mingyan would still do what he should do, out of reason.For example, although he seldom paid attention to Chi Heng's stories, the gangsters who were chasing Chi Heng disappeared soon after.He didn't allow any scars and incompleteness on his future "experiment".

A year later, Chi Heng's father passed away, and parents really had a great influence on their children.Although Chi Heng was not depressed and cowardly, after that, his smile became less and people became much quieter.

Apart from Zhou Xueli, Lu Mingyan is the only one around him. Zhou Xueli has her own world and her own affairs. She is young, beautiful and loves to play. It is impossible for her to take care of Chi Heng all the time.To Young Master Lu, Chi Heng is nothing, if it wasn't because of the "plan", he wouldn't want to have anything to do with Chi Heng at all, but to Chi Heng, Lu Mingyan was the only one who could talk, and most importantly, he rely on him.Chi Heng knew that Lu Mingyan had actually helped him a lot secretly, although the other party never said anything about it.In fact, to Young Master Lu, those helping things are too trivial to do, and the real motive is not as beautiful and pure as Chi Heng imagined.

To say that Xie Tang seized the good opportunity, he did not pay much but became his "first love" in one fell swoop, making Chi Heng remember him for the rest of his life.Then Lu Mingyan's timing was tens of millions of times better than his, and it almost took one or two sentences and one or two small things to make Chi Heng let his guard down.

Another year later, Chi Heng followed Zhou Xueli to Su's house. The completely unfamiliar and cold environment made Chi Heng more quiet and silent. The more wealthy the family was, the more afraid he was to do wrong things and say the wrong words, and his every move would be judged. Chi Heng He's a stepson, so he really can't be as unscrupulous as Zhou Xueli, so he can only use taciturnity to reduce his sense of existence.

He relied more and more on Lu Mingyan, almost using his whole body and mind.

The first time they were at Lu's house, they were brought back as guests by Lu Mingyan. Chi Heng was very happy with his calm face.They chatted one after another on the sofa.In summer, the floor-to-ceiling curtains are drawn tight, and the indoor light is dim.Lu Mingyan has a very light and unique fragrance, which can only be smelled very close. Chi Heng was obsessed with it for a while. They just came back from the sweltering outdoors, and added a little bit of sweat to this cold fragrance. It is easy to confuse people, at least Chi Heng is.He stared blankly at Lu Mingyan's lips that occasionally parted slightly, and kissed him unexpectedly, he couldn't help it.The kiss was kissed, but Chi Heng was very shy, and left quickly after just rubbing his head, lowering his head and not looking directly at Lu Mingyan's expression.

Lu Mingyan was also startled, and raised his hand to touch the place where Chi Heng rubbed. The fresh touch left on his lips made him feel good, and he even wanted to try again.

He grabbed Chi Heng's wrist and pulled him over.

Chi Heng is unbelievably obedient, but also so astringent that it is almost stiff, not as attractive as the ripe sweetness, but that kind of greenness and innocence has its own unique beauty.

The room is dark, only the screen for watching movies is still shining.Chi Heng took a deep breath, as if mustering up his courage, before he dared to straddle the opponent's lap carefully.But when he got there, he wanted to withdraw, but Lu Mingyan refused, and clasped Chi Heng's waist with both hands.Chi Heng's collarbone was looming under the neckline, no matter how shy he was, he obeyed all the other's movements, took off the loose T-shirt from bottom to top, lowered his head, and accepted the kiss fearfully and sweetly.

Chi Heng's expression slowly became blurred, but there was always a kind of piety, and the gesture of opening himself unreservedly was like... a sacrifice, a little sacred and extremely serious.Lu Mingyan touched that private place earlier than Chi Heng himself. A few minutes ago, Chi Heng licked Lu Mingyan's fingers wet like a small animal, gently held and released them, and then, those wet fingers penetrated slightly hard. , Chi Heng hugged Lu Mingyan's shoulder tightly, couldn't take it anymore, so he bit it lightly, and sighed indistinctly from his throat.

The first time it was so painful that his whole body was numb, but Chi Heng didn't say anything, no matter what Lu Mingyan asked him, he bit his lip with sweat and answered in a trembling voice, I like it, I like it very much... Repeat this sentence like a demon Just because when Lu Mingyan kissed his chest little by little, the first thing he said was to ask him, do you like it?Then he kept repeating this sentence in a murmur, even when he asked if he wanted to wash it, he answered it in a daze.

