Playing tricks is the appearance of loving you

Yan Anzhen, whose hair was being held, gritted her teeth, and the shadow of her childhood covered her again. She could feel her fingers trembling uncontrollably, but she couldn't control it. Those blood-soaked eyes were close at hand. , staring at her coldly, the nightmarish words re-echoed in her ears after many years:

"You like girls?"

After the initial shock and fear, the idea of ​​resistance came a long time ago. She is no longer that ignorant ten-year-old child. After all these years, she has to learn one thing.

Yan Anzhen didn't answer his question, but bent her arms and pounded Yan Yujing's chest without hesitation. The latter was in a state of madness, and she didn't expect that she would have the courage to resist for a moment, so she was hit violently on the chest. The dull pain from everywhere made him temporarily relax the strength in his hand, and she quickly distanced himself from him, and the two looked at each other coldly across the coffee table.

Yan Yujing said: "Ameng and I are very disappointed in you."

Yan Anzhen didn't speak, she was on alert.

Yan Yujing didn't move, but his face became more gloomy: "We have worked so hard to raise you, and you have raised a pervert. Are you worthy of her?"

Yan Anzhen was firm in her heart and was not stabbed by him, she just said: "Mom will respect every decision I make, and it's not wrong for my sexual orientation to be different from the public."

She knew that Yan Yu would not listen to it.

Sure enough, he let out a sneer from the corner of his mouth, his brows were full of sarcasm, those round eyes that were supposed to be gentle and innocent were now full of viciousness, quite different from the bookish man in the photo.He said: "You showed this weird clue when you were young. At that time, I thought I had corrected your thinking. I didn't expect that I was negligent. I didn't notice that you were just hiding." of hatred and remorse.

The only thing he regrets now is that he failed to kill this disgusting thought since he was a child, and allowed it to grow and develop into the current situation.

"When I was a child".

Yan Anzhen suddenly trembled.

Even the heart began to tremble, and the heart-wrenching pain rose from the chest and swept to the limbs.

Those images could no longer be restrained, like a flood that broke a levee tumbling out of the corner of her memory, submerging her in an instant, and she felt suffocated.

On her way to school with A-shu, in the park where she and A-shu are swinging together, in every place where they are together, there is an inseparable shadow that follows her firmly and draws her He and Ashu's every move is in his eyes.

But at that time, she had other troubles and didn't notice the gaze from her father.

At that time, some precocious male students in the class confessed to the female students, and even presented flowers in a decent way. She happened to see these scenes with pink bubbles floating, and knew that this is what happens between men and women. "Love", but she was very confused, because she found that she didn't have that kind of longing and anticipation for this "love".

Little Yan Anzhen would think about these things when she couldn't fall asleep. Thinking about it, she realized that it wasn't that she didn't expect this kind of intimacy, it was just that when she imagined these scenes, the first thing that came to mind was... Ah Shu.

She was amazed.

Her fantasy love partner is A Shu.

At that age, Yan Anzhen couldn't accurately perceive this strange emotion, she just felt that she didn't reject being intimate with A Shu, and even liked it a little.Whenever she looks at the naughty boys in her class, she thinks that Ah Shu is much cuter than them. Not only is she smart, but also gentle and loves to laugh, like a cozy cat raised by a neighbor.

Ah Shu not only suddenly appeared in Yan Anzhen's life, she also accompanied her through the most difficult days of her mother's death.Her father seemed to be a different person, and she no longer dared to approach him.So on those sleepless nights, she would always go out quietly to find Ashu, who would comfort her, accompany her quietly, and tell her not to hold back when she is sad, and crying is also a way to vent her emotions.

She choked up and said, "Thank you, Shu."

Ah Shu gently touched her face, wiped away her tears, and said softly, "I will be there anytime, anywhere you need me."

Sometimes Ah Shu really doesn't look like a ten-year-old girl, there is always an emotion in her quiet eyes that little Yan Anzhen can't understand.

But Ah Shu is a liar.

Just like Yan Anzhen didn't know where Ah Shu came from, she also didn't know when she would leave.

It was evening, Yan Anzhen saw A Shu on the way home from school as usual.She walked towards her in the setting sun, her expression seemed a little sad, but she was smiling.

She suddenly felt uneasy, grabbed Ah Shu's sleeve, and asked, "What happened?"

Ah Shu held her hand instead, and said with a smile, "I'm leaving, Ah Zhen."

Yan Anzhen: "Are you going to move? Where are you going? Can I find you?"

Ah Shu leaned closer to her ear, and said softly, "I hope Ah Zhen will be happy forever."

She felt a tickle in her cheek.

From that day on, Yan Anzhen never saw Ah Shu again. She was like a dewdrop, which disappeared as soon as the sun came out the next day.

However, Yan Yujing saw that evening.

Yan Anzhen still remembers that late at night, Yan Yu pulled her hair and pulled her off the bed. Regardless of her weeping and apology, she almost dragged her to a small room.The small room had been locked since my mother's death, and when it was reopened, the smell of dust and mold came over my face, and it was dark inside without any light.

