Forget about hope

According to Xia Mingxiao's grandmother, the first time he met Qin Yuqi, he would bully others before he could even speak.

Xia Mingxiao and Qin Yuqi are childhood sweethearts in the legend. They played together, made troubles, skipped classes, made up their homework, and made up homework for 17 years.

During these 17 years, the strong Xia Mingxiao bullied the weak and sick Qin Yuqi every day, but Xia Mingxiao would protect Qin Yuqi from being bullied by other bad boys, and she was the kind who never charged protection money.

It's not just because she got used to it or something, Xia Mingxiao has always looked at Qin Yuqi very pleasing to the eye, and she has been watching her for 17 years. During these 17 years, Xia Mingxiao didn't know when she fell in love with Qin Yuqi.

Xia Mingxiao couldn't say what kind of liking it was, he just felt that seeing Qin Yuqi sad made him feel sad, and seeing Qin Yuqi happy made him feel happy, this kind of feeling should be a kind of liking.He just likes to bully Qin Yuqi, he just likes to protect Qin Yuqi, he just likes to look at Qin Yuqi, he just likes Qin Yuqi.

What about Qin Yuqi?

Will Qin Yuqi always regard him as a villain who bullies her?I don't know why, Xia Mingxiao can take the blame for her good buddies, but she just doesn't want to be misunderstood by Qin Yuqi.

Xia Mingxiao tried every means to show his favor to Qin Yuqi. He helped Qin Yuqi on duty, did homework, and typed cheat sheets. He punished Liu Qi and took the blame.Xia Mingxiao felt that Qin Yuqi could know what he wanted to do just by blinking her eyes.

However, Qin Yuqi also returned all the things he did for Qin Yuqi, as if Qin Yuqi was rejecting Xia Mingxiao's overtures in another way.

Qin Yuqi was always clumsy when she was young, and Xia Mingxiao always felt that even she was made stupid by him.

When he was in kindergarten, he was hung on a flagpole, almost being raised up as a flag.

In the first grade of elementary school, the two wore the same clothes on the street and were regarded as twins.

In the second grade of elementary school, Qin Yuqi copied Xia Mingxiao's homework, and finally wrote down his name, and we were punished by the teacher to stand together.

In the third grade sports meeting, Qin Yuqi burst into tears because she didn't wear her school uniform.

In the fourth grade of elementary school, Qin Yuqi mistook the No. 26 bus for the No. 62 bus, and only realized that she had taken the wrong bus when she arrived at the bus terminal.

In the fifth grade of elementary school, Qin Yuqi broke her leg while doing radio exercises, and Xia Mingxiao carried him to the infirmary.

In junior high school, the two of them were not assigned to the same class, but as soon as get out of class was over, we would go to the men's room to gossip about our class.

In the second grade of junior high school, Qin Yuqi almost collapsed after eating radish and cabbage for a month, Xia Mingxiao really didn't understand, they obviously ate together, how could Xia Mingxiao be fine?

In the third grade of junior high school, Qin Yuqi was diagnosed with a heart attack. The doctor said that if you don't have surgery, you won't survive until you reach adulthood.It was also from then on that he didn't like to talk, he just lowered his head to read and study quietly, and sealed himself in the sea of ​​exercises and books, even segregated with Xia Mingxiao.

In the fourth grade of junior high school, Qin Yuqi's parents divorced. They were unwilling to raise this sick child, leaving him to fend for himself. Fortunately, Xia Mingxiao took care of him.

Later, they were admitted to the same high school, and Qin Yuqi sat in front of Xia Mingxiao, reading and studying all day long.But did he know that Xia Mingxiao who was sitting behind him was watching him all day long?

Qin Yuqi's complexion has always been pale and lifeless; he no longer loves to smile, he is gloomy, and no one wants to approach him; he is becoming more and more slender, as if you will be blown away by the wind.With him like this, how could Xia Mingxiao not be worried?

