contradiction

?17-recorder[Recorder 1]

[Investigation log, dated May 877, 5, Recorder: Ellen Ackerman]

My name is Alan Ackerman, and I belong to the 115th Training Corps. I was following the Outward Exploration Army (formerly the Investigation Corps) to the last stop of our investigation, but due to being separated on the way, only I am alone, and I hope that the seniors can also arrive as soon as possible.

This is the sea, Oceanus, the eternal ocean of endless blue, which I dreamed of since I was a child.

But obviously I am not the first person to arrive. I found a wooden house on the beach in the west. Aside from knowing it's been abandoned, it's as if someone still lives here.

Based on these traces, I guessed that there should be a couple living here, because everything is a pair, cups, pillows, they are all well placed, it seems that the owner will be back soon.

Maybe they just came for a honeymoon trip, and maybe they have gone back now.Thinking of this, I continued to look at the wooden house, and then found the bones of a horse in the stable behind the wooden house.

They couldn't have left without a horse, but why only one.I continued to search in the room in doubt, and finally found something that made me dumbfounded.

——This is a diary from the human hero Levi Ackerman.

What was left by the man who was declared dead ten years ago was not so much a diary as a letter, a whole volume, each addressed to a man named Eren.

I thought of the mother who named me, Mikasa Ackerman, she said she would use my name to read her family, and would not reveal anything else, and I suddenly had a hunch that this person was Ai in the diary Nor can Len.

I opened the diary and looked at the first page. The handwriting on it was very beautiful, but it was a little scribbled for some reason.

Dear Allen,

Are you ok?

I haven't gotten over the pain of losing you yet, but I know I have to.Although I have long been used to losing in the years of fighting, but when I think that you are the one who left this time, I can't simply accept it.I am still thinking even now, is it possible that you are not dead, or that you are actually still living in a certain corner of the world, and you just didn’t come out to see me for revenge, or that you took me away for some reason? Forget it, I know this is ridiculous, I clearly witnessed your death.

I am in the world outside the wall. I am probably the only person in the world who has only come out until now, but I just can’t do it. Even if I lose my memory of you, I don’t seem to be able to leave you to find the so-called freedom of.

But, it’s okay now, after you die, I already understand that I will never be free, I will be bound by this crime and despair forever, until the moment of death, I will not hesitate anymore, because I will never be free again There would be no possibility of happiness either.

You must be sad when you hear this, but you will laugh again, right?You don't want me to have someone else at all, you don't want me to forget you, and you are the only one I have liked in my life.So swallow those beautiful words back to your stomach, kid, it's a grown-up's business to take responsibility.And I must bear them forever, but if your soul is still lingering by my side, can you wait until I get used to the days without you and leave after I can bear all this, this is me last wish.

The place I want to go now is the sea you mentioned. I have confirmed with Han Ji that they do exist.You must have laughed excitedly after hearing this, and then your eyes kept blinking as if they were shining. I have never been able to say sorry to you. You are very cute like that, and I like it very much.

Han Ji told me that the sea is like a lake with no end in sight, but it is so powerful that it can even roll up waves several stories high.They look blue, but if you put seawater in the bottle, they become transparent again, like magic.The sun will not burn us because it is too close. Even if it is the first place to see the sun, the sun is still far away from us, so your worries are unnecessary.

But it is still some distance away from me.I don't know when it will arrive, maybe a month, maybe a year.

In short, you must wait patiently before I arrive, and you are not allowed to run away because the journey is too boring, but today you can sleep first, it is already early in the morning, I just came out of the wall not long ago, and I still need to find a place to stay .

Good night, Alan.

I love you.

Levi, on July 856, 7

It turned out to be a love letter written by Captain Levi to his lover, but the lover he said had died.

I looked at the double things around me and felt very sad, and then suddenly, I thought of a person.

Allen Yeager.

He is like a legend that we quietly talked about in private. He graduated with the fifth grade of the 104th class of the Training Corps but joined the Survey Corps. He was able to turn into a giant and made humans win the first victory in the war against giants. He made many military exploits, and finally died on the charge of kidnapping and killing the royal family.

I wondered together that he was the family member that my mother said, so would he be Captain Levi's lover?

I do not know.

Because if it is, Captain Levi must see his lover die with his own eyes. This guess makes people unwilling to believe it.We even secretly discussed the cause of his death, guessing the conspiracy hidden in the dark, so if our guesses are true, why didn't Captain Levi take him and escape?After all, he himself could have escaped ten years of searching, couldn't he?

I thought so, and continued to read, I knew it was wrong to do so, but if this Allen is really the one in the mother's mouth, then as a daughter, I have the responsibility to convey the ending of the story to her.

At the beginning, the letter was almost one every day, and then slowly, the interval between the two letters became longer and longer. I watched carefully, and these ordinary contents were full of pain, which not only could not be alleviated by time. , but intensified.