Stranger way home

Chapter 44 Denial and Harm

After the call with Uncle Liu lasted for a long time, I reluctantly took back the phone. I thought it might have lasted longer because it was getting late.Of course, the content of the conversation between us is nothing more than caring and ambiguous words, but some nasty words are also indispensable.Speaking of it, Uncle Liu is much more open than Uncle Wang, or he is thick-skinned (of course he is not scolding him, it is too late to like him), no matter what he can say, and he seems so natural , In fact, I also know that he is the kind of guy who has a lust but no guts. He swears in his mouth, but his actions are very "shy".

I stood up, took a deep breath, put away the slightly blooming smile on my face, wrapped my coat around me, and walked back to the dormitory.After the National Day, the temperature in City X dropped more and more, and the thin coat on his body couldn't resist the cold air that penetrated into his body.What's more, after a day with injuries, my physical strength is not so strong, it's better to go back to rest earlier, so I quickened the pace of going back.

It's a pity that there is always a big way out between ideas and reality. When I returned to the dormitory after dinner, I couldn't lie down in my own den and rest as expected, because there were a few more friends in the dormitory, or a few female classmate.It doesn't matter, the most terrible thing is that Xue Fei is also among them. As soon as I entered the dormitory, I saw her resentful eyes staring at me. Chatted with him (she) one after another, and the content of the chat was about the knowledge and travels about the National Day.Because the National Day has just passed, it is quite normal for everyone to get together and chat, and there is also a girlfriend from the same dormitory.After chatting for a long time, they left our dormitory with some reluctance, but when they were leaving, Zheng Jie, who was troublesome, pushed my body again. I looked at him inexplicably, but saw him push me again. Pushing me, looking directly at Xue Fei, I finally understood what he meant, maybe he asked me to see her off.In fact, I also felt sorry for Xue Fei, she cared so much about me, but my attitude towards her was lukewarm, and I even avoided her a bit.So, I also nodded to Zheng Jie, went out the door and caught up with them downstairs, stopped Xuefei, and the rest of the girls also went away wisely, leaving only me and Xuefei in embarrassment standing downstairs in the dormitory.

At this time, there was a slight cold wind blowing outside, but my heart was full of uneasy emotions. My tense heart seemed to be isolated from the ravages of the cold wind, and I couldn't feel the slightest chill, and even there were sweaty spots on my forehead. tendency.I silently looked at the quiet girl in front of me. Xue Fei is actually really good looking. I have also heard that many people have pursued her, but they were all rejected by her. I also know the reason for this, it is just the ending she wanted. I can't afford it.

"Uh, Xuefei..." I looked at the girl in front of me with little confidence, and called her name softly, but didn't know what to say.

"Brother Luo, what's the matter?" Xue Fei looked at me quietly, her hair was fluttering slightly due to the wind, and there seemed to be some expectation hidden in her eyes.

"No...it's nothing." I don't know why, when I met her enthusiastic but melancholy eyes, I felt a shrinking feeling in my heart, maybe it was because of my guilt towards her.He sighed slightly, and the uneasiness in his heart seemed to disappear with the sigh, "Xue Fei, it's getting cold, please keep warm."

"Oh, I see, brother Luo, is there anything else? If it's okay, I'll go back first." Xue Fei still looked at me quietly, but she said she wanted to go back, but she didn't take a step .

"Uh, Xuefei, I'll take you back. We haven't taken a walk together for a long time." I scratched my head in embarrassment. Ever since I knew her feelings for me, I have been deliberately avoiding her. , I really don't want to hurt her, I thought that time can run aground her feelings for me, but found that the result was not satisfactory.

"Yeah." Xue Fei nodded lightly, and walked ahead first, I quickly caught up with her, and walked slowly beside her.

Along the way, we didn't say a few words, only the chilly wind kept whistling in our ears, the rustling of branches, and the slow footsteps of a man and a woman who seemed to be lovers but not The sound seemed to describe the weird atmosphere, but fortunately, there were no people staying outside in this bad weather, otherwise it would definitely attract a lot of people's attention.When I reached the girls' dormitory building, I stopped moving forward, because the girls' dormitory has always been "boys are exempt". Looking at the girls who continued to move forward, I felt uncomfortable, and finally opened my mouth.

"Xuefei, I...I", I shouted to her back, the voice was not loud, but it was enough for her to hear.

"Is there anything else? Brother Luo." She turned around and asked with a soft smile. I could see that her smile was bitter.

"Xuefei, I... I actually know how you feel about me." I said softly, the tension in my heart was far greater than what appeared on the surface.

"Oh." She still looked at me quietly, and responded lightly, but her expression seemed noncommittal.

"I know you like me, but... But I really can't do it, you are such a good girl, Xiao Luoge can't give you the happiness you want. Moreover, I have always treated you as a younger sister." I I finally said the cruel words out of my mouth. Although I couldn't bear it, I knew that procrastination was not the answer.Looking at her indifferent reaction, I know that my consistent evasion may have deeply hurt her, and how can the disappointment in her eyes escape mine.But what can I do? The reality is that it is impossible for me and her.

"Brother Luo, you don't need to say anything, and you don't need to blame yourself. I know, I know. However, liking someone doesn't require the other person's consent. I just want to think about you, miss you, and like you silently. I hope you can fall in love with me. Maybe, you have always regarded me as a younger sister, but I have always regarded you as a lover, silently liking you. Maybe, I am just a fool, hehe..." As she spoke, Xue Fei's eyes couldn't help being filled with crystal liquid. Although it was pitch black outside, I still noticed it.In the end she just looked at me, laughing wryly at herself.

"Xuefei..." Looking at the person in front of me, I was so confused, I wanted to speak but didn't know what to say.

"Little Luo brother, you don't need to say any more, I understand what you mean. From now on, you will still be my little Luo brother, and I will still be your sister Xuefei. You don't have to worry about me, and you don't need to blame yourself. Okay, I'm going back , you should be more careful on the way back. Good night!" Then she turned around and ran into the building in front of her with big strides.However, the moment she turned around, I didn't notice that a drop of crystal tears slowly fell on her face to the ground, and the dim light reflected a strange sadness.

After that, I went back to the dormitory, and this time I lay down on the bed as I wished, but my heart was very heavy, and I couldn't fall asleep no matter what.I don't know how what I said to Xue Fei today hurt her.Finally, I took out my mobile phone, looked at the string of phone numbers on the screen in a daze, and sent a text message to Uncle Liu's number-"Uncle Liu, I hurt someone's heart today, and then I suddenly remembered You are here, I am very guilty, why do I keep hurting the people around me, Uncle Wang is like this, you are like this, and she is like this too. Sigh!"

After waiting for a long time, Uncle Liu did not reply to the message, maybe he was already asleep, and then I fell asleep with my mobile phone on my pillow, with tired thoughts.

Only in the dream, there will not be too much helplessness in reality, only a little simplicity, a little foolishness...