old man in town

That is, they encountered a tour guide with a very bad attitude.The female tour guide was full of aggressive words and kept rolling her eyes.When tourists ask questions, they turn a deaf ear.Li Xiaomo hated it, so he told Uncle Zhan that he wanted to leave the group and the two of them would play alone.Uncle Zhan felt that the tour fare was not much, so he agreed.

When the tour bus arrived at the parking lot under the Golden Summit, Li Xiaomo greeted the tour guide, and then took Uncle Zhan to leave the group with the tour guide's extremely dissatisfied but helpless gaze.In fact, Li Xiaomo didn't intend to continue to sign up for a tour group this time when he came to the natural scenic spot, but because the tour guide left a very good impression on them when he visited the Leshan Giant Buddha.So I continued to report.However, people are complicated after all, and the industry of tour guides is mixed, and today they are indeed recruited.The two left the team, carrying bulging travel bags, followed the movement direction of the crowd, coupled with the signs of the scenic spot, and successfully climbed to the highest point of Mount Emei, the Golden Summit.

When Li Xiaomo and Uncle Zhan boarded it, the Golden Dome was like the Jade Emperor's Hall in the mythological TV series. There are three magnificent halls: the Golden Hall, the Silver Hall, and the Bronze Hall, surrounded by clouds and mist, and the atmosphere is majestic.But looking up through the clouds and mist, he could vaguely see the blue sky.Uncle Zhan felt that the temperature had become very low, so he took out the jacket he had prepared in advance from his bag, and put it on himself and Li Xiaomo.Bypassing a hall, they came to the most important destination of their trip.A gilded bronze statue of Bodhisattva with ten faces.The statue is composed of a pedestal and a statue of Puxian Bodhisattva from the ten directions.The golden statue is more than 50 meters high, symbolizing the 48 great vows of Amitabha Buddha. Among them, the pedestal is more than ten meters high, and the length and width are more than 30 meters.The exterior is decorated with granite reliefs.Under the blue sky, the Buddha statues are shining with golden light, and the Bodhisattvas are benevolent and kind-eyed. At the junction of the skyline, you can see the highest peak in Sichuan, Gongga Snow Mountain.All this, even Li Xiaomo, who doesn't believe in religion, thinks it is very sacred.After Uncle Zhan bowed around the Bodhisattva, he spent a lot of money to buy five ever-burning lamps (one of which was for Li Xiaomo) and enshrined them in the golden hall not far from the Buddha statue.If he hadn't seen this Buddha statue, Li Xiaomo would have stopped Uncle Zhan, but this time, his heart was also conquered by this sense of emptiness and mystery.When Uncle Zhan kowtowed, Li Xiaomo clasped his hands together and closed his eyes tightly. In his heart, facing the Bodhisattva, facing the blue sky, and facing the sunshine, Li Xiaomo prayed sincerely, wishing everyone who loves himself and those he loves will be safe forever.

Reluctantly coming down from the Golden Summit, they came to Monkey Valley after visiting the famous Wannian Temple, Baoguo Temple, and Qingyin Pavilion, which is the most beautiful temple in the world.As the saying goes, if the tiger is not in the mountains, the monkey will be king.Because of the lack of natural enemies, the monkeys in Mount Emei became the real masters of this holy mountain.They are very naughty, jumping back and forth in the favor of tourists.Li Xiaomo thought it was cute, so he took out the unfinished peanuts from his bag and fed them.Uncle Zhan was beside him, reminding Li Xiaomo to be careful.While talking, the most worrying thing happened.The greedy monkey snatched the peanut bag from Li Xiaomo's hand, and another monkey beside him jumped up unexpectedly, wanting to occupy Li Xiaomo's backpack with the peanut bag.Li Xiaomo closed his eyes in fright.Uncle Zhan has sharp eyes and quick hands. In order to protect Li Xiaomo, he strode forward and slapped the vicious monkey.Uncle Zhan beat the monkey away, but his arm was also scratched by the monkey, bleeding profusely, and Li Xiaomo was even more frightened.The administrator waved the bamboo pole, drove the monkey away, and rescued the two.

