I refused at first

?In the blink of an eye, the timeline jumped to August, and Shen Yifan finally ushered in his [-]th birthday.

Earlier, Shen Yifan went back to his grandmother's house and stayed with Qian Xiaojing for a while. Before returning to S City, Qian's parents gave him a big red envelope.

He used the money in the red envelope to invite his friends in school to have a meal outside, and this birthday was just like that.

But for Shen Yifan, the main event has not yet come.

Lu Nan has always been generous, and he generously gifted his eldest nephew a complete set of the latest electronic equipment.Everything from cell phones to DSLRs.

Shen Yifan was greatly moved, and immediately hugged Lu Nan, turned on the front camera, forced Lu Nan to take a selfie with him, and even used that photo as a screen saver for his mobile phone.

Lu Nan said: "..."

Lu Nan gave him a set of electronic products so generously, Shen Yifan also patted his chest and threatened to treat Lu Nan to a good meal. Waited for a while.

The previous drunkenness made him more or less wary of Shen Yifan, but during this period of time, Shen Yifan had been calm and peaceful, and he didn't even startle the snake, so Lu Nan gradually breathed a sigh of relief.

He felt from the bottom of his heart that his eldest nephew didn't seem very gay, let alone liked him.

Lu Nan's appearance was just above average in the crowd, and he felt that his appearance was not very popular in the gay circle.Although it was said in their small circle that Li Ran had chased him, only he, Li Ran, and Zhang Lan knew that this statement was just a joke.

Besides, if the teacher Quan Xia knows that he has brought his son into a detour, how can the teacher rest in peace?

Alas, so annoying.

What happens is not good, but it happens that bad things happen.

The more Lu Nan thought about it, the more he had a headache, and felt that his brain was about to explode.

But I have to think like Ah Q, maybe things are not what I think?

Soon came the day when Lu Nan and Shen Yifan had a dinner date.

Shen Yifan took Lu Nan to a newly opened semi-self-service Japanese hot pot.

Although it is a newly opened store, the business is as hot as some old hot pot restaurants.

Both of them have heavy tastes in food, so they ordered the spicy hotpot at the same time.

The food was served very quickly, and the service attitude was excellent. The two of them talked and laughed during the meal. It was probably the first time since Lu Nan pretended to be drunk that day that the atmosphere between the two of them was so harmonious and natural.

As if the time went back to three years ago, when Lu Nan officially accepted the job of Shen Yifan's guardian, after Shen Yifan passed the exam and was admitted to S No. [-] Middle School, the two of them sat together to eat like this, and then Lu Nan told him about his high school days Things that happened.

And at this moment, Lu Nan racked his brains to share with Shen Yifan the things that college freshmen should pay attention to and some of his own experiences while studying.

Shen Yifan smiled in bewilderment the whole time, without interrupting, just quietly listening to Lu Nan's narration.

In summer, the temperature keeps hitting new highs, but at night, with the night wind blowing, it will still feel cool.

Under Shen Yifan's insistence, after eating the hot pot, the two went for a walk by the river in a romantic way.

Shen Yifan's heartbeat gradually accelerated.

This will be his first confession to anyone.

In the past when he was young, when the teacher assigned him homework and asked him to go home and tell his parents about his love, he would still feel so awkward that he couldn't open his mouth, but now he wanted to express his feelings to Lu Nan with love.

The lighthouse on the other side illuminated the river sparkling, and the night wind gusts of wind rippling the river and the hearts of the viewers.

Shen Yifan took a deep breath, "Lu Nan."

Lu Nan turned his head to look at Shen Yifan, and when he could clearly see the emotion on Shen Yifan's face by the light of the street lamp, he secretly called out badly.

Sure enough, the scene that he was most afraid of encountering appeared in the next second.

Shen Yifan stretched out his hand to hold Lu Nan's hand, his dantian sank, and he confessed affectionately to him: "Lu Nan, I have liked you for a long time, are you willing to date me?"

"..."

Lu Nan was smiling all over his face before, but now he felt that the blood flowing in his bones was frozen, and the smile remained on his face rather embarrassingly.

Lu Nan stretched out his hand to push Shen Yifan's hand away, but Shen Yifan held it tighter and tighter, a little stubbornly wanting to wait for Lu Nan's reply before letting go.

Lu Nan sighed, "I'm not gay."

