Rebirth of self-redemption

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"If you know him so well and there's nothing you can do, then what can I do?" I asked back.

"Too……"

"You also said that Li Mian is not a bad person. Since that's the case," I hesitated and said, "Apologize to him and let him go. He shouldn't care about it."

"Unless I let him go, he will only be disgusted with me for the rest of his life. These are his exact words." The other party said, with a hint of self-mockery in his tone.

I was silent for a while, then said, "I'm beginning to wonder if Li Mian is homophobic?"

"Fuck you!" Wang Xinyong cursed, but his confidence was not very strong.

"If he is really that straight, you will only harm others and yourself if you continue like this. So, I advise you to let go." I said lightly.

"Oh, let go," the other party chuckled, "Is it that easy?"

It's not easy, but it has to be done.

After school started, my mood was not very good because of so many things that happened during the winter vacation.But on the surface it is still the same as usual, studying, eating, sleeping, and not having anything to do with other people in the class.

The gift Song Qi gave me was a pair of gloves. I thought about it and left it in the original owner's room.Song Qi seemed a little disappointed when he saw that I was not wearing gloves.

He was much more cheerful than last semester, and after giving up Yu Leyang, Yang Yang seemed to seldom trouble him again.In the dormitory, Song Qi and I were the same as last semester, and we rarely saw each other—he didn't go to bed at noon, and he returned late at night as before.This made me feel a lot easier.

Until one day, I received a call from Yu Leyang.

"Excuse me, is this Gu Jianzheng?"

I was silent for a while before answering yes.

"I'm Yu Leyang."

Of course I know he is Yu Leyang, I have listened to his voice for nearly a lifetime.

"Why do you have my phone?" I asked coldly.Few people should know about this phone number.

The other party didn't seem to expect that I would ask this, or rather, he didn't seem to expect that I would be hostile to him.After a long pause, he replied, "I asked a mentor who is more compatible with you."

"What's up?"

"Tomorrow afternoon, I will meet with you. I have something to tell you." After a pause, the other party continued: "About Yang Yang."

28

The next day, I went to the coffee shop near the school at the time Yu Leyang said.

Although I don't know why he suddenly asked me to say this, but the other party must know more about Yang Yang than I do.Although I am the only child of the Gu family, due to my parents' supervision, I, a college student, don't want to be too public when investigating Yang Yang.

"Are you with Song Qi now?" The first thing the other party asked was when they met.

My expression remained unchanged: "Didn't you come to tell me about Yang Yang?"

"I just want to say, if you like Song Qi, it's better to be more wary of Yang Yang. They all have that abnormal gene, I guess it's a common disease in the family." Yu Leyang smiled suddenly.

I used to like his smile the most, but looking at it now, no matter how you look at it, it's annoying.

"How do you say that?" I asked calmly.

The other party just took a sip of the coffee that was just served, and was silent for a few seconds before saying: "I'll tell you the information about Yang Yang, what can you give me?"

I smiled, but suddenly a sense of sadness welled up deep in my heart. I stared at the other party coldly and asked, "What do you want?"

"Fifty thousand, I need to pay the tuition and living expenses for the remaining year." Yu Leyang asked.

"I'm really curious..." I sneered, "Where did you get the confidence to ask me for [-] yuan?"

"I think you seem to have a strong dislike for Yang Yang, so you should be interested. Fifty thousand, shouldn't be too much for you, right? I heard that the funds provided by the Gu family are those of us Many times that of ordinary people."

"Your hunch is really accurate, so have you noticed that I also have a bad feeling for you?" I asked, stirring the coffee in front of me with a spoon in boredom.

"So I want to ask why?" Yu Leyang looked at me: "I don't seem to have any friendship with you...Is it because of Song Qi?"

The other party looked dazed, as if thinking of something.

"Do you think it was Song Qi who spoke ill of you in front of me?" I looked at him expressionlessly.

Yu Leyang glanced at me indifferently: "To tell you the truth, I always thought he was not such a person, but his heart is in the belly. Other than that, I really can't think of any other reasons why you hated me from the beginning."

I couldn't help but laugh, laughing at my former self.

"It's not because of Song Qi, it's because of you." I mocked, "Haven't you thought about how annoying your face is now?"

"Well... It's not that I haven't thought about it, but I didn't affect your vital interests before, did I? If it wasn't because of Song Qi, why did you target me?"

I frowned, suspecting that a person is so simple, all the previous getting along, all the care, all the dedication, can be forgotten in an instant.

