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Meeting Xu Qingcheng in front of Yu Xiaohai's tombstone was a surprise today.

But if you think about it seriously, Xu Qingcheng had made an involuntarily affectionate character for himself back then, and every year on Yu Xiaohai's memorial day to enrich the character, to satisfy himself, seemed like something he could do.

Yan Chun understands rationally that Xu Qingcheng cannot be blamed too much for Yu Xiaohai's tragedy.

As a suspect in the eyes of most people, he is not qualified to be serious with Xu Qingcheng.

But when they met again after many years, and when they met Yu Xiaohai by chance, it was difficult for him to give a warm reaction.

The same goes for Xu Qingcheng.

Wasn't it Xu Qingcheng who grabbed his collar ten years ago and called him a "murderer" through gritted teeth?

If Xu Qingcheng was to be blamed, then in the end, he had to be blamed.

Because Yu Xiaohai and Xu Qingcheng met through him.

During the summer vacation between the first and second year of high school, Yu Xiaohai came to the main city from Tongti Town. While learning crafts at the technical school, he took over Yan Chun's job in the night market, and Yan Chun began to tutor Xu Qingcheng's younger brother.

At that time, Yan Chun had a good impression of Xu Qingcheng, and this good impression came from Jinghanyu on the one hand-although Jinghanyu had a lot of support in No. [-] Middle School, there were very few friends who really got close, and Xu Qingcheng was one of them.

On the other hand, it came from Xu Qingcheng himself, who together with Jing Hanyu helped him solve Zhan Jun's troubles. He is still working for others, and Xu Qingcheng's family counts as half of his parents.

Xu Qingcheng is indeed outstanding, not to mention his grades and looks, his personality is also very pleasing, he doesn't have the airs of a rich man, he is cheerful and easy-going, he can joke with anyone.

In the eyes of girls from No. [-] Middle School back then, Jing Hanyu and Xu Qingcheng walking together was the most eye-catching scenery.

At first, Yanchun enjoyed the scenery with the girls, but at a certain point, he suddenly realized that he unilaterally regarded Xu Qingcheng as an imaginary enemy, and developed a vicious malice.

But that's another story.

At least in the first semester of the second year of high school, he and Xu Qingcheng had a pretty good relationship.

At that time, Yu Xiaohai, who was working hard for a living, accidentally met Xu Qingcheng, who was not in the same class circle at all.

On weekend afternoons, Yanchun went to Xu's house to make up lessons for Xu Baifeng as usual.

Yu Xiaohai took his salary and agreed to treat him and Chang Rui to eat spicy hot pot.

Xu Baifeng is usually quite honest and writes questions quickly, but that day he couldn't calm down as if he had hyperactivity, and the time for making up lessons was forced to be extended.

Yanchun was very focused on the topic, and only after it was over did she suddenly remember that she had an appointment with Yu Xiaohai, and she was about to leave in a panic.

Xu Baifeng asked him what was wrong, and he told the truth, Xu Baifeng was embarrassed and insisted on asking the driver to take him.

Xu Qingcheng came back from playing ball and bumped into this scene. In order not to let Yanchun refuse, he simply got into the car with Xu Baifeng and claimed that he would also eat skewers.

Xu Baifeng had never eaten at a roadside stall, so when he got there, Xu Qingcheng sat down next to them and ate with them.

Xu Qingcheng was easy-going, and even had two drinks with Chang Rui.

After eating, they each checked out and came out of the store together. When they talked about the route, Yu Xiaohai and the Xu family brothers happened to drop by.

Yan Chun didn't think much about it, and asked them to take Yu Xiaohai back.

This was the way it should have ended.

But Yu Xiaohai and Xu Qingcheng talked about love behind Yanchun's back.

At that time, Yan Chun didn't even figure out his secret love for Jing Hanyu, so it was naturally impossible for him to think about the relationship between Yu Xiaohai and Xu Qingcheng.

