Looking at the stars

My world is too quiet,

It was so quiet that I could hear the sound of my heartbeat.

The blood in the atria slowly flows back into the ventricles,

Such and this kind of reincarnation.

Smart people like to guess the mind,

Maybe you guessed someone’s heart right,

But also lost his own.

Stupid people like to give heart,

May be deceived,

But it may not be able to get someone else's.

You think I'm invulnerable,

I thought you were invincible.

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Bright sunshine, comfortable temperature.

In a cafe with simple decoration, elegant and comfortable, the shoulders of the thin young man sitting by the window trembled slightly, tears could not stop sliding down his cheeks.Sitting opposite the boy was a muscular man with slightly dark skin. The man's handsome brows were slightly wrinkled, and his face was full of unconcealable distress.

The man reached out and gently wiped away the tears on the boy's face, and pampered him gently on his head.

Across the road from the cafe, a tall and tall young man stared at this beautiful picture with red eyes, and his clenched fists showed his sadness and anger at the moment.

"Xiaoqi, don't cry, since you miss your parents so much, then go back! Your parents have already acquiesced in the fact that you are gay, and have forgiven you! Actually, your parents didn't really blame you, Just feel sorry for you."

"..."

"Don't blame your parents for being cruel at the beginning. Your parents also have their own difficulties. They expected so much from you, but they didn't expect you... Especially that incident, it really broke my parents' hearts."

"Brother, that incident wasn't my fault, I was forced! I really didn't do anything to hurt others, really nothing, you trust me..."

"Xiaoqi, don't get excited, you misunderstood, I know that it's not your fault, it's all that damn bastard...Xiaoqi, in fact, my parents and I have always believed in you, we all watched You grew up, and we know your temperament better than anyone else! We are sad because you have been hiding this pain from us all the time. Why can't you rely on and trust your family more? "

"Sorry……"

"Xiaoqi, the whole family should never say sorry! In fact, I objected to my parents' actions from the very beginning, but...it is inevitable for my parents to find it difficult to accept things in that way, and you know Yes, Mom and Dad's physical condition has not been very good, especially Mom, so I don't want to stimulate them..."

"Brother, I know..."

"Later, when my parents calmed down, I wanted to take you back, but my parents refused. They wanted you to have a bright future, and they didn't want you to bear the pressure of public opinion and everyone's accusations, so they wanted to pass This way makes you straight, but I didn't expect..."

"..."

"Looking at you suffering outside, my mother shed tears all day long. As a parent, no one loves their children, so since parents have given in, you can go back! It must be hard for you to be outside alone, you I see that you have lost a lot of weight, go back!"

"Brother, I miss my parents too, but I can't go back now..."

"Why, are you still angry with your parents..."

"No, I've never been angry with my parents! It's just... just... I... I have someone I love very much now, I... I... don't want to leave him, so... But don't worry, I will definitely I will find time to go back and see my parents! I...I..."

"Xiaoqi, I understand, I respect your choice, but how is that person, how is he treating you?"

"He's good-looking, handsome, and kind-hearted..."

……

The thin young man was sitting on the sofa with a smile on his face, staring at the clock on the wall without blinking, and the hot food was emitting smoke.Time passed by every minute and every second, and the originally hot meal had become temperatureless. The boy picked up the phone and looked at it, then put it down again. After a while, he picked it up, looked at it, and put it down again... After repeating it many times, in the end, the boy hesitated and dialed the number.The phone rang for a long time before loud heavy metal music came from inside.

"Haotian, when are you coming back?! Today I..."

"I'm not going back today, I'm very busy now, is there anything else?!"

"Oh no..."

"If it's okay, I'll hang up first!"

"Oh, then you take care of yourself..."

"beep……"

……

(Lan Qi)

Today is the happiest moment of my life,

To be tolerated and forgiven by parents,

It is my greatest wish.

I want to share this joy with you.

But ah,

impatient tone,

indifferent attitude,

Makes my heart ache.

but,

Sure enough, I still don't want to give up lightly,

I believe,

One day you will turn back.

look back,

There was always a fool,

silently standing behind you,

watching you.

(Yan Haotian)

Love is indeed the most unreliable thing,

A second ago, I could confess to you with a sincere face,

In the next second, he threw himself into someone else's arms.

do you know?

you are so cruel,

I just decided,

When you choose to believe, choose to try,

You cruelly let me see the hopeless reality.