Love before marriage

After a long time, when Chi Heng fell asleep, Lu Mingyan gently pushed open the door of the guest room, and walked in slowly.

He touched Chi Heng's forehead, fortunately, he didn't have a fever and everything was normal.

Chi Heng slept with the blanket tightly covered, covering his face and airtight.Lu Mingyan pulled the blanket down a little, put his hand gently on Chi Heng's cheek, and looked at him quietly.

It's really abnormal. In the past, no matter what emotions, good or bad, as long as Lu Mingyan wanted to restrain them, he could easily restrain them, and would not be at the mercy of emotions or desires.But now I can't do it, and I feel extremely painful and tormented when I restrain myself.

He bent down and lowered his head to kiss Chi Heng, from his eyes to his lips. When he kissed his lips, Chi Heng was awakened. He was not a deep sleeper, and a little movement could make him open his eyes.

When Lu Mingyan saw him wake up, he was embarrassed for a moment. He stopped all movements and looked at Chi Heng quietly for a few seconds.Finally, he said "good night" softly and kissed Chi Heng's forehead before getting up to leave.

Chi Heng grabbed the front of his chest and said in a low voice: "A Yan, can you promise me? I've been waiting for your answer."

Lu Mingyan broke off Chi Heng's hand, "Even if I promise you, it's useless."

Chi Heng looked at him quietly, and suddenly asked: "Are you with them?"

Lu Mingyan's heart skipped a beat, but he didn't want to nod.At that moment, there seemed to be a feeling of fear, afraid to admit it?

"Don't think about it, Chen Chen, don't you believe me?" She always disdained lying, but now she actually said it.And use a rhetorical tone to cover up your guilty conscience.

Chi Heng said: "But you are alienating me now, A Yan, are you lying to me?"

Lu Mingyan was silent for a while, and said slowly: "Don't ask, if you keep asking, I will never recover."

Chi Heng was amused by him, and he really laughed, although Lu Mingyan's expression was not joking.

At that time, Chi Heng was easy to coax, he wouldn't cling to you and be stubborn, as long as you casually said a word, a hug, or a light kiss, he could make him forget all your bad things, and dispel all doubts.

Chi Heng blinked his eyes and said, "You stay." His tone was so soft that it was almost charming, with a slightly nasal voice and a thin hoarseness, like some kind of youthful temptation.

Lu Mingyan smiled lightly, endured for a while and found that he still couldn't resist, he took a deep breath, looked at Chi Heng, who was also looking at him.

Lu Mingyan got on the bed and hugged Chi Heng into his arms.

He couldn't help sighing, "Why are you so stupid? You don't even know how to go back when it rains."

"I'm not stupid," Chi Heng said, "You are the one who is stupid, you are deliberately alienating me."

Lu Mingyan was speechless, found Chi Heng's hand under the blanket, and clasped it.It seems that Chi Heng is right.It's not stupid at all to love someone so you pay for him.

—

Although Lu Mingyan and Chi Heng already had skin-to-skin contact, Lu Mingyan was very careful not to let Chi Heng have any accidents. He would not allow such stupid things as early pregnancy to happen.The moment he hugged Chi Heng, his heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably, and he wanted him very much, but suddenly thought that he would still not be able to escape the fate of having a child in the future, an inexplicable pain suddenly hit, Lu Mingyan hugged the person in his arms tightly, and Kissing his hair.

Chi Heng turned over, faced the other party, and asked: "Can you tell me what is so special about me, so special that I have been monitored and protected since I was a child. But I think I am exactly the same as you, nothing special .”

"Didn't I say that? The sooner you find out, the better. You'll be scared if you know now."

Chi Heng laughed, probably because he likes a person, even if he speaks the truth, he still thinks that he is trying to make himself happy patiently, Chi Heng is like this, he replied: "You say that, I want to know even more. "

Lu Mingyan paused for a few seconds, then lowered his tone, "You really want to know?"

"Think!" Chi Heng smiled and nodded, his eyes were bright, "Would you like to tell me?"