In his impression, Yu Xiaohai is a very sober person. Before he transferred to No. [-] Middle School, Yu Xiaohai was worried that he would get into trouble during the process of jumping classes.

"It's actually good to accept our fate. It's better for us people not to see the upper world, and a lifetime of muddleheadedness will pass."

Yu Xiaohai used to keep this sad and old-fashioned saying on his lips.

Even if someone told Yanchun that your brother and Xu Qingcheng were talking, he would definitely not believe it.

During that time, Yu Xiaohai came to No. [-] Middle School a few times, and each time he brought food for Yan Chun.

Yanchun thought Yu Xiaohai was looking for him, but later found out that he was just a cover.

They were looking for Xu Qingcheng.

When Yanchun knew this, it was already the third semester of high school, and many things had changed. He discovered his dirty thoughts about Jing Hanyu, he found out that he was a monster, and his father was also a monster, and it was not an accident that he was abducted by human traffickers... …

Fate is like a falling sky, and he will lose control at any time.

But he tried his best to pretend to be a normal person, suppressing those distortions and malice like flesh and blood.

But suddenly found that Yu Xiaohai and Xu Qing broke up.

He didn't know that they had been in love for more than half a year until he found out that they had broken up.

As for the reason for the breakup, it was discovered by Xu's parents.

How could Yu Xiaohai, a child of a low-income single-parent family, be worthy of Xu Qingcheng?Not to mention they were still gay.

Yu Xiaohai is like a clump of tenacious ground vines, one person raised a dilapidated home, no matter whether he dropped out of school or healed his mother, he has never been depressed.

But when Yanchun hugged him in the basement where he rented, he found him trembling.

He was really teased by a master.

Xu Qingcheng had several girlfriends, one of whom was a senior school beauty, and she let others talk about herself and Jinghanyu, making a butterfly.

It was Yu Xiaohai's first time dating, and he was easily coaxed into dizziness.

The emotions that had been suppressed for a long time erupted in an instant, and Yanchun rushed to Xu Qingcheng, and without saying a word, he went up and beat him.

Blood, stench, and broken skin, the monster in his heart seemed to be awakened, howling excitedly.

It turns out that beating a person to death is such a joyful thing.

Yanchun felt that she had never been so happy.

Not only did he want to beat Xu Qingcheng to death, he also wanted to dismember this ugly body!

But suddenly, his movements seemed to be blocked.

Someone hugged him behind him, strong arms like iron tongs.

He couldn't even move!

But he could actually struggle, and if he hit his elbow backward, the man would flinch in pain.

He didn't do it just because he smelled a familiar fragrance.

It was clearly a very light shampoo scent, but it forcefully tore through the stench between him and Xu Qingcheng.

He often smelled this fragrance. When Jing Hanyu gave him a lecture, they were very close. He was half-hearted, and went over to sniff it. Jing Hanyu poked his forehead with the buttock of a pen.

"stop."

Jing Hanyu hugged him tightly, and whispered in his ear: "Yanchun, don't hit me!"

Jing Hanyu's lips almost touched the tips of his ears, and the heat penetrated into his skin.

He was trembling, his body was as tense as a piece of iron, and he stared at Xu Qingcheng like a devil.

The evil desire cries: Kill him!Kill Xu Qingcheng!

He began to struggle, losing control and remembering not to hurt Jing Hanyu.

But Jing Hanyu was taller and stronger than him, so he already had the upper hand, and he was restrained, so he was naturally no match.

"let me go--"

"Do you want to kill someone?"

Yanchun suddenly froze in Jinghanyu's arms.

The person he likes finds him rotten and sinful.

He suddenly became at a loss, but later thinking about it, this was probably a cunning self-protection mechanism—making himself appear confused, showing weakness to Jing Hanyu, pretending to be innocent, and covering up the roaring monster.

"I'm not..." He spoke incoherently and shook his head in confusion.

Jing Hanyu seemed to pat him on the back, "I'll take care of the rest."

Afterwards, many people came, and he was sent to the hospital by Jing Hanyu—he was also injured in the fight with Xu Qingcheng.

