leak

Yi Shi left the country with only a large suitcase.

Yi Shi couldn't stay in the rental house of the two of them, so he rented a house near the company and moved all the things in the rental house there.

In the third month when Yi Shi went abroad, He Zhao couldn't bear it anymore, and went abroad directly after taking his annual leave.

Suddenly, he wasn't even sure if Yi Shi had time, so he took a photo of the ticket at the airport and sent it to Yi Shi.Yi Shi should be busy and hasn't replied yet, he has already boarded the plane.

He thought that even if Yi Shi was not free, they could still stay at home like they did when they were juniors and seniors, and wait for Yi Shi to come back.

This is the first time that He Zhao has been on a plane for such a long time. He couldn't sleep, and his ears were always aching. When he exited the terminal tiredly, he received a WeChat call from Yi Shi: "Where are you?"

"I just got off the plane." He Zhao said.

"Black clothes?" Yi Shi suddenly said, "I saw you."

He Zhao raised his head and looked around. Yi Shi was wearing a coat and striding towards him.

"Why are you here?" He Zhao asked him.

"I should ask you this question." Yi Shi took his suitcase.

"I miss you so much." He Zhao was indeed too impulsive and lost his head. He made a decision on his own and rushed over without telling anyone. He couldn't sleep after sitting on the plane for more than ten hours. He thought a lot and calmed down. Come down, "Are you busy these days? Do you have a lot of things..."

There weren't many people around, but it wasn't too small. Yi Shi pinched his chin and kissed him directly, blocking his question.

His breathing was tangled, and He Zhao's eardrums were still making noises, but he only had one thought, why did he think that he and Yi Shi could be separated for five years?

He regretted it a little.

Not really regretting either, but there's this constant regret-like emotion.

In the past three months, how many gaps he found in his life, or did not need to find, in every minute time, he thought about changing times to varying degrees.

Sometimes I think about it carefully, and sometimes I think about it deeply.

The memories of the past weighed on him, both sweet and sour.

The more he grows up, the more he realizes that the road is not just going straight forward, but branching paths are opened in all directions at every node. No matter how close you are, you can only accompany you to complete one road, not all of them.

He used to look forward to the future, thinking that he would be free when he grew up, he wanted to grow up so that he no longer had to rely on anyone, he wanted to be able to face everything, he wanted to kiss Yi Shi openly.

It wasn't until he arrived at the future that he yearned for at the beginning that he realized that every day now is not better than the ignorant days before.

Why no matter how you choose, there will always be regrets?

Seeing Yi Shi again, his eyes were hot, his chest was sore and swollen, like a crushed lemon, and he suddenly felt that he was still the 17-year-old boy who wanted to cry when he didn't see his boyfriend for a week.

Whatever he grows up and the future will be his.

He just wants to kiss his lover like this, for a long time.

But he can't be a kid who doesn't care about anything forever.

Neither can Yi Shi.

They can't stay in the cabin for two forever without going out into the world.

"Regret?" Yi Shi drove He Zhao back to his apartment, holding the steering wheel and asking him.

He knew He Zhao well, he was always belatedly aware of some things.

"What regrets?" He Zhao pretended not to understand.

Yi Shi didn't speak. After a while, he answered a call from a colleague in the laboratory. It was a girl. From the tone of her voice, He Zhao knew that she must be very enthusiastic and cheerful.

They talked about the project for a while, and the girl smiled and asked where Yi Shi had been, and whether he was going to drink at night.

There was a smile in the tone, a little sticky that couldn't be described.

He Zhao understood these sentences in English.

Yi Shi simply rejected her, didn't answer her question about where she was going, and didn't mention He Zhao, and hung up the phone.

He Zhao asked indifferently: "Can I drive and answer the phone in the United States?"

"It's just a colleague in the laboratory. I don't know her well." Yi Shi glanced at him and explained, "She has a deep research on genes."

"Oh." He Zhao replied without emotion.

Yi Shi frowned slightly, and was about to speak, when he saw He Zhao in the passenger seat seemed tired by scanning the rearview mirror, closed his eyes, and did not continue.

But He Zhao didn't really rest, and opened his eyes after a while, and his eyes fell on Yi Shi's hand holding the steering wheel: "Why don't you wear a ring?"

"In your pocket, the laboratory cannot wear a ring." Yi Shi explained almost immediately, "I checked the flight after receiving your message, and rushed over from the laboratory."

