Psycho

Ye Zi opened his eyes, and what he saw was a small, dark space.The hazy yellow light shone in from the small doors on both sides, staggered in the middle, and it seemed that floating figures could be seen.

It was already night outside, and it was very lively, with children's laughter one after another.

Of course Ye Zi knew where this place was, he was very familiar with it.After all, when he was 11 years old, every time his parents quarreled at home, he would come to the small park with his schoolbag on his back and sit under the elephant slide.It's very quiet, not dirty, and sheltered from the wind and rain, how nice it is.

He raised his hands, and sure enough, he is about 11 years old now.At that time, he already knew that he was not born to his parents, and the relationship between his parents had broken down.

Ah, the self in the dream this time, didn't he lose his memory?It's really convenient.

Ye Zi thought so, just about to get out, when he heard a very immature and pure voice calling his name:

"Azi! Azi!"

Ye Zi was stunned for a moment, and immediately got out, almost hitting his head.

Then, he saw a six-year-old child running towards him like a little hamster, his light-colored hair fluttering in the night wind, and it looked extremely soft under the dizzy yellow light.Holding a string of burning fireworks in his hand, he smiled brightly.

He held up those fireworks and said, "Azi, look, your favorite fireworks! Are they good looking?"

When Ye Chengxi gave him fireworks for the first time, he was not yet five years old.

What did Ye Zi say at that time?Ah, Ye Zi said to him at that time: Get out!do not come!

In this previous scene, I am afraid that he simply looked at the burning fireworks without any reaction.

But this time, Ye Zi's vision instantly blurred.

He looked down at this younger brother who was only as tall as his stomach, and nodded: "It looks good..."

The little hamster was very happy, and he said excitedly: "Azi, happy birthday...ah, it's dangerous!"

The fireworks fell to the ground, crackling and burning.

And Ye Zi felt that he could no longer control himself.His breathing was trembling, his facial features were twisting, and before he could react, he was already holding his brother tightly in his arms.The nose is so sore, the whole face, the whole throat is hot, and I feel uncomfortable, so uncomfortable...

The little hamster's face immediately turned red, and he was a little at a loss and asked, "Azi...what's wrong?"

Then soon, he asked with some concern: "Who bullied you? Why are you crying?"

Ye Zi quietly wiped her tears with her sleeve, let go of her younger brother, and walked forward in a daze.

The little hamster ran behind.

Ye Zi looked back at him, and then stretched out her hand towards him.

The little hamster was flattered and put his hand on Ye Zi's, quite pleasantly surprised: "Brother, is Cheng Xi dreaming?"

Ye Zi smiled bitterly: "Perhaps, it is indeed a dream."

"Eh? But I haven't slept yet. How can I have a dream if I haven't slept yet?"

"Actually, it is possible to dream when you are awake. Ah, these are not important. The important thing is, Cheng Xi, do you know what will happen behind the dream?"

"Would you like to tell me a story, brother?"

The night is very quiet, even if Ye Zi's voice is very soft, it seems that it can float far away: "Just listen to it as a story."

Eleven-year-old Ye Zi led her six-year-old brother on the winding road.The hazy yellow light elongated their figures, as if they had grown up.

"Ten years later, you will grow up. You will grow tall and handsome."

The little hamster was full of longing: "Really? Will I grow taller than A Zi?"

Ye Zi recalled, with a smile on his face: "Well, it's half a head taller than me."

"Really?"

"I'm not lying to you. You go to the best school, you are very popular, many people like you. Dad made you his heir, your mother is proud of you, and your classmates are all around you..."

"Azi, would you like me like that?"

"I like it, of course I like it, I like it very much, I like it very much." Ye Zi smiled softly, "I like it so much that I want to be with you every day, I like it so much that I want to live with you, I like it so much that I don't want to be separated from you .”

"...Azi, I like you too." The little hamster blushed again.

Ye Zi corrected, "No, at that time, you didn't like me anymore."

The little hamster frowned: "How is it possible..."

"It's true. At that time, you will fall in love with a very, very beautiful girl. Her hair is long and straight, she likes to wear pleated skirts, and the patterns on her nails are always very beautiful. Although she is a bit willful, But the family background is very good, and her manners are elegant. She likes to call you 'Brother Cheng Xi', and holds your hand everywhere, you have been to many places, many places..."

"But I like my brother..."

"At that time, you looked down on me. Haha, because I have no money and no taste, I am not a girl, and I am still your brother. I can't be accepted by my family. The photos with you make you scolded, and my confession to you makes you angry." You are ashamed."

"..."

"You don't like me, you want to leave me even in your dreams."

"You don't answer my calls, no matter how many times you call, you don't answer."

"You rejected me and left me."

"You choose Nie Haixia, not me; you choose your car and house, not me; you want your future, not me..."