"Of course I would." Lu Mingyan found that Chi Heng was now in a happy state of laughing and playing. No matter what he said, he thought it was a joke or a sweet talk. Lu Mingyan didn't know why Chi Heng was so easy to be satisfied and happy, but he simply followed him. , began to tell a joke.

It has never happened before, now he voluntarily coaxes Chi Heng.

"I'd like to tell you, but I'm afraid you'll regret it later."

Chi Heng shook his head resolutely, "No, tell me."

Lu Mingyan gently pecked his lips, "I can't say that, I can only feel it."

Chi Heng was very happy to be coaxed by his few words, and gently tugged on Lu Mingyan's clothes, "Then let me understand..."

Lu Mingyan smiled, and suddenly pulled the blanket over the heads of the two of them, forming a very private small space.

The other party's breath immediately filled his whole body, and Chi Heng's voice subconsciously lowered, "What are you doing..."

Lu Mingyan squeezed his lips to silence him, and said in a low voice, "Stop talking from now on, I understand..."

—

That night there was a heavy cold rain again, the sound of the rain swallowed everything, and the darkness also swallowed everything.The more closed the environment is, the more I want to embrace each other eagerly, entangle my limbs, and absorb each other's body temperature.

Lu Mingyan touched Chi Heng's skin with his tongue, and slid along the route of unbuttoning his clothes.Chi Heng is always so obedient by his side that it is almost unbearable, as if no matter how much he touches and caresses him, he is a little bit reluctant, but the two contradictory emotions of pity and irresistible possession are often paired in a man's heart , Consciousness.

—

A few years later, Qi Ran came and brought a whole medical team over to be a competent subordinate. Afterwards, Lu Mingyan took the initiative to ask for an operation together.Maybe it's just because Chi Heng said a word to him. It's not good. Without memory, you don't have a sense of belonging. It's terrible. You are a stranger to this world. If you don't believe me, try it, you will also be afraid of that feeling .

And Chi Heng also asked him, will there be sequelae if this kind of operation is performed too much?How many years of life will be lost, or will it increase the risk of brain cancer?Chi Heng smiled, I must live shorter than you, you can accompany me for the rest of your life, but I cannot accompany you.

When he said these words, he was also in a soft tone, just stating the facts, not resenting anything.He didn't know how to hate at that time.

—

Chi Heng loves his age, he has always been his judge, he is indifferent, loves but does not want to love.

Chi Heng doesn't love his age, but he has been his lover all the time. His love is getting deeper and deeper, but he doesn't dare to get close to him.

Arrived an hour later, it was already two o'clock in the morning.When the car stopped, Lu Mingyan took the top-heavy Chi Heng out of the car, and took his hand all the way inside.Chi Heng's footsteps were a bit shallow, he blinked tiredly, looked up and looked around, he found that this was not Lu's house, the environment was familiar, it seemed to be...the neighborhood they lived in before.

The unit buildings stand tall, brightly lit, quiet and quiet.

Take the elevator directly to the door, and open the door directly with your fingerprint.

The living room light was still on.The interior is spotless, the sofa and carpet are matched, and even the flowers and plants in the pots are stained with water droplets.The house has a warm and elegant atmosphere everywhere, waiting for its owner to return.It seems that nothing has changed, everything is harmonious and beautiful as before.

—

Lu Mingyan grabbed Chi Heng's hand and led him to the bedroom, "You are very tired today, go to bed early, and take a hot bath tomorrow morning."

My eyes are sore, I don't know if it's because I'm too tired or because of something else.Chi Heng lowered his head and said softly, "Is Lu Xu here? I want to see the child."

"Yes, he fell asleep." Lu Mingyan stretched out his hand to unbutton Chi Heng's clothes, took off his coat and put it aside, "Go and have a look, then come and sleep."

The house is not big, with two bedrooms and two study rooms.

One of the smaller bedrooms was transformed into a baby room, repainted, reorganized the layout, warm colors, high-end cribs, small pink stars hanging on the curtains, and even the curtains were replaced with supplementary.

