Watching you quietly outside the window

In this noisy city, the night will not be indifferent to the hustle and bustle. The shops on the street are next to each other, and all kinds of archways are lit up. The lights are bright, no less than the light of day and day, but even more dazzling.

Lan Ye walked along the bicycle lane for about 40 minutes. The dense and uneven building rooms, a white high-rise building inlaid with white marble bricks, was reflected in the colorful buildings. The red letter: People's Hospital.Lan Ye parked the bicycle under the wall, squatted down, and locked the rear wheel of the bicycle.

"I knew you were here!" said a deep and magnetic male voice.

Lan Ye suddenly raised her head, seeing the man tremble reflexively, "Mr. Wang..." he murmured, and hurriedly stood up.

"Go to that crappy shed to see if you're not there, so I'll drive over here." The man pushed Lan Ye to the corner alone, and Lan Ye subconsciously made a move, which made several passers-by look over curiously.The man smiled sullenly, let go of Lan Ye, and said in a low voice: "Mr. Wang opened his mouth and shut his mouth. Mr. Wang, it makes people angry, as if we have a good relationship."

"Isn't it?" Lan Ye said coldly.

The man stared at him, as if he was going to eat him, and said fiercely: "Before you speak, pay attention to your position, you can't do without mine."

Lan Ye turned her face sideways, frowned, her Adam's apple moved, and swallowed her saliva clearly.

"I'll give you half an hour, come and find me in the garage."

Lan Ye didn't speak, and walked into the hospital under the gaze of the man.

There weren't many people waiting for the elevator. They didn't take a long line like in the morning or at noon until they reached the gate of the hospital. There were only a few people standing at each elevator entrance.An elevator opened, and Lan Ye rushed in, and then the rest of the people rushed in. The elevator was squeezed until the flesh was tightly attached to the flesh, and there were still people going up, and there was already a piercing beep in the elevator. The sound, the security guard on the side shouted: "The elevator is overloaded, how many people get off! Those who get up later!" The security guard pointed at the people who were still rubbing inside.After several people were forced down, the elevator was finally able to close the door.

Lan Ye stood at the innermost, and he said to the elevator attendant, "Help me press the 30th floor."

A Qian Erdeng helped spread the word: "The guy behind said the 30th floor!"

The elevator attendant pressed 30 impatiently.

After going up and down for more than ten minutes, when they reached the 30th floor, Lan Ye ran out anxiously, and bumped into the Qianerdeng who had sent the message just now. Qianerdeng shouted resentfully in the elevator: "Why can't you walk?" Long eyes? The big guy looks quite honest..."

Lan Ye ran into the inpatient area, and ran along the corridor, 3027, he stopped to rest for a while, then turned the doorknob lightly, the light was on in the room, and he breathed a sigh of relief. "Lan Ye, you are here." A weak and gentle female voice came from the room.He walked in, and the woman inside was lying on the hospital bed with infusions on both arms. Seeing Lan Ye, the woman sat up with difficulty, and Lan Ye felt sad for a while, and her throat had already started to choke, "Mom..." He couldn't say anymore Go down, don't turn your head, after a while, he turned around, "Mom, eat well, don't stop eating if you can't eat..."

"Is the living expenses given by the adoptive father enough? Is the school curriculum tight?" The woman smiled softly, which touched the weakest part of Lan Ye's heart. He held back his tears, but the tears turned into snot and flowed from his nose. Wipe it off with a tissue, "It's all good, all is good, everything is good... Mom, don't worry."

"Mom can't take care of you, and has become your burden..."

"Why? I'm fine, Mom, don't think that way..." Lan Yeyu said in a hurry, "You just try to take good care of your body...you can only do surgery when you take care of yourself..." If you have In the mirror, he must have red eye circles in the mirror, but the woman on the hospital bed is so strong, she has suffered far more pain than him, the illness has tortured her body to pieces, but she has always kept smiling in front of him , How much will it take to be able to do this?But she was smiling for him, she was his spiritual support, he couldn't imagine what would happen without her, and he didn't dare to think about it...

The woman stroked his cheek and looked at him with a sense of accomplishment. There seemed to be a ray of hope in her eyes, which was just a hope for him. She said, "Mom is fine here. If you are busy, you don't have to keep busy Come here." The woman hugged him with her thin, bone-protruding arms, and although she was so weak, she gave him the motivation to persevere no matter how hard it was... At that moment, how much he wished that he was the one who got sick. He can let her continue to guard him, maybe that way, he won't be in such pain...

"It's almost 10 o'clock. There's still class tomorrow. You should go home early." The woman still said softly.

Lan Ye slowly walked to the door of the ward, his footsteps were so heavy that it was extremely difficult to move a small step, he forced a smile, "Mom, I will come to see you in two days." He ran out without looking back, he knew , if he turns back, he can't leave at all.

