even if I don't go

?The wind was blowing hard.

The withered and yellow fallen leaves by the street were swept into the air, and fell to the ground unsteadily.The bright sky at noon soon turned gloomy, and a few muffled thunderclaps pierced the sky.Pedestrians quickened their pace one after another, and couldn't help complaining about this strange autumn.

Ning Siyin stood in front of the huge poster in the movie theater and stared at it for a long time.

On the poster, the two women look at each other and smile, their eyes are tender.The appearance of the two is still as bright and moving as it was six years ago, which makes people feel palpitating.

I can't think straight.

Ning Siyin recalled that the movie hadn't been released back then, and she was so excited that she couldn't sleep after just skimming through the trailer, and she even made an early reservation for a midnight show with Yan Zipei, a busy man.

Zipei said that she was happier watching other people fall in love than herself. She replied naively and seriously at the time: "The fact that same-sex-themed movies can be released in China shows that domestic people's acceptance of same-sex groups has generally increased. How can you be unhappy? Woolen cloth?"

Zipei just smiled dotingly.At that time, she didn't understand that people are often able to accept the artistically idealized things in the two-dimensional space, express understanding and support, and even love a certain pair of CP, and they are happy or sad for their anger and laughter. The facts are happening around me, but not many people can truly respect and treat them equally.

"Miss, miss? How many tickets do you want?"

"Ah...two." Ning Siyin smiled at the conductor apologetically for his distraction.

"The 1:20 show has already started, and only the front row seats are left. Can you watch these two seats?"

Ning Siyin was annoyed that she had been delayed at the entrance of the cinema for too long, and could only accept the sadness of looking up at the screen at a 45° angle.

When she hurriedly checked the ticket and entered the venue, she suddenly realized that she was alone.Under the surprised eyes of the ticket inspector, she picked up her mobile phone and put it down again. She couldn't think of anyone else who could rush over at such a time to share an extra movie ticket she "unintentionally" bought.

The first meeting of Tala and Leyla, the gunpowder-flavored dialogue about religion, and the fierce collision of the two values ​​​​are being played on the screen.For Ning Siyin, who has reviewed the movie over and over again, it is not difficult to connect the plot.So, while glancing at the big screen, she hunched over and quickly identified the seat in the dark.

It's just that she didn't expect to catch Yan Zipei's pale but beautiful face in the flash of light.Why is Zipei here?Isn't she sick?

Ning Siyin carefully sat down on the row in front of Yan Zipei's right, praying that she would not be discovered - after all, she had been uneasy for a long time because of a phone call she hadn't heard back from a few days ago.

The relationship between Tala and Leyla continued to deepen, and Ning Siyin's mood also changed from being surprised and flustered at the beginning, and gradually settled down with the ups and downs of the plot, falling into the temptation of the two heroines coming and going.And when the warm and subtle Middle Eastern music sounded, and the air in the entire auditorium became hot, Ning Siyin finally couldn't help turning his head slightly, seemingly unintentionally.

It crashed into Yan Zipei's eyes as quiet as an abyss.

Zipei looked straight at it calmly and calmly, as if he was appraising an ancient painting or tracing a sculpture with his eyes.It gave birth to the illusion that this meeting was a coincidence.

The sigh of the neighbor sitting next to her couldn't help pulling back Ning Siyin's gaze, and it also made the roots of her ears turn red instantly. I don't know if it was because of the beautiful lingering on the screen or the stare at each other that seemed to stretch into a century just now.

"What Trudoing?"

"Holdingurhand..."

"So whathappens?"

Like all movie tropes, a sentimental parting is always gripping.

The bright and clumsy girl was suddenly turned on.When she found that there was a person who could come to her through the vast sea of ​​people, understand her, save her, and fill her heart like flowing water, she became firm and fearless, and didn't even care about that little bit of recklessness, that point. Selfish, wanting to have thousands and thousands of nights with your lover.

But to open her key, he couldn't be careless, but he could only hold her hand in just 5 minutes, and tell her with the last affectionate kiss: It's not that I don't love, it's that I can't.

There must be many merry-go-round horses suffering from dizziness, giraffes who are afraid of heights, and girls who are allergic to boys. As them, it is a brave thing to love what you love.

Yan Zipei saw that Ning Siyin got up suddenly, packed up the bits and pieces in his hands and walked out, and quickly disappeared into the darkness.The crowd who had just complained about the commotion quickly got into the movie, while Dr. Yan stared at the two vacant seats in a daze.

