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But not long after the start of senior year, the two had an unprecedented quarrel.

The reason was that He Zhao and Yi Shi went to try a newly opened restaurant at noon on the weekend, which was near Yi Shi's laboratory.He Zhao's internship is not too busy, and he doesn't have any courses. There is always a lot of free time to squeeze in, but Yi Shi is getting busier and busier.What activities did I go to other places with my teacher last week, and what experimental results and research reports I have to wait for this week.Although they would come back no matter how late they were, it had been a long time since the two of them had a good meal together.

After dinner, He Zhao sent Yi Shi back to the laboratory, and met Yi Shi's teacher, a little old man surnamed Hu.Many teachers in the School of Life Sciences have overseas study and work experience and are quite open-minded.Once when their project team had a dinner party, it was Professor Hu who asked Yi Shi to call He Zhao out to have a look. The first thing he said when he saw He Zhao was: "Yi Shi's lover, I have heard of you for a long time."

At that time, it wasn't the classmates who booed the most, but the teachers, He Zhao was a little bit dumbfounded.

Later, a senior fellow in the same laboratory as Yi Shi told him that Professor Hu has been thinking about Yi Shi's relationship since he knew that Yi Shi was in a relationship. In his words, "I can't imagine what this kid is like in love."

Professor Hu didn't even exchange pleasantries this time. He nodded at He Zhao and asked Yi Shi directly, "Are you really planning to go?"

Yi Shi glanced at He Zhao subconsciously, and said decisively, "I won't go."

He Zhao didn't want to get involved at first, because Yi Shi's glance immediately made him sensitive. Yi Shi would only look at him like this when it was related to him, and couldn't help but ask, "Where are you going?"

He Zhao was fine if he didn’t ask, but when he asked Professor Hu, he became angry: “You ask him, what a great opportunity. I contacted several former colleagues who were willing to write him letters of recommendation, but he refused me directly. Do you think I'm doing it for you? I'm pity! A young man like you, with such good conditions, you are qualified to fight for, why don't you give yourself better soil?"

"Professor Hu, what did he refuse?" He Zhao asked.

"I asked him to directly apply for a PhD abroad, but he refused without even thinking about it." Professor Hu said angrily, "What a great opportunity, Harvard, what do you think is a random place? If it was an ordinary school, I would Not to mention, the top universities in the world. Besides, you grew up abroad, which is a great advantage..."

Yi Shi didn't speak, took He Zhao's hand and interlocked his fingers tightly, as if afraid that he would break free.

He Zhao didn't speak either.

Until eleven o'clock in the evening, when Yi Shi came back, He Zhao was sitting in the living room watching TV.After Yi Shi took a shower, he sat next to He Zhao, pinched his chin and kissed him.

He Zhao suddenly asked, "Is it because of me?"

In fact, there is no need to answer at all, it must be because of him, it has been because of him from the beginning.

Yi Shi's fingers shallowly inserted into his hair, and gently rubbed: "Don't think about it."

How do you think about it?

He Zhao sat in the living room all afternoon, and he remembered Yi Shi lightly saying "I'm not leaving" in the casserole porridge shop through the rising hazy heat.Thinking that the Spring Festival is not over yet, Yi Shi dragged his suitcase and stood at the door, wrapped in the exhaustion of running around.Thinking of Yi Shi's fingers pinching a small post-it note in the lush summer classroom, he glanced at him from the corner of his eye, waiting for him to make a decision.

He was very happy to learn that Yi Shi stayed in China, he was very happy to see Yi Shi come back, and he was very happy to go to college with Yi Shi.He was so happy that he ignored that Yi Shi made sacrifices in exchange for all of this.

In order to match his pace, Yi Shi stopped again and again to wait for him.

When he graduated last time, he was sure that he wanted to be with Yi Shi, but now, he was not sure whether to pretend to be deaf and dumb and continue to tie Yi Shi by his side as a matter of course.

Yi Shi has a bright future, and should have flown to higher and farther places.

"You go." He Zhao said, "This opportunity is so rare, it will affect your scientific research future, and even your entire life."

Yi Shi remained silent.

"Speak up, let's chat." He Zhao said.

"If it's this matter, there's nothing to talk about," Yi Shi said, "Do you know how long it will take me to come back after I leave?"

He Zhao checked and found that it would take five to eight years.

"I can wait for you," He Zhao said, "It's not like we haven't seen each other all the time. I can go to you, and you can come back to me. You like scientific research, right? You are also very suitable for scientific research, and you will definitely become a very powerful person." biologist. This opportunity is an important key to your scientific research path, it can open many paths, and sometimes some halos can really give you more choices, and you can choose what you want to do more.”

Yi Shi was the first and only living person that He Zhao met who could be called a "genius", and he was not buried even in T University, which is full of talents.The professor thinks highly of him, and his fellow seniors and classmates think highly of him, which he can usually feel.

Yi Shi is excellent, he has always known it.

He also knows that Yi Shi is more willing and suitable to be busy in the laboratory than to struggle in the society.Although he couldn't understand the conversation between Yi Shi and He Wenyan, he knew that Yi Shi also had a scientific research direction he wanted to take, and it required hard work. He didn't want Yi Shi to miss the opportunity he should have because of himself.