☆, 47. The bright moon is bright, the evening breeze is soft, and the love between the two is getting stronger

The administrator helped Uncle Zhan deal with it briefly, and Li Xiaomo was helping.They first washed the blood with clean water from a mineral water bottle.Li Xiaomo found that there were two scratches about three centimeters long on Uncle Zhan's arm. The wounds were not particularly deep, but Uncle Zhan was in pain.Because when the administrator continued to clean Uncle Zhan's wound with purple syrup, even though Uncle Zhan held back, he could still hear the "hissing" sound coming from his mouth.Li Xiaomo held Uncle Zhan's arm, feeling distressed.Finally, the administrator bandaged Uncle Zhan with gauze.

"Comrade, thank you. Is there a hospital here?" After Li Xiaomo expressed his gratitude, he was still very worried.

"The nearest hospital here is in Emeishan City. His wound is not deep, so he will be fine with bandaging."

"Comrade, you should be vaccinated against rabies again." Li Xiaomo suddenly remembered that he had read in a book before that after being scratched by an animal, he should be vaccinated against rabies in time.

"Yes, that's for sure, but it's getting dark now. If you want me to say, you'd better find a place to stay. You'll go down the mountain tomorrow to get vaccinated at the hospital in the city. Of course, what's more important is that I'm afraid he won't be able to walk again if he walks." Sweating, prone to infection."

"But where is there a place to live around here?" Uncle Zhan asked worriedly.

"On Mount Emei, the best scenic spot is not in the hotel, but in the temple. The accommodation is good and the price is affordable."

"It's the first time I've heard of living in a temple. Which one is the best?" Li Xiaomo was very interested.

"The best and largest one is Wannian Temple, which is just a short walk away."

After Li Xiaomo and Uncle Zhan expressed their sincere thanks, they followed the direction pointed by the administrator and finally found the Wannian Temple at the foot of Xixin Ridge.In the evening, the number of tourists gradually decreases, the trees are verdant, and the ancient temples hidden in the mountains gradually reflect the essence of tranquility.Li Xiaomo and Uncle Zhan were lucky enough to book the last double room.The guest rooms are very clean, in line with the quiet surroundings.After a light vegetarian meal in the evening, Uncle Zhan and Li Xiaomo sat by the lotus pond in the courtyard of the temple to cool off because there was no fan in the room.

In the sky, a full moon is bright and clear. "Mount Emei's moon is half round in autumn, and its shadow enters the water flow of Pingqiang River." This moon on Mount Emei once appeared in Li Bai's poems. Now things are different, but the moon is still the same.The moon is in the middle of the sky, dyed with white floating clouds, and sprinkled a piece of silver gray on the ground, which makes people doubt the Yaotai mirror, flying in the blue clouds, but in the end it is reflected in the lotus pond in front of us.The breeze from the mountains is blowing slowly, the lotus is tightly wrapped, the lotus leaves are rustling, and the nostrils are bursts of fragrance.

Li Xiaomo held Uncle Zhan's other uninjured arm, and sat next to him, watching the full moon in the sky together quietly.

"Uncle, does your arm still hurt?" Li Xiaomo asked gently.

"It doesn't hurt anymore. Uncle usually does rough work. This little injury is nothing."

But Li Xiaomo knew that Uncle Zhan was trying to comfort him, seeing that he ate only one-third of his normal meal at night, he knew that his arm must still be hurting.Li Xiaomo was full of self-blame.

"Uncle, I'm really sorry for you. I shouldn't have asked you to come out to play. This time, you worked hard to follow me and run non-stop. I'm really selfish. Along the way, I just cared about myself and rarely asked questions. How you feel. I was busy playing by myself again today, and I even caused you to get hurt because of me." Li Xiaomo became more and more sad as he spoke, and buried his head deeply between his legs.

"Hehe, silly boy, I'm really angry when you say that." Uncle Zhan freed his hand and stroked Li Xiaomo's head lovingly.

Li Xiaomo raised his head and asked Uncle Zhan: "Uncle, tell me, come out and play with me, are you happy?"