"You don't love me, don't love me, don't love me, don't love me, don't love me, don't love me..."

"not love me."

"not love me."

"not love me."

The little Cheng Xi was a little frightened, he stood in front of Ye Zi, and anxiously called his name, but Ye Zi could no longer control his emotions.Grabbing his hair with both hands, he kept backing away until his back leaned against the wall and sat down.

It wasn't until it started to rain that he finally raised his head, his eyes dull and confused.

Ye Chengxi stood in front of Ye Zi sobbing, and asked, "Azi, what's wrong with you? I'm so scared..."

Ye Zi looked at him as if he didn't hear it, and asked hoarsely, "Hey, Cheng Xi, tell me, what can I do to make you stay by my side forever?"

"What are you going to do so that you don't fall in love with someone else?"

"What do I have to do so that you only love me?"

"What should I do, so that you only belong to me?"

"Huh? What are we going to do? Tell me?"

Ye Zi said while stroking Ye Chengxi's immature neck with both hands.

He felt the beating pulse of the other party, and there was a burst of ecstasy in his heart.

Suddenly, he seemed to be possessed, and smiled slyly: "I know what to do!"

"Azi?..."

"Kill you! Kill you!"

As soon as Ye Zi finished speaking, his hands had already tightened Ye Chengxi's slender neck, exerting force——

The strength he uses is so great, it seems that this kind of strength is not what an 11-year-old child should have, but the strength of an adult. The small, poor child is struggling and twisting in his hands...

Countless voices exploded in his mind, they were yelling, don't do this...

But he can't stop, can't stop...

Because it's all preordained.

Because everything is destined to end on February 2st, on his birthday...

It's so funny, even in a dream, they can't be together.

……

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"Mr. Ye!"

"Mr. Ye!"

"Mr. Ye! Wake up! Wake up!"

Ye Zi suddenly opened his eyes.

It took at least two or three minutes before he gradually woke up.

The woman in white helped him up, her face was full of surprise: "I finally woke up, Mr. Ye, it seems that the newly prepared medicine is very effective."

Ye Zi ignored her and looked around in confusion.

Pure white bed, pure white curtains, light green walls, dark green floor, green plants growing in the corner, and classic books piled up by the bed.And myself, wearing striped pajamas.

Ah, why did I forget, this is a nursing home.How many years have you lived here?

"How long did I sleep this time?" Ye Zi asked.

"Intermittently, for more than a month. This time is better than before. You usually get out of bed by yourself, but you are not conscious, like sleepwalking. But since you wake up this time, there is hope. Mr. Ye should also have some hope for himself. Confidence is right."

"..."

"Ah, your brother said he would be here at four o'clock this afternoon! He should be here by now."

"Who?"

"Your brother, Mr. Ye Chengxi! He treats you very well. Even though he is so busy with work, he will come over to see you several times a month. It has been like this for ten years. It is really rare! You should hurry up Get well, or I'm really sorry for him!"

"Ten years? How many years is it now?"

"2023. Seriously, you ask me that question every time you wake up."

After the nurse finished speaking, she went out.

After a while, the door was pushed open again, and a tall young man walked in.

Light-colored hair, slender eyes, light-colored iris, delicate outline, fair skin.

But it's different from what I remember.The current him has a more mature and profound outline, while the him in memory is more youthful and beautiful.

"You're awake, bro."

Ah, even the voice and title are different.

That person's voice should be softer.He would call himself "Azi" or "Brother".His voice was as soft as cotton candy, and when he spoke, his eyes were full of affection.

"The doctor said that if you continue to treat with the current medicine, if the situation is good, you can be taken back next year."

Ye Zi's expression was confused: "Go back? Where?"

"Our home, I will hire you a nanny to take care of you."

Ye Zi glanced at the little girl hiding behind the door.The little girl is four or five years old, and she looks very cute, with the same fair skin and light-colored hair as her father.

Ye Zi said flatly, "But you're already married, so it's inconvenient."

"I got divorced the year before last. As expected... I still can't treat women..."

Ye Zi interrupted him: "I can't go with you."

Ye Chengxi was surprised: "Why?"

Ye Zi lowered his eyes: "Because you are not him."

"He? Who?"

"You are not a rabbit."

Of course Ye Chengxi knew who the rabbit was.The rabbit is the phantom that has been haunting Ye Zi all along.It seems that most of the protagonists in Ye Zi's dreams are the rabbits!

"Ye Zi, look clearly, I am the real person, the rabbit is fake."

Ye Zi was unmoved: "How many true and false are there in the world? What is the difference between true and false? The only difference is whether you believe it or not."

Ye Chengxi was anxious, he grabbed Ye Zi's shoulder: "But I'm real! Brother! Don't you like me the most? I like you too, otherwise I wouldn't have been waiting for you..."

