embrace the memory of youth

Maybe my words were cruel, and it was a pain in his heart that I was in the position of caring. He smiled bitterly, and I could feel his sadness.

He passed me by, I didn't hold his hand like a TV storyline to prevent him from leaving, if I missed it, I missed it, and I had to be worthy of Xiaohong's death.

A few seconds after Liu Bing left, Chen Zike approached me and said, "Just let him go like this, don't you want to keep him at all?"

I said lightly, "Then you think I should stay, and then you tell me what to do next, and I will be with him again as a matter of course, or continue to make more people sad for us, I really can't do what I used to be ignorant now. , I just want two ordinary families to live in peace, it's that simple"

"Oh, so you don't have any love for him at all?"

I gave him a blank look, and I was a little impatient with his reluctance, "What's the matter with you, from your tone, it seems that you want to match us up"

"Isn't it good to match you two? Lang also loves, Lang also has intentions, a natural couple."

"Fuck you, the ventriloquist is so good, so save it, don't wait for your husband at night, it's really a loss of strength"

"You are seriously jealous. We are very affectionate. We won't bother you about those bed matters. We will take care of ourselves."

"Be careful you're exhausted"

"You're jealous, seriously jealous"

Afterwards, I went back to the hotel with him. I asked him why he suddenly appeared at the station alone, but his answer was too perfunctory. He said that the hotel waiter said that there was a delicious fish meal near the station, and he happened to I wanted to taste the taste, but I didn't expect to meet Liu Bing and me. At first, I didn't have the mood to reminisce about these, so I simply didn't care.

Back at the hotel, everyone was talking and laughing, it was nothing more than some loving scenes, either you fed me, or he beat your back for you, and openly kissed, because their whole room was full of happiness. Breath, but I feel suffocated.

We had dinner together at noon, and they proposed to play poker in the room, and I was even less interested. I then made a bad excuse and left the space full of happiness but suffocating me. I thought I would be much more relaxed when I returned to the villa , I never thought that my fourth uncle and his wife were at home, and my arrival disturbed their intimacy.

The fourth uncle said confidently, "I don't know when you come back, kid."

One foot I just stepped into the door retracted, and I said to them in embarrassment, "I'm sorry, I will leave immediately, you continue"

I was running wildly all the way again, all my thoughts were in a mess, and their intimate actions in pairs were turning in my mind. I had these before, and whoever they really loved me didn't praise me to the sky. Now everything is different. , everyone finds their beloved, and then he shows their love naturally, and then I stand alone and endure the loneliness that emanates, I dare not resent, I dare not ask for extravagance, I just hope that it will never stop keep running.

I thought of Liu Bing's honesty, Lin Qingping's tenderness, and Guo Xiong's kindness to me as always, and now I am left alone to taste the loneliness.

I ran to a place where no one was around, screaming heart-piercingly, I was so tired, no one could understand it, it hurt so much, because the contrast of happiness made me even more lonely, and in the end I laughed like crazy, laughing, laughing I couldn't hold back the tears.

When it was getting dark, I went back to the village. I told my parents that I might leave in the next two days. My mother’s expression of reluctance made my heart ache. My father’s attitude towards me also changed, and his reluctance was obvious.

"When will you come back from going out this time?" My dad's crooning voice revealed a sad atmosphere.

I forced a smile to respond, "I miss you and come back to see you. If you are willing, come back to City B with me. I opened a store there, and it is still possible to support our family."

My dad didn't respond, but was thinking about something in silence. My mother said, "This is our root, we can't forget our roots wherever we go, we are getting older, and we don't want to go back and forth, and we don't want to be your burden. If you are tired outside, come back, this family is only complete with you"

I choked up and said, "Dad, Mom, being unfilial as a son makes you worry."

My dad said "As long as you are happy, we will support you no matter what you do in the future"

Hearing this, I changed from choking to crying bitterly. My parents have always loved me, thank them for their upbringing, thank them for their tolerance, maybe I will never be clear about their love in this life.

At night, I was alone in bed, winter was coming, the cold wind outside seemed to penetrate the wall of my house and hit my body directly, I hugged myself closer, the body temperature of a person was limited, and I still couldn’t resist it Living in the cold wind, tossing all night, sneezing and sneezing non-stop in the morning, I had no choice but to accept the sudden attack of a cold.

In the morning, my dad prepared his special kung fu, which is really memorable, but the food is very sad. I don’t know what to wait to eat such good noodles. After the meal, I opened the door, and the air is fresh and refreshing. It's cool, I close my eyes slightly, looking forward to my future, without any company around, at this moment I understand, if I don't love myself, who can love myself better than myself, just like staying with me can't replace me I had a cold, and I tightly zipped my coat to my neck. Wild geese were flying in the sky to record a certain corner of this autumn, and I was looking forward to the future sadly alone.