Bear Love◇Paradise Station◇

The appearance of Zhao Yun relieved my longing to a certain extent. Every time I saw him, I would stare at him intently, to see how he resembled Zhao Xiaoyu, so that later I wrote in my QQ signature, "I Look for your shadow in everyone, trying to make a picture of you."But I always thought he was not G, or if I made it so obvious, he should have reacted, right?

Just like this, I finished the last semester in a daze, and when I returned to school after the Chinese New Year, I was already among the first batch of classmates who had a mobile phone, but there were still not many who had a mobile phone at that time, who should I call?Zhao Yun also bought a mobile phone, I often send text messages to him, and he always replies to me, which makes me feel very warm.

I originally thought that I would gradually forget about Zhao Xiaoyu, and that I would have a new love, but a certain literati said that first love is a feeling that everyone can't let go of, and this is true.Karen Mok's "If Without You" can describe my feelings at that time:

hey i really miss you

Now it's raining outside the window again

dry eyes feel like crying

不 知道 你 现在 在 哪里

hey i really miss you

too much emotion but no suitable facial expression

Where should I start when I want to say the most

Are you thinking of you as much as I am?

I can even change the famous song "When I'm Homesick" to the lyrics and sing "When the night is quiet, I miss you. It's sweet when I miss you. You will touch my head..." I want to go on like this I will go crazy, I must pursue Zhao Yun!

Because I often go to their dormitory, I have become buddies with their dormitory. They don't hate me. On the contrary, they love to talk to me. Maybe it's my appearance that makes people feel close?People are always dissatisfied and always want more.

I am no longer satisfied with just going to his dormitory to talk to him, I started to plan to take a shower with him, and to be honest with each other, which would make it easier to test out his true thoughts.But I was ashamed to talk about taking a bath together. I could only pay attention to the time he went to the school bath every day. After waiting for two weeks, I finally knew that he went to take a bath at 5 o'clock in the evening on Wednesday.

Now that I know his pattern, I decided that this week at 5 o'clock on Wednesday I will create a bath tub encounter.Soon on Wednesday, I could see the gate of his dormitory building from the balcony of my dormitory. I saw him walking out with the toiletries. I knew I had to act!I hurried to the direction of the bathing pool, you can call me mean and obscene, but I don't care so much, I miss Zhao Xiaoyu so much that I think Zhao Yun is him!

Zhao Xiaoyu, if you can know, I hope you don't get angry with me, I miss you so much, and he is just your substitute, if you can contact me, how can I lose my personality to know Zhao Yun?Zhao Xiaoyu, where are you?

There is no news of Zhao Xiaoyu for more than a year, I admit that I have begun to forget the past with him, and I am entangled with Zhao Yun every day (maybe it is not appropriate to use the word entangled, because it is only my one-sided), I see more and more Zhao Yun is better than Zhao Xiaoyu: first, he is very smart, and he is surprisingly good at studying; second, he does not have Zhao Xiaoyu's arrogance, but instead has his gentle personality, and it feels very relaxed to be with him , never under pressure.This has something to do with the environment in which he grew up. I think Zhao Xiaoyu is more like Daoming Temple; third, he is very frugal, and he will spend the money he should spend. Maybe others will think that this kind of man has no courage. I don’t think so. Rich people with money also rely on thrift to keep their wealth.I just feel that he lacks Zhao Xiaoyu's nasty feeling, and I can't blame him, after all, he may not be my kind of person.

For a long time afterwards, I went to him almost immediately after class, and every time I would buy food and bring them to distribute to them, I knew that it would be easier to get close to Zhao Yun, I had to do a good job with these people Yes, the buddies in his dormitory didn't suspect me, they just regarded me as a simple and cute little fat man.I would look for him to attend self-study, eat together, and play CS together. During that time, I was very happy. I originally wanted to maintain this relationship. It was not until the autumn of 2002 that I realized that things were not as simple as I imagined.

It was the end of October in 2002, and the autumn in Beijing was still so beautiful, but my mood couldn't be more beautiful.Because Zhao Yun suddenly started to avoid me, he didn't reply to text messages to him, and he was rarely there when he went to his dormitory to find him, even if he found him, he also showed that he didn't want to talk to me.I am depressed.I want to know what is the reason, but I can't ask anyone, I plan to talk to his roommates while he is away, and see if I can find out the reason.