I forget the river

"Zhuang Yu!" Wen Xuan came to me with an anxious expression on his face.He knelt on the ground, looking at my chest with pain.Then he took off his coat, wrapped up my wound, and asked me with a slightly choked voice: "Fool...why don't you hide..."

I looked at his red eye circles, and said softly, "Wenxuan...it hurts so much..."

He closed his eyes in pain, hugged me in his arms, and said, "I'm sorry... I'm late... Let's go home first, go home..."

I looked at the sky and felt that the scene in front of me was getting more and more blurry, and my ears were buzzing, as if the wound didn't hurt as much as before... I exhausted my last bit of strength and asked him: "Am I going to die...? "

Then my soul seems to have come to a desolate grassland, I don’t see the sun and the moon, I don’t feel the east wind, I don’t know the four seasons...

……

I thought I was dead, but that's just what I thought.Although not dead, it is not much better than dead.

I'm used to the existence of pain, it seems that since I left the bamboo forest, I have been suffering from major and minor injuries.I licked my dry and peeled lips to find some water to drink, but as soon as I made a movement, someone came.

"My lord, it's been 13 days, you've finally woken up..." The person who came in was Shuang'er, her face was a little tired, it seemed that she had been guarding me for a long time and hadn't rested.

"Is your injury better?" My voice was extremely hoarse and small. If you don't listen carefully, you really don't know what I'm talking about.

"I'm fine. Rong Xun didn't kill me...but you...he didn't let the person next to his pillow go unnoticed..." She sighed, poured me a cup of tea, then helped me up, let me I drink it slowly.

After I drank the tea, I slowed down, and then said to her: "In the future, the name Rong Xun will disappear from my memory... Everything about him has nothing to do with me... I am very tired, and I don't want to remember it anymore."

She touched my back like a sister, and then nodded: "Don't treat yourself so badly in the future, I'll get you something to eat now, you wait for me."

"Wait," I called to stop her: "You don't have to worry about me, go back and rest for a while." I half-jokingly said, "Your eyes are all red now, I don't know how distressing it is."

After hearing this, she covered her face with a smile, two sweet pear dimples appeared beside her small cherry mouth, and said, "You are the only one with a sweet mouth! Then I'll let someone else bring it for you."

"it is good."

After she left, I lay on the bed bored, and I couldn't lie down anymore, so I got out of bed, walked to the bed slowly while leaning on the wall, and then opened the window.

The original plains of Mingyue Villa have been replaced with red silk, and red flowers are hung on the corners of the buildings, and they are in full bloom, winding and staggering.Even the lamps have been replaced with glazed palace lanterns, and there are a lot of brilliantly blooming chrysanthemums in the flower garden, all of which are rare and precious species. At first glance, the colorful beauty is so beautiful.

Someone knocked on the door, and I said, "Come in."

A maid with a pretty face in pink came in with a food box, saluted gracefully, then opened the food box for me, arranged the food, and stood aside after all this was done.

When I saw it, they were all porridge and side dishes. Although I didn't have an appetite, I still had to eat some.

I took a sip of the porridge, and then asked, "What day is it today? I saw that there were lights and festoons outside, and it was very lively."

"Returning to the young master, today is the day when the young lady gets married."

"Married? Is Liu Yi going to get married?" I put down my chopsticks in surprise and looked at her with wide eyes.

"Yes." She nodded with a smile.

"Who is your husband?"

"His Royal Highness, Rong Xun."

My bowl fell to the ground with a "slap", and she quickly helped me aside and asked, "My lord, are you hurt?"

I blinked and asked dully: "You said, with whom??"

She seemed to be frightened by me, and she didn't know whether to reply or not.

For a long time, I woke up like a big dream, as if all the strength in my body was drained.I waved my hand tiredly and said, "Go down..."

She whispered: "Yes..."

He is getting married...