Chi Heng was already dizzy, his expression was blurred and slightly drunk, but his eyes were exceptionally clear.

When he was young, he didn’t know what an “experimental product” was because he didn’t understand it. Later, when Chi Heng got older, he finally realized the “experimental product”, but he didn’t know the details very well, only because he was too special , so he was monitored and protected since he was a child, but he was not told in detail what was special about him.Chi Heng asked Lu Mingyan, Lu Mingyan only said, you will know in the future, believe me, the sooner you know, the better.

Chi Heng always obeyed his words without any doubt, and didn't ask any more questions.To a certain extent, what Lu Mingyan said did not seem to be wrong.It was probably at that time that he was really moved. After all, it was then that he was willing to coax Chi Heng a little bit.

Slowly, Chi Heng realized that something was wrong, because every time he had to undergo amnesia surgery, he asked why, and those people only said that it was for your own good.

After all, human beings are different from chemicals. They cannot be destroyed or discarded directly if they do not get results after one experiment. They have to continue for the second, third, and fourth times... Breeders have children at inappropriate ages such as underage or unplanned.Then this child is likely to be removed. It is said that the experimental product after abortion can no longer be used, because he has already developed psychological resistance or even hatred. It is almost impossible for him to continue to cooperate or to do it again after the age of 20.Therefore, amnesia is very necessary, so that they can forget all the past, and can solve troubles, so as to ensure that the test products are brand new every time, and every time is the first time.Later, this became a strict rule-clear memory regularly.

At first, what Chi Heng was afraid of was not the procedure of the operation, but the fear of forgetting Lu Mingyan.He said aggrievedly, I don’t want to forget you, and I don’t want to forget the past, but they always said no, and told me that if there was pain in the past, it’s better to forget it, and if there was no pain in the past, it’s okay to forget it.They also said that I can't be willful and want me to be obedient and cooperate. You say, I will listen to you.

In fact, when Chi Heng said these things, Lu Mingyan didn't feel much at that time, first of all, he knew it, and second, he didn't like Chi Heng very much.

Young Master Lu doesn't like to be clingy, so Chi Heng's enthusiasm feels like wishful thinking.But Chi Heng himself didn't feel that there was anything to be wronged, because he knew that Lu Mingyan's character was so lukewarm, and he was not too enthusiastic about people or things, so Chi Heng thought that he was so kind to himself, which already showed that he valued himself very much. , why think too much.

Chi Heng secretly prepared a notebook and began to develop the habit of secretly writing diaries, because he might forget these things in the future.In order to remember, he had to use this method.

On the first line of the notebook, what was written was not his own important personal information, but the words "I love him".It is followed by a small parenthesis, indicating who "I" is and who "he" is.

This notebook was burned long ago, and it is impossible to reappear.Of course, this is something.

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No matter how good Chi Heng's temper is, there are times when he can't bear it. After a few times in a row, he feels that something is wrong and the pain is extremely painful.Being forced to forget again and again is also protection?too uncomfortable.It was the day of routine cleaning again. A few days before that day, Chi Heng went to Lu Mingyan's house and begged him to help him.

He tugged at Lu Mingyan and said, can he stop accepting this kind of protection?I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life, I just want to be free and casual, can I apply to leave or quit?I can take care of myself if something goes wrong.And, isn't there you?We don't need to be protected by others.

At that time, Chi Heng didn't understand the connection between Lu Mingyan and those people, he thought it was just mutual acquaintance, he didn't know the details and depth, and Lu Mingyan never said anything.Of course, Chi Heng never thought that he and Lu Mingyan were actually arranged by those people deliberately.If he knew, he probably wouldn't be so obsessed with it, and would just stay away disappointed.

Lu Mingyan said, no.

Those two words were spoken very simply, and his face was always calm, which was exactly the same as when he gave all kinds of orders and decisions, and there was a taste of judgment.

He has a particularly determined aura, and most of the time he seems calm, as if nothing can be really taken to heart.

To put it mildly, it means not to be alarmed by anything, but to put it cruelly, it may be indifference.

Chi Heng bowed his head silently after receiving the sentence "judgment".But he still didn't give up and said, "there are so many of them, I can only go in obediently, but when the operation starts, the place will be cleared, and there are few people, so I will break free from them at that time, hurry up and run out, you help me open that door outside." Are the emergency exit doors okay?It cannot be opened from the inside, only from the outside.Can you help me escape?

Lu Mingyan said something, don't mess around, and then continued to work on his own business without further details.Indeed, he didn't take it seriously, he just felt that Chi Heng was joking or throwing a fit.