"Of course I'm happy, Xiaomo. Uncle has a stupid mouth and can't speak. But I still want to tell you, Uncle is really grateful to you. Thank you for taking me out to see so many things. Since I served as a soldier, I have stayed in the I seldom go out in the town. I am busy doing business all day to support my family. Sometimes when I calm down, I feel that my world is so small. Which man do you think doesn’t want to go out and see the outside world. But I have been unable to leave. After a long time, people become timid. Even if I have time to come out, I dare not be alone. Since I have you, my life has suddenly become very big. You helped me change the way I operate, so that I got out of the business. You took me out to play and experienced a lot of things. I am happy every day with you," Uncle Zhan said very emotionally, his eyes looked at Li Xiaomo affectionately, and his eyes were in the moonlight Down, gentle as water in a pool.He turned Li Xiaomo's head over, making his forehead and his forehead stick together tightly.

"Well, uncle, I am also very happy to go out to play with you. Uncle, in fact, when you come out to play, you will not only know the beauty of the outside world, but also let you understand the preciousness of your hometown. The deeper the comparison, the stronger the feeling .”

Uncle Zhan let go of Li Xiaomo, and said very approvingly, "It's true when you say that. I compared it, and I really think our town is pretty good. You see, the environment is good, the scenery is good, and the transportation is convenient. It's really a good place. "Uncle Zhan gestured with his fingers, and his words were full of pride.

"Of course it's a good place. One side supports the other side. Uncle, you are the best witness. Otherwise, where would I find such a good you?"

"Haha, you're complimenting me again. Do you like small towns?"

"Not only do I like small towns, but I also hope to live in small towns with you in the future."

"Ah, really? But I feel that I have wronged you. After all, you are a child who grew up in a big city."

Li Xiaomo didn't say anything more, but in his heart, a seed had already taken root.

☆, 48. In the early morning, listen to the master's lecture on "The Sutra of Real Enlightenment" to untie the knot in your heart

That night, Li Xiaomo slept so peacefully in Uncle Zhan's warm and generous embrace.Uncle Zhan's other arm was injured, Li Xiaomo didn't dare to ask to hold him when he was sleeping.In the early morning before dawn, Li Xiaomo was gently woken up by Uncle Zhan's ear.But at this moment, he found that he was already in Uncle Zhan's arms.It must be midnight, Uncle Zhan quietly put his arms around Li Xiaomo.

"Uncle, what's the matter?" Li Xiaomo gently rubbed his head against Uncle Zhan's smooth skin.

"Xiao Mo, listen, there is the sound of chanting Buddha outside, it must be that the masters have started their morning classes. Do you want to go to listen to scriptures with Uncle?" Uncle Zhan stared out the window and asked Li Xiaomo softly.

Li Xiaomo knew that Uncle Zhan believed in Buddhism, and Uncle Zhan had mentioned before that he often went to the temple in the small town to listen to monks chanting scriptures. "Okay, Uncle, I'll go with you. Uncle, is your arm still hurting?" Li Xiaomo pulled himself together and readily agreed.

"It doesn't hurt anymore, rest for a night, it's all right."

"But we'd better get vaccinated during the day."

"Hehe, okay, listen to you, slob, get up quickly." The two quickly dressed, brushed their teeth and washed their faces.

The night was thin and cool, the skyline was whitish, and the air smelled of dew and earth.Dressed in night, the two came to the main hall, sat down gently outside the window, and listened quietly.In the main hall, the lights are soft, and the presiding master sits under the Buddha statue, with kind brows and kind eyes, and a peaceful face. He should have seen the two strangers at the door.But those who chant the Buddha's name have peace of mind after all.Everything around him must not interfere with him at all.The master was chanting words, standing with one hand on his chest, and holding a red mallet in the other hand, tapping rhythmically on the wooden fish with a clear and crisp sound.There were two rows of monks sitting under the stage, following Master Abbot, reciting Buddhist scriptures neatly.

"Uncle, do you understand?" Li Xiaomo couldn't hear what they were reading.