"You have reached the point where you are selling the information of the former benefactor in exchange for money. Does Yang Yang stop supporting you?" I avoided the other party's question.

Yu Leyang didn't ask any further questions. Hearing my question, a self-deprecating smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "A person who has no value to use is still the object he hates. It is considered generous for him not to deal with me."

"Hate you? I remember, Yang Yang spent a lot of money on you a few years ago?"

"Heh, rather than spending on me, it's more appropriate to say spending on Song Qi."

"Oh?" I raised my eyebrows.Are we finally getting to the point?

Yu Leyang smiled a little strangely: "That pervert, but he has all his ideas on his cousin."

"You mean, Yang Yang is interested in Song Qi?" I already know this.

But seeing the other party's indifferent expression, I frowned and said, "[-], I will transfer it to your account."

Yu Leyang thanked him with a smile, and continued: "...What's interesting... In your opinion, making those insults and beatings to someone you like, and hiring others to hurt them, seems like a normal person can do it Is it?" There was a hint of sarcasm in his tone.

It's really not normal, and it killed people.

"That……"

"I saw Yang Yang taking a kind of medicine once before, which seemed to be anti-depressant. After being suspicious, I followed him to a psychological consultation clinic while he was not paying attention. Judging by his proficiency, it may take a while It's gone." It seems that Yu Leyang is also trying his best to find out about Yang Yang.

Recalling the words that the original owner told me before he disappeared, it turned out to be true?

"He also asked you to frame Song Qi about the photo?"

Yu Leyang's expression froze, then he smiled bitterly and said, "You know?"

I am noncommittal.

"I guessed before that it might be something that happened to Yang Yang before that caused some mental illness, so I asked the psychiatrist he was looking for, but the other party refused to reveal the slightest condition of Yang Yang."

I understood, and said, "Tell me the address of that psychological clinic."

It was night, and I lay quietly on the bed in the bedroom and couldn't fall asleep.

Recalling the scene when I met Yu Leyang today, I suddenly find it difficult to understand why I stayed with him for so long in my previous life, but I had to see his true face clearly when I died?

What's even more inconceivable is why I've liked such a person for so long, and why I didn't even notice when I fell in love with someone who was truly worthy of my cherishing—leaving me?

Suddenly, I felt as if something was blocked in my heart, which was very uncomfortable.

Not long after, I heard Song Qi's voice coming back.

Since the winter vacation, Li Mian and Wang Xinyong haven't been back to the dormitory. Although they still go to class, they try to avoid seeing each other.

Rather, one side hides from the other.Li Mian usually likes to charge forward, but this time he seems to be an ostrich, hiding when he sees Wang Xinyong.Wang Xinyong seemed to have really given up.

I can't and I'm too lazy to care about the detours between the two.

So the dormitory is basically where Song Qi and I live, and Wang Xinyong will come back occasionally.

There was the familiar creaking sound of the bed board.If it was normal, I would definitely pretend that I didn't hear it and continue to sleep.

Today, after meeting Yu Leyang, I don't know why I want to hear something from Song Qi.

I want to know what Song Qi thought when he walked all the way to the dark in the past.

"Song Qi." In the silence, I spoke.Suddenly, this scene felt familiar.

"Huh?" He answered without hesitation this time.

But I suddenly didn't know what to say, the current Song Qi had deviated from the track of the past, there was no point in asking, it would only increase embarrassment.What did I think in the past, maybe I don't know.

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, Song Qi suddenly asked with a smile: "You won't cheat me for a night like last time, will you?"

I was taken aback, and it took a second to realize what he was referring to, and asked back: "Did you stay up all night because of my half-sentence last time?"

"Well... that's not the case, the work is quite tiring. It's just that I fell asleep with my stomach full of questions, and I didn't sleep well." Song Qi replied.

In the dark, I laughed silently.

Suddenly, I felt that most of the powerlessness I had felt about myself because of the conversation with Yu Leyang today had dissipated.

If so many things hadn't happened, I would be like Song Qi now, right?

Suddenly he hated Yang Yang even more than before.Even though he might be mentally unstable because of his family environment since he was a child, that still can't change the fact that he planned everything, even killed me by driving.

If he really has feelings for Song Qi, he is doing harm in the name of love, and it will only make me more disgusted with his actions.If he had the slightest remorse the moment he drove the car, would his expression be so ferocious and happy?

Do I still have to show mercy like last time?

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