Love before marriage

During the weeks when Chi Heng was taking care of his body, Lu Mingyan pampered him very much, letting him do almost everything, even the doctor's examination time was in line with Chi Heng's schedule, and Chi Heng never needed to make any changes.The medicine that he had to drink every day was very bitter, and after drinking a large bowl, Chi Heng often lost his appetite to eat again.Lu Mingyan would divide a bowl of medicine into several small portions. The first portion would be mixed with honey poria cocos paste, and fed to Chi Heng during breakfast, and the second portion would be mixed into the tea, which could be drunk when drinking tea. It turns out that the third portion is mixed with the nutrient solution, and the fourth portion is for Chi Heng to drink alone, so that the bitterness will be greatly reduced and will not affect appetite.

What Chi Heng eats every day is designed and made by a dedicated nutritionist and chef. Lu Mingyan is so happy that he always makes all kinds of food, and often feeds Chi Heng himself.Chi Heng wanted to come by himself, but sometimes he refused to let him.Feed something, he sniffs and tastes it, although he doesn’t pick and choose and say he doesn’t like this or that, but he does have preferences, he will quickly eat up what he likes, and he doesn’t like it The food just sits there all the time without poking it.

Following Chi Heng is one thing, but on the other hand Lu Mingyan also takes Chi Heng very closely.Every time Chi Heng wants to go out, he will definitely be there, or arrange for Qi Ran to accompany him, and he will not let Chi Heng go alone or accompanied by a few nurses.

Lu Mingyan was afraid that Chi Heng would run away.

Chi Heng felt Lu Mingyan's control over him, but he didn't understand what was the point of the other party's doing so. Once he recovered, he would be completely free to go wherever he wanted. No matter how tight the control is now, what's the use?Perhaps, Lu Mingyan was just worried that something would happen to him if he was not careful, that's why he was like this... Chi Heng thought.

Probably no matter how many things he has experienced, Chi Heng may not learn to use bad intentions and malice to deliberately speculate on others.

Chi Heng felt uncomfortable because later, Lu Mingyan began to limit the time he spent with Lu Xu.

It's not that he deliberately felt sorry for Chi Heng, but it was intentional to make Lu Xu not depend on or reduce his dependence on Chi Heng. The father and son are like conjoined twins.

Chi Heng can now get out of bed and walk for some activities, but Lu Mingyan won't let him take Lu Xu out to play, saying that accidents are easy to happen.The general manager arranged for the nurse and the children's doctor to take Lu Xu out, and when Lu Xu came back to stay with Chi Heng, Lu Mingyan drove him to take a shower and sleep after a while.There are two beds in a ward, but Lu Mingyan didn't let Lu Xu sleep here, he let Lu Xu have a separate room.The time spent with children has been significantly reduced, and Chi Heng is not very happy, but Qi Ran and the psychologist told him that being too close and doting is not good for children, and children need care and love from many aspects to grow up, even if you alone can Give him more than enough, but still single or unsound after all.

Several doctors persuaded him for several days in a row, and Lu Mingyan insisted on doing this without wavering or softening his heart. Slowly, Chi Heng had to adapt, but he still felt sad, because Xiaobao grew up slowly, not Stick to him like before.

Although the base is big, it is closed. It is full of people inside, routine, polite and alienated. Almost everyone knows Chi Heng, and Chi Heng does not see a single outsider all day long.That night, he took the initiative to ask Lu Mingyan for the first time, "Can you transfer me to a hospital in the city? Doctor Cheng's hospital is fine. Here... I can't stay any longer."

"Okay, I'll transfer tomorrow, and I'll tell them tonight." Lu Mingyan was peeling apples, and when he heard Chi Heng's words, he immediately agreed.He cut up the apple and handed a small piece to Chi Heng's mouth.After all, Chi Heng wanted something from him, so he hesitated for a while and opened his mouth to eat.

Lu Mingyan smiled, and fed him a few more pieces, which Chi Heng ate one by one.

Naturally, he didn't have intercourse during his recovery period, but except for the first night, he let Chi Heng sleep alone, because Chi Heng had just finished the operation that day and couldn't touch the incision. Every day after that, Lu Mingyan hugged Chi Heng every night sleep together.

When Chi Heng was not asleep, he turned his back to Lu Mingyan and remained motionless, but once he really fell asleep, his breathing would become even and long, and he would slowly rub against him, sometimes turning over, with his head resting on Lu Mingyan Neck there.

The next day, Chi Heng was transferred to the city. Dr. Cheng's hospital was also the place where Lu Xu was expected to give birth.

Every time I go to the old place, there will always be a feeling that things are different.

There are bustling traffic outside, densely packed shops on both sides, pedestrians walking on both sides of the road and on the overpass, although sitting in the car can't hear the sound of the outside world, but can feel the lively and noisy atmosphere.It's been a long time since I've been like this, and it's been so long that I almost forgot what a normal life should be like.

