Simple addition of male gods and male gods

"Why don't you want to?" It's not so much that Zeng Qi doesn't understand, it's better to say that he can't accept it.

"Because we are different." Cheng Yuexi explained very seriously. He was very calm. Because of his calmness, he seemed a little indifferent, but he had no intention of being an indifferent person, especially when Zeng Qi was so sad.

"How are we different?" Zeng Qi frowned and stared at Cheng Yuexi. He used to think that he knew Cheng Yuexi very well. The foundation of that self-righteous understanding was that no matter how long he and Cheng Yuexi hadn't contacted each other, when they contacted again, They will not feel any strangeness, and he also knows that he can entrust anything to Cheng Yuexi, and he will not be betrayed.But he realized at this time that those understandings did not touch the realm of this intimacy.

Cheng Yuexi wouldn't want to say that Zeng Qi took "love" for granted, but he really wanted to sigh and say that people like Zeng Qi who have never been in love think of their partners really straight. cancer.

"Because we have different ideas about love and partners." Cheng Yuexi said, "Besides, I have high requirements for this matter. You are my good friend, but you are only a good friend, Zeng Qi."

Zeng Qi asked: "Is Zhao Jingxin the same as you? Do you have to be the same?"

Cheng Yuexi smiled wryly, "No two people will be really the same, and naturally they don't have to be the same."

Zeng Qi asked: "Didn't you deliberately lead me into a dead end? Since Zhao Jingxin is also different from you, and it doesn't have to be the same, why can Zhao Jingxin but I can't?"

Cheng Yuexi looked at him helplessly, "How do you tell me to answer? It's just a feeling. Maybe, I can give you an example. During the summer vacation when I was a sophomore in high school, my dad returned to China to teach part-time at F University. City S came to talk about cooperation projects, and when I was meeting some friends, I called my aunt and asked someone to pick me up for dinner..."

Zeng Qi said: "Ah...then you went?"

Zeng Qi naturally understands that if Cheng Yuexi is allowed to go, he must still want to take care of this son. After all, Cheng Yuexi's father has a lot of contacts in the circle, and no matter what, he can take care of Cheng Yuexi's future future.

Of course, Zeng Qi also understands that, like himself, his parents give everything to their children, but Cheng Yuexi cannot get the love and support from his parents. The nature of business" and "society".

With Cheng Yuexi's self-esteem, which is invisible but as hard as a diamond buried in the sand for thousands of years, he will definitely not accept this kind of "meal" that is similar to "charity".

Cheng Yuexi said: "I was swimming with Brother Jing Xin in the swimming pool next to the community. My aunt couldn't contact me, and she was going to work the evening shift again, so I asked the gatekeeper of the community to bring me a letter. Jing Xin and I When my brother went home together, the doorman stopped me and told me about it, saying that my dad had arranged for the driver to pick me up at what time, and asked me to wait at the door."

Zeng Qi opened his mouth slightly and said "ah", he thought, Cheng Yuexi would definitely not go, Cheng Yuexi is not a subordinate of his father, his father has not cared about this child for more than ten years, and now he is dealing with this matter like this, Cheng Yuexi Why give him face.

Zeng Qi said: "Just don't pay attention to this kind of talk, it's better to go out to play again, and pretend you didn't hear about it."

Cheng Yuexi nodded and said, "Yes, that's what I thought at the time."

"That's how it should be," Zeng Qi said.

Cheng Yuexi's eyes turned red instantly, and he stared blankly at Zeng Qi, as if looking at himself through time at this time.

Seeing his expression, Zeng Qi suddenly tightened his heart. He knew that even though more than ten years had passed, Cheng Yuexi still had a deep heart when he thought of what happened back then.

Cheng Yuexi took a breath, his voice became a little hoarse, and continued: "Brother Jing Xin was standing by, and he also heard what the guard said. You know, Brother Jing Xin has always known about my family, he knows my situation. He glanced at me at the time, thanked the doorman, and then said to me, asking if I wanted to eat Pizza Hut. At that time, Pizza Hut had just entered S City, and it was quite expensive. He was willing to do so to make me feel better. Give me this money to eat."

Zeng Qi thought that at that time, he might have gone on a trip. If he knew that Cheng Yuexi was suffering from this kind of training, he would be willing to spend all his money to make him happy. He felt that he missed the opportunity at that time.

Cheng Yuexi: "However, I didn't agree. I said sullenly that I was going home, and I left, and I didn't want to talk to him. I didn't want to talk to everyone in the world."

"Huh?" Zeng Qi thought to himself that this is indeed something Cheng Yuexi would really do.

