Nana

I still couldn't help crying bitterly, when Nana told me that she had already had two abortions because of that boyfriend.

I feel that I am hypocritical, after all, the person who was hurt in this matter is her, not me, but I can't help it.

You love me, that's what I told myself, you don't love him, yes, you've had enough of your boyfriend, but you still have skin-to-skin contact.

I don't ask for a lot, I don't necessarily ask Nana to only love me, but why does she still love him after being hurt all the time.

You see, although I am very tolerant and I plan to do this, I am still a little sad, and I don't know what to do.

God, I'm in love with her, absolutely, want to have her forever.

Will you be disappointed also because of love?

I originally thought that you only told me many things, but you also told others. When you were chatting, I listened to your conversation in silence. At that moment, I felt that I was not that special in your heart.

I thought you only cared about me, but you cared about a lot of people, you would send a co-worker back because she was sad, you would buy a woman all the way to buy her favorite food, many, many, you are pleasing them, you want them to be pitiful You embrace you and want me to love you with all my heart.

I have, I have loved you, with all my heart.

Should I expect you to love me too, how happy I am when you smile at me and hug me, you love me too, I can feel it, maybe I am not satisfied with the status quo, and our relationship can only be said It's AUO and above but not full of lovers.

Uneasy about our relationship, I deliberately avoided Nai Nai once or twice, and she also kept a distance from me, but when I thought we would go far away, she pulled me closer.

I was frightened by her. That day she suddenly told me that putting your hands in water would not hurt so much when you cut your wrists. Now I know that what she said was wrong. The hand still hurts. Putting your hands in water is to prevent the wound from congealing too quickly. , Then it will continue to bleed and bleed, it really hurts, it hurts so much but it doesn't seem to hurt very much.

In fact, I wanted to break this relationship at that time, because I felt that I was going crazy. I smoked a lot of cigarettes and drank a lot of alcohol every day and lost my temper with my sister. Yes, love is terrible.

I just don't understand, she keeps saying she doesn't love her boyfriend but doesn't leave her, and I love her and she keeps saying she loves me, but she just doesn't stay with me, why.

I really feel like I'm going crazy, but I still think about her every day and every moment and can't help but want to hug her. The first love is crazy, right, I still have help.

We often go out shopping and sing K after get off work as before.

As the Spring Festival approached, the factory also had a holiday. On the first day of the holiday, Nai Nai and I went to the factory to get our wages after [-]:[-] a.m. We were supposed to get paid on the second day. We planned to advance a few hundred dollars to go out and have fun, but the lady boss That’s great, she said she’ll give us everything when she’s here, don’t go again tomorrow, I like the proprietress very much, I remember singing K during our dinner party, and the people in the factory took pictures of us and she pulled me to sit next to her He still rubbed my head and looked at me tenderly. If I had a mother, it would be the same. I was very touched. Before Nana came to the factory, one of the reasons why the broken factory can persist is because of the proprietress , I am very grateful to her.

After getting paid, we thought about where to play first.

Looking at Nana's eyes full of stars, I am very happy that Nana left that stupid boyfriend to accompany me. We walked on the snowy street.

I said to Nana with a wow, it's so good that my eyes are so dark and can be seen.

You always look like that when you smile, your eyes are like crescent moons.she says.

I am silly again.

Nana.I call her.

what happened?

We never kissed.I just said a word very unintentionally, because the most I remember is kissing her face.

Nana laughed, we were walking, she quickly lowered her head and kissed my mouth, one second or two seconds, it was a split second, there was no awkwardness, I was so happy, and you smiled too.

Hey, Nana, we are indeed in love, right?

At that time, we didn't know what les was, and we knew about bisexuality, so we all thought we were bisexual.

We love to go with the flow and take it for granted.

I've been giggling, super super happy.

On a very cold night, the road is a little icy, and I will suddenly slip, why I am not used to wearing snow boots, you hold my hand tightly, you make me feel at ease Nana.

Let's go to KTV.Nana said to me.

OK, this time I pay.

Nana smiled and shook her head at me.

I’m always like a child when I’m with Nana. She needs to teach me many things, such as how to deal with the world or play games. , If you don’t understand, you have to learn, I will teach you.

