contradiction

?16-talk [Dialogue]

Cicadas sing in July, piercing and manic, like the prelude to death.The clumsy soul wandered deep in the forest, it lost its way.But it is not anxious, it does not even have emotion, it spins, climbs, falls, it looks at everything in the world indifferently, it is still searching, 1000 years, 1 years, generations change, things change, but it still Look for another 1000 years, another 1 years.

Then suddenly one day, it found that it had forgotten what it was looking for.It finally started to panic, stumbled and asked around but couldn't get an answer, it ran crazily, shed blood and tears, and turned into ashes in despair under the sun's rays.

Levi returned to this space full of potions and pain again, he sat on the bed and looked at the bright sunshine outside the window, the heavy rain was like a dream, it disappeared without leaving a trace, probably the only way to prove it Only the overly green leaves are left, they are so bright, and they look down proudly on the cowardice and humbleness of all suffering people.Han Ji was walking around, expressing extreme concealment of his indifference, and kept asking, how does the head feel, how does the body feel, whether it hurts, and what kind of pain it is.

Levi didn't know how to answer, his head seemed to be torn apart, his body was exhausted, it almost made him feel that the internal organs and joints had all been dislocated, it was very painful, from the blood vessels to the skin, the pain was unbearable, as if someone was holding a knife in Trying to cut him open from the inside out, he kept hearing Alan's voice, happy, angry, shy, and full of life, but the more he listened, the pain intensified, and his heart was completely shattered and stopped beating. , the blood will no longer flow, and he even feels that he is actually dead.

So do the dead suffer?So Allen hasn't been able to escape yet?

This thought almost stopped his breathing again, and the pain in his whole body gathered in his chest again, the other Levi who was struggling has disappeared, leaving only a hole, that hole opened in his chest, now filled It was filled with a sulfuric acid-like liquid, quickly corroding himself, making this hole grow bigger and bigger, and maybe one day it would be enough to make him disappear from the world.

——It wasn't until Hanji pounced on him that he realized what he had done.

He squeezed his neck tightly with his hands, opened and closed his lips and called Alan's name silently, and then tightened his fingers again, trying to kill himself.

Levi looked at Han Ji with a terrified face in a daze, she was staring at the finger marks on his neck as if she had seen a ghost, he felt the pain spread, and he struggled to breathe heavily, Slowly feel that they are also present in the lungs.There was a blank in front of his eyes, and the tinnitus intensified, and Alan's voice was mixed in.The young man was in pain, but he seemed so happy at the same time.

He shouted loudly to keep him, but the boy's voice became more and more erratic, so he had no choice but to chase after him with all his strength and respond with a louder voice.

[Soldier Commander. 】

— Allen.

[I want to apologize to you. 】

— Alan, I'm sorry.

【I couldn't say it when you woke up. When I looked at your face, I lost my courage. 】

—Alan, I'm sorry I didn't give you enough courage.

【Sorry, I'm too cowardly. 】

——I'm sorry, I'm so cowardly that I can't even say love, and I've been dragging it off until now.

[I may not be by your side anymore, but the captain can easily find people like me again. 】

——I'm sorry Alan, I couldn't be by your side.

[I hope that the captain can find someone who is much better than me, and then have a lovely child. 】

——Sorry, I couldn't present the planned future to you.

[I hope the captain can live happily ever after. 】

——Sorry, I couldn't bring you happiness.

[Thank you for agreeing to my confession, I am very happy. 】

——Sorry, I haven't really responded to your feelings yet.

[Thank you for liking me. 】

—I love you, Ellen, I love you.

[Hope God bless——]

- God bless

[Let you never think of me. 】

—Let me never forget you again.

[Goodbye, Levi. 】

—Goodbye, Alan.

[I will still love you until the moment I die. 】

——I will love you until the moment of death.

Hanji looked at Levi sitting on the bed, without saying a word.

He kept calling Allen's name, staring blankly at his palm, tears fell on his pale palm like the heavy rain that had just stopped, his voice was hoarse as if he hadn't spoken for a long time .He struggled and suffered in reality, but those realities intensified, just like the bruised finger marks on his neck, prompting his despair to become deeper and heavier.

Han Ji was not surprised at all, she had expected this scene the moment she discovered this fact.She just felt sad and apologetic, she failed to save anyone, she knew the ending but still couldn't change it, she could only watch, first Ellen, then Levi.

Seeing that these two people can't even overlap the pain, they are going to collapse little by little.

She picked up the coin on the table, imagining that if she could notice that something was wrong with Allen at that time, or if she could pester her to ask questions when Levi asked her with puzzled eyes, what would happen? subject to change.Even if Alan can't escape death, at least he can steal a little more happiness.

She touched the marks carved by the knife on the side of the coin with her hand. Every word came from Levi's hand. With his notes, the boy's name was engraved, and there might be a faint fantasy about the future that didn't fit his character. and the pursuit of happiness.

Levi's voice stops suddenly, and he looks at the coin in Hanji's hand, then back to her.

"Hanji."

Then he asked, in a voice that was already completely hoarse, seriously, with a hint of terrible expectation, asking her.

"Is there really the sea in Allen's mouth?"

【On July 856, 7, Captain Levi Ackerman disappeared. During the year, troops were sent many times to continue the search, but they were unable to find it in the end. In July 20, according to the new law, Levi Ackerman was declared dead because he had been missing for ten years. 】