Cheng Yuexi: "He persuaded me a few words, but seeing that I didn't say anything, I had no choice but to stop. I didn't have any special feelings for him at the time, and I didn't care what he did after that. I walked around the community a few times. After the circle, I didn’t go back to my aunt’s house, because I didn’t want to go back. At that time, my grandmother had passed away, and my grandmother left all the property to me in the will, which made my uncle and aunt very unhappy, although Auntie didn’t say anything in front of me, but I could see that she cared about it. According to my opinion, if it was me, I would be as sad as Auntie. Since my grandma was so angry that my parents fainted and had a stroke, her body has been in serious condition. It has become very bad, all kinds of problems continue, the aunt and uncle spent a lot of energy on taking care of her, but my mother, the culprit, did nothing, and her son ended up getting everything from grandma, uncle and uncle But I didn't get anything, which completely violated the principle of fairness. I didn't know about the will before, so when my grandma made this will, I didn't stop her. I know that my aunt and uncle are not the ones who want grandma Property, because those properties are nothing to aunts and uncles, they just feel sad.

"After I knew the will, I told my aunt and uncle that I don't want grandma's things, I don't want anything. My aunt said it was grandma's wish, so I don't want to talk nonsense, otherwise grandma won't have a soul under the nine springs." An Ning. You see, no matter what I say, a rift has already formed. There is nothing I can do about it. No matter what I do or say, or what my aunt does or says, we are actually thinking of each other. We also want to think about each other, but the invisible rift still exists. I often feel sorry for my aunt, and live in that house with trepidation, and my aunt thinks that I am still young and should take care of me, and we are also trembling. Not comfortable.

"Thinking about my aunt, I can't do anything, because I owe her, I decided to go back, because I owed my aunt, I decided to go to my father's dinner, this is really ironic. My aunt actually She hates my dad very much, it's just that she doesn't speak ill of my dad in front of me, but I can see that she hates my dad, and she doesn't like my mom either."

Zeng Qi didn't expect Cheng Yuexi to go through so much at that time, and Zeng Qi himself at that time, he could not deny that he was a very happy person from childhood to adulthood, the most painful thing at that time was just that his mother insisted him to see dentisit.

Cheng Yuexi said: "When I was preparing to go home, brother Jing Xin found me, because I didn't go to Pizza Hut, and he went by himself. He bought my favorite pizza and French fries from Pizza Hut. I was surprised. I can't ignore his kindness, because he is just my brother in the same neighborhood, but he is willing to do so much for me. I can't help but appreciate it. He asked me to eat at his house, so I let him go. His parents After going to work, he and his nanny are the only ones at home. In his bedroom, he put a lot of things in front of me, including Pizza Hut, his ice cream, various fruits, dried fruits and dried meat. I thought, he might have put all kinds of food from his family in front of me, but I couldn’t eat anything at the time.”

Zeng Qixin said that it was no wonder that Cheng Yuexi fell in love with Zhao Jingxin at that time, Zhao Jingxin was too scheming, he must have already planned Cheng Yuexi's idea at that time, but he just pretended to be innocent.

"I ate snacks at his house in the same way, and my mind was all about my dad. In fact, my dad and I hadn't met a few times, and we seldom called. But in the ten years of my life at that time, this person But it occupied a large place in my soul. Brother Jing Xin said at that time, can you finish these things? I shook my head and said I couldn’t. He asked again, do I think it tastes good? I said it tastes good .He said I was lying. In fact, I couldn’t taste the taste of those things at all. I just said that they tasted good so as not to waste his heart. He said that when there are endless delicacies in front of a person, these delicacies It will not get enough attention, and it may even be a burden. When a person's mind is not on these delicacies, even if he usually likes them, he will not feel the happiness they bring at this time. , what are these delicacies?

"He said it was like me and him. His parents placed infinite love and expectations on him. He would give him whatever he wanted. When some people get these from their parents, they take it for granted. Yes, so I don’t feel happy or unhappy. It’s just that sometimes I don’t dislike enough. When I feel that my parents don’t give enough, these people will give birth to resentment. But he can’t take it for granted. He often reflects on himself. Don't ask so much from your parents, because even if these are given by your parents, the price is actually marked secretly. Parents always have expectations, and as children, there are always times when they cannot meet their parents' expectations.

"I looked at him at the time, and felt that what he said was very correct, and I understood what he meant, because my parents were just the opposite of his parents. My parents regarded me as a burden, and they only wished that I hadn't been born. I don’t have to worry about meeting my parents’ expectations anymore. Just like at that time, my dad wanted me to go to his dinner, so I can ignore him completely. If I don’t go, what can he do to me. But in my heart There was another voice, I thought, he wouldn’t understand me, people are very contradictory creatures, people who don’t get it actually want it, and people who get it, if they say they don’t want it, it’s really a pain in the back to talk I can't empathize with him at all, I just think he's hypocritical."

Zeng Qi sat up straight in an instant. In fact, he also felt that Zhao Jingxin was hypocritical, but he was surprised. Since Cheng Yuexi thought Zhao Jingxin was so hypocritical, why would he still be with him afterwards.