Shen Yifan's gaze was firm and persistent, "Nor am I. But I just like you."

Lu Nan was speechless, "Let go of your hands first."

He has been pretending to be calm, but he is more nervous than Shen Yifan who confessed to him.

accept?

This is definitely impossible, it is one thing that he is not gay, even if he is really gay, Shen Yifan is definitely not his favorite type.

reject?

This is for sure!But how to say no?Zhang Lan told him earlier that he should not reject Shen Yifan too harshly.Think about it, too, after all, two people have lived under the same roof for three years, and if they look up and look down, if they are too ruthless, it will be difficult to meet each other in the future, right?

He recalled how he responded when others confessed to him in the past, but it seemed that every routine did not apply to Shen Yifan.

How can it be done?

Sensing that Shen Yifan finally let go of his hand, Lu Nan sighed heavily again, "Shen Yifan, I don't know why you fell in love with me, but it's wrong, we can't be together, this That’s all for the matter, and you don’t want to mention it again.”

After all, Lu Nan turned around and wanted to go away first.

Shen Yifan asked loudly from behind: "Why not? Why can't we be together? Feelings are what you want and I'm willing! I just like you, I, Shen Yifan, like Lu Nan!"

Shen Yifan exhausted the air in his lungs, after speaking, he gasped for a while, many people who were watching the night scene by the river all looked this way.

Lu Nan felt more and more embarrassed, turned his head to Shen Yifan helplessly and said, "But now it's not your wish. It's just your unilateral imagination, and I have no interest in you."

These words were too hurtful, and even nailed Shen Yifan, who had always been a secondary school student and had the aura of the protagonist, to the wall and could not move.

He was still not reconciled, "Lu Nan!"

Lu Nan didn't turn her head back, "Stop talking, just leave me alone."

Lu Nan turned around and told Zhang Lan about this. Zhang Lan was taken aback for a while, and then scolded Lu Nan for being too cruel, and then babbled for a long time saying that he felt sorry for his eldest nephew.

Lu Nan thumped and hung up the phone.

He was in a state of confusion, but he knew very well that if he was coy at the beginning and didn't say what he should say clearly, such things would only become more and more troublesome in the future, so he always cut through the mess quickly.

The first thing Lu Nan did after returning home was to pack his luggage. He planned to move to another property under his name at dawn for a few days to calm down.

Shen Yifan didn't go home that night, so he called Jiang Jun, and after learning that Jiang Jun's mother and teachers from the school organized a group trip to Thailand and hadn't returned yet, he proposed to stay overnight at his house.

Jiang Jun hurried over after asking where Shen Yifan was.

Shen Yifan had never told Jiang Jun about his relationship with Lu Nan before, but when the two of them met now, it was probably because of the feeling of sympathy for each other or the feeling that they were both fallen in the world, and talked about it late at night.

Asked about him and Lin Pei, Jiang Jun smiled wryly, "It's still the same, I've been trying to get close to him, but he always makes me feel like he's avoiding me. Forget it, anyway, I'm with him School, there are still many days to see each other in the future. But you, have you thought about what to do?"

Shen Yifan shook his head dejectedly.

He really doesn't know.He even began to blame himself for being impulsive for making his relationship with Lu Nan feel like walking on eggshells.

but……

If he doesn't talk, he never gets a chance.

Lu Nan, Lu Nan, what do you think?

After dawn, Shen Yifan returned home, but saw that the house was quite empty for a while, and after looking carefully, he found that many of Lu Nan's things were missing.

Shen Yifan understood, and understood that this was Lu Nan's intention to avoid him at first.

He sat on the sofa thinking for a long time, and then began to pack his luggage.

After tidying up, he sent a text message to Lu Nan.

"Lu Nan, don't be like this. It seems that I am like a scourge. Thank you for taking good care of me in the past three years, and thank you for teaching me a lot. I am sorry that my liking for you has caused you so much trouble. But I'm really sorry, I still like you, there's nothing wrong with this feeling, and it won't change. Come back, this is your home after all, and it's me who should leave."

Shen Yifan left as soon as he said, without procrastinating.

I haven't returned to my original home for three years, and there is a lot of dust in the big house.

Shen Yifan cleaned it up for a long time before he finally cleaned it up.

Looking at the empty house, he felt inexplicably lonely and uncomfortable.

This is how it feels to love someone. ?