He Zhao didn't speak, obviously dissatisfied with his explanation.

Yi Shi paused for a moment, and glanced out of the corner of his eye again. He Zhaozheng turned his head and looked out the window, not knowing what he was looking at, with his lips pursed tightly, showing a deliberate alienation.

Yi Shi was at a loss and didn't know what to say to ease the atmosphere. He Zhao was rarely like this.

There was silence in the car.

Yi Shi opened his mouth and explained again, saying that the girl was not considered a formal colleague, but just a little cooperative, and he would not have any contact with her except for exchanges in the laboratory.

He Zhao didn't seem to want to hear him speak, so he turned on the car music directly.

When the music started, Yi Shi shut up.

He looked at He Zhao several times along the way. He Zhao didn't play with his phone or speak. He leaned his elbows against the window, resting his chin and looking out of the window, wondering what he was thinking.

Yi Shi lives in an old apartment, located in the center of Boston, the location is good, the floors are high, the downstairs is lively, and there are large floor-to-ceiling windows.

He Zhao likes them all.

Yishi doesn't have much requirements for the residence, but He Zhao likes to be lively and bright.Even if they don't live together, he still picks He Zhao's preferences.

The elevator went up slowly, and there were other people besides the two of them in the small elevator room. Yi Shi had already put on the ring. In fact, he put on the ring while waiting for the traffic lights, and held He Zhao's hand.

He Zhao stood lazily and did not refuse.

But as soon as he entered the apartment, He Zhao shook off his hand, and Yi Shi grabbed his wrist with his backhand and pulled him back: "Are you going to do this all night?"

"How about me?" He Zhao asked him sullenly.

After a moment of stalemate, Yi Shi apologized: "Sorry."

It doesn't make any sense to be so arrogant, He Zhao came all the way here, he didn't want to make him unhappy.

After hearing these two words, He Zhao couldn't help but hugged him very hard: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lose my temper, I just felt bad."

There is some jealousy, but it's not just that, too many complicated emotions pull him, and he can't grasp anything.

Yi Shi hugged him back, and asked him slowly and lowly in his ear: "Do you think I feel better?"

It is he who insists on others to pursue their dreams, and now he is losing his temper here.

He Zhao subconsciously apologized: "Yes..."

Yi Shi said: "No need to apologize, you never need to apologize to me. In this world, the person I am most grateful to and loves the most is you."

He Zhao is not self-conscious, he is unrestrained and forgetful, never caring about other people's kindness.This is the case for feeding the stray cats downstairs, saving Luo Hao, helping Liu Xiaoyun, and even defending Du Shijie.

But Yi Shi is very clear that his life began to change when he met He Zhao. At the age of 17, he thought that spending more than a month with the person he liked was already a utopia in his life.

He never expected that He Zhao would confess his love to him, saying that he liked him over and over again, and that he wanted to be with him forever.

The past few years with He Zhao have been a beauty that he can't imagine no matter how boldly he imagined.Every year on his birthday, He Zhao told him that "XX-year-old He Zhao still likes XX-year-old Yi Shi very much." From the age of 17 to now, He Zhao gave him pure and passionate love, and He Zhao relied on him unreservedly. He, warm him.

They go from high school to college, from chaotic youth to adulthood.

He looked at the sleeping face of the person next to his pillow several times, and he seemed to be in a dream, but everything was real.

just perfect.

He doesn't have so many romantic and rich thoughts like He Zhao, he can't even use one or more words to describe He Zhao, to describe the past few years.

He Zhao is unique to him.

There will never be a person who can hold his life like He Zhao.

He has only two lives, being with He Zhao, or being expelled and living an inferior life.

Having loved and been loved intensely and passionately too early will be unforgettable in this life.

But the burning pain and reluctance are no match for a bright smile from a young man.

Anything is fine, he hopes that He Zhao will be happy and free.

"Maybe in other people's eyes, I have everything, the proud son of heaven, a genius, rich and handsome," said Yi Shi, twitching the corners of his mouth as if mockingly, and patted He Zhao's head, "But you know, what do I do?" None. You're all I have and I love you baby."

He Zhao is always willing to express, from the corners of his eyes to the tip of his brows, from his body to his language, he is blatant and undisguised, so that people can see, hear, hear and feel his liking and burning, but Yi Shi seldom does this.

