bear shadow

While dealing with the matter of retirement, while thinking about the time that has been less than a year, it seems that I really miss it!I wanted to have a good meal with my brothers on the same ladder before returning home, but I don’t know why I always feel uneasy, as if something happened.

Since the last time, when I touched my heart in front of Amo, I thought it was better not to let him see me like this, otherwise he would reveal that worried expression again.Thinking about today is really weird, I haven't seen him for two or three days, why do I feel like I miss him all of a sudden?

Taking the train home, looking at the scenery outside, I will definitely bring Amo here to have fun for a few days if I have a chance.

"Goodbye!"

When I get home, it's already evening. After every train ride, I always feel very tired and take a shower to cheer myself up.After taking a shower, I walked out of the bathroom, only to remember that I should call Amo and tell him that I have retired.

"Oh, I can't get through the phone again, I must have forgotten it by the bedside again."

However, it's strange why even the mobile phone is turned off this time?Forget it, maybe I forgot that there was no electricity at the bedside.

I don't know how long I slept, I only know that I was woken up very early, and what woke me up was the continuous knocking on the door and the noise of the electric bell. When I opened the door, I only saw Cong Hao's anxious face. appearance.

"finally found you."

"Why did you come here suddenly?" I checked the time, and it was only around five o'clock in the morning. Is there anyone visiting other people's homes like you?But his expression was so serious that I didn't dare to make any jokes.

"Do you know that Amo is in the hospital now?"

"Do you know that he has been in a coma for three days and hasn't woken up?"

"What the hell are you doing..."

He said a lot of words in a row, but I couldn't listen to anything. I only knew that Amo was in the hospital and hadn't woken up yet. These words were enough to wake me up from my sleep. I'll go back to my room right away Changed clothes in the room, took the wallet and keys, and rushed out of the room.

"Tell me, where is he now?"

Maybe it was because my action was too excited, which made him jump a lot, and even took a big step back. I thought he wouldn't move even after being knocked down by me, but who knew that when he turned his head, he didn't look back. I walked forward, regardless of whether I followed or not.

He told me that the reason for Amo's car accident was because of a quarrel with his family, but I didn't quite believe it until I saw Amo lying on the hospital bed and his uncle and aunt sitting next to the bed in a trance. None of this can be taken away with a "it's a joke."

Although the doctor said that he didn't have any major trauma and had a brain tomography scan, but for some unknown reason, he just couldn't wake up.The doctor said that it may be because of the excessive stimulation at that time, which caused a psychological shock, which made his will still in a state of dying, which caused him to remain in a coma for a long time.

I thought my retirement would be good news for Amo, but I didn't expect such a thing to happen. Seeing the haggard eyes of his parents, I didn't know whether I should go to the ward to disturb him. He gave me the urge to rush in and hold his hand, even though I knew that once I walked in, I would be treated coldly by his parents again.

When I opened the door, I saw two pairs of crying red eyes showing anger. Although you are his parents, how long did you understand his feelings?I keep telling myself that there is nothing wrong with our relationship, it is not our fault, but the ugly and ruthless values ​​of this world.

"I know what you want to say, but say what you say now, the fact has happened."

"We just have to wait and support him now, can't we?"

From the beginning to the end, I only said these two sentences and didn't want to say anything more to his parents. Maybe I don't know them well enough, but I know that at this moment, no matter which parents they are, they love their children , Looking at their tired bodies, I don't know how many hours they have been here.

"Uncle, it's better for you to go to rest first, I'll just watch here."

"You don't need to be nosy, I can take care of my own children by myself."

Unexpectedly, while talking, my uncle's body was limp as if he was about to fall to the ground. I stepped forward to give him a hand, but he pushed me hard. Although I wasn't pushed down, I didn't expect my uncle to Fainted out, I helped him up, and asked my aunt to ask a doctor to come and have a look. This is not an option. If even Amo's family members are down, who else can take care of him?

My uncle was lying next to Amer's hospital bed, and I was sitting between them. When my uncle woke up, I looked at him and seemed to be in a daze. I wanted to go out and call the doctor, but he grabbed me with one hand and asked me to No need to call a doctor.

"Do you know? He was the one I loved the most since I was a child, and I gave him whatever he wanted, but now it's so wrong!"

"Uncle, do you think it's not good for Amo to be with me?"

"Of course it's not good! How decent is it for a man to be with a man!"

"I don't mean that, I mean, haven't you considered what Amer wants?"

"We have prepared everything for his future, and we have prepared everything he wants. He doesn't need to worry about this and that. There's nothing wrong with that."

"So Uncle, you never listened to what Ah Mo was thinking?" What I heard in my ears was a caring heart from a father, but what I saw in my eyes was just a father who had a guilty conscience and couldn't express himself.

"I am with Amo, I am very happy, although I don't know if he is as happy as me, but I know I don't want to see him cry, that's all."

"When we are together, sometimes he will always show that worried and flustered expression, even though he told me it's okay, I know it. In fact, he is worried that such a relationship will be discovered by his family one day , will make you feel ashamed and prevent you from raising your head upright in front of this society."

"But uncle, I just want to ask you, how long has it been since you saw Amo smile?"

"This... this..."

"It's not that he doesn't want to laugh, but that he doesn't want to show his true self in front of you. Yes! Compared with this world, our relationship is abnormal, or to put it worse, it is disgusting and unacceptable Yes, but is it so difficult to love someone that you have to accept the judgment of the world before you can be together? Isn’t it that two people will be together for the purpose of being able to laugh together, cry together, and spend every day in the future together? "

"Uncle, I'm still very young, and I haven't experienced many things, but I know what I like and what I hate. I think Amo is the same as me, but I don't want to tell you.

I regretted a little after I finished saying these words, I think these words may seem a bit too much for an elder, but when I want to convey my thoughts to the other party, if I am not positive, there will never be a possibility of change , I regard these words as my last chance, I want to put all my eggs in one basket, convey my thoughts to my uncle, let him understand that my own face and the mood of the child cannot be compared on the weighing platform.

After I finished speaking, I didn't want to see my uncle's expression again. I think I was timid, and I didn't want to face the rest of the results. Anyway, as long as Amo is okay, everything will be fine.

Just as I was thinking about this, Amo's fingers seemed to move slightly...