Xia Mingxiao always felt that he was a burden, and that if he died, his family would be better off, but he didn't want Qin Yuqi to be happy or sad because of his death.

However, before he died, Qin Yuqi died first.

Xia Mingxiao stood in front of Qin Yuqi's house. He wanted to ring the doorbell. He was expecting to see Qin Yuqi running to open the door in a panic, but he knew that such an expectation... would never come true.

"Come to my house for dinner. If you don't come, I'll send it over."

The note from more than ten days ago was still pasted on the door, but the person who took it off was gone.

After learning of Qin Yuqi's death, Xia Mingxiao developed a strange habit.After school, he would pick a bouquet of white flowers raised by himself and put them at the door of Qin Yuqi's former home.

Xia Mingxiao might be crazy.

Otherwise, how could he feel that Qin Yuqi was still hovering by his side?

Qin Yuqi is dead, everyone in the class knows about it, but why is Xia Mingxiao the only one who has this strange feeling?Is it because he is the only one who refuses to accept this cruel fact?

But, is Qin Yuqi really not dead?Everyone in the class has this question.

Why is the place where Qin Yuqi sat before no one cleaned it but it is still spotless?Why can I sometimes feel someone touching me even though there is no one around?Is it psychological?

Or, did Qin Yuqi not know that she was dead, and she still came back to school every day?

That's right, obviously this guy worked so hard for the college entrance examination for so long, but died before stepping into the examination room, no one would be reconciled if he changed it!

So, is Qin Yuqi still by their side?

It's scary to think about it this way, even if it's a classmate who has been with him day and night, no one can guarantee that ghosts won't harm people.But, it's really disgusting to think so, shouldn't there be more trust between people?Between humans and ghosts... Sure enough, don't think about it.

Therefore, everyone in the class chose to ignore the feeling that Qin Yuqi was still by her side.

But now, Xia Mingxiao, who couldn't ignore this feeling, felt that he was crazy.

Just be crazy, he still wants Qin Yuqi by his side.

Xia Mingxiao felt that Qin Yuqi was actually a very cautious person. His shooting percentage in the last basketball game was [-]%, because he refused to shoot after being blinded by a goal.

Xia Mingxiao thinks that Qin Yuqi is actually a very strong person. During the physical examination at the beginning of school, he was ridiculed because he hadn't grown taller for more than a year, so he said, "I can't grow heels, can't I grow heels?" ? ' and left.

Xia Mingxiao felt that Qin Yuqi was actually a sentimental person, and her eyes would turn red when she heard the teacher play some sad songs in mental health class.

However, such Qin Yuqi is no longer here.

Xia Mingxiao decided to put the last bouquet of white flowers she raised at the door of Qin Yuqi's house, and then forget about Qin Yuqi.

Perhaps Qin Yuqi never thought that she had been watched by someone since she didn't know when, so wouldn't it be ridiculous to be bound by Xia Mingxiao's thoughts after his death?

Today is the last time Xia Mingxiao faces the door of Qin Yuqi's house.At least he thought so himself.

Xia Mingxiao seemed to breathe a sigh of relief after putting down the bunch of small white flowers.

I'm sorry, I want to get close to you but shrink back again and again, I want to protect you but I can't do anything, I want to remember you but I become a shackle that binds you.will you be angryFor someone you don't know but always wants to know you.will you be sadFor myself who has never received love and care in this world.

Goodbye, Qin Yuqi.

Qin Yuqi felt that she had failed as a human being, because after he became a ghost, he still went to school, after school, and went home every day, just like when he was alive.However, he recently encountered something that made even ghosts feel evil.

In fact, that's not a big deal, but since the day of the silent mourning ceremony, someone has always placed an unknown bouquet of white flowers at the door of Qin Yuqi's house.Maybe it's my parents or old class who are mourning themselves, or maybe someone else is mourning their other relatives and friends.After all, it might not necessarily have something to do with her, so Qin Yuqi didn't think much about it.