"I can't understand the scriptures I read today. It seems that there are dialects mixed in." Uncle Zhan looked at the hall and shook his head, but his eyes were still pious.Li Xiaomo was infected by Uncle Zhan's expression.So listen carefully, even though you still don't understand.But when he calmed down, in such a quiet morning, at the entrance of such a sacred hall, these chanting, full of rhythm and similar to music, gently touched Li Xiaomo's heart.His body seemed to be immersed in the town's hot springs, warmth came from within, and his breathing became more and more peaceful.He simply imitated Uncle Zhan, closed his eyes, let his whole body be more absorbed, and bathed in the baptism of Zen.

By the end of the morning class, it was already dawn.The monks walked out of the hall quietly and orderly.Uncle Zhan and Li Xiaomo were about to leave, when a deep voice came from behind, in strong Sichuan dialect: "Benefactor, please stay."

Uncle Zhan and Li Xiaomo turned their heads in surprise, and found that Master Abbot was smiling and waving to them.Uncle Zhan and Li Xiaomo walked up to the master and bowed deeply. "Hello, master." The two sincerely greeted each other.

"The two benefactors, it's rare to come to listen to our chanting so early in the morning. It's hard work."

Li Xiaomo understood that the host was very pleased to see the two of them coming to listen to the chanting so early, so he exchanged pleasantries with them.The clever Li Xiaomo suddenly had a flash of inspiration in his mind, and begged the master: "Master, my uncle believes in Buddhism and has always been very devout. He came here early in the morning to listen to your chanting. But it may be due to the language barrier. It's not very clear. Could you please give us a few minutes to explain a Buddhist scripture in Mandarin. Please." Li Xiaomo looked pitifully at the host master.

"Haha, benefactor, it is fate to meet you. Okay, the poor monk will explain a scripture to you." The presiding master was very kind, and asked them to sit on the cushions where the monk had sat just now.Uncle Zhan was even more excited, smiling from ear to ear, his eyes filled with gratitude to Li Xiaomo.

"Master, thank you very much. To be honest, in my life recently, some trivial housework is not going well. I hope you can enlighten me." Uncle Zhan spoke his heart.

"Then let's talk about the Sutra of Perfect Enlightenment."

"Okay, thank you very much." The two of them thanked each other repeatedly, calmed down and listened carefully.

The sound of the sacred wooden fish sounded again, and the master began to lecture them in Mandarin.

"Thus I heard, for a moment, Bhagava, entered the Samadhi of the supernatural power, the great light storehouse, and the light of all Tathagatas is strictly abode, and it is the pure enlightenment ground of all living beings. The body and mind are peaceful, equal to the original state, perfect in the ten directions, and non-duality is obedient. All the pure lands appear in the non-duality."

After reciting this passage, the wooden fish in the master's hand stopped, and began to translate the meaning of this passage to them: At that time, that's what I heard, Bhagava.Entering the samadhi of the supernatural power and the great light storehouse is the solemn and eternal state of all the Buddhas.If all living beings have a pure thought, they can also enter this realm.In this way, the body and mind are empty, all sentient beings are equal, the ten directions are perfect and flawless, and they naturally follow the Buddha nature.In this non-duality state, everything is a pure land, and all kinds of troubles are eliminated.The master paused, and continued to explain the doubts to the two of them.

The words "If I hear it, for a while" will appear in the capital of each Buddhist scripture.What is the reason?You may not know that the Buddha Sakyamuni taught the Dharma, which was "transmitted outside the teaching, without writing".After he passed away, his disciples worried that the later scholars would have nothing to rely on, so they decided to integrate the Dharma taught by the Buddha into scriptures.At that time, there were more than 500 disciples who became Arhats. Among them, Ananda was "the most knowledgeable" and had an excellent memory. Therefore, he faithfully recorded the content of the Buddha's speech and the scene when he said it. It becomes a scripture.Due to the collection of everyone's wisdom, there are very few errors in the Buddhist scriptures.

The three characters "Bhagava" have rich meanings, that is, having attained enlightenment and attained Buddhahood, the body and mind are at ease; the merits and wisdom are radiant, and the Buddha's light shines in all directions; All living beings reverence, the status is extremely honorable.

