It's all about love letters

Generally, children only start to remember things when they are 4-6 years old, and the memory between 2-4 years old is relatively vague, but Su Ci is different, Su Ci always remembers one thing.

He was about a year old at the time and had just learned to walk.

Su Chen was ten years older than him, and had liked his younger brother ten years younger since he was a child, but his family never let him play with his younger brother, no one would coax his younger brother when he cried, and no one would feed his younger brother when he was hungry.

Mom and Dad are busy with work every day, and they hire a nanny for cooking, and the nanny is incompetent, so they are hungry when they are full.

Su Ci didn't like to cry since he was a child, maybe because he knew he was crying and no one paid attention to him.

Su Chen has to go to school during the day, and homework assigned by her parents when she comes home at night, and she is not allowed to sleep if she can't finish.

The nanny left after cooking dinner. Su Chen didn't know if the nanny breastfed Su Ci when he was alone at home.

So at night, I always find time to feed Su Ci milk.

Ten-year-old Su Chen is clumsy and doesn't know how to take care of his younger brother. Su Ci was scalded by the first breastfeeding.

However, Su Ci did not cry, but smiled "giggle" at him.

Su Chen touched Su Ci's bald little head: "I'm sorry Xiao Ci, it's useless for my brother!"

When the milk was colder, Su Chen tested the temperature before giving it to Su Ci.

From then on, Su Ci would smile at him whenever he saw Su Chen, no matter whether Su Chen ignored him or not.

One day Su Chen was feeding Su milk powder, when Su's mother came back suddenly, she saw that Su Chen didn't do her homework but was sitting by the cradle and teasing Su Ci, holding the bottle in her hand, and she became very angry.

After a few steps, he rushed over and threw the bottle on the ground.

The baby bottle was made of glass, and it shattered all over the floor, and the hot milk powder splashed on Su Cibai's tender calf.

Su Chen stood up in panic and blocked Su Ci. He wanted to cover Su Ci's mouth with his backhand. If Su Ci cried at this time, he was sure that Su's mother would strangle Su Ci to death in the cradle.

It's not that he thought Mama Su was too vicious, but Mama Su really did it.

When Su Chen saw other children playing when he first went to school, he also played with him. After returning home, Su’s mother found out about it. Su’s mother directly pressed him in the bathtub and asked him if he was still greedy for fun. If he didn’t want to study, he would die and wait. and so on.

Su Chen will always remember all the things Su's mother made.

Su Ci in the cradle stretched out his small hand to grab Su Chen's index finger. He didn't cry, but Su Chen almost cried.

"Mom, I was wrong!" Su Chen knew how to make Su's mother happy.

Sure enough, Mother Su's face brightened a little: "I'm not going to take this as an example."

Su Chen hummed, and pulled his fingers away from Su Ci's hand without any effort.

Su Ci's grape eyes were full of confusion.

From then on, as soon as Su Chen got home, he began to mix milk powder for Su Ci, and then did his homework. When it was cold enough to drink, he would feed it to Su Ci.After feeding, Su Chen stopped teasing Su Ci, and went back to doing homework on her own.

When Su Ci was about one year old, Su Chen suffered from depression at a young age. Looking at his skinny brother, he felt distressed and blamed himself.

This is his younger brother, who has been rejected by his parents since he was born.

Su Ci, who was hungry and full, lived to be one year old in peace.

When Su Chen realized it, he had already jumped into the river with Su Ci in his arms.

The one-year-old Su Ci had no idea what this meant.

Su Chen stroked Su Ci's hair: "I have finally grown my hair. But Xiao Ci! The world is too cold. My brother doesn't want to be in this world anymore! Let me take you away, okay! Go to a very warm place with my brother, and my brother will take care of me." Take care of you and be a competent brother."

The two gradually sank to the bottom of the water, Su Chen suddenly floated up, and put Su Ci back to the shore.

Su Ci's breathing was very weak, Su Chen panicked: "Xiao Ci!"

But no matter what he called Su Ci, Su Ci never smiled foolishly at him again!

Su Chen thought that Su Ci was dead, so he jumped into the river again and never came up again.

The only thing Su Ci remembers is the scene of Su Chen holding him and sinking into the bottom of the river. He can dream of it every midnight.

Su Ci looked at Su's mother who had fallen into madness, entered the bedroom and locked the door behind her, smashing and rummaging in the bedroom.

The clean and tidy bedroom was turned into a mess in an instant.The backlog of emotions in the bottom of my heart erupted at this moment, and the final trigger of this eruption was that Su's mother changed his will without authorization.

Obviously he didn't have many demands, and only a little bit of extravagance, but his mother destroyed just a little bit of it!

Su Ci sat paralyzed in a mess, and the books on the bookshelves were scattered all over the floor. Those were Su Ci's most precious and cherished books, but now they are completely changed.

The title page of a book was opened, and the word "Fu Yun" was written in the center in a chic and elegant manner.

Tears burst at this moment.

With trembling hands, Su Ci picked up the physics book and hugged it in his arms, crying loudly.

He is like a person who has lost the most precious treasure in his life; like he lost his way in the vast forest; like a traveler who thought he saw an oasis but it was a mirage after walking a hundred miles in the desert.

Despair, sadness, pain and all kinds of emotions intertwined are the sound of heartbreak!

Tired of crying, Su Ci stood up and started tidying up the room.

No one will help him tidy up his room except himself.

Su Ci returned the books one by one to their original places, and a piece of letter paper fell in the middle of a textbook for the second grade of elementary school.

