old man in town

How to form.So I still don't have the ability to help you two to solve this problem completely. "

"Old Zhang, is there really nothing we can do?" He Chunli begged bitterly.

"I thought about it, and there is another method, which should not be a solution to the problem, but just a test. Because Xiao Mo told me just now that he has never talked with a girlfriend. Since he has never talked about it, why not try it Try? After all, Xiao Mo is also confused about himself now."

"But we took him on a blind date, and he was very repulsive." He Chunli shook her head, thinking that this method was feasible.

"The two of you are also high-level intellectuals, and you should know how to educate children. From Xiao Mo's performance just now, you can see that you have successfully raised this child. Because he has the basic qualities of simplicity, kindness, and sincerity. So you also I must understand that one of the most basic principles of raising children is not to force children to do things they don't want to do. With coercion, there will be rebellion. This is inevitable. The method I mentioned just now, you have to be the same Equal communication. At the same time, we should consider issues from his perspective. You should think about it this way, this child has grown up to such an age, and in his heart, there is always a unique world that cannot be shared with others, even himself His parents. He kept this secret by himself, and has been alone until now. He must be very tired. So no matter what, you have to accept him, and then deal with all the problems in front of you with him. "

Hearing these words, Li Xiaomo suddenly couldn't hide the tears in his eyes, falling drop by drop on the white wall.From the other side of the wall, there was also the sound of mother crying.

"We are all ashamed when you say this. Neither of us have worried about this child. He was taken care of by my father when he was a child. When he grew up, he was in a boarding school until he went to college. You Knowing that I was in a car accident, and my husband and wife got divorced and remarried, our family relationship became very good. In fact, we are very sorry for him. It is really not easy for him to grow up so big, he must have worked hard." This is Li Chenfu's voice, unexpectedly also choked with sobs.Did daddy cry too?Li Xiaomo grew up so big, he had never seen Li Chenfu cry.

"I can understand how much you love her, so now, you have to stand with him and find a solution to the problem together. If you can't change it, you have to learn to accept it. If you give him freedom, he will not Will rebel, and he will always be with you"

"Actually, the two of us didn't have any prejudice against homosexuality. We knew it was a phenomenon that existed all the time. But we didn't expect that this kind of thing would happen to our son. For a while, we lost our minds and were trapped inside I can’t get out. Thank you, Zhang, for helping us see many problems clearly.” The couple thanked in unison.

"Okay, Lao Li, Chun Li, I believe that you are also ready to deal with the problem with Xiao Mo. Let's stop here today, and I will leave first."

Hearing this, Li Xiaomo rushed down the stairs and shouted to the middle-aged man: "Uncle Zhang, thank you. Mom and Dad, please don't give up on me, don't let me go down alone, I can't bear you, You don't know how much I love you."

Li Xiaomo rushed to his parents recklessly, was firmly held in his arms by his father, and embraced by his mother.A family of three, tears have never been like this, intertwined, warming and nourishing each other.

☆, 80. This road is too difficult, but I am willing to give it a try

Li Xiaomo agreed to the suggestion of Uncle Zhang and his parents, and decided to try to date the girl he had been on a blind date with before.He was very grateful to the middle-aged man in his heart. He was like a bright light, helping his family see the way forward in the fog.He called him Uncle Zhang, sent him away with his parents, looked at his stalwart figure, and was full of admiration in his heart.

He should also thank Xue Lin, because he later described his current predicament in the call to Xue Lin.Since the last drunken incident, he ignored Xue Lin for a long time.Li Xiaomo was a little angry.Things have developed to the current difficult situation, after the chaos like a storm, Xue Lin is obviously the typhoon that suddenly landed.But looking back now, he forgave Xue Lin a little bit.When people are forced to make choices by life, those choices are often good ones.He really couldn't find a better way to confide his heart to his parents, and now might be the best result.

