Forget about hope

?In the morning, Xia Mingxiao was discharged from the hospital.

During the rare long vacation, Xia Mingxiao wanted to go back to Qin Yuqi's hometown. Although the sudden hospitalization disrupted his plans, after he recovered from his illness, Xia Mingxiao regained his vitality and hurried to his hometown.

A few years ago, all of Xia Mingxiao's relatives moved to the city, but Qin Yuqi's grandparents hadn't moved away yet.Qin Yuqi lived in the countryside with her grandparents when she was a child, and it took about two hours to get there by train, but for Xia Mingxiao, who was still a hard-working student party, she could only choose the long-distance bus that took about seven hours to reach her destination.

Xia Mingxiao has always been a person who does what he says, so he really took the money he had saved for a year, entrusted his grandma to the care of the aunt next door, and embarked on a journey to Qin Yuqi's hometown.

Xia Mingxiao was suddenly looking forward to this journey back to his hometown, but for some reason, it always seemed like meeting the parents. Ah, no, it should be more appropriate to say condolences to the family members of the deceased.

Qin Yuqi found a seat not far from Xia Mingxiao in the heavily overloaded bus and stood there. Although she didn't want to be taken to a strange place on that strange train, if she didn't even know her previous wish, wouldn't it? Is it too miserable?So he has always supported Xia Mingxiao's behavior of helping him find his wish, and this time he followed Xia Mingxiao back to his long-lost hometown.

When Qin Yuqi was a child, she belonged to the kind of wimpy, naughty brat, because he still lived in a bungalow at that time, and once again he stood on the roof and jumped down with an umbrella, trying to learn how to parachute from the TV, but the umbrella overturned, and he I fell a dog to eat mud.

Qin Yuqi also took the mobile phone to record the crowing of the rooster, and then he used the mobile phone to play the recording once the cock crowed, and played it again and again, and finally gave the big rooster helplessness.Another time he poked the big rooster's ass with a wooden stick, and the cock pecked at his feet as soon as it saw him. That time Qin Yuqi was picking fruit on the tree, and when he saw the rooster coming, he was so frightened that he hit the rooster with fruit.Later, I heard that the rooster was stewed by the grandfather because he pecked his cousin's little daughter.

What a happy childhood... At least it's much more enjoyable than watching parents quarrel every day.

Thinking back, Qin Yuqi hasn't returned to her hometown for many years, and she doesn't know if the cowshed that has long since lost her cows is still there.

To be honest, Qin Yuqi was a little afraid to go back to his hometown at first, he was afraid to see the scene where he made his grandparents sad because of him, and he was also afraid to see his grandparents who didn't take his death seriously and still laughed.This can be regarded as a very contradictory heart. On the one hand, I hope to see my family members well, and on the other hand, I want to see that others care about me.

No matter how afraid I have to go home, Su Huo said that an ugly daughter-in-law is not afraid of seeing her in-laws, let alone going to see her grandparents.

Qin Yuqi was engaged in a fierce ideological struggle, Xia Mingxiao had already arrived at the gate of Qin Yuqi's hometown, with Qin Yuqi's character, she often waited for things to come to an end but didn't feel nervous anymore.

Then, Xia Mingxiao met the person Qin Yuqi least wanted to see at the door of Qin Yuqi's grandparents' house.How could that hateful woman with hair like a bird's nest be here today?

Xia Mingxiao: "Hi, I'm Qin Yuqi's friend, do old people Qin He and Song Fengzhi live here?"

Qin Lu smiled and said, "Qin Yuqi? That coward has friends."

Qin Lu's words were full of sarcasm, which made Xia Mingxiao feel very uncomfortable. Qin Yuqi was also angry. He had only been dead for three months, and his bones were not... er, even though it was very cold, then you can't Say that to your cousin in front of others.

Xia Mingxiao said, "Excuse me, who are you?"

Qin Lu answered blankly, "His cousin."

Xia Mingxiao nodded: "Oh, hello, cousin. My name is Xia Mingxiao, and I am Qin Yuqi's friend and his classmate."

Qin Lu asked, "Why did you come to see Grandpa and the others?"

Xia Mingxiao replied: "I used to have a good relationship with Qin Yuqi, let's come and see his elders, so that Qin Yuqi can feel at ease in heaven."

At this moment, Qin Yuqi, who was watching the play silently: "...I'm sorry, I haven't gone to heaven yet."

Qin Lu sighed, "Okay, come in."

Xia Mingxiao smiled: "Hey, thank you cousin."

This time it was Qin Yuqi who sighed: "Don't scream like she is your cousin, okay?"

It's just that he sighed so no one could hear him.

Xia Mingxiao suddenly asked: "By the way, you live here too?"

Qin Lu said: "I just came here too, because of my uncle and aunt's house."