Everything that ever was is within easy reach.But the distance between Chi Heng and this "once" is the farthest in the world.

Everything is and everything is not.

With Lu Xu in Chi Heng's arms, the little guy followed his father's example and focused on looking out the window, but he certainly couldn't imitate his father's mood.

The surgical incision has almost healed, and the recovery is coming to an end, otherwise Lu Mingyan would not let Lu Xu sit on Chi Heng's lap and press on Chi Heng's stomach.

Chi Heng and Dr. Cheng naturally had something to say, but Lu Mingyan didn't let them chat for a long time, and Chi Heng's current body was not suitable for a long chat. After half an hour, Lu Mingyan reminded that Dr. Cheng also understood, so he said goodbye and left.

Chi Heng was unusually obedient and quiet that day, in fact he was usually quiet enough but that day was even worse.It may be because of touching the scene and thinking about the past, or it may be because of the soft mouth of others and "begging for softness". When Lu Mingyan hugged him, usually he would resist or walk away indifferently, but this time he didn't, although it was impossible to take the initiative, But this kind of acquiescence was already so wonderful that Lu Mingyan couldn't put it down and hugged him for a while longer. Then, he lifted Chi Heng's chin, lowered his head to kiss him, and gently bit the pale pink lips.

Chi Heng's lips are very soft, it seems that it will melt like honey between the other's lips and teeth as soon as he uses force.

Every time I kiss, it will be very troublesome. I really want to bite, suck or hold the soft lips to suck up the honey in my mouth, but at the same time, I am reluctant to ravage so hard.It's the same for Chi Heng's body, that body always lures people to get more inside, makes people want to crush it, but doesn't want to give up, wants him to cry but at the same time is afraid of really hurting him.

But the fact is that often when Lu Mingyan was still hovering between the two, Chi Heng was already hurt by him.

One minute later, Chi Heng groaned slightly in his arms, shrank back, and wanted to stop the kiss.

But Lu Mingyan couldn't help hugging him even tighter, grabbing the pleats from the waistline of the shirt.He hasn't touched Chi Heng for a while.

Chi Heng was a little out of breath from being kissed, and so was Lu Mingyan. He finally let go of Chi Heng a little.While panting, the water-colored lips parted slightly, revealing the small white teeth inside—it seemed even more alluring.

Lu Mingyan hesitated for a second, and kissed him again. Chi Heng resisted for a while, but he grabbed his hands.With more and more force, he pushed Chi Heng onto the bed.

When he was emotional, he was so forgetful that Lu Mingyan even forgot, and the door was not closed tightly.

Suddenly, a childish voice sounded, "Uncle Lu, you are bullying my father again!"

The sudden sound of "accusation" caught people off guard, no matter how calm Lu Mingyan was, he would have to be slightly startled, and his arms around Chi Heng loosened, and Chi Heng quickly took the opportunity to break away.

The little Lu Xu was standing by the bed, looking eagerly at the two adults. He seemed to have stood there for more than a while, probably because he had observed some kind of "pushing and tearing".He clenched his fists tightly and protested to Lu Mingyan, "You want to make Dad cry again..." Lu Xu hugged Chi Heng's leg.

Chi Heng was almost ashamed to death when he heard that, the blood from all over his body rushed to his face, almost as if it would explode.

Lu Mingyan opened his mouth and was about to say something, but Chi Heng picked up Lu Xu before he could, turned around and walked out, walking with all his might.

Lu Xu was carried by two arms in the air like a rabbit.He was puzzled at first, he didn't know why his father took him away suddenly, could he not beat him?But anyway, it was Dad who was carrying him, so there was no need to be afraid. His two legs were dangling in the air, and he started humming.

Chi Heng stopped and put Lu Xu down, and both father and son reached the end of the corridor.

Chi Heng knelt down to help Lu Xu's shoulder, and said seriously, "Xuxu, don't remember this."

Lu Xu was puzzled, and complained loudly, "Uncle Lu bullied you!"

Chi Heng was extremely helpless and blamed himself, he really didn't know how to explain it.I can't say a word that can be heard by children.

This was an episode of that day, which caused Chi Heng to regain his indifference, and Lu Mingyan couldn't even hug him.

In the next few days, there were a few episodes.When Lu Mingyan was here, there was no one else in the room, and he didn't let anyone else visit Chi Heng.Only when Lu Mingyan went out would others have a chance to come in.One of the episodes was that Chi Heng met Xie Tang again.

After a few words of pleasantries, the scene was silent.

Xie Tang was no longer able to find many topics to talk to Chi Heng like before.

A moment of silence.

Chi Heng said: "You must be very busy now, this trip took up a lot of your time, you should go back quickly."

