contradiction

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"Isn't Captain Levi going?" Allen was lying on the bed, the cold moonlight shining into the room from the outside, covering the white sheets with a halo, and there were gentle scents scattered around.The boy squinted his eyes and looked at the man sitting by the bed. The latter turned his back to him and lowered his head to wipe the blade, leaving him with a relaxed back.

"Yeah." Levi didn't stop what he was doing, he just glanced at Allen from the corner of his eye, and saw his golden eyes curved into an arc, and the slight redness left on his face due to □□, The whole person looks like a big dog with creepy feet, "Erwin will watch them."

It was still this kind of tone without ups and downs, a little smudged in the night, but the young man was very happy, as if he had caught some secret that no one else knew, and secretly let out laughter from his throat.

"Then can I see the captain tomorrow morning?" He paused, "Can I go back to the basement later today?"

Levi turned around, and Allen immediately shut his mouth, and cast his eyes elsewhere as if he had done something wrong, faltering but not daring to look at him again.Levi inserted the knife back into the three-dimensional mobile device, and the quiet air was broken by a metallic sound of "噗——".

Allen jumped up and spoke softly.

"Sorry, I--"

What interrupted him was a light kiss, quickly landed on his lips but didn't leave immediately, he smelled the clean scent of saponin on Levi's body, and a hint of someone else's, probably his own, he When he was taken aback, he heard a voice.

"Just say it if you don't want to go back." Levi paused for a second and then continued, "Brat."

What responded to the Captain was a big smiling face, which made everything pale in an instant, the kind of smile that only exists between lovers.

He's content, Levi thinks, and he doesn't mind living like this for the rest of his life.

[In June 851, the survey corps went out to investigate. Because the survey site was relatively close, not all members were dispatched. Levi Ackerman led some soldiers to stay inside the wall to sort out the results of the previous survey. This survey achieved a major success , zero casualties. 】

The moonlight came in again, and Allen looked at those blurred spots of light. He didn't know how many times the torture had damaged his eyeballs, making his vision blurry. He turned his head and looked at the shadow standing outside the iron fence. , full of familiarity, like the back of that night, and whispers ringing in my ears over and over again.

"Soldier... long..."

His voice was already hoarse, and Allen suddenly didn't want to talk anymore. He decided to let his memory stay in the good times.Maybe it was the night when he could lie on the captain's bed peacefully, say some willful words that might be reprimanded, but would be tolerated and forgiven in the end.

"They said I should come and see you," Levi looked at the bruised and tattered boy, "They said I took good care of you at the time." He used a slightly mocking tone, not at all convinced that he would Who to take care of, let alone a kid who hasn't grown up yet.

Well, you should, Captain.Allen replied in his heart, you really take good care of me.

Levi didn't speak any more, staring at the boy who seemed to be looking at him with a smile on his face, feeling a little irritated, he took a step back, letting the boy's face be buried in a deeper darkness that he couldn't see clearly.

"I don't remember you, but since you are my subordinate, I have the responsibility to see you off." He thought for a while and added, "No matter what you have done."

Well, Allen lowered his eyelids, watching the shadow become more blurred, you are responsible.

But, but, Captain.

I'm not actually a subordinate.

Allen said with a heavy tone in his heart, every word.

I am not subordinate.

"Tomorrow is execution day," Levi said, impatient with his lack of response, "have a good trip."

The sound of footsteps reached Alan's ears, and they moved away a little bit, tearing away the last bit of hope. He really wanted to know who suggested that the commander come to see him.He didn't want to see the Captain at all, he would find himself thinking again.

Why is he living so well? It's fine for him to live well.

Why did he forget me, this is good.

Why do you say that, so that he is happier.

Contradictions, contradictions.

Allen turned his head to look at the unclear light spots again.

His conflict will come to an end tomorrow.

There are no more unnecessary thoughts, those are just a dream of him—a dying person, full of happiness and future that he can't hope for, a dream that only he knows.He admitted it.

After all this time, he admitted.

Because there is no longer any expectation, no happiness, no future, no despair.

He decided to accept it.