What I just said "is the place of pure enlightenment for all living beings", that is to say, as long as all living beings have a pure thought and their hearts are like a vacuum, they will naturally enter the state of supernatural power, great light and solemnity.This is because this kind of realm originally existed in all living beings, but was confused by external objects.It's like a vacuum, originally empty, filled with oxygen, carbon dioxide, water, dust and other foreign objects, it is not a vacuum.

It is difficult for ordinary sentient beings to reach this pure and bright state, because they are greedy for external things and sink in "scattered" and "drowsy".It's like we are thinking wildly all day long, and we are all scattered. The so-called scattered thoughts include good thoughts, evil thoughts, and Wuji (neither good nor evil), which are commonly called delusions.When you are not scattered, you will fall into drowsiness. When you sleep at night, you will be in a big drowsiness.Life is in these two realms, either scattered or drowsy; if not drowsy, it is scattered.The combination of distraction and drowsiness is called delusion.With such delusional thoughts, one cannot be pure, and the self-nature is blocked. "

The word "mind and body stillness" means "emptiness", or vacuum.This is a realm that is difficult to fully understand.At least understand that the reason why I have troubles and worries is because I cherish myself too much.If I don't take myself seriously, where do I get troubles and worries?For example, I need others to respect me and like me so much, that's why I am so worried about other people's gossip and sarcastic remarks.If I only value self-evaluation and don't care whether others respect and like me, it doesn't matter what others say!

However, how can "I" not care whether others respect me and like me?This is the other half that cannot be understood, and can only be realized slowly.

"Equality" refers to the realm of "all beings are equal".It can be said that to lower oneself to the status of "all living beings are equal" is to elevate oneself to the status of "all living beings are equal", neither higher nor lower than anyone else.Only in this way is it in line with the meaning of "Bhagava".If there is a difference, if you feel higher than some people, you will naturally feel lower than some people; if you are arrogant in front of some people, you will naturally be inferior to others... All kinds of troubles arise from this.One speaks while standing on a horizontal surface, and the other speaks while standing under the water, but the direction is actually the same, so the benefactor should not stand on tiptoe to fight for heights, and do not criticize others from the top. Before, all your accusations had the potential to hurt yourself.

"Okay, that's it for today, the benefactor does what he wants." The master left with a smile.The two were left in deep thought.

Zhan Jiaqiang's meditation is reflecting on why his wife fell into gambling and couldn't extricate herself.After Zhan Jiaqiang found out that his wife was gambling, he didn't ask his wife's difficulties, but blamed him blindly. As a result, his wife responded forcefully, and the two broke up unhappy.He planned to have a good talk with his wife when he got home.

Li Xiaomo's meditation is a kind of luck.He is glad that he has listened carefully to his parents' difficulties, helped them, and stepped into a happy life again.

☆、49. Too late to say I love you

In the Mount Emei City Hospital, Li Xiaomo accompanied Uncle Zhan to receive the rabies vaccine and treat the wound again.The two of them packed their luggage and prepared to return to Chengdu, and then took a plane to the last paradise of this trip - Jiuzhaigou.However, as one wished, the trip was interrupted after Uncle Zhan received an incoherent phone call in the car.

In fact, before the vaccination, Uncle Zhan received a call from an employee in the store, saying that the proprietress had taken away all the cash in the store.Uncle Zhan guessed that Aunt Zhan started gambling again.But he didn't call to question him.He thought of what the abbot master had said, and planned to return home after the tour and have a good talk with his wife.He really wanted to know if his wife had some difficulties hidden in her heart that made her lost and indulged like this.