Of course, Xu Qingcheng's injury was much more serious than his, and he was hospitalized all the time. In addition, he was about to go abroad, so he never came to school again.

Xu Qingcheng and Yu Xiaohai's love affair started quietly and ended with a tragic fight.

It would be a good thing if it could end like this.

At most, when they recalled it many years later, each of the parties would laugh at themselves-who didn't have a bastard youth, and who didn't meet a few scumbags when they were young.

But several months later, Yu Xiaohai died, and Yanchun was the only suspect.

When the police released Yanchun due to lack of evidence, Xu Qingcheng rushed out of the crowd like a mad beast, opening his sharp claws to tear Yanchun's throat.

Yanchun never mentioned it to anyone, but he actually saw Xu Qingcheng killing him that day, and he also saw the knife in Xu Qingcheng's hand.

But he didn't hide, he thought desperately and cruelly, he deserved to pay for Yu Xiaohai's life.

But at the very moment, Jing Hanyu hugged his shoulders and bumped Xu Qingcheng away with his back. The police reacted very quickly and pinned Xu Qingcheng to the ground.

The dagger fell far away, reflecting a pale white light in the sunlight.

"Jinghanyu!" Xu Qingcheng was hysterical, his eyes were bloodshot, his hair was messy and dusty.

Yan Chun had never seen Xu Qingcheng in such a state of distress - not even the time he personally beat him into the hospital.

"You have been protecting him! Why do you not pay for your life? You are protecting a murderer!"

"Chirp - chirp -"

There are many little birds in the cemetery, and Yanchun returns to reality in a series of birdsong.

The roars and cries in those memories were blown away by the wind, like rustling in the forest.

There were slight waves in his calm eyes.

It's not because of reuniting with Xu Qingcheng, but because of Jinghanyu, who has a sense of presence in the cracks of memories.

In the past ten years, he first cooperated with experts for treatment, and then relied on willpower to restrain himself. He rarely thought about Jinghanyu, so that some things were buried deeply by him. If he didn't think about it, it would be as if it never happened.

For example, he almost beat up Xu Qingcheng, even if Xu Qingcheng let him go for Yu Xiaohai's sake, would the Xu family just let it go?

But he actually received the best treatment in the hospital, and he was able to return to No. [-] Middle School afterwards.

Without Jing Hanyu, he would never be safe and sound.

Another example was when Xu Qingcheng wanted to kill him, not only the police but also Jing Hanyu helped him.

He selectively forgot about it.

"First time here?" Xu Qingcheng asked calmly, without any resentment, nor the deep-rooted hatred of the past, his tone seemed to be greeting an old friend he hadn't seen for many years.

Yanchun, however, sees deep sorrow and nostalgia from this calmness, and falls into a daze untimely.

At that time, he firmly believed that Xu Qingcheng played with Yu Xiaohai's feelings, and he always gave up, and he never changed his view afterwards.

But if it was really a trick, Xu Qingcheng would come to see Yu Xiaohai on the festival day, but he would not have that expression.

But what if it's not a joke?It is true that Xu Qingcheng hurt Yu Xiaohai, even if he spends his whole life mourning, he will be the only one who is moved.

Yanchun replied indifferently, "Well, it's the first time."

He didn't want to explain too much to Xu Qingcheng, now that they were no longer at war, and could even miss Yu Xiaohai together peacefully, but it didn't mean he forgave Xu Qingcheng.

Xu Qingcheng noticed the flowers beside the tombstone, and suddenly smiled, "It's probably not the first time, when I came last year and the year before the year before, I also saw this kind of flowers.

Not many people will come to see Xiaohai. "

Being exposed, but it seems that there is no need to argue, Yanchun said: "It's me."

After a moment of silence, Xu Qingcheng said in a deep voice, "The murderer is still not caught."

Yanchun clenched her fingers casually: "I will definitely find the murderer."

"you?"

"I'm working for the police."