It was late at night, except for the 24-hour fast food restaurants and grocery stores, most of the other stores were closed, and the clothing stores and large restaurants that were attracting customers by riding donkey songs stopped making noise. It was finally quiet, and the street lights were pale yellow. The halo of light drifts into the dark blue night one by one, no matter how strong the light is, it cannot illuminate the endless night... Looking up at the starry sky, all I can see is confusion. Tears flow down my cheeks unconsciously, and my eyes are wrapped in tears. His vision was already hazy... Lan Ye wiped away his tears, took out a pack of cigarettes from his school bag, put one in his mouth and lit it, he took a deep breath, and then slowly sent it out with a sigh, the smoke Gradually spread out in the air, like an invisible ghost, torn apart by a ruthless demon... The choking smell of nicotine echoed in the nasal cavity, and the bitter taste seemed to calm the unbearable pain in his heart, making him forget the truth, I am still alive...

When one cigarette burned out, he lit another one and smoked one after another until he smoked all the remaining cigarettes in the cigarette case. Crumpled up, he tossed the pack into the curbside dumpster and headed for the garage.

Dim incandescent lamps only come on after a long distance, the garage is damp and cold, Lan Ye tightens his clothes.A black jeep turned on its headlights, and he walked over. The man rolled up the window and said, "Get in." He smiled like a beast.

Lan Ye got into the car, and the moment the car door was closed, the man hugged Lan Ye and kissed him frantically, his tongue was messing around in his mouth, and he bit the tip of his tongue roughly.Lan Ye frowned, the man sucked his lips even more violently, kissed his face, forcefully tore off the buttons on his collar, kissed along the smooth and tight curve of his neck to the protruding collarbone, and then kissed him on the collarbone After nibbling hard, Lan Ye let out a suppressed sigh, "Mr. Wang...don't be like this..."

"Have you ever smoked a cigarette?" The man stretched his slender palms into Lan Ye's clothes, stroking his fair skin and rosy skin... "Why don't we just do it here, huh?" Gradually waking up, he clings to Lan Ye and panting heavily, staring at Lan Ye with sharp eyes, full of lust. "Don't...don't do this..." Lan Ye avoided the man's sight.At this time, a group of people came down from the top, and some of them got drunk at the sight, and went to chat with the two cars next to the jeep.Lan Ye drove out of the car in a panic, her body trembling uncontrollably.The man kissed Lan Ye on the cheek and sat up, "Look, it scares you, it won't be interesting to continue playing." He started the jeep, slowed down his speech, and said in a low voice, "I'll fuck you when I go home."

The car drove through the streets with serious light pollution. Lan Ye put his head out of the car window, letting the cold evening wind blow on his body. The sound of playing, hawking, and even quarreling... so clearly passed by his ears, he felt as if he was isolated from this noisy world, leaving only infinite loneliness and sadness... Some people say that human Family affection is fixed and innate, but love and friendship need to be found by oneself... and what about me?Even the only family relationship is almost gone... Lan Ye exhaled, his vision began to blur, tears rolled in his eyes, he raised his head, not letting the tears flow down, he didn't want to expose his vulnerable side to the person he hated, Never let him see...

At about two o'clock in the morning, it was raining again outside, and the raindrops were pattering on the window glass. Chen Jun was woken up by the sound of the rain, and a lightning flashed across the roof of another building, as if to blow the sky A crack was cut, and it healed instantly, and then there was thunder, Chen Jun sat on the bed, not sleepy at all, listening to the sound of disorderly rain, he could no longer fall asleep, this was the first time he suffered from insomnia .He opened the curtains, the room was closed for fear of rain, the air was a bit stuffy, Chen Jun simply opened the window, the decibel of the rain doubled the moment the window was opened, and the cold air spread in, Chen Jun simply opened the window. Jun shrank his upper body and put the quilt over his body.Looking downstairs, the ground has accumulated into a knee-deep river, forming a huge whirlpool in the sewer. The messy raindrops show different lengths and shapes under the street lamps, and they are silvery and shiny by the light. , which reminded Chen Jun of Lan Ye's long eyelashes trembling in the setting sun... What is Lan Ye doing at this time?He fantasizes in his mind... Blue Night is either sleeping... or not sleeping, just like him, listening to the sound of rain outside the window...

Another bright flash of lightning flashed across the sky, illuminating the translucent white window screens. In a spacious bedroom with a double bed made of sterling silver, Lan Ye turned over lightly. Liquid, that is the body fluid that is not drained deep in the shower.The man next to him was already sound asleep, snoring, his body was already tossed and uncomfortable, he couldn't fall asleep listening to the sound of snoring and the sound of rain outside the window.He picked up the earphones from the gilded mahogany cabinet with the carved phoenix, and adjusted the Walkman to play in sequence. The soothing and regular melody vibrated gently on the eardrums. It was Donna Burke's "Glassysky", the person in the lyrics, and His situation is somewhat similar...

The footsteps of time are approaching quietly

As the sun sets, shadows are hard to find

i know i can't give up

life will be brighter

i will become stronger

I will be strong until I see the end of this with my own eyes...

But what is the end?

Can I really touch it?

For some reason, the shadow of another person flashed in his mind. When he thought of his smile, he suddenly felt his tense nerves gradually relax. How could he think of him?A near stranger...