Chi Heng looked at the cold profile in front of him, and slowly let go of the hand he was holding on to.

At that moment, he suddenly realized that maybe he and Lu Mingyan were really people from two worlds.Unable to personally feel the situation and difficulties of the other party, being out of place and unable to blend and understand.

Chi Heng's stubborn temper was a little bit up, and he said a cruel sentence, "I always listen to you and never doubt it, but this time you listen to me, can't you? I just want to know what will happen if you don't forget, why? You must follow their orders, I would rather not have this kind of protection! I will wait until you promise me, if you don't agree, I won't leave..."

Lu Mingyan replied without raising his head, "It's up to you."

Chi Heng really got into a stalemate, staying at the Lu's house until very late and not leaving, gritted his teeth and sat on the sidelines, not willing to leave until Lu Mingyan agreed.

Lu Mingyan became more and more sure that he was throwing a temper tantrum, and felt that he only needed to appease him a few times, so he did just that.Chi Heng was still frowning at first, but then slowly softened, cuddling in the other's arms, his eyes softened.Lu Mingyan felt that it was almost coaxed, so he asked the butler to see the guests off.In fact, he could have stayed in Chiheng overnight, but he didn't do so, because he felt that he was a little strange, not in a good mood, that feeling like liking someone?No, you must keep your distance and draw a clear line.

Lu Mingyan didn't keep anyone, but fortunately Chi Heng was very cooperative, he just smiled and went out without saying a word.Originally, there was a driver to take him there, but Chi Heng said no, and wanted to walk alone.It was already very late at that time, Lu Mingyan refused to agree, his meaning was very clear, Chi Heng, you must go back to me.But after the driver sent Chi Heng back, he ran out again. It was pitch black outside. The driver didn't notice that someone was chasing the car. He didn't stop or slow down. Chi Heng ran hard for a while and soon couldn't keep up.Fortunately, I had some money with me, so I managed to stop a taxi before the heavy rain came down.

After Chi Heng got out of the car, he kept wandering outside the gate of Lu's house. He felt that Lu Mingyan hadn't agreed to help him, so he had to wait until he agreed if he couldn't leave.

Chi Heng has already noticed that Lu Mingyan seems to be deliberately alienating himself, although he doesn't understand why the other party is doing this, is it because he hates him or has done something wrong?Although aware of the alienation, he still has hope in his heart, and he still doesn't believe that the other party will really ignore him or care about him.But he couldn't help being afraid, afraid that the more he pestered him, the more annoying he would become.

Chi Heng called for the door outside, but after calling for a while, no one came, not to mention Lu Mingyan, not even the servants and security guards.Chi Heng thought that no one heard him, so he raised his voice a few degrees, but there was still no one.He didn't understand at that time, he shouted like this but no one came out, it wasn't that he didn't hear it, but he deliberately ignored it.

It's raining, and the rain in summer is very fast and often turns into a torrential rain that hurts the body within a few minutes.

The housekeeper kindly came to ask for instructions again, Lu Mingyan rubbed his eyebrows, and said a little tiredly, he naturally knew he had to leave when it was raining.

Just one sentence represents an order, and with this order, the huge land house, like a dark beast lying in the dark on a rainy night, is strict and motionless.

No one went out to answer, no one.

Chi Heng didn't leave, but grabbed the door rail with both hands, his voice was drowned out by the sound of rain, it was hard to hear anything.Maybe sometimes he is just stupid and ignorant of current affairs. He still believes that others are like this, and he doesn't know what supports his thinking.

I don't know how long it has passed, but anyway, I have reached the state where I can no longer feel the coldness after being drenched all over, and I don't feel the raindrops hitting my body.After a while, the rain stopped.Chi Heng thought to himself, we have to wait for the rainstorm, and we have to wait even more when the rain stops, otherwise the previous work will be in vain?

He started calling the door again, his voice was already hoarse.A few minutes later, someone finally came out, the security guard opened the iron gate for him, and the housekeeper took him in.

When Lu Mingyan saw Chi Heng for the first time, he was taken aback, but he suppressed the feeling in his heart and took a silent breath.When he spoke again, his tone was appropriately alienated and indifferent, "Go change your clothes." Then he said to the servant behind him, "Take him to the guest room."

Chi Heng opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but Lu Mingyan didn't give him this chance, put aside the two very short words just now, turned and went upstairs, without looking at Chi Heng again.