Forget about hope

?Chen Qiumiao took all Su Ran's daily necessities to the new ward yesterday, but for some unknown reason, Su Ran couldn't wake up now. He was a little scared, afraid that Su Ran would just fall into a coma and die.

Chen Qiumiao is a high school teacher who teaches physics. He has taught many students and served as a class teacher. His humorous teaching method is very popular among students, and he himself likes teaching and educating people.

Chen Qiumiao is a good teacher, but not a good husband.He never does housework, never cooks, and never sees the melancholy in his wife's eyes.Until the end, when his barren wife left him because she didn't want to be a burden to him, he couldn't keep her.

When his parents passed away one after another, it was his wife and Su Ran who accompanied him and cheered up Chen Qiumiao, who already felt that he was sinking at the bottom of the lake and could not breathe. However, his wife is no longer there.

However, at least there is Su Ran.

Chen Qiumiao, who lives alone, doesn't know how to do housework, so his house is always in such a mess.

Sometimes, Su Ran would come to cook, let him taste his cooking skills, and help him organize the house by the way.

As long as Su Ran is around, his stomach medicine will never run out, there will always be clean socks in his closet, and freshly cooked meals in his refrigerator. of happiness.

At first, Chen Qiumiao thought that Su Ran really couldn't bear to look down on this house whose dust was almost up to his ankles, but gradually he found that he was used to relying on Su Ran.

Thinking about it carefully, his parents helped him with housework when he was a child, he had a wife after he got married, and now Su Ran washes, cooks and cleans the house for him.He is such a happy man.

Su Ran is the best in the middle school of the first batch of students he taught. She is cheerful, young, and loves to laugh. She owns her own house and her career is thriving.But he hasn't mentioned anything like a girlfriend to Chen Qiumiao in these years.

Su Ran runs to Chen Qiumiao's house every day, so she has no time to find a girlfriend.If Su Ran had a girlfriend, he wouldn't run to him every day, maybe his life would become difficult, but Chen Qiumiao hopes that Su Ran can find his own happiness. The days of bread scrambling in the kitchen may be over. .

I remember that when Su Ran was in high school, his head teacher gave his parents' contact information to all the teachers for the convenience of supervising him. These years, Su Ran's parents did not change their contact information, so Chen Qiumiao found them easily.Through Su Ran's parents, Chen Qiumiao introduced Su Ran, a girl from Northeast China who is bold but caring, as his girlfriend.

Chen Qiumiao watched Su Ran take the girl to the movies, and watched the girl take Su Ran to pick out clothes.He was wondering, many years ago, when Su Ran came to his wedding, was he as strangely sad as he is now.

However, Su Ran will still come to help him cook and clean up the house.

In less than half a year, Su Ran broke up with that girl, that's right, no matter how careless a woman is, she can't stand her boyfriend running to other people's house from time to time.

On the second day after the breakup, Su Ran's parents ran to have a long talk with him.

That day, Su Ran's parents called Chen Qiumiao. They said they agreed with their son's choice, but they would also respect Chen Qiumiao's opinion.At that time, Chen Qiumiao was confused.

It was also that night that Su Ran ran to Chen Qiumiao and complained a lot.

Bottle after bottle of beer was opened, Chen Qiumiao didn't know how to explain his smell of alcohol to the students in class tomorrow, did he really want to tell the students that it was the smell of alcohol lamps?

Su Ran leaned on the armrest of the sofa in a daze and asked, "If I wasn't your student, would you still like me?"

Chen Qiumiao also sat on the ground in a daze and replied: "Yes..."

Then Su Ran fell asleep on the armrest of the sofa in a daze. Seeing that Su Ran gradually lost his voice, Chen Qiumiao also stood up, hugged Su Ran to the sofa, and kissed Su Ran's forehead lightly in a daze. Then it fell on the carpet.

The cold lips touched the hot forehead, as if singing a song in the middle of the night that has also become hazy.

Chen Qiumiao seems to understand a little bit why Su Ran often comes to cook for herself, and also seems to understand a little bit why she is reluctant to leave Su Ran.

Chen Qiumiao actually liked Su Ran quite a bit, but he thought it was because the teacher liked his students.

Chen Qiumiao was actually a little scared, afraid that he would delay the life of other people's children because of him.

Chen Qiumiao actually hated herself quite a lot. Couldn't he just say decisively that he didn't like Su Ran because of Su Ran?

Maybe in his eyes, Su Ran will always be a child who can't grow up, but this child has shed his childishness and grown into an adult who can be relied on at ease, and he is gradually no longer young.

Chen Qiumiao knew that if he was really good for Su Ran, he should stay away from Su Ran, but he didn't have the courage to practice it.Chen Qiumiao knew that Su Ran was expecting his response, but he had to wander around.Chen Qiumiao knew that Su Ran was his only concern now, but he didn't dare to stretch out his arms to hug him tightly.

What is he afraid of?

He was afraid of ruining Su Ran, afraid of being hurt, he was afraid of the eyes of the world, he was afraid of the blame from his ex-wife, and he was afraid of his cowardice.

Who can stand the mocking eyes of those around them?Who can stand the pointers of the seven aunts and the eight aunts?

Of course, Su Ran can't bear this, can she?

What happens if the status quo is disrupted?

Will Su Ran leave herself because she can't stand those things?Will I make more wrong choices?

What does the future look like?

What was it like in the past?

He didn't dare to think about it!

Therefore, their relationship has always remained at the stage of close friends.

So, he kept procrastinating, refusing to give him any answer.

Su Ran is a stubborn person, but he is also a person who can be persuaded. The only person who can persuade Su Ran is Chen Qiumiao.