Wait, what do you mean?You... sold the house I used to live in?Thinking about it, no one lives in it now, and it’s vacant, but when you were young, you exchanged three [-]-yuan cards for me and one [-]-yuan card. , What do you mean!Qin Yuqi roared in her heart.

Xia Mingxiao also felt that he had come at a very bad time, and it seemed that it was not appropriate to see how the family split up.

After much deliberation, Xia Mingxiao still thinks that the 36 plan is the best plan now.

Xia Mingxiao: "Forget it, I don't want to bother you today, let's visit again next time."

Qin Lu: "Okay, it's up to you."

Xia Mingxiao: "Well, goodbye, cousin."

Qin Lu: "Walk slowly."

That nonchalant Xia Mingxiao stayed at the house of a relative he had contacted before, as if he wanted to enjoy the local atmosphere brought by this, and completely ignored Qin Yuqi's affairs.Xia Mingxiao was also planning to leave by tomorrow's train.But Qin Yuqi couldn't even know how his home was divided, so he returned to the courtyard of his hometown.

Qin Yuqi had never seen so much money neatly placed on the table in her life, and the whole family sat around the table, staring at the red tickets.

His parents, grandparents, uncles and aunts, cousins ​​and nieces are not many people, but they are all his close relatives.

This may be the last time that my parents sat on the kang together. My mother is an orphan. She grew up eating a lot of food. My father's parents have been like my mother's relatives for so many years. , Grandpa and grandma also regard mother as their daughter, and the family used to be harmonious, but I don't know how the two old people feel after knowing that their children are divorced.

First of all, mom and dad divided the front and half, and the relationship between husband and wife in the past twenty years was divided in this way.Then grandparents took part of dad's money to repair the house and add some daily necessities, and let the uncles and cousins ​​share the rest to repay the mortgage and car loans, and the younger nieces got a hundred for each.

Seeing her innocent little niece happily holding the 100 yuan red ticket from her uncle's death pension, Qin Yuqi felt uncomfortable.

I don’t know if my cousin wants him to die two years earlier so that I can pay off the loan two years earlier. Maybe what others say is true, death is like a lamp going out, but when the lamp goes out, it can be re-lit. What can come after a person dies? To prove your worth.

Who would be happy when Qin Yuqi died?The funeral home will be happy, the crematorium will be happy, the news media will be happy, and the relatives who get their pensions will be happy.Who would be sad when Qin Yuqi died?Probably Xia Mingxiao will be sad, and his parents will be sad for a while, and after that, who will be sad for him?

Is this his family?

He hated this self who wanted to see others sad, but he couldn't help being sad.

"If you're sad, don't watch your family members divide your death pension. You are such a ghost who loves to abuse you."

"It's insurance and the money to buy a house." Qin Yuqi replied subconsciously.

A familiar voice suddenly came from behind Qin Yuqi. He looked back and saw the boy who brought Lu Xiao onto the strange train standing behind him.

"Yo, do you remember me?" The boy stood in the snow in a white down jacket and said with a smile on his face, "I'm Zhou Siqi, a ghost messenger, number 724080319013."

Now, is it my turn to get on that strange train?Qin Yuqi looked at the boy in panic.

Wouldn't my wish be to be abused by my family members in turn?

Qin Yuqi guessed her wish.

When he was very young, his parents always quarreled and never put his mind on him. Every time he saw other children learning to ride a bicycle with their parents, he was very envious, but he has not been able to learn to ride a bicycle until now , is this a wish?

When he grows up a bit, he sees that other people have a large group of friends, and he is very envious of being surrounded by a group of people as soon as get out of class is over.But no matter how hard he tried to make friends later, he would only be the target of big guys making fun of him.However, he, Xia Mingxiao and Lu Xiao have already become friends, and this wish has basically come true.

It can barely be regarded as a wish to take the university entrance examination, but when he thinks about it carefully, he doesn't have any particular university that he wants to go to. Studying is just a means for him to escape from reality. It doesn't matter whether he can pass the entrance examination. Get a job without going to college.

It is already impossible to reconcile the relationship between father and mother. He knew this since he was a child, so he has never expected this matter, so it cannot be regarded as the greatest wish during his lifetime.

Then, he had no more desires.

But now Qin Yuqi is 1 unwilling to let him just get on that train.

I don't know why, but now he wants to see Xia Mingxiao a little bit, and he doesn't know if his life will be better without him...

"Are you afraid of me? Or are you afraid of the train at Babylon Station?" Zhou Siqi smiled and looked at Qin Yuqi, who looked anxious, and said, "Don't worry, it's not time for you to get on the Babylon train yet."

Zhou Siqi put on a winter outfit to look more bright and heroic. Qin Yuqi felt that if she was a girl, and such a boy could take the initiative to talk to her, she would be blushing with excitement, but his face was indeed pale with fright now. ?