Xie Tang looked at Chi Heng. For some reason, he felt that Chi Heng was covered in a very thick and cold fog. Chi Heng was also cold before, but not like this now. Under the indifference, there was a kind of...sadness?Xie Tang was not sure.He stretched out his hand suddenly, but he barely retracted halfway, choked his throat hard, and the thousand words became only one sentence, "Are you really doing well?"

Chi Heng was silent for a moment, then nodded silently.

Xie Tang laughed, "Chi Heng, how come you will never learn to lie."

Chi Heng was taken aback for a moment, clenched his hands and then loosened them, but remained speechless.Many things do not need to let others know.

"That bastard Lu Mingyan..." Xie Tang scolded in a low voice, "Didn't he love you like that! Why did he still hurt you?!"

Chi Heng said: "Doctor Xie, thank you for coming to see me, I have already wasted a lot of your time, don't waste it for me..." These words are all puns.

How could Xie Tang not understand, he took a deep breath, "I'm leaving now, Chi Heng, you can still treat me as a friend, if you need help with anything, just come to me, if you want to beat Lu Mingyan, you can also come to me... "

Chi Heng smiled lightly and remained silent.

"Chi Heng, I still want to ask you, do you have any regrets...even if it's only for a moment, a thought, have you ever thought that it would be better to be with me than now? Even if you regret it for half a second?"

Chi Heng looked up at him, his eyes were as clear and clean as ever.

"I never think about impossible things, and I certainly don't regret them."

Xie Tang nodded, said nothing more, waved his hand and left, and the room returned to silence.

After all, this place is not in the base, so it is less restricted by Lu Mingyan and more popular. During this period, even Su Kai and Bai Chen came to see Chi Heng, so it must be because of Lu Mingyan's absence.

After all, they are people who have seen a lot of things in the world, those two can afford it, but they can also let it go, and the apology is straightforward and unequivocal.Enmity belongs to love and hatred, apology belongs to apology, two different things.

Bai Chen was still unwilling, so he sneered a few words, those words were very strange, Chi Heng didn't quite understand them.

"Lu Mingyan is just drinking poison to quench his thirst. You will hate him more and more every time. It's really a good show."

"Chi Heng, you impress me, and you are much more interesting than Lu Mingyan. I really hope you can continue to surprise me."

There were many similar words, but Chi Heng didn't remember them one by one, he didn't understand these words, forget it if he didn't understand, and soon forgot.

Su Kai also came here, and apologized as soon as he came, saying, I really didn't know that you were pregnant with Lu Mingyan's child again at that time, if I knew you were pregnant, I wouldn't... Chi Heng didn't want to hear these words at all, so he called Stop, ask, when will I see my father?It was said within a month!

You still remember, Su Kai smiled, but I think it's meaningless for you to see him now.

You say it's meaningless?Chi Heng scolded coldly, just keep your promise!Don't worry about whether it makes sense!

Su Kai is still gentle, he knows a lot of things, what has happened and what will happen soon, but he is silent like a trick, playing with a small chip all the time, and finally, he left a word and left.

"I will keep my promise. I'm afraid that it will be you instead...you won't come to me anymore."

no longer.

No more, seems to mean farewell...

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The days passed by in the blink of an eye, Chi Heng's body had gradually recovered, and the fetus in his belly was just ready to be beaten.

Now, all people and things have changed beyond recognition. Even if he loves Lu Mingyan, even if he is with Lu Mingyan, they are no longer "together" as before.He finally understands, and he has to understand, to stick the broken vases together like others, and then tell himself that this is good, but he still knows it in his heart!What's the use?

Do you live a life of deceiving yourself and others?

Qi Ran injected anesthesia into Chi Heng, and Chi Heng's consciousness began to be in a trance, erratic, gradually hazy, and then slowly fell asleep.Before losing consciousness, Chi Heng was still thinking vaguely that it would be Lu Xu's birthday soon, and he would be four years old.At that time, I will make a cake for Xiaobao with my own hands, and weave a red birthday hat for him to wear. In previous years, Chi Heng also made hats, but the child grows fast. The ones we woven last year will be smaller this year, and we have to make new ones every year.

The newly woven hat this year is not the usual red, but blue. I wonder if Lu Xu will like it?

The effect of the anesthesia began to play, and the whole body was limp and unable to exert any strength.

At that moment, Chi Heng was inexplicably flustered, maybe it was just fear, after all he wanted to cut a life out of his body.Chi Heng wanted to struggle to get up, even if he wanted to hug Lu Xu, he was really scared and flustered.

Tears dripped down the corners of his eyes, Chi Heng finally closed his eyes heavily, and completely lost consciousness, he didn't see, at that moment, the deep sadness in Qi Ran's eyes.

The night before he was pushed into the operating room, Lu Mingyan held him in his arms for the whole night.