Rebirth of self-redemption

He clenched his fists tightly, and planned to go to that psychological counseling office tomorrow to ask about Yang Yang's situation.

According to what Yu Leyang said, a large part of the reason for him becoming like that should be due to his parents, and another part of the reason should be Song Qi, that is, me.

I have that need to find out the situation.

29

For the first time in my life, I didn't go to class the next day.Instead, he went to the address that Yu Leyang wrote on the paper—the psychological counseling office.

The environment there is very good, the air is fresh, away from the city.After driving to the destination, I got out of the car and walked all the way through the secluded lawn and into the hall.

"Hi sir, do you have an appointment?" A neatly dressed receptionist at the counter asked with a sweet smile.

"Hello," I also smiled politely, "I heard that this place has a good reputation, and some sons of famous families have appointments with the doctors here, so I want to come here to consult with that excellent doctor."

"You should be talking about Dr. Li. She is treating patients. You can reserve half an hour, but you may have to wait a while." The receptionist smiled shyly, and turned the paper and pen in front of me: " Please register first."

"It's like this. I'm just here today to find out the situation for a friend of mine. He doesn't know anything about it. I'll ask Dr. Li a few words first, and then invite my friend to come if possible. If you register, forget it this time."

The receptionist froze for a moment, then nodded, looking at the pen and paper in his hand with some hesitation: "But..."

"I don't want to register my friend's name without authorization." I looked at her with a slightly apologetic look.

"Alright then." The receptionist glanced at me, blushed and nodded.

Dr. Li is a woman in her 40s wearing glasses. When she saw me coming in, she looked a little surprised.

"Hello, I've heard your name for a long time." I smiled and stepped forward to sit opposite her.

"Sir, I don't seem to have an appointment with you?"

"I'm here for the first time, and I'm asking you something for my friend."

The other party nodded: "Okay, but I don't have much time."

"Don't worry, I won't delay you for too long," I looked at the other party: "My friend, something happened at home."

"Do you suspect that your friend has a mental illness?" Dr. Li asked clearly.

"My friend is a man, but he seems to have a plan for his cousin," I said indifferently on the surface, but I was thinking about the look of the other party in my heart: "But what I want to ask is not about homosexuality. "

"Before I noticed that he had such thoughts about his brother, he had been treating his cousin very badly, even to the point of insulting and beating him. Even, he wanted to destroy him, but it seemed like he was contradicting himself, No one is allowed to destroy him. I wonder, is this a psychopath?"

Dr. Li seemed to think of something, and frowned.

Because of this, I felt more confident, and continued: "Actually, before I came here, I knew something about my friend's family. He seems to have heard all kinds of quarrels between his parents since he was a child, and even suffered domestic violence from his father. So I wonder if this is the reason why he has some strange psychology."

"Have you mentioned these thoughts to your friend?" Dr. Li looked at me cautiously.

I shook my head and tried to look sincere: "I don't want to make it difficult for our friend. So doctor, I came to ask you without telling him, hoping to do something to help his condition."

Something seemed to flash in Dr. Li's eyes, and she pushed her glasses: "I see. Based on your previous description, I can roughly infer that your friend may have mild schizophrenia. But this is not serious, not the main one." The reason for his actions. Mainly lies in his psychology can be called a kind of extreme individualism, "

"You're right. The main reason for him to have this kind of mentality is the stimulation from his family environment, which made him extremely insecure. If things go on like this, his desire to keep something desperately becomes stronger, and this becomes What you commonly call..."

"Destroy it if you can't get it?" I took the conversation, but I was sighing in my heart.

Doctor Li nodded.

"In addition, if other people's attitudes are about to improve later, the change in other people's attitudes will be the most deadly source."

"A change in attitude?" I was taken aback.

After falling in love with Yu Leyang, I really seldom care about other things.As for Yang Yang, the other party had already gone to live with his mother at that time.But Yang's mother is a strong woman in work, and she usually doesn't have much time to communicate with him, so how did he get here in those years?It suddenly occurred to me that my father accidentally said that Yang Yang had come to visit my house after he left, but I wasn’t there every time—I was playing ball with Yu Leyang every day.But the other party seldom called me, and we gradually stopped communicating with each other, and I didn't take it to heart at the time.