Su Ci is very strange, he opened the title page of the textbook - Su Chen.

Su Ci frowned, Su Chen has been away from this world for more than ten years, how could his book appear in his bedroom.

Su Ci bent down and picked up the letter paper on the ground, there were two full, densely packed.

Rain on January 10

My mother brought back a baby today. It is my younger brother named Su Ci. I like my younger brother very much.

Cloudy on March 10

My mother went to the laboratory today and hired a nanny to take care of my younger brother. These days, my mother has a bad temper. Whenever my younger brother cries, my mother will strangle his neck——Mom is crazy, no, mother has always been crazy.

Su Ci looked over bit by bit, the diary was intermittent, and the handwriting was relatively immature.

Rain on January 11

I just found out that the day before yesterday was my younger brother's birthday, but my mother didn't come home, and the nanny's dinner was not cooked. I said something to her, and then she brought all the food and went home!

December 12th light snow

The school holiday was early today, and when I came home, my younger brother was the only one at home, and he was crying so hard that his voice was hoarse.

The first time I mixed milk powder, I burned my brother's mouth, but he smiled at me instead of crying.My brother is really cute, but he is too thin!

Su Ci finally stopped the tears and fell again. He thought that in this family, no one liked him, even Su Chen hated him, but his brother liked him very much.

Between the lines, Su Ci could feel Su Chen's love for him.

Sunny September 1

It's a holiday today, so I can take good care of my brother at home.My younger brother drank formula milk once at eight o'clock, once at ten o'clock, and again at one o'clock. Does the baby have to eat so many meals?But my younger brother is so cute when he drinks milk—why doesn’t mom like my younger brother?

Heavy snow on February 1

My younger brother has a fever, and the nanny is unwilling to send him to the hospital, and I have no money with me.I called my mother for the first time and got hung up on!I went to ask the uncles and aunts of my neighbors. They were very enthusiastic and sent my brother to the hospital and paid for the medical expenses in advance.

Sunny September 2

My younger brother will be five months old tomorrow, so I learned how to weave red rope, hoping that my younger brother will grow up safely.

Su Ci put down the letter paper, rummaged through the mess, and finally found a rusty iron box under the desk.

It took Su Ci a lot of effort to open it, and there was a faded red string inside.

It doesn't look good, it's even ugly.But Su Ci has always been treasured. He doesn't know where it came from, but it is well preserved.

Su Chen basically recorded his situation on the letter paper.

Su Ci read on a little bit.

Sunny September 9

My brother is already one year old, walking steadily, I don't have to worry anymore, I'm sorry, brother, brother can't grow up with you, brother is so tired!I really want to rest.

Do you want to go with your brother?

You nodded, brother, do you know where I am going?Why are you so stupid!Brother really wants to take you away!The world is too cold, let's go to heaven!

You have been tugging at the corner of my clothes, I think you, like me, don't want to stay in this world anymore.My mother told me before that if you don't want to study, you will die.

I thought about it for a long time, I don't want to study anymore, I have endless homework every day, other students have time to play, and I can only spend time with my brother secretly!I don't like mom and dad, Xiaoci, do you like it?

You shook your head, Xiao Ci!Brother, I'm sorry for you, brother is reluctant to go alone, so I still have to take you with me, I'm afraid that my mother will treat you in the same way!

Su Ci, forgive brother!

Su Ci stroked the last sentence, the writing on it seemed to be smudged by water and dried up.

Su Ci suddenly wanted to laugh, he laughed at himself, at Su's mother!

What Mama Su thought was the truth was quite different from the real truth.

These two pieces of letter paper appeared in Su Ci's bedroom. It must have been Su Chen secretly writing a diary, but he didn't dare to use the notebook, so he chose to put the letter paper between the books and put it in his bedroom so that his mother wouldn't find out.

Su Ci opened the bedroom door and smiled mockingly at Su's mother: "Chen Sisi, I've let you down. The reason why Su Chen died was not because of me, but because of you! It's okay to go to Peking University. I'll go, why not! Go! I can leave as planned after I get to Peking University. It doesn't matter. You have already lost one son, so it doesn't matter if another one dies.

Anyway, what you want is never a son, but someone who can be your puppet!Chen Sisi, from now on there will be no relationship between us, this life is given by you.Just give it back to you!I do not want it!You will receive a very nice surprise!Hahaha! ! "

Su Ci smiled decisively, opened the door and rushed out regardless of Su's mother's expression after speaking.

As soon as the door closed, he saw Fu Yun standing in front of his house.

Chen Sisi's crazy laughter came from inside: "Hahaha, Su Ci! I know this is your weakness! Don't think I don't know anything! Look at your appearance just now, you think he will still be your friend Wake up, Su Ci! We are all monsters, and we don’t deserve to have feelings, so he will just stay away from you like this!”

Su Ci was trembling all over, he lowered his head, covered all his emotions, and left sideways.

Just like Su's mother said, they are all monsters with distorted psychology, no one will like him at all.

What he tried so hard to hide in the past is now in front of Fu Yun without reservation, so how should he face Fu Yun!

Su Ci couldn't think of any way except to escape.

"Su Ci!" Fu Yun shouted behind him.

Tears fell from the corners of his eyes instantly, look, Tangtang didn't call him "Little Susu"!

His world collapsed suddenly, the ray of light that originally penetrated was wiped out, and the stars that belonged to him fell in the dark night.

It's time to end it all!

—Brother, I’m looking for you now, do you still know me?

— Goodbye, Tangtang!I want to say "I love you" to you!