Lu Xu just came back today, but obviously this layout cannot be completed in one day.It seems that Lu Mingyan has planned and prepared long ago, and he will definitely do what he is determined to do.

Lu Xu also cried exhausted tonight, the child will naturally fall asleep when he is tired.Those who work for the Lu family are all very smart. Lu Mingyan doesn't need to be distracted from such trivial matters as raising and coaxing the children. Someone will arrange for a special aunt to come over.Lu Xu was coaxed to be more obedient, and took milk powder again at night, babbling and babbling for a while, but still didn't see Chi Heng, no matter how disappointed she couldn't bear the tiredness, she soon fell asleep.After arranging the child carefully, the aunt left.

When Chi Heng passed by, the baby was asleep in the crib, his little face flushed.

It wasn't until that moment that Chi Heng really let go of the big stone in his heart. Seeing that Lu Xu was well and stable, Chi Heng's brows and eyes softened a little.He walked over, squatted down, and knelt on the floor with one knee. He stared quietly for a while, then reached his hand through the railing of the crib, and gently touched Lu Xu's face.

This is the first time the baby has been separated from Chi Heng since he was so old. He was afraid and restless after not seeing Chi Heng, and he was not very stable in his sleep. He frowned and clenched his fist. When Chi Heng touched it, Lu Xu moved. Yes, this small movement can startle him, so it can be seen that he did not sleep very well.

Lu Xu groaned, her eyelashes fluttered a few times, as if she was about to wake up.

Chi Heng's heart ached, he got up and bent over, and picked up the child.

The awakened child starts to cry subconsciously, before the eyes are fully opened.

Chi Heng hugged him and coaxed him, calling him "Xuxu" softly.

Xiao Bao found out that it was a familiar feeling, he opened his eyes wide and looked at the person who was hugging him, he was stunned.Chi Heng kissed him on the cheek, "Can't you recognize Dad after only seeing him for one night?"

Xiao Bao blinked his big tearful eyes, and after confirming that it was his father, he pursed his mouth aggrievedly, and plunged into Chi Heng's arms.

Chi Heng caressed the child's soft back, "Father shouldn't wake you up, you cry when you wake up."

Xiaobao raised his head from Chi Heng's arms again, stared at it for a few seconds with teary eyes, reconfirmed that it was his father, and stretched out his two small arms to hug Chi Heng, and buried his face in Chi Heng's arms, tightly Tight, drill in, like a puppy.

Sure enough, only "Ma Ma" is good in the world, Xiaobao is extremely well-behaved as soon as he arrives in Chi Heng's arms, and finally he is willing to settle down, moaning softly for a while, acting coquettishly, wiping his tears and nose on Chi Heng's lapel , and soon fell asleep with his pillow on Chi Heng's shoulder. This time he slept so deeply that Chi Heng shook him twice without waking him up.

—

Lu Mingyan stood at the door, waiting patiently for Chi Heng and the child to part reluctantly, and for Chi Heng to put the child back on the crib.He just walked over, put his arms around Chi Heng's shoulders, and whispered in his ear: "The child is asleep, let's go."

Chi Heng followed Lu Mingyan back to the next bedroom. He sat on the edge of the bed, bowed his head and was silent for a while.

Lu Mingyan said, "Why are you sitting? Take off your clothes and lie down."

Chi Heng's face was suddenly embarrassed, and after hesitating for a few seconds, he still asked: "Are you...going to bed?" I don't know whether it was because of fatigue or the fear hidden deep in his heart, which made his voice a little hoarse. Not as clear and smooth as usual.

Lu Mingyan put down the towel in his hand, and stood up slowly, "So you are worried about this." He was standing sideways, and Chi Heng was sitting at the end of the bed. From his angle, he couldn't see the expression on Lu Mingyan's face, at most he could only see To a little side profile.Lu Mingyan is tall, and the angle is against the light. Looking up like this, it is easy to feel oppressive.

Coupled with the embarrassing experience of being unable to fight back a few times before, Chi Heng is indeed a little... afraid now, it is really difficult to be as natural and easy-going as if nothing happened before.