This call is from Uncle Zhan's neighbor.Something happened to Uncle Zhan's family.After Uncle Zhan left, Aunt Zhan continued to gamble.This morning, she went to a black casino in the small town to play cards.Today's poker friends are three young foreigners working in small towns, speaking with different foreign accents.The bet was huge, and Aunt Zhan was lucky at first, winning several hands in a row, with a smile on her face like a flower.However, the good times didn't last long, and he began to retreat steadily. In less than an hour, he lost all the cash in his wallet.Unwilling to leave in such a sad state, she asked for credit.These few people should have seen this rich lady boss.But bad luck has been hanging over her head like a dark cloud.So much so that in the end, she lost all the deposits in her bank card.When Uncle Zhan left, he had already withdrawn most of the family's money from this card and transferred it to another card.This is to prevent Aunt Zhan from continuing to squander her family wealth.Aunt Zhan told the three people not to leave. She rushed to the postal savings first, took out the money in the bank card, and prepared to pay the bill.Then he went back to the small shop and took away all the business income from the shop in the past few days, preparing for a comeback.Back at the poker table, I paid off the credit just now.The money she brought is still like water flowing eastward, it is difficult to keep it, and it all flows into other people's pockets.Aunt Zhan was getting more and more impetuous.But she couldn't stop, she felt that she had no way out, and she always believed that she could turn things around.The credit continued to rage, and the three of them agreed when they saw that the aunt would be able to get the money back just now.The repetition of the word "lose" made her sweat profusely.At this time, she felt more and more that the situation was not right.Although the three people on the opposite side didn't seem to know each other, they would give each other winks every time they played their cards.So she pretended to lower her head to count the cards, and suddenly raised her head. Sure enough, the eyes of the three people met above the card table.

Aunt Zhan understood that these three people were playing tricks.At the beginning, she was allowed to win several times in a row, just to paralyze the prey, and then gradually opened her bloody mouth.With a surge of blood, she stood up and pushed it to the wall of stacked cards, accusing the three of them of cheating loudly.There were acquaintances of hers on the three tables next to her, so they surrounded her.But all three refused to admit to cheating.The people around saw that Aunt Zhan had nothing to prove, and it was difficult to speak.The three of them yelled in unison and asked Aunt Zhan to pay back the debt.She said she didn't have one, and even if she did, she wouldn't give it.One of them, a fat man, went up to snatch the gold bracelet on her wrist.This gold bracelet was given to her by Uncle Zhan, how could she give it to them so easily.The people next to him also came over to try and protect Aunt Zhan.The momentum of these three was suppressed.Aunt Zhan felt that these three scoundrels lied to her, and dared to be so arrogant.Relying on the protection of the people around him, he poured a cup of hot tea that was just full on the table at the fat man who just snatched his bracelet.The fat man screamed and covered his face that was scalded by hot water.While Aunt Zhan was still pointing and cursing at the other party, unexpectedly one of the pockmarked guys next to her took out a fruit knife from his trouser pocket and slashed at her neck.The knife was not good, but the strength was great. Aunt Zhan's neck suddenly gushed blood, splashing red all over the person next to her.Everyone was dumbfounded for an instant, and was at a loss for a while.The assailant was also trembling all over.Aunt Zhan fell to the ground.When everyone regained their composure and subdued the murderer, Aunt Zhan was already motionless on the ground, her blood was like a river, and it became a sea again.Rural people lack first aid knowledge and poor medical conditions.When Aunt Zhan was sent to the town health center, she was already in shock.But the hospital is unable to treat them.Can only be transferred to the county hospital.

When Uncle Zhan received the call, Aunt Zhan was already on her way to the hospital.He was startled when he asked, gasped for breath, and didn't have time to explain to Li Xiaomo, so he hurriedly called his daughter who hadn't finished the exam in Xiamen, hoping that she would rush to the county hospital as soon as possible.Only then did Uncle Zhan briefly explain to Li Xiaomo what happened.Li Xiaomo was in a cold sweat when he heard it.But at this time, Li Xiaomo must remain calm.He came to his senses and hurriedly called to order a plane ticket.When the two arrived at the bus station, as soon as they got out of the station, they received another call from the neighbor.This time, the call was grimly announcing the end of a life.

Life is so fragile, and this fragility is often reflected in the short time.When Aunt Zhan was sent to the county hospital, her heart had stopped beating.

Uncle Zhan's legs suddenly became weak, and he fell to the ground, throwing the phone far away.Li Xiaomo hurried up to help him, Uncle Zhan closed his eyes tightly, slid down Li Xiaomo's legs, grabbed his hair with both hands, big teardrops gushed out of his eyes, and fell on Li Xiaomo's shoes.Li Xiaomo suddenly felt that the world was in darkness, and he couldn't see a ray of light.The air was as heavy as molten iron, making it hard to breathe.