Xiao Mo didn't mention Xue Lin's drunken madness last time, apparently Xue Lin didn't remember either, but kept blaming Xiao Mo for not contacting him for a long time.Xiao Mo told Xue Lin that he had come out to his parents, but he promised his parents that he would try to date girls first.It can be heard that Xue Lin was very surprised, but also happy, because he knew that Li Xiaomo had done a very correct thing.Xiao Mo originally thought that Xue Lin would disapprove of her going out with girls.But the answer is the opposite.Xue Lin felt that Xiao Mo's decision was right, it was a responsible approach to relatives.From Xue Lin's point of view, Xiao Mo has never liked girls since he was a child, and he hasn't tried it, so how could he know that he has no feelings for women.At this point, I have personal energy, after all, he used to like women.Xiao Mo tries to get along, on the one hand, to verify herself, and on the other hand, to give understanding and kind feedback to her family.Xue Lin felt that Li Xiaomo's parents were very great.Not allowing Xue Lin to ask Li Xiaomo why he came out of the closet suddenly, Li Xiaomo hoped that Xue Lin would tell him how to conduct the experiment.It turned out that although he agreed to them, the cold wind was blowing under his feet, and he froze after taking a small step.

Xue Lin thought for a while, and told Li Xiaomo: First of all, this experiment must be controlled to a certain degree, that is, not to hurt the girl whom he uses as a test subject.

Then he proposed to Li Xiaomo the criteria for judgment:

The first stage is to relax and interact with girls naturally, starting with friends, abandoning all inherent prejudices, and trying to eliminate the inner rejection of young women.If you can't, then stop.If you have successfully passed the first stage, you can choose to date a girl in a quiet environment when you are dating a girl, or after that, try to date a girl as an object, and then have a fantasy to verify whether your body responds.In Xue Lin's view, it is time to stop at this stage, because the results of the experiment will be clear at a glance.

If these words were told to him by others, Li Xiaomo would feel particularly wretched, but from Xue Lin's mouth, it seemed as clear and natural as the summer sun.

Finally, Xue Lin did not forget to send a heartfelt message to Li Xiaomo, people are complicated, don't let yourself be a prison and stand still, only by constantly searching can you truly understand what kind of person you are and what you want.

Li Xiao felt lucky that he could find such a good teacher and helpful friend, and at the same time, he was more sure that the promise he had made to his parents was correct.Li Xiaomo once thought that he and Uncle Zhan had found himself accurately during the process of getting together, but now when the family who supported him behind him intervened, he had to fall into confusion again.These people are all the love of his life, he can only try his best to find his true self again.

There are still a few days before the start of school, he must hurry up, ask his parents to help arrange as soon as possible, and then devote himself wholeheartedly.This road must be difficult, but for the sake of his parents, he is willing to give it a try.If he finds that he really cannot accept women, he will tell his parents the whole story, a story hidden deep in his heart with a middle-aged man.

But Li Xiaomo did not forget to pray for the girl whose name he did not know until today—Hu Xue, I will not hurt you, please accompany me on a journey that may be short or long, and I will be there for you all my life Pray, thank you.

☆, 81. I tried, but I can't do it

With He Chunli's contact, Li Xiaomo knew that Hu Xue still liked him better after going on a blind date before.So he and Hu Xue met in a coffee shop.Li Xiaomo asked He Chunli not to express too much to Hu Xue's family, but just hoped that the two parties would meet again and deepen their understanding, starting as friends.

On Friday evening, when Hu Xue got off work, the two met in a well-decorated coffee shop on Huaihe Road.Li Xiaomo watched Hu Xue enter the door, and waved to her from a distance.Hu Xue was wearing a white dress, her hair was draped softly on her shoulders, and her green high heels looked so simple and natural.In all fairness, this girl is indeed a natural, simple white, and she controls it like a spring.

Hu Xue sat down gracefully, put her bag beside her, with a graceful demeanor and a relaxed manner.Originally Li Xiaomo was still a little nervous, after all his performance last time was very poor.But when he found Hu Xue smiling at him, he relaxed a lot.The first thing Li Xiaomo did was to apologize for his previous behavior.Now Li Xiaomo is very rational, he understands that he must pay attention to the matter in front of him.As a well-educated young man, apologizing is a kind of self-restraint.Hu Xue didn't mind too much, she told Li Xiaomo directly that she felt the same way.As a young man, she also resented her parents' forced blind dates.It turned out that this lovely girl thought that Li Xiaomo deliberately made trouble because of rebellion, which shows that he loves freedom.She appreciates people who love freedom.Anyway, Li Xiaomo expressed his gratitude for such kindness.It seems that now, he has no reason to hate the girl in front of him.