With that in mind, my attitude was probably the straw that broke the camel's back?The crimes I suffered became the retribution for falling in love with a man?This is too fucking ridiculous.

"Actually, I still suggest you to ask your friends about the real situation. The care of friends is very important." Dr. Li looked at me seriously and finally said: "If his cousin doesn't respond again, it's wrong to conduct some attitude adjustments. Change, your friend's condition may become more and more serious, and even develop into a severe schizophrenia, and by then it will be too late if he does something dangerous to his cousin."

When I came out of the counseling office, I was a little dazed.Logically speaking, could Yang Yang's experiences really make his psychological problems serious?So much so that, after knowing that I came out to the family for a man, he would destroy me to prevent me from staying with other people?

Thinking of Song Qi again.Could it be that he really wants to have a showdown with Yang Yang?

But who knows what Yang Yang will do?If he hurt Song Qi.The screeching sound of tires scraping the ground from the previous life was still echoing in my ears, and a sharp pain suddenly surged in my heart.

I don't know if the pain in my heart is due to pity and sorrow for myself in the previous life, or it is really because of the thought that Song Qi may suffer these injuries in this life.

All I know is that it seems that a long time ago, after helping Song Qi lift the lunch box that fell on the ground, it was impossible for me to remain completely indifferent.

When getting in the car, the phone suddenly rang.

I sat in the driver's seat and picked up the phone.

"Hello? Gu Jianzheng?" Song Qi's anxious voice came from the other end of the phone.

"What's wrong?"

"Today is an elective class, why didn't you come?"

"What happened?"

"Uh, nothing happened. It's just that you never miss class. I'm just a little worried." Will you blame me?"

"No, thank you." My tone was as flat as ever, but the corners of my mouth curled up unconsciously.

"That's good." Song Qi said with a smile, and I could see the other party's relief.A sudden impulse surged up in my heart: "Are you...do you have something to do this afternoon?"

"No, what's the matter?" Song Qi asked after a moment of silence.

"I have something to tell you." After hesitating for a while, I still said.I still don't plan to deal with Yang Yang completely, after all, I have part of the reason why he became like that, and on Song Qi's side, I will naturally not let him get hurt.

After hanging up the phone, I suddenly remembered the weird silence from the other party, and then realized that today is Tuesday, and Song Qi is going to work in that restaurant this afternoon.I guess I lied because I thought I might have to find him.

that fool.I laughed.

30

I'm too lazy to go to school today, anyway, I don't have any classes, and I'm still free, so I went to the coffee shop I made an appointment with Song Qi half an hour earlier, ordered a cup of cappuccino and waited.

The phone rang, I checked, Wang Xinyong called.

I haven't talked to him much since the beginning of school.

"Hello? Gu Jianzheng, you've been outside these few days, is there any news about Li Mian?!" As soon as the answer was answered, the other party asked in a very urgent tone.

I was puzzled: "Ask me? Didn't he stay at school and play hide and seek with you these few days?"

"Fuck!" The other party cursed.

"Where did you sing this?"

Wang Xinyong was silent for a while, and then said: "Li Mian ran away, and his mother disappeared a few days ago, I can't get in touch no matter what!"

It shouldn't be, the way these two got along a few days ago was quite peaceful.

"What did you do again?" Besides that, I really can't think of any other possibility.

"Why do you always see what I did?" Wang Xinyong said angrily.

I raised my eyebrows, "Isn't it?"

I was choked on the other end of the phone and couldn't speak for a long time. After a while, I seemed to give up, and said in a dejected tone: "...I gave Li Mian sex."

"Are you crazy?" I almost choked on my coffee before saying, "I thought you really gave up."

"I was just a little drunk at the time, not to mention Li Mian..." Wang Xinyong smiled wryly: "Now, I guess there is no hope at all."

"He didn't resist?" I wondered.

"...I don't remember, I said I was drunk..." Wang Xinyong said with a guilty conscience, "Okay, since you don't know where he is, I'll hang up."

After hanging up the phone, I was not completely devoid of emotion.After all, I have had such a little relationship with Wang Xinyong in the past and present, and he has helped me a lot (although most of them were done under my coercion and lure), so I still kind of consider him a friend.I still hope that these two