☆, 50. Do you understand why I left?

Along the way, Uncle Zhan, who used to be as strong as a mountain, at this moment, is like a lost sheep, being led, pulled, pulled, and supported by Li Xiaomo.Li Xiaomo seemed to be able to feel that Uncle Zhan's closed soul was already as light as autumn leaves, and was about to fall to the ground.Li Xiaomo's mind is full of self-blame.He was very confused, wondering if it was the right choice to take Zhan out for a walk.He didn't dare to think deeply, and he didn't dare to imagine that Uncle Zhan would think deeply.Uncle Zhan beside him didn't say a word, staring blankly at the sky outside the cabin.

Finally returned to the small town, but Li Xiaomo has no memory of how he got back with Uncle Zhan along the way.

Uncle Zhan's daughter and son were waiting at the entrance of the hospital early. When they saw Uncle Zhan get off the taxi, they threw themselves into his arms, and Uncle Zhan caught them.The daughter's fist hit Uncle Zhan's body hard.

"Dad, where did you go, my mother was killed, do you know?"

The son also howled in his arms: "Dad, I want my mother, I want my mother!"

Uncle Zhan hugged the pair of poor children lovingly, and finally couldn't restrain the grief in his heart, sobbing uncontrollably.Li Xiaomo, standing by the side, was so helpless, he could only watch this once beautiful family, because one of them left, he had to face the shattering of their beautiful life.He wanted to reach out to comfort them, but he knew that there was nothing he could do.

Auntie lay cold in the drawer of the mortuary, and her whole life was frozen in a closed box like this.Uncle Zhan moved his body closer, stretched out his hand and gently stroked Auntie's withered face.If man really has a soul, then the soul should be the spirituality and fullness of man.When a person dies, these spirituality and fullness will disappear instantly.Uncle Zhan's sobbing became more and more intense, and his hands were shaking.He couldn't believe that a person who was still alive a few days ago was so dry now.The two children snuggled up beside him looked at him reluctantly, as if they hoped that their mother would get up again.But all of this is impossible. In the morgue, apart from the sound of crying, there is nothing but coldness.

Auntie's body was cremated the day after Uncle Zhan came back.The ashes were buried in the hills of the small town, where the trees were verdant and the streams were clear and flowing. I hope she can sleep peacefully here.Li Xiaomo has stayed at Uncle Zhan's house to help Uncle Zhan hold the funeral.Uncle Zhan hopes to take care of this last ceremony related to Auntie.

The day's hustle and bustle was over, and all the relatives and friends who came to pay their respects were sent away. Li Xiaomo was too tired to stand still. He wanted to see how Uncle Zhan was doing, but when he turned around, he found that Uncle Zhan had disappeared.He looked in the living room, but couldn't find it.Then I climbed the stairs with difficulty and reached the second floor.In Uncle Zhan's bedroom, he was found.

Uncle Zhan's back looks a little tired, his once straight back is now a little bent, and a few strands of white hair can be found in the black hair.The evening sun that was about to disappear hit Uncle Zhan.Li Xiaomo suddenly felt that the once lively Uncle Zhan was now like an old wall painting.Li Xiaomo knew that Uncle Zhan was too tired, he didn't want to disturb Uncle Zhan, and was about to turn around and leave.But Uncle Zhan's body began to tremble slightly.Li Xiaomo thought that Uncle Zhan was not feeling well, so he decided to come in to have a look.

"Uncle, what's the matter with you, are you feeling unwell?"

Uncle Zhan turned his head and looked at Li Xiaomo, his eyes were dark, and he shook his head stiffly, without speaking.

Li Xiaomo approached Uncle Zhan, but found that Uncle Zhan was holding a large group of broken cloth strips in his hand, and some were scattered on the ground.

"Uncle, what's the matter, what is this?" Li Xiaomo was puzzled.

"Xiaomo, your aunt really hates me." Uncle Zhan pointed to the cabinet next to it, the door of which was ajar, and Li Xiaomo discovered that there were many cloth strips of various colors in the cabinet, one of which was cut Half of blue panties.However, Li Xiaomo still didn't understand what happened.