"You need to stop selling yourself short."

"Sometimes..Sometimes sucan't stop and rationalize everything so perfect."

After counting down for 5 minutes, Dr. Yan got up.

It was raining heavily outside, as if it was going to drown the whole Qingcheng.The sky was so gloomy that it didn't look like it was daytime, and small shops on the street opened up LED billboards one after another.The temperature was very low, Yan Zipei didn't understand why she, who had just recovered from a serious illness, had to cross half the city to come here to enjoy the cold wind, just like she didn't understand why she knew the time and place of Ning Siyin's exam from Grandma Ning, and then came here to watch a movie Same.

Sometimes you just can't stop and think about everything rationally.

Ning Siyin stood at the exit not far away.A few high school students shouted and rushed into the rain, showing off unscrupulously at their age.She took a small step forward with her right foot, as if she was trying to fight the God.Then, with a bang, lightning lit up the entire sky.

Yan Zipei sighed and walked forward. When passing by Ning Siyin, she left a sentence "Wait here" and disappeared into the rain.

Soon a white Audi Q7 stopped in front of Ning Siyin, the window slowly lowered, "Get in the car." Sure enough, it was Zipei's style.No one can compare to her cold and refined face, and her wilder heart than anyone else.

After hesitating for less than a second, Ning Siyin rushed forward and got into the car. Only a few steps away, his clothes were still wet.She obediently fastened her seat belt, and took the white towel from Yan Zipei's hand - there were still some water stains on it, which were clearly traces of just using it.

"This is the only one in the car. If you don't mind..."

Before she could finish speaking, Ning Siyin rubbed the ends of her hair gently with a towel, "Ah...I'll take it back and wash it before returning it to you." Thinking of Dr. Yan's worse cleanliness than her, Ning Siyin hurried to speak.

"Just throw it away." It was not easy to stay in front of the theater for too long, so Doctor Yan started the car.

Ning Siyin turned her head slightly, watching the rain blur the world into one piece, "You still like white so much. Hospitals, clothes, cars, towels... There is no one in the world who is more affectionate than you." After she finished speaking, she realized What did he say just now, and he looked at her expression with embarrassment and anxiety.

Yan Zipei looked indifferent, as if he hadn't heard anything.

"I'm just suddenly worried about grandma." This is an explanation for the movie's departure just now.Only Yan Zipei could understand her dancing language.

"Do you want me to take you to the hospital?"

"I still don't want it." Can Zipei stop being so sincere.

"Family?"

"Ah...I don't want to go home right now. Can you just find a bar and let me go?"

Yan Zipei finally glanced at her unconsciously, and concentrated on driving her car again.

"You don't have to worry about me, I'm just going to have a glass of orange juice..."

Yan Zipei glanced at her again, and continued to skillfully steer the steering wheel.

Ning Siyin wanted to continue struggling, but she saw the abnormal flush on Dr. Yan's face.Her hand suddenly reached out to Yan Zipei, and before Yan Zipei had time to dodge, there was a little warm and cool touch on his forehead. "Zipei, you have a fever!" He said wanting to confirm further.

"Sit still and don't move!" A trace of sullenness appeared on Yan Zipei's face.

Ning Siyin silently sat upright, still looking at the driver.

Zipei doesn't get sick very often, he catches a cold two or three times a year at most, and fever is even rarer—after all, from a pathological point of view, proper fever can help accelerate the proliferation and movement of white blood cells, and enhance the ability of macrophages to phagocytose pathogens .So once Yan Zipei had a fever, it would have to last for three or four days.

I'm afraid that the illness I suffered a few days ago has not fully healed yet, but when I was hit by this violent storm, my body naturally started to react.At this moment, apart from her abnormal expression, she didn't even drop a drop of sweat, Ning Siyin looked anxiously.

"Zipei, go to the hospital."

"I am a doctor."

"Zipei, let me drive."

"I don't want to say goodbye to the world just yet."

"Zipei, I'm hungry." My stomach growled a few times in unison, and the words 2:45 on the display were dazzling.

Dr. Yan, who was absolutely worried if it wasn't for the personal inspection, refused one restaurant after another, and her increasingly top-heavy body was really unsuitable for continuing to drive. Finally, she stopped in the underground garage of an apartment.