He noticed He Zhao's uneasiness and panic, and couldn't bear to see him like this, so he directly leaked his extreme love to him.

This is the first time He Zhao heard Yi Shi say the words "I love you". His nose was a little sore, and he was a little touched and hurt. He rubbed his nose: "I love you too, you didn't say it before. .”

"Not heavy anymore?" Yi Shi asked.

Hold grudges and remember what he said last time.

"Not heavy, not heavy," He Zhao hugged him and shook his head, "I think you love me, the more you love me, the better."

"You don't know if I love you or not?" Yi Shi pinched his chin and asked him.

"How would I know if you didn't tell me?" He Zhao blinked.

Although he knew that Yi Shi loved him, it felt very different to hear him say it.

"I love you, it is impossible to fall in love with someone else, you are the only one." Yi Shi said what he wanted to hear.

He Zhao took the initiative to kiss her.

Yi Shi kissed him back and asked him, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

He Zhao nodded, and Yi Shi asked again, "Where do you feel uncomfortable?"

He Zhao: "Ear hurts."

Yi Shi touched his ear: "It hurts?"

"It hurts a little bit," He Zhao said.

"What else is uncomfortable?" Yi Shi asked.

He Zhao took his hand and put it on his heart: "It's uncomfortable here."

"Why do you feel uncomfortable?" Yi Shi reached in from under the hem of his clothes, his palms were slightly warmer, with a little rough palm lines, and lightly pressed his chest.

"Because I miss you so much." He Zhao rested his forehead on his shoulder and was touched by him without hindrance, a little itchy, and said after a few seconds, "They all said that long-distance relationships are difficult to have good results. I am afraid."

"Aren't you very confident? Didn't you decide that I can't do anything about you?" Yi Shi lightly scratched a spot on his chest with his nails like punishment.

He Zhao gasped, but didn't stop him: "Of course I'm confident."

"Then what are you afraid of?" Yi Shi asked him.

"I'm afraid you're having a bad time here, and I'm afraid you're having a good time, I'm afraid I'll drag you down, and I'm afraid I'll lose you." In fact, it's not all, He Zhao gave up speaking, "I...don't know either. "

He knew that Yi Shi loved him, would never forget him, and would always love him. Yi Shi said little, but did a lot. He Zhao never doubted his feelings.But he was very scared, and he didn't know exactly what he was afraid of.

Love is like this, there is no reason to make people worry about gains and losses.

He ran over without thinking clearly.

Yi Shi's hand gently touched his body, which made He Zhao's back feel goosebumps.In my teens and twenties, I can't help but make wild noises with my lover who is physically and mentally compatible. It's the first time I haven't seen each other for such a long time.

He Zhao's blood surged crazily, and the tips of his ears were stained with blood. Now not only his heart was uncomfortable, but his body was also uncomfortable, but he insisted on not moving.

Yi Shi seemed to know what he was afraid of. He lowered his head and kissed his neck comfortingly. He was very gentle and his voice was a little hoarse: "I will not go anywhere, I will only return to your side."

He Zhao's heart softened, and only then did he understand what he was afraid of.

Time always moves forward and cannot go backwards. He wants Yi Shi to fly freely to a wider sky, but he is afraid that he will not be able to catch up with him at all.

Yi Shi never lied to him.

Yi Shi said he would come back.

He Zhao was a little happy and a little aggrieved, he understood the truth, he could understand everything, but he was aggrieved.

He is already a mature and stable adult, and he is doing public relations and marketing work, so he can solve many problems with ease.Many people praised him for his rationality and thoughtfulness, and his ability to deal with even the most difficult matters.But as long as he meets Yi Shi, his strength will fall apart, and he can't help committing crimes. With his arms around Yi Shi, he unconsciously rubs into his arms, with a coquettish tone: "I miss you so much."

He Zhao complained silently in his heart, how could he maintain his image if his partner saw him.

"I feel it." He Zhao's body was more honest than his words, and he had already reacted strongly.Yi Shi lifted up his hoodie, pulled it to the top of his head and took it off, and kissed down his neck.

Yi Shi's voice was familiar, low and magnetic, and He Zhao felt a little tingly, and actively cooperated with his movements, breathing heavily.

They slept together for thousands of nights, and He Zhao woke up in the dark nights to find that there was no one around him, and his heart was suddenly empty.

Now that reality and dream overlapped, he finally hugged Yi Shi again.

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