"Uncle, what's the matter?"

Uncle Zhan lowered his head, looking very painful, his voice became hoarse, and it was extremely difficult to squeeze it out of his mouth. "After I left, your aunt cut all my underwear into strips."

Li Xiaomo suddenly felt that his chest was tight, and then he was covered in cold sweat, and asked Uncle Zhan, "Uncle, is it because you went on a trip and left Auntie alone?"

"This is not the most important thing, Xiao Mo, you go and close the door."

Li Xiaomo turned around and closed the door, then returned and sat gently beside the bed.Uncle Zhan had swollen eye sockets and bloodshot eyes. He recalled painfully: "Xiao Mo, you may have always thought that your auntie and I have a very good relationship, and the two of us are peaceful and harmonious. But you also remember, I once told you that the conversation between my wife and I has become less and less. When we are together, we don’t know what to say. In fact, it’s more than that. My wife and I haven’t had sex for several years. Neither do I. I know why, maybe life is too tiring, but I just don’t feel for her. I thought it’s normal for couples to be like this when I’m older. So I didn’t care. Sometimes, she wants, but I don’t give it. It’s really slow The slowness has affected my relationship with her. We always feel that something is weird, but we can’t tell. She can’t feel my kindness to her from me. This must be the reason why she is addicted to gambling. This time I I went out to sleep with you, and I realized that I still have a strong feeling. I saw this in the room last night, and I understood that I killed her. It’s not that she has no feeling, she is suffering in her heart, she Just like that, I forced him to a dead end little by little." Uncle Zhan's voice had become weak and murmured, but Li Xiaomo could hear it clearly, because he could no longer hear any other sounds around him, and it was Uncle Zhan who lingered in his ears. confession.

Li Xiaomo's once bright heart is peeling off bit by bit at this moment.

☆, 51. Sorrow flows upstream into a river, spreading the past

After the funeral, the person who leaves takes nothing with him, but leaves his grief to the living.This once happy and warm home has now become an icehouse.Everyone locked themselves in the room, did not want to see the sun, do not want to see strangers, do not want to smell the fresh air.If there is a slight change in the surrounding environment, even the slightest, it will touch their fragile nerves.Everyone hides in a dark corner, silently, silently, with tears.Hope in my heart, like a sea tide, floats in fantasy and sinks in sobriety.That once familiar figure came back and forth, and every time, it left a heart-piercing pain that could not fade away for a long time.

The only person walking around in this house is Li Xiaomo.He was busy cooking for the three people, cleaning, and taking care of the restored business in the salted duck shop, bringing a little life to this dead home.But after a few days, Li Xiaomo gradually discovered that Uncle Zhan was becoming more and more indifferent to him.One day at noon, Li Xiaomo carefully stewed pork ribs and seaweed soup, and asked three people to come down to drink it.None of the three moved.Li Xiaomo was used to this situation, he filled the soup and served it to everyone.Put it in Uncle Zhan's daughter and son's room.He pushed open the door of Uncle Zhan's room.

In Uncle Zhan's room, there was a musty smell.This is all because the room has not been ventilated for a long time.Uncle Zhan lay on the bed, motionless.On the coffee table, the rice porridge served in the morning has not been touched, and a layer of skin has condensed on the surface.Since the last time he saw the shredded clothes, Uncle Zhan didn't talk to Li Xiaomo very much these days, and he didn't seem to hear Li Xiaomo calling him.But Li Xiaomo was worried that his body would be starved to death.He put down the soup and gave Uncle Zhan a slight push. "Uncle, get up and drink some soup."

But Uncle Zhan didn't move at all.He thought Uncle Zhan was asleep because of the heavy snorting.He yelled and patted Uncle Zhan on the shoulder again.But unexpectedly, Uncle Zhan jumped up from the bed and pushed Li Xiaomo away.Li Xiaomo slammed his back hard against the corner of the cabinet.Li Xiaomo was so frightened that he didn't care about the pain.Because Uncle Zhan's eyes were bloodshot, his eyes were swollen, and his lips and chin were covered with blue stubble.

Uncle Zhan waved his hands and pointed at Xiao Li with a hoarse voice.