embrace the memory of youth

In the middle of the night, I got up in the living room to find some water. Uncle Li was talking on the phone with someone else. From his facial expression, we could see his sense of joy and happiness. My presence did not make him wary, but the more ambiguous he was. Don't forget to kiss the person on the phone.

"Call my aunt, it's so nasty," I said carelessly.

"Nephew, can we stop talking dumb, and call your fourth uncle, anyway, you should already know about our relationship!" He said with a concerned look, although I had known about their relationship for a long time, but he explained it to his face. I'm still a little surprised.

"Uncle, where do you say the end of your future is?"

"I don't know where the end is, I only know the process, grow old together" His words moved me.

"If it's really what you said, it's not bad. Everyone wants to go on with what they like, but you have thought about how others see you"

"Don't you live for others to see? I think a person's life is either long or short. It's just a way to be happy. Even if I don't have the current wealth, no matter where I go with your fourth uncle, even if it is every day I am willing to eat pickles and radishes for meals, why? Because every day with him, I feel happy always by my side.”

"Well, but does fourth uncle think so?"

"I don't know, but I know he has his heart on me, and I respect whatever he decides"

"I really envy you, hehe."

"Now it's time to talk about you and Bingbing," he asked rhetorically.

"We're good buddies." By this time I didn't want to be exposed, because I was afraid, of course not that he would tell fourth uncle about it.

He smiled faintly, then took a sip of his drink, stared at me and said, "Actually, I knew you all that day at your fourth uncle's house, from the way Bingbing looked at you, a kind of look that can only be sent to the beloved, Then you often do some earth-shattering things in the room, it’s hard not to know, but you dare to tell me it’s nothing.”

"Then my fourth uncle also knows."

"What do you think?" We laughed at each other.

Back in the room, Liu Bing was sleeping soundly, snoring softly. Recalling Uncle Li’s words, I felt that Liu Bing was far away from me. After all, he does not belong to me alone. My words follow me. Well, he would definitely not hesitate, but... I didn't dare to think about it any longer. I lay back on the bed, and he hugged me naturally. I had a very long dream that night, and it was not good for me.

After staying at Uncle Li's house for a few days, we went back and didn't play anywhere. Liu Bing and I were at home every day, but we didn't feel bored.

Back at Fourth Uncle’s company, everyone looked at us strangely, and I couldn’t tell what was wrong. Even Liu Jun changed his face and turned to me with a cold face. He also turned a blind eye to greeting him, but the fourth uncle remained the same, as usual.

After work, Liu Bing didn't come back after buying the goods, so he went home alone without waiting for him. He was going to go in to buy some daily necessities next to a small supermarket in the town, but he happened to run into Xiaohong. Pale, but the child in her hand was lively, as if she knew me, she kept smiling at me, Xiaohong left in a hurry, with another dead and unburied face.

After buying something in the supermarket and preparing to go home, a group of 5- and 6-year-old children surrounded me. There were about a dozen of them, and they all read the same lines: Liu Xiaoyu is so unlucky, his grandmother died, his mother was blind, and his wife ran away , Liu Xiaoyu is shameless, likes men but not women...;

They kept chattering around me, and I was a little scared. At this time, many adults started to watch the fun, pointing at me one by one.

: It turns out that he is Liu Yu, who is somewhat similar to Liu Zhiye; one person in the crowd made a voice, and the other answered immediately: I know him, they are uncles and nephews; Suddenly I saw Xiaohong gloating at my eyes, and I wasn't sure if it had something to do with her, but I felt like I was powerlessly squatting on the ground, letting them scold me.

I don’t know how long it took, someone grabbed my hand and rushed out of the crowd. His back gave me the hope of being reborn. I followed him in big strides, and when I got to the car, he hugged me tightly. This time I I didn't cry, and quietly sniffed the smell that I was most familiar with from him.

When I got home, I didn’t say a word. My words should have reached my family members. They treated me coldly. Maybe my mother didn’t know, but she still cared for me in the dark. After taking a few mouthfuls, I locked myself in my room, recalling the details of me and Liu Bing over and over again. I dare not imagine the future. I am afraid that I will be exhausted halfway through thinking about it, and I am even so cowardly that I don’t even know what will happen tomorrow. can not imagine.