However, one or two days is fine; the third day is also okay, and on the fourth day, no matter who is commemorating anyone, he is a little moved; however, the fifth day begins to make him upset.Don't you bother that the cleaners clear away the flowers every morning and the flower delivery guy has been putting a mourning bouquet here for a week!

This time, Qin Yuqi really couldn't suppress her curiosity. To see who was so boring, he decided to stay at the door of his house. Unexpectedly, he actually found that person today.

When seeing Xia Mingxiao, Qin Yuqi felt that only surprise could describe her feelings.

what happened?Isn't this guy only bullying himself?

I remember when I was in high school, Qin Yuqi and a few classmates said that it would be great if one day the beautiful deputy squad leader could send flowers to herself, and I don’t know which classmate said jokingly: “Qin Yuqi, Qin Yuqi, wait for you to die someday.” It is estimated that the pretty vice-president will place flowers on your grave on behalf of the whole class!"

I didn't expect this joke to come true.However, the one who gave him flowers was not the beautiful deputy squad leader, but Xia Mingxiao, whom he was not very familiar with.Hey, what kind of flowers does one old man send to another old man!

Qin Yuqi sighed, and quietly walked in front of Xia Mingxiao, he still wanted to cry like he did when he was a child, hugging Xia Mingxiao's neck again.

By the way, how long has it been since he saw Xia Mingxiao crying?

"Qin Yuqi?"

Xia Mingxiao suddenly raised her head to look at the place where Qin Yuqi was and called his name, which startled Qin Yuqi.

Can he see himself?Then why didn't he talk to himself before?

"Qin Yuqi?"

Xia Mingxiao looked around the empty corridor, saw nothing, sighed, then looked at the door of Qin Yuqi's house, hesitating whether to leave or not.

It turned out that he couldn't see himself, but his intuition was sharper.Thinking of this, Qin Yuqi couldn't help but feel a little lost.

Maybe, in the past few days, classmates who usually have a good relationship with Qin Yuqi will turn their heads back from time to time, just afraid to see him standing behind them.

Now Qin Yuqi realized that she still liked the feeling of being sent flowers every day. Although it was a funeral flower and it would cause trouble for the cleaning lady, it was a proof that others still remembered her.If one day everyone forgets about him, will he still exist in this world?

A fear he had never felt before took possession of him.

By the way, doesn't Xia Mingxiao still remember him?

Then, some warmth from nowhere dispelled all fear.

Although I don't know the reason, but, Xia Mingxiao, thank you for remembering me.

Qin Yuqi thought so.

In fact, I also care a little bit about your every move, emotions, sorrows and joys.In fact, I also have a little desire to be good friends and good buddies with you; in fact, I also have a little bit of unwillingness to die like this.

If I had opened up with you earlier, we should be playing games at my house now, not like this, you talk into the air like a demon, and I don't even know if I still exist.

"Qin Yuqi?"

Xia Mingxiao asked tentatively.

no respond.

Are you really overthinking yourself?But Xia Mingxiao still didn't give up, he looked around the corridor, and asked again: "Qin Yuqi?"

Still no response.

Xia Mingxiao was a little lost, even Qin Yuqi, now, if she couldn't see, hear, or feel it, how would she know it existed?Maybe, that was really my own illusion.

Just when his mind was full of words such as sadness and regret, it seemed that a pair of hands that were not warm but not cold were gently placed on his shoulders.He seemed to still hear Qin Yuqi saying to himself in a calm voice——

"Thank you."

It seemed that he was hopeless.

Huo Zixuan smiled lightly.

I should be the one to say thank you.

can't see...

can't hear...

Can't touch...

But does it really exist...

Even if you can't see, hear, or touch, you can still know your existence.

Just close your eyes and let yourself go, as if you can really see your expression, hear your words, and feel your heartbeat.You have always existed, in every corner of the world, by my side, and in the thoughts of those who love you.

Please believe in one point.

Qin Yuqi, at least I will always remember you!

Xia Mingxiao didn't know where his eyes fell. ?