Yi Shi gave him all the best and only things, so how could he become his burden.

Yi Shi pursed his lips, looked at him, and didn't answer.

Many people say that He Zhao has grown up and stabilized in the past few years, and indeed he has grown up a bit, she has lost a little childishness, is handsome and clear, behaves more roundly and decently, and communicates with others with ease.But after removing this layer of external packaging, he is no different from the bright and flamboyant boy before.He loves to laugh, and chatters endlessly when he is happy.He loves to make trouble, and often has a whim. Half a month ago, he drove for three hours to go to a restaurant. Halfway through the drive, he said he was tired. The rest of the journey and the return trip were driven by Yishi.

Once only twelve hours apart, He Zhao yelled that he missed him too much for too long.Both of them are busy now, especially him. He Zhao is not so clingy anymore, but the most messages he sends him are still "I miss you" and "When will you be back".Many times, he stayed in the laboratory very late, and had to check the results early the next morning. His seniors told him to live in the dormitory directly to save trouble, but he insisted on going back.

Not only He Zhao missed him, but he also wanted to see He Zhao.

After five years of separation, he didn't even dare to think about it, but He Zhao accepted it without hesitation.

Really grown up.

They have been together since they were 17 years old, watching each other grow up little by little.

The teenager who held a pen and lowered his head and said to him, "I don't want you, I just want to be with you. I just want to think that we might be separated, and I get nervous" can now analyze the pros and cons with him naturally and generously, and persuade him He accepts separation.

"Your future is very important to me," He Zhao said.

Yi Shi couldn't bear it anymore, raised his chin, looked at him, and asked him word by word: "What about our future?"

He Zhao has been thinking about this question this afternoon, he is very confused, what should they do?

Their future was supported by Yi Shi's compromise. He didn't want to exchange Yi Shi's future, but he couldn't think of a way to achieve both.

Another year of graduation, where will the future and tomorrow go?

Where are they going tomorrow?

Someone always has to compromise.

He Zhao looked at him: "You have no confidence in me, in our future?"

"I don't have confidence in myself." Yi Shi didn't want to continue this topic, stood up, looked down at him with a stern face, and said in an indifferent voice, "He Zhao, I know what I'm doing."

He Zhao frowned, this was the first time Yi Shi called him by his full name in such a tone after they had been together for so long.Because Yi Shi is busy, they haven't sat down to have a good chat for a long time.He doesn't have to make a decision right now, he just wants him to think about it again, and he wants to tell Yi Shi that his love and his feelings are not so fragile.

He could feel Yi Shi's depressed emotions, and he couldn't help it: "I know you love me, but I hope you can put yourself first. If you think it's okay to give up this opportunity, why don't you let me I know! The sacrifice of wishful thinking is too heavy, I have always been particularly afraid that others are doing it for me, and I don’t need it!”

Yi Shi was about to go back to the bedroom to calm down, when he heard this, he suddenly turned his head, his lips were tightly pressed, his face turned pale under the fluorescent light.

He Zhao immediately knew that he had said something wrong, and before he had time to apologize, Yi Shi had already spoken first, his voice was a little cold and hard: "Do you regret it?"

"What do you regret? What do I regret?" He Zhao was a little anxious, and quickly explained, "I'm afraid you will regret it!"

"I won't regret it." Yi Shi lowered his eyes, squeezed his fingers, walked into the bedroom without looking at him again.

To be honest, He Zhao did regret it.

He never thought that tonight's conversation would end up like this, when he wanted to go to Yi, but he didn't know what to say.

He actually didn't feel comfortable making this decision. He didn't want to be separated from Yi Shi, but he couldn't think of a better way.In this case, if he reveals his reluctance and reluctance, Yi Shi is even less likely to consider this option.

At this very important juncture in the beginning of his life, he wants to give Yi Shi more time to pursue what he wants to do.He doesn't want to become a vine attached to blood-sucking, he wants to become a tree that depends on each other with Yi Shi, even if his tree grows slower and shorter.

While sleeping, He Zhao tried to talk to Yi Shi, but Yi Shi ignored him.

Yi Shi is still so temperamental, and ignores others when he gets angry.

For the next few days, Yi Shi ignored him, and He Zhao was a little annoyed, and he shook his face and stopped talking proactively.

On Friday, when He Zhao got home from get off work and had dinner with his colleagues, Yi Shi had already returned.

He Zhao couldn't even remember the last time when he was home when Yi Shi came back.

Yi Shi was wearing loose home clothes, slumped on the sofa, and seemed to be asleep.Only the standing desk lamp was turned on in the living room, and the light and shadow enveloped him. His brows were deep and angular, and he looked tired.

He Zhao stood quietly watching for a while, and was about to go to the bedroom to get the blanket, when Yi Shi opened his eyes and held his wrist.

"Let's talk." Yi Shi just woke up, his voice a little hoarse.

He Zhao felt a pain in his heart, and asked in a slow tone, "What are you talking about?"

Yi Shi didn't look at him, his eyebrows drooped slightly, his slender eyelashes were outlined by the light from the desk lamp, his voice was still low and hoarse, not sad or angry, but more powerless and exhausted: "Zhao Zhao, without you, I'm nowhere can not go."