Nana, why are you so good? My family always dislikes me for being ignorant and calling me stupid, but they never teach me or care about me, they just dislike me, but you are different, you really think about me.

Most of the expenses for our going out were paid by her, and she refused to let me pay. She said that it is not easy for me to make money at such a young age, and I still live with my sister, so I should leave more money for my sister.What a considerate person, you said how could I not love her,

One day she took me to the amusement park, and she liked to take pictures of me, making me look good, and we made a wish to be together forever when the Ferris wheel reached the highest point.

She took me to eat hot and sour noodles. She said that she had eaten it once before and liked it very much, so she specially brought me to eat it. Although I couldn’t eat it in the end, it was all her food. She also took me to many interesting places. My gift is more than a gift, but also the touch, which has been melting my frozen heart, Nana, my heart is not protected by ice, so will you protect this softness all the time?

When we got to the door of the ktv, she made a phone call.

Who are you calling?I knew who she was calling, wasn't it the boyfriend, but I asked her anyway.

Boyfriend, he works here.she said to me.

Yeah?When did it happen?Has he come out to work?That's fine.I smirked, smirked and smirked, thinking not to play inside, don't go to play inside, as soon as I heard her boyfriend was inside, I wanted to fly away immediately.

Nana hummed and said to me that I suspect he has other women, and he often smells of perfume.

Yeah.I... suddenly want to go back, I am not happy, I was very happy.

I looked at Nana and hesitated for a while and said, Nana.

Ok?

In your heart, should I come first or him first?

you.Nana smiled and held my hand tightly.

I am happy again.

Nana, would you be proud? You can affect my emotions at any time. I can be thrown into the sky by you and then fall to the ground. It’s such a wonderful feeling.

In your heart, I am the first or he is the first. After that, I have been asking you this question repeatedly, just because of the sudden excitement in my heart when you said it was me.

Nana and I often go to ktv, how should I put it, although I was not a good girl before, I have never been to a place like a ktv disco, and I am very excited to come to the entertainment place, dressed a little sexy, and sang love songs with her .

We entered a private room, and Nana's boyfriend also followed.

As soon as I went in, I just sat there and didn't say hello to him. We never said hello. We were nothing to each other, just strangers.

Nai Nai and her boyfriend sat on the sofa and chatted about something, and then Nai Nai asked her boyfriend what you smell like, just a word, they had a quarrel, it wasn’t a fierce one, her boyfriend was very impatient Tone wanted to get out of the private room, but Nana stepped forward to hold him, and they started tugging. Nana was pushed a few times but still stubbornly grabbed his sleeve. I watched them for a while and then continued to stare at the jukebox. No one sang love songs.

After a while they quieted down and sat on the sofa in silence. I clicked a more upbeat song, and the man started to dance. The strange flickering dance in the disco, Nana was crying, and the man continued to dance without comfort. Dangled there and then dangled out.

After the man left, I walked over and sat next to her.

He has perfume on his body, but he won't tell me if I ask anyone.Nana told me in tears.

Well, I heard it, maybe it was his own.I straighten her bangs.

She covered her face with her hands and choked up and said that there was no perfume at home.

But you are very fragrant every day.As I said that, I leaned on her shoulder and sniffed.

She just smiled and pinched my cheek.

We sang all the time that night, and his boyfriend came in a few times. As soon as he came, I sat at the place where I ordered songs. They sat on the sofa very intimately. I admired them. .

As soon as his boyfriend went out, I ran to Nana and hugged her and asked what you were talking about.

She said that he saw a condom in the private room next door and touched something sticky, and she smiled happily.

condom?

What, where is the joke?How can I laugh.

I laughed dryly, hahaha, and pulled her to sing.

You are a song in my heart, right, it is this song, when we watched each other sing duet, we couldn't help kissing.

I see that there is surveillance here, do you think your boyfriend will see it?Or the girl smoking a cigarette at the front desk will see it, how good it is to be known, now I don't believe every word you say you love me, I need someone to nod to me affirmatively and say that we are indeed together.

But I also figured it out, as long as you are happy, other things, my emotions are not important at all.

Yes, you are fine.