Especially the last time when he was exposed on the spot and confronted nakedly, that kind of humiliation and embarrassment seems to be still there until now.

Lu Mingyan came over and sat down beside Chi Heng.

Chi Heng remained motionless with a cold face, but his left hand had unconsciously and unconsciously tightened his grip on the bed sheet.

Lu Mingyan hugged Chi Heng lightly, Chi Heng frowned slightly, suppressed and restrained but did not make any movements, there was a faint pain of having to succumb on his face, he closed his eyes tightly.

It's not Xiaobai who doesn't know anything about human affairs. From the moment he was brought back, Chi Heng knew what might happen.They all entered his house with someone, whether it was forced or voluntary, did they still expect the other party to just chat together?

Chi Heng compromised, he had to, at least on the surface.He didn't resist. Although his body was as stiff as a stone, Lu Mingyan must have noticed it, but he still pressed Chi Heng on the bed, supported his elbows, and leaned gently on Chi Heng.

Chi Heng kept his face tilted, his face expressionless, but his breathing was slightly rapid, his chest heaved and heaved.

"With your personality, you shouldn't be afraid of anything. Why, are you afraid of this?"

Chi Heng gritted his teeth and did not speak.

"I didn't see you afraid in the consultation room. You're still very proactive, although it's an act." Lu Mingyan's dull tone sounded like a warning to Chi Heng.

He clutched the bed sheet again and again, frowning deeply, "Stop talking..."

Lu Mingyan said: "Chi Heng, I like you to take the initiative." I don't know if this sentence is a joke or a deliberate sarcasm, or is it just an order?Chi Heng didn't understand what it meant, and didn't want to guess.He clearly felt the other party's fingers slide from his cheeks to his neck, and then from his Adam's apple to his collarbone...

Chi Heng's whole portrait was pulled up, and it was painful.He was really afraid that he would not be able to hold on.

Lu Mingyan sighed softly.very subtle.

After that, Chi Heng felt that strong sense of oppression disappeared, and turned his head to see that Lu Mingyan had already got up.

He suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Go to sleep." Lu Mingyan said lightly, then turned and left.

Chi Heng was left alone in the bedroom.Lu Mingyan didn't come in even after the lights were turned off.He knew that Chi Heng still had a gap in his heart, especially since he used this method to force people to come back, obey, and submit.Chi Heng was enduring and restraining, but at the same time he was also afraid, Lu Mingyan noticed it.If the two of them share the same bed tonight, Chi Heng will definitely not be able to sleep.

Lu Mingyan had expected this early in the morning, so he took a blanket and went to sleep on the sofa.

As expected, Chi Heng fell asleep much faster by himself.Lu Mingyan couldn't fall asleep, so he took off the blanket and walked into the bedroom.He looked at Chi Heng, bent down and kissed him.Of course, a very light kiss will not wake people up.

All affectionate kisses can only be carried out after Chi Heng falls asleep.It was impossible when Chi Heng was awake.

Up to now, all kinds of cruel words have been said, all kinds of methods have been used, and Chi Heng has even seen the coldest and cruelest side of himself. What can be redeemed after the matter is over?Maybe it's not irretrievable, it's okay to grind slowly and melt slowly.But Lu Mingyan didn't want to, he was not that kind of person.

He has always only focused on results in doing things, and all means are just processes.He hopes and is confident that he can give Chi Heng relative stability and happiness, which only he can give, and this is the result he wants.And the faster the process, the better.

—

Chi Heng slept for a long time this time, and he didn't open his eyes at noon the next day. It was Lu Mingyan who came to wake him up.He stripped Chi Heng out of the quilt, hugged him and sat up, "Get up and eat, don't sleep."

Chi Heng was stunned, rubbed his eyes and woke up.

"Get up first, you have to eat something, and you can sleep after eating."

Lu Mingyan dressed very homely today. The white shirt was not ironed, so there were inevitably some soft wrinkles, the sleeves were rolled up casually, and the trousers were also soft and casual.Perhaps it was because of this attire that made him look less forceful and indifferent.