The two actually ordered Mocha at the same time. Regarding this tacit understanding, the two young people could only laugh without saying a word.It's a great start.They found the best topic-college life.Although Li Xiaomo is still in graduate school, Hu Xue has just left school, and there is not too far a distance or a generation gap.Hu Xue has a broad vision, perhaps because she is a teacher, she can be called an encyclopedia.There are many things Li Xiaomo likes, even if she doesn't like them, she knows a thing or two.Girls are born with a gentle, elegant way of speaking, and the message they convey is just like the strong aroma of the cup of coffee in front of them. It will not be pungent or aggressive, and slowly kissing and moistening the nostrils makes Li Xiaomo feel very kind and worthy of slowing down. taste.

At least for now, Li Xiaomo doesn't need to relax by himself, the friendly atmosphere created by Hu Xue and her has already made him stretch enough.The palms he clenched just now were propped up on the table comfortably at this moment, listening to Hu Xue's words seriously.His eyes stayed on Hu Xue's arm that kept stirring the coffee.A girl's skin is as soft as jade, as her name suggests.But Li Xiaomo couldn't help thinking of Uncle Zhan's muscular arms.Although the arm is rough due to long-term busyness, the strength contained in it makes people really like it.He often longs to be embraced by Uncle Zhan with his strong arms.Then it tightened layer by layer until I knew I couldn't breathe.This kind of power penetrating from the arms will also be transmitted into Li Xiaomo's body, just like the warm sun in winter.

Now, looking at the white in front of him, he suddenly felt very sick.He felt that this whiteness was very sick, an unhealthy complexion.If Hu Xue's elegance hadn't conquered him today, something would have turned out of his stomach immediately.Li Xiaomo unconsciously turned his gaze to the coffee in front of him.The layer of milk froth on the surface of the coffee has not gone down, and he unconsciously thought of the skin on Hu Xue's arm.Isn't this just like this layer of foam, it has no taste.Li Xiaomo didn't want to drink this cup of coffee any more.What Hu Xue said he no longer stuck in his ears.

Li Xiaomo was suddenly depressed, but suddenly happy again.The result is already clear.Our dear Li Xiaomo, he already understood.He can have a good impression of a girl, and this good impression only comes from the transmission of information at the friend level.Once he penetrates into the sexual information, he will instinctively reject and swallow all foreign objects like uncontrolled white blood cells.He had tried, but he knew he couldn't.

When he was completely relaxed and left body associations, he could communicate with Hu Xue normally again.

☆、82. This is all because of love

Before ending the date, Li Xiaomo told Hu Xue very honestly that he still felt that the two of them were not suitable, but if Hu Xue could be ordinary friends with him.He believes that he will be a good friend candidate.But Hu Xue refused, and it could be seen that she was a little disappointed. Perhaps this kind of rejection was also born of that faint disappointment.It started to rain suddenly outside, Li Xiaomo wanted to send Hu Xue away, but Hu Xue didn't accept it either.

The experiment ended in failure. For Li Xiaomo's family, this is another joy for one and worry for the other.After listening to Li Xiaomo's description, Li Chenfu and He Chunli had disappointment on their faces.But the two of them were not like before, they were not roaring with anger in disappointment.Li Xiaomo could feel it, because it didn't feel like before, being surrounded by two walls in a small corner and unable to breathe.But it can't stop the silence, like the continuous night rain outside the window, it has been falling for a long time.

Li Chenfu finally spoke: "Xiao Mo, this is the end of the matter, your mother and I can only respect your choice, and do our best to support you in living the life you want. It is not your problem that you cannot date girls. , so I can't blame you. We just hope you are happy." These words are as warm as hot tea in hand, refreshing.

He Chunli on the side also expressed her thoughts: "Xiao Mo, the fact that you are gay has touched me and your father a lot. Your father and I have been busy with our careers for the first half of our lives. The richness of experience and wealth must have broad horizons. But now we realize that we still have a lot of deficiencies. We should have understood that this world is diverse and has many different ways of existence. Things we don’t understand, but don’t It doesn’t mean that these things don’t exist. This kind of deficiency makes us unable to understand the emotional needs of our own son. Your father and I have been looking up information on this aspect on the Internet under the guidance of your Uncle Zhang for the past few days. In many foreign countries, the law has begun to recognize same-sex marriage. And homosexuals can have their own children through surrogacy or adoption. Teacher Xue is a trustworthy person. If you can keep going, your dad and I are very supportive of your immigration , go to other countries to live a more free life. Your dad and I have also figured it out. Business can’t be the whole of life. We both plan to travel abroad for a while to experience how others are living. so that we can understand you better. On the road of being parents, your dad and I still have a lot to learn. You can’t just say how you love you, but how you help you live happy."