Ye Zi looked up at Ye Chengxi, neither crying nor making trouble.

His expression is quite calm, and his voice is also soft: "No, you are not. My rabbit, he is the person who loves me the most in the world. He only loves me. He has always loved me since he was a child. For me, he can Give everything, in his eyes, there is only me, he will only choose me... and you, you don't love me, don't love me, you won't choose me, even if you go with you, you will abandon me sooner or later."

Ye Chengxi became anxious: "Trust me, I won't..."

Ye Zi looked at the closed window as if he hadn't heard it, with a faint smile on his lips: "Do you know, Rabbit, he belongs only to me. Together with him, I have seen the most beautiful fireworks , have seen the sky full of stars, seen the ocean world, traveled around the world together, and even traveled to the past and the future. We celebrate the New Year together, cook together, paint together, write together, play the piano together, and spend day after day. Whether in In any dream, he said that he likes me, he loves me, said countless times, countless times. However... I have done many, many things, and I am sorry for him. "

"..."

"I really regretted it very much and blamed myself very much. I actually, in my dream, killed him again and again, killed him. Why did this happen? Ye Chengxi? Why even in the dream, we were at the end, Do they always end in tragedy?"

"..."

"I want to see him. Even once. I want to tell him, I'm sorry. Tell him, I love him too. I don't want to hurt him anymore. I want to be with him forever..."

Ye Chengxi stared at Ye Zi, her body trembling slightly.He wanted to say something, he had a lot to say, he wanted to apologize for many things, and he wanted to keep something, but before he could say it, he heard the little girl's cry: "Dad! Dad! How long will it take? I'm hungry!"

Ye Chengxi sighed for a long time, and said, "Think about it again, I'll come back tomorrow."

After speaking, he stood up and left with his daughter.

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When evening came, the whole nursing home was peaceful.

It was dinner time, and the nursing home played soft music for the patients.Since the dean is a Christian, the music was sacred music. The soft voices of children diffused in the air, as if the entire white building was dyed pale gold by the setting sun.

The female nurse chatted with her colleagues, smiled and walked towards Ye Zi's ward.

When talking about Ye Chengxi, several female colleagues were very excited, and then sighed together, how did such a high-quality man get married.

After paying their respects to them, the female nurse opened the door of Ye Zi's room.

Then, click.

Everything in her hand fell away.

There was no one on the pure white hospital bed, and the closed windows were wide open at the moment. The white gauze curtains fluttered with the wind, like the slender wings of a newborn butterfly, dancing in the wind.

※※※

It's dusk.

Ye Zi came to the beach alone, looking at the red sun sinking into the sea.

Thousands of seabirds fly high, and the boundless orange-red ripples are rippling.This kind of scenery is like a huge oil painting painted with big brushstrokes.

Originally thought he was the only one, but Ye Zi saw the rabbit not far away.

The rabbit wears a puffy white shirt and black trousers.He stood barefoot at the junction of the sea and the beach, looking into the distance, his light-colored hair fluttering in the wind.

Ye Zi was not surprised, he smiled.

He walked towards the rabbit step by step, leaving a series of footprints on the sand.

"Rabbit." He called softly.

Rabbit turned to look at him.

Ah, what a familiar face.

Every inch of his outline, every trace of expression, is so familiar, so lovable, so tempting.

"You're finally here. I've been waiting for you, A Zi." He said.

Ye Zi smiled sweetly, and then blushed again, "Well, I've always wanted to tell you..."

"say what?"

"I'm sorry, I... always do things that I'm sorry for you. And... I love you."

"I know." The rabbit smiled.

Ye Zi raised her head with a serious expression: "I love you, more than anyone else."

"I know."

"I want to be with you. I...I want to kiss you right now!"

The corner of the rabbit's mouth was bent, he hugged the back of Ye Zi's head, lowered his head, and kissed Ye Zi tenderly.

Still a familiar, moving touch.

It is so touching that it makes people cry, it makes people feel heartbroken and desperate, but at the same time they feel extremely happy.

The setting sun outlines the outlines of the two people, every moment, every movement seems to slow down, it seems that it has turned into eternity.

After the lips of the two separated, the rabbit held Ye Zi's hand and looked at the endless sea: "The sea is calling us urgently, come, come, come. Ah Zi, did you hear that?"

Ye Zi held the rabbit's hand tightly.Of course he heard it.He had heard it long ago.

His heart was pounding.

"Are you scared?"

Ye Zi shook his head: "Don't be afraid. Because as long as we become part of nature, we can be together forever. As long as I'm with you, I'm not afraid of anything."

"Me too, let's go."

"Ah."

——The End——

The author has something to say: Ah, it's finally finished.The next chapter will write a postscript and analysis.Children who don't understand will understand after reading the next chapter.

I like to write the epilogue to say (mud), and I am so happy to have finished another one.