Yan Yu pushed her in, and kicked her in a smear. He didn't know where the kick landed. He only heard the girl scream, and fell to the ground unsteadily.

He turned on the flashlight function of the mobile phone, and the pale light shone directly on the girl's face. The girl couldn't see anything clearly, she squinted her eyes, and sobbed uncontrollably.

She doesn't even know what she did wrong.

Yan Yujing's voice was very strange, and the room seemed empty, he said, "Who is that girl?"

There is no clear direction, but Yan Anzhen's first reaction is Ah Shu.

She cried and said: "She is my friend, her name is A Shu, I don't know anything else... Dad, I feel bad..."

Thinking about it now, Yan Anzhen knew very little about this girl who participated in the turning point in her life and even became the turning point, only one name.

Yan Yu stared at her condescendingly, not being moved by her crying, and said gloomyly: "Friend?"

Before she could answer, Yan Yu squatted down, pinched her arm tightly, forced her to look at him, and asked word by word: "Do you like her?"

how is this possible.

Yan Anzhen wanted to answer, but the fantasies about her love partner during those nights made her hesitate for a second.

This second of hesitation fell into Yan Yujing's eyes.He smiled inexplicably, walked out of the room suddenly, and quickly came in with a notebook. The clicking sound of his fingers on the keyboard was extremely loud in this silent room, unhurried, with the sound of an executioner. Randomness before killing.

Yan Anzhen didn't know what would happen next, the only thing she could do was to curl up in a corner and let her fear overwhelm her.

- I'll be there whenever and wherever you need me.

A Shu, where are you, I need you.

Tears gushed out of her eyes crazily, she bit her lip desperately, the skin of her mouth was broken because of too much force, and a bloody smell rushed into her mouth.

"An Zhen, your mother's biggest wish before she leaves is that you grow up well." Yan Yujing stopped typing on the keyboard, turned to face her with the computer screen, and said coldly, "She doesn't want you to grow up." crooked."

Yan Anzhen's heart skipped a beat, her pupils dilated, her breathing became heavier, and she felt that a hammer had hit her head hard.

Persistent dizziness.

His stomach began to churn, and the nausea rushed from his stomach to his throat.

Yan Yujing's dark and gloomy gaze never left her face for a moment, his gaze was like a knife, scraping back and forth on her face, like scraping emotions like "regret", "helplessness" and "fear" from above.

He succeeded.

Yan Anzhen was greatly stimulated. At that moment, she felt something inside her body exploded, scattered and scattered in all directions.

She immediately covered her ears and closed her eyes, her tears seemed to have dried up, her eyes were sore and painful, she finally couldn't help it, turned her head and vomited.

She seemed to be walking barefoot in a field of snow, surrounded by a vast expanse of whiteness, the piercing pain spread from the soles of her feet to her whole body, at that moment she wished she would faint.

Yan Yujing looked at his suffering daughter indifferently. In his heart, what he did was extremely correct.He followed Ah Meng's wishes and corrected his daughter's wrong orientation because she was not guided. He wanted her to be "normal."

So he grabbed her head recklessly, almost pressing her head against the screen, and asked coldly, "Tell me, do you like it?"

She trembled and closed her eyes, but she couldn't resist the nauseating sound that crawled into her ears like thousands of worms and made a home in her head.

Yan Yujing asked over and over again.

Like this, do you like it?

Do you like it?

Do you like it?

Spit to the end, dizzy.

She can't tell what night it is today.

A faint voice trembled in the dark room.

"do not like……"

Only then did Yan Yujing let go of her hand, letting her fall to the ground, closing the computer slowly, standing up, her voice hitting the ground from a high place, with the authority of a superior: "Anzhen, I hope you understand , Homosexuality is abnormal, anti-human, disgusting, maggots of society, you are still young, I don’t want you to go astray, when you grow up, you will thank me.”

After speaking, he took the computer and left the small room.

There was a sound of locking the door outside.

"You should think about it tonight."

-

10:30 in the evening.

Jiang Youshu rubbed her hair and stared at the phone. The interface stayed on the chat record with Yan Anzhen, but she couldn't wait for the other party's reply.

Ah Zhen has not heard from her since she replied "I got home safely" and "I love you too". up.

too weird.

Just to resolve the conflict with my father, why shut down?

Jiang Youshu's temples twitched heavily, feeling more and more uneasy, as if turning into a bloody mouth, swallowing her into his stomach.

No, there must be something wrong.

Jiang Youshu shook off the towel, grabbed the car keys and rushed out the door.

She wants to see Ah Zhen immediately.

The author has something to say: Everyone must firmly believe that the current Ah Zhen will not abuse, the abuse is from the past, that is to say, the place of abuse has long passed, and now Ah Zhen will be happy with Yuanyuan by her side! !

Another: Modified the version...

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