Hearing these words, Li Xiaomo was completely shocked.His shock included three aspects: [-]. Parents' minds grew too fast, rational thinking, and long-term vision completely exceeded Li Xiaomo's imagination.two.The parents actually thought that the person Li Xiaomo liked was Xue Lin.three.Parents who have always regarded business as their life are willing to temporarily put it aside and travel abroad.You know, in the past, this couple didn't even want to rest on holidays.To explain all this, there is only one answer, and that is love.Only the love of their parents for themselves can push them to accept things they have never heard of or even resist.Only the love of their parents for themselves can allow them to continue to open their eyes to understand this complicated world; only the love of their parents for themselves can make them think so comprehensively and profoundly.Li Xiaomo was shocked by this powerful love, he was even shaken at a certain moment, fantasizing about having a child through surrogacy in the future, to repay the love of his parents.

But Li Xiaomo soon sobered up.Because he thought of Uncle Zhan.He deeply loves this middle-aged man who is as deep as a mountain.But love is a responsibility.This kind of responsibility needs to be distributed reasonably so that everyone we love around us can enjoy it in a balanced way.In any kind, it is wrong to use love for one person to hurt another person you love.he can not.He still has to guard this man, no matter what form he exists, even though he still doesn't seem to see the future.But when he thought about it, the poor parents in front of him, in order to make himself happy, suppressed the pain in their hearts, forced a smile, and were willing to accompany him to find a future life.His heart ached to the point of breaking.

Li Xiaomo suddenly stood up from the sofa, fell to his knees, and hit his head heavily on the floor.The loud noise startled the couple.They quickly stood up and helped.But Li Xiaomo felt like he was stuck to the floor, he couldn't move it at all.Through this emaciated body, they heard the sound of crying.

"Dad, Mom. My son is really sorry for you. Originally, after you remarried, you could live a simple and happy life like other parents. But I am here to make trouble for you and torment you. Son is not filial, please hit me , Hit me, maybe I can feel better."

The couple kept pulling Li Xiaomo, and finally pulled him up and hugged him in their arms.Left and right protection, tightly wrapping this soul that has been lonely and suffering.

Li Chenfu patted Li Xiaomo on the back and said, "Son, as long as you are happy, we can be truly happy. No matter what kind of problems we encounter, we hope that our family can deal with them together, okay?"

Li Xiaomo didn't nod, but stopped crying and turned into sobbing: "But Dad, the person I like is not Xue Lin, but a middle-aged man who is about your age, and he lives in a small town in Fujian. The situation is far more complicated than what you think now. I don't know how to describe it for a while."

"Silly son, you underestimate your parents too much. What could be more complicated than a gay son in the family. Since we can learn to accept you, we must accept everything about you. You and I Mom really plans to go out for a walk, and I hope our world can be more open and make you live a happier life. Some things you can’t understand now don’t mean you won’t understand them in the future. We will give you time, and you will also give us some time.”

Hearing these words, for the first time in Li Xiaomo's life, he was proud of his parents, and cast his eyes on their tolerance and admiration.

☆, 83. Happy, but hard to put it simply

After a long summer vacation, Li Xiaomo finally returned to the familiar campus, but this time, he became a graduate student.And Xue Lin also became his boss (a graduate student jokingly refers to his mentor).For meeting again, his mood is very complicated.

At Xue Lin's home, Xue Lin was wearing a purple shirt, light blue jeans, and white slippers, sitting on a haircut and waiting for Li Xiaomo's arrival.One summer passed, and he must have swum many times in the sea.A bronzed skin coated by the sun can prove everything.

Maybe too much has happened recently.Xue Lin was involved in all these matters.This competent mentor continued to guide him and help him free himself from the shackles of his family.A lot of memories are too vivid and convincing.Just like the late summer time on the island behind him, the warm light of the sun, the moist smell of the sea breeze, all these specific existences, combined with gratitude, passed through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room facing the sea, overwhelmingly rushed to Li Xiaomo's heart .These feelings, like all the real existence around, make people feel that they are not fake.A simple but inexplicable feeling churned in my heart.