Xu Qingcheng opened his mouth in doubt, probably thinking it was impolite, so he said without opening his face, "It's good."

Originally, he wanted to stay a little longer, but it was really embarrassing, Yanchun said, "I'll go first."

Xu Qingcheng said "um" first, but after Yanchun walked a few steps, he said, "Sorry."

Yanchun stopped.

"I thought you were the murderer back then and almost stabbed you."

Xu Qingcheng said softly: "I know better than anyone that it will not be you, because you are the only one who beat me to death for him."

After a pause, Xu Qingcheng said again: "But I can only tell myself that you are the murderer, you killed Xiao Hai.

If not... who can I hate? "

Yanchun took a deep breath, "It's over.

There is no apology between us. "

Xu Qingcheng smiled, "Well, the apology is for the survival of the relationship, we don't have that kind of thing.

By the way, are you and Jing Hanyu together? "

Yanchun then turned around.

The shadow of the tree next to him flickered and swept across his face.

"Apparently not."

Xu Qingcheng shook his head, "You should be together."

Questions are like a huge wall that collapsed, smashing the ground to be riddled with holes, and gray dust is everywhere.

Yanchun restrained the emotions that were gradually clamoring, "Why do you say that?"

Was he forgetting something important?Why did even Xu Qing think that he and Jing Hanyu should be together?

Xu Qingcheng also seemed a little surprised, "What Jing Hanyu wants, he will definitely get."

Yanchun suddenly flashed back the scene of Jing Hanyu grabbing his ankle last night.

From a certain point of view, Xu Qingcheng's description is actually quite appropriate.

But he still felt absurd, it was already unbelievable that his Bai Yueguang wanted him, and it was even more bizarre that Xu Qingcheng, an outsider, knew about it.

Xu Qingcheng laughed at himself: "I always thought I was the same person as him.

We've known each other since elementary school and grew up in similar families with the same education.

His grades are worse than mine, but I am also at the top anyway, and I am more popular than him... In short, I compete with him, and I never feel that I am inferior to him. "

"Only in the matter of feelings, I have lost completely."

"I love Xiao Hai, if you say such things now, of course you think I'm hypocritical.

But until now, I still can't forget him, and maybe I won't be able to get out in this lifetime.

But I didn't have the courage of Jinghanyu back then, and I didn't dare to fight against my family for Xiaohai. "

"Compared to Jinghanyu, I have suffered a crushing defeat."

Against the family?for him?What's the meaning?

Yanchun felt that she was floating in the air, surrounded by unreal scenes.

"You..." Yan Chun heard herself say, "You seem to have misunderstood something."

Xu Qingcheng said: "Misunderstanding? Is the warning also a misunderstanding?"

"what?"

"After I almost stabbed you that time, Jing Hanyu fought with me.

I asked him if he insisted on breaking up with me because of you, and he said..." Xu Qingcheng lowered his head and curled his lower lip, "He said that I couldn't protect my boyfriend, but he could. "

No, not a boyfriend!

There is a place in Yanchun's mind that is swollen and painful. He does not subconsciously think about everything related to Jinghanyu, but this does not mean that he has lost his memory. As long as he concentrates on thinking, he will remember it, such as just now.

But he has no memory of falling in love with Jing Hanyu, it can't have happened.

"He can really hurt his feet."

Xu Qingcheng smiled wryly, "I know that what I regret the most is not being able to protect Xiao Hai and deliberately provoking me."

Suddenly, Xu Qingcheng changed the subject and said sharply: "But he doesn't seem to be much better than me. You disappeared suddenly, and he gave up his status as the young master of the Jing family. You are still not together."

Maliciousness is released in the loss of the individual and the possession of others. After a few seconds, Xu Qingcheng said: "I'm sorry, look, human nature can't get rid of despicableness, I can't help being jealous of you."

Yanchun couldn't stay any longer, so he left quickly.

Xu Qingcheng slowly sat in front of the tombstone, patted the cold stone, and lit a cigarette.