I felt like my heart was being smashed by a knife, and then it hurt like someone stretched out a hand with salt in my heart and held the minced meat...

He is getting married...

"Hahahahaha!!!" I laughed until tears came out, I laughed wildly and watched my heart bleed profusely, the more it hurts, the more I laugh, the more I laugh, the more I can't speak: "Hahaha...hahaha Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!"

My whole body was pumped like a shrimp, and I hunched over to the ground. I clutched the wound hard, trying to make it hurt more, let it hurt, I will wake up when it hurts.

I have never hated a person so much.

He loved me, rescued me, gave me hope, made me despair, and then pierced my chest with a sword.He coaxed me with the most beautiful love words in the world, and satirized and cursed me with the most vicious words.He made me fall in love with him, and then kicked me aside hard. He saw that I was showing weakness to him and being mean to him, but he didn't do anything other than let me do it myself.

Apart from his beautiful face, everything else about him is dirty.

I laughed, laughing myself stupid, he played with me for so long, and I still said that I love him, I can't live without him.

"What are you doing!" Wenxuan ran over and looked at me out of breath, with some disappointment in his eyes, more sad: "I know you are uncomfortable, but you have to take care of yourself, even if you Regardless of yourself, please think about us, okay?"

I grabbed his collar with one hand and said, "Is he going to marry Liu Yi?"

He was silent, and nodded again: "I didn't want you to know about this..."

"Why." I asked him word by word: "Why did you let the two of them get married?"

He sighed, and said: "Even if you tell me about this matter, you won't understand it... If you want to forget him, forget it forever... Don't even think about these things."

I burst into laughter suddenly, and I asked him: "Can I forget!! The person I love the most, he is married! Do you know that I want to watch him marry another person back home! But that person I I can’t hate it, because I’ve always regarded her as my younger sister!” I burst into tears from laughing, and I asked him, “Don’t you think it’s funny to write?”

He nodded slightly and said: "I understand." Then he slowly carried me to the bed, and while treating my wound, he said: "It's like I look at you every day, but I can't touch you, even thinking about it It felt defiled all at once. Slowly I got used to it, and I told myself that as long as you live, it is the best ending."

I shook my head and told him: "Don't be like this, I can't repay you for being kind to me. I always feel that I owe you a lot. Sometimes I even think that I am taking advantage of your kindness."

"I am willing." His eyes are very gentle, like spring water in May.

I took a deep breath and said, "Now I want to rest well. Today is Liu Yi's marriage, I won't make trouble, but I want to watch him get married. Even if I can't relieve my hatred, I still want to disgust him."

He knew it would be useless to persuade him, so he nodded and said, "Okay."

I kept my eyes closed until the auspicious time, during which time Wenxuan never left, maybe because I was afraid that I would do something to hurt myself.I asked him to go about his own affairs, but he also refused, just sitting on the chair by the bed and reading a book.

"Master, it's time." Someone outside the door reminded him.

"Understood." He got up and straightened his clothes, and I also got up and prepared to go with him.

Before I went, I asked him for a set of red clothes, and he gave it to me without asking.

Before I left, I looked in the mirror and saw that my face was very pale, especially against the backdrop of the red dress. It was so ugly that I was taken aback.

I asked Wenxuan to go first, and I asked Shuang'er to come over and apply some powder for me.

She helped me apply powder with red eyes and asked me: "Why do you hurt yourself so much?"

I looked at myself in the mirror blankly, and said: "After all, there was a time when I had to watch him fail me, and watch him marry someone else. I know he won't remember me, he's like that. How can a person have a heart? But I just want to disgust him, and make him always think of the person he hates the most——Zhuang Yu, just looking at him like that on the day he married the girl."