However, Chen Qiumiao decided to leave Su Ran. He thought that after teaching this class of students, he could move to a city that no one knew and continue to be a physics teacher.He can wait for Su Ran and himself to calm down before thinking about whether he likes it or not, so as to minimize the damage to the other party and himself.

But at this moment, Su Ran fell ill.

It is estimated that apart from Santa Claus, teachers have the longest vacation, after all, are there winter and summer vacations?

Chen Qiumiao put down the work at hand and went to the hospital to take care of Su Ran, and delivered meals to Su Ran every day like he used to cook for himself. Although the taste of each meal was not satisfactory, Su Ran still said it was delicious.No matter what happens in the future, the most urgent task now is to let Su Ran recover from her illness.Chen Qiumiao decided to take care of Su Ran like Su Ran took care of herself until he was discharged from the hospital.

However, Su Ran was pushed to the intensive care unit, where she remained unconscious.

Su Ran lay quietly on the bed, her rapid heartbeat was in contrast to her pale face. This strong boy had never been so haggard in front of Chen Qiumiao.

Chen Qiumiao didn't understand.

He didn't understand why he could do so little for Su Ran?

He didn't understand why he was so afraid of losing Su Ran?

He didn't understand why he didn't want to leave Su Ran alone?

He didn't understand why he refused to leave even though he knew he couldn't give Su Ran the answer he wanted?

He didn't understand why he would show his incompetence in front of Su Ran no matter what?

He didn't understand why he was so afraid of getting hurt and said that he wouldn't abandon Su Ran

Chen Qiumiao felt as if she had sunk to the bottom of the icy lake again.

But this time, there is no one who can accompany him...

Su Ran looked at the boy in front of him with a smiling face that seemed to never fade away. She had many questions in her heart, but she didn't dare to ask them.

In the middle of the night, all the accompanying family members went back, and the little loli in the next bed and the high school boy against the wall were also fast asleep. I didn't know which room Su Ran's ward was changed to. To be precise, I didn't know that Su Ran Where is the body now, anyway, his consciousness has not left now.

"Are you still alive?" Qin Yuqi actually didn't immediately realize that Su Ran was a ghost, but in his impression, a living and normal person would not just spend the night looking at an empty bed like this.

Su Ran raised his head in a daze. He seemed to have some impression of the child who had been staying next to Xia Mingxiao's bed, but he had no memory of him. It's the same as the strange stories of classmates.And now Su Ran didn't realize that the other party was a ghost.

"I'm this guy's escort." Qin Yuqi laughed and pointed at Xia Mingxiao who was sleeping like a dead pig.

Before Su Ran could reply, another person came in from outside the door: "I said, you two, now is not the time to say hello leisurely, is it?"

The person who came to visit suddenly at midnight was a young boy, Qin Yuqi was stunned when she saw him, and Su Ran was not good at expressing, so the ward fell into a strange silence.

However, is the ward really a place where you can come if you want?

"Then what, do you have anything else you want to say?" The boy couldn't help but speak first.

Su Ran said, "May I ask who you are?"

"Before asking someone's name, you should report your family name first." The boy said with a smile.

"My name is Su Ran." When he realized that he had answered first, he seemed to have lost the opportunity to strike first, so he had to honestly explain: "I am clearly here, why can't others see me? Also, may I ask who you are?" who?"

Others in the hospital can't see Su Ran now, but they can see this boy. Everyone thinks he is a new patient in this ward. The nurse on night shift even greeted him, but the boy replied that he was actually waiting for him. people.Strange, it seems that the central hospital does not accept patients with mental illness?

What a queer boy.

But this is a hospital after all, and any strange things can happen, maybe they are just waiting for someone, so everyone didn't ask much.

"My name is Zhou Siqi, and I'm here from a ghost messenger. Because your current half-dead state affects the normal operation of the Past Life Department, so let's confirm whether you are dead or alive." The boy said with a smile.

"I think I'm still alive, but no one can see me." Su Ran said.

"What is alive? What proves you are alive is your breathing, heartbeat, blood pressure and metabolism, not your own cognition. People are mortal, and they are heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. Therefore, as a person in this human society As a member, you can only say that you have been alive, because I and we don’t have the idea that we are still alive.” The boy named Zhou Siqi said, “Indeed, now, your breathing and heartbeat are normal, but why is your soul Have you left? As a soul state, you can’t be called alive. That’s why we are in a dilemma, whether to take your soul or let you go. Your name is Su Ran, right, choose, you still want to continue to live ?"

Su Ran was confused: "You mean, I'm a ghost now? Then what are you and why are you dead?"

Zhou Siqi said: "I'm just an ordinary ghost messenger, and I'm responsible for picking up ghosts."

Su Ran: "...I don't understand yet."

"You'll know if you come with me!" Saying that, Zhou Siqi took Su Ran's hand and ran to the intensive care unit at the end of the corridor on the third floor, then pointed to the person inside the glass window. "Look at this first!"

Another Su Ran, or the real Su Ran, was lying in it.When Chen Qiumiao left before, he didn't follow him because he was afraid of seeing this situation, so that Su Ran really couldn't figure out whether he was alive or dead.

Zhou Siqi pointed to Su Ran who was sleeping peacefully and said, "Now, do you want to die or live?"

Su Ran calmed down and asked, "What if I want to die?"

Zhou Siqi sneered: "Because you are in a state of leaving your soul and your body is on the verge of death, if you want to live we will leave you alone. If you want to die, I can rush in and stab you to death right now."

Su Ran: "Okay, I want to live."

Zhou Siqi said: "Don't worry, you don't feel any pain now."

Su Ran said, "But I still don't want to die."

Zhou Siqi asked, "Why?"

Su Ran didn't speak, but just looked at Chen Qiumiao who was guarding the bedside. ?