"Come over after changing clothes." Seeing that he was already awake, Lu Mingyan ordered him to leave the bedroom.

Chi Heng came back to his senses, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

As soon as I arrived at the restaurant, I found one big and one small sitting at the table and staring at each other.

"Lu Xu is obedient, how can you be a picky eater at such a young age, eat this quickly." Lu Mingyan knocked on the table with his hand, urging him, his face looked majestic but he was a little helpless.

Lu Xu sat motionless on the chair, looking unhappy, and of course did not eat.

Lu Mingyan stuffed the spoon into Xiaobao's hand, and then let go, and Xiaobao threw the spoon on the ground shamelessly.

Before Lu Mingyan could say anything, Xiaobao jumped off the chair, turned around and ran away.It seems to be very angry.Just when Chi Heng came out of the bedroom, Xiao Bao threw himself into his arms as soon as he saw him.Chi Heng stroked the child's head soothingly, and went to the dining table to have a look.The child's bowl contained milk and eggs, and the eggs were still whole.No wonder Xiaobao lost his temper.He didn't have a good impression of Lu Mingyan in the first place. His first impression was probably "terrible uncle". Then, this strange uncle let his father separate from him. He must be a bad person. Now, he still wants to force himself to eat such unpalatable food. Worse and nastier.

Chi Heng took the bowl to the kitchen and threw it away.

Lu Xu followed Chi Heng all the time, and became obviously happy after seeing his father throw it away.

Chi Heng opened the cupboard and saw that there were a lot of things in it, and they were all full.It is estimated that Lu Mingyan didn't know what to buy for the child, so he bought everything and filled a large cabinet.Chi Heng glanced roughly, and found that at least half of them were not eaten by Lu Xu or were not suitable for Lu Xu's age group.

Finally, he disassembled the rice noodles, cut the fresh vegetables into shreds and cubes, boiled two more eggs, removed the egg whites, mashed the egg yolks and added them to the rice noodles, cooked them together on a low heat, finally added a little seasoning for children, and turned off the heat .

Lu Xu didn't even want to go to the table, so he took the bowl of vegetable rice noodles that Chi Heng had cooked for him, trotted to the living room, put the bowl on the coffee table, sat on the carpet and started eating.He is not very good at eating by himself, his face is covered with paste.

Chi Heng wiped him clean with a wet towel, "Slow down, no one will grab you."

Lu Xu didn't use the spoon anymore, and picked it up to drink.Chi Heng quickly cut it over, "I'll choke, you little fool." It's very thick, with vegetables and egg yolks, it's easy to choke if you drink too much.Sure enough, the little BMW coughed and choked.

Whenever he is with children, Chi Heng will smile from the bottom of his heart, and that is the moment when he can really relax.Chi Heng would not initiate a conversation, even if the two were under the same roof.It's not that he hasn't tried looking for a house and looking for a job again, but the result can be imagined.Chi Heng didn't know how Lu Mingyan could do it, while pressing him step by step without leaving any retreat, and at the same time being gentle, considerate and meticulous to himself.

Lu Mingyan didn't restrict Chi Heng's actions, but it left him with nowhere to go except here.The work unit also resigned him.Lu Mingyan never mentioned this matter, and Chi Heng couldn't help but confront him.He gave Chi Heng two keys, one for the house and the other for the shop.Who said there is no limit, isn't that what it is.It really fits Mr. Lu's style.

A few days ago, Lu Mingyan was very relaxed with Chi Heng, not interfering much, Chi Heng didn't want to talk, so he didn't talk, the two sides were silent, each doing its own thing.This kind of relaxed atmosphere is no different from living alone, which relieved Chi Heng a lot, at least not as contradictory as it was at the beginning, if he can keep doing this without affecting each other, he can bear it.But the good times didn't last long, and the atmosphere quickly became tense again.

That night, when Lu Mingyan came back from the suburbs, Qi Ran had just finished talking to him about the video tape.