In fact, I understand in my heart, why do I want him to be sad?I just want to give up on myself.He Rong Xun has been trained since he was a child to be ruthless, desireless, sad and joyless, to put it bluntly, he is heartless.So if he really had feelings, how could he say that he abandoned me like this?If you get tired of playing, give me a false charge, and let the people of Quan Li A Dian want me to be wanted and killed without mercy.And when I see him with other people, I won't think about it anymore. Maybe I can forget him slowly, or maybe I can't forget him, but I really won't get entangled with him anymore up.

I will never fall in love with anyone again, the relationship is too extravagant, I can't afford to give, but I can't afford to lose.

Shuang'er didn't say anything, just put a little powder on my face, and then simply put some rouge on my face to make my face look more rosy.

"Let's go." I straightened my clothes and walked to the living room.

I am not afraid that someone will recognize me, and I am not afraid that people from Li Atian will kill me.

I walked through the nine-curved corridor, through the red silk and colored gauze, through the gongs, drums and golden lanterns, and came to the parlor.

The house was full of guests, and words of congratulations continued to flow into my ears.

I found a side seat and sat down, drinking alone.

"You can't drink anymore." Wen Xuan pressed my hand.

I looked behind him, and many people were calling him.I took my hand out and ignored him, continuing to drink.

"Zhuang Yu." He called my name with a serious face.

"This is the last time I will be willful."

"You..." He was so angry with me that he didn't know what to say.

If it was Rong Xun, he would probably grab my wine glass directly, and then coldly throw it aside...

All of a sudden, when I saw those pretty profiles, they all looked like him...

I felt that I couldn't hold it anymore, and the sad feeling came up again, I threw down the cup and ran out staggeringly, Wen Xuan grabbed me from behind and also broke away.Because I kept my head down and didn't look ahead, I bumped into someone when I ran outside the door.

I didn't dare to look up at this man's face, but I saw that this man was wearing a bright red wedding dress, and the big red flowers on his chest hurt my eyes.I'm afraid it's him, and I'm afraid that when I'm most embarrassed, I will see the person who least wants to bow his head and admit defeat.

But I smelled a clear scent of orchids, it was undoubtedly him, and I didn't want to admit it.

I lowered my head and pushed him away, and ran away from his side. I didn't even dare to look at the people behind him, but luckily they didn't stop me.I kept running until the wound opened and I couldn't run anymore because of the pain.

I don't know if he ever looked back at me, and dare not know.

I leaned against the wall and gasped for breath. I looked back after a long time, and there was no one at the door.

I walked back slowly and heard them toasting each other and saying compliments.It's just that he has always responded politely, without any emotions.

Maybe, he doesn't like her... I comfort myself like this, but what's the use of comfort?He won't be mine anymore...

In the end, I still didn't have the courage to stand up and let him know that I watched him take Liu Yi away, and they went back to Li'a Hall together, kowtowed to heaven and earth, made good obeisance to each other, and promised to grow old together.

I left slowly, I wanted to walk slowly alone, I didn't know where I was going, I just wanted to find something to do without thinking.

Before I knew it, I reached the top of the mountain, and I could see Mingyuetan when I lowered my head.

People say that there is a pond in the villa, which looks like a full moon.Whenever the moon rises, the shadow of the moon is reflected on it. The scenery is beautiful and graceful, so it is called Mingyue.

At this time, a drizzle suddenly fell from the sky. Although the autumn rain was cold, it was extremely comfortable when it hit my feverish face.

I squinted my eyes and saw him coming out of the living room. Someone walked up to him to hold an umbrella for him. He was followed by Xiaoqin and Xiesang, and behind him were many disciples of Li Adian.Wenxuan sent them to the gate of the villa, and I saw that Liu Yi was wearing a mandarin duck wedding dress and a red hijab, being helped by the maidservant into the wedding sedan chair.

Then the trumpet and suona sounded together, and the gongs and drums blared. He stepped on a tall horse and led the way in front, with a heroic posture, like a pine and a bamboo.

He glanced back slightly, but he just flicked it lightly, as if he didn't see me.But at that moment, my tears had already started to fall down again.

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