This churning was a short-lived flicker, which appeared without any warning.There is no room for one hesitation.

But Li Xiaomo was frightened silly by this feeling, he couldn't look directly at Xue Lin's welcoming smile.This smile flew out from between the white teeth, as if hit by an electric current, his hands and feet were paralyzed and unable to move.Time temporarily stopped flowing.The surrounding air suddenly became thin, making it difficult for people to breathe freely.In this panic, Li Xiaomo instantly fell into the black hole of self-blame.He asked himself: How can this feeling be tolerated indiscriminately?But just as he was trying to climb out, he raised his head, and when he looked at Xue Lin, he fell again.His eyes are so intelligent, like a lighthouse in the night, they can always point him in the right direction.The slippery memory made him fall again.The darkness swallowed him whole.Under the pressure, the body began to sweat, and the back of the white T-shirt was immediately wet, and the body wrapped in the clothes shivered slightly.

Xue Lin thought that Li Xiaomo was suffering from heat stroke, so he told him to sit down quickly, then turned around and poured him a glass of orange juice with ice.After Li Xiaomo drank it, his taste attracted all his attention, and his body began to relax.The first topic that Xue Lin brought up was of course the torment Li Xiaomo experienced during this period.After listening to Li Xiaomo's description, his brows were wrinkled together, and the two sword eyebrows were almost coming together.

"Xiao Mo, at your age, it's a good thing to go through such a trial, but it must be very painful, right?"

Li Xiaomo put down his cup, leaned on the sofa, and said calmly: "It's quite painful. But maybe now that I've grown up and matured, many pains can be easily forgotten. When I was a child, whether it was the death of my grandfather, the feelings of my parents Divorce from divorce, father's car accident, etc., now I feel pain when I think about it. The pain has been deeply seared in my heart. Do you have the feeling that after these trials, people become adults, and now their nerves will become dull, The brain will also become forgetful. A lot of pain that has just been experienced will soon be forgotten. I think it is because adults understand that life always has to look forward, and life will not stop and wait for us for our sorrow."

Li Xiaomo turned his head and found that Xue Lin was looking at him with admiration.Li Xiaomo's growth and maturity speed surprised Xue Lin.I didn't understand these truths until I was middle-aged, especially when I got divorced.The thin boy in front of him really has a kind of magical power in his body.

He said with a tone of expectation: "But no matter how many things you have experienced, Xiao Mo, I hope you can live a simple and happy life."

Xiao Mo looked at Xue Lin, who nodded.But when he turned his head and looked at the row of coconut trees swaying in the wind outside the window, a voice said in a low voice: I can be happy, but it's simple, and now I seem to be a bit unable to do it.

"Teacher." Li Xiaomo looked at Xue Lin with a smile.

"What's wrong."

"Nothing, just wanted to thank you."

"hehe"

☆, 84. Remember, the person who is countercurrent in your heart

Just when Li Xiaomo was stuck in silence, he didn't know how to break it.Xue Lin took the initiative to start a topic - movies, and it was a gay movie that Li Xiaomo seldom dabbled in.Li Xiaomo doesn't like watching movies very much, so he has watched even fewer gay movies.

Xue Lin told Li Xiaomo that the gay world he most yearns for can often be found in movies.Although he feels that he is free, the world around him is not zero resistance.The gay world is invisible in real life.Movies come from life, and under the protection of the gentle hands of art, this invisible cover is unveiled layer by layer.All the extensions that are real or higher than reality are so beautiful in the picture.The key to this beauty is that you can see what comrades are thinking.In real life, who knows what comrades are thinking.The joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of this group are all covered up and processed, true and false, inexplicable, and eventually all accumulate in the heart, becoming everyone's permanent internal wounds.

Li Xiaomo really wanted to know what Xue Lin's favorite notification movie was, so he asked.

""Contracorriente"" Xue Lin blurted out.This is not English. Xue Lin can remember such a long word. It must be a deep memory left after repeated viewing.

"What's the English or Chinese name?"

"A countercurrent in the bottom of my heart."

"The name translates really well."

"Yes. The original meaning of this Spanish word is also very appropriate. It is called back wave. This kind of wave is on the seashore, advancing and retreating, so that it is chaotic and chaotic, but finally retreats quietly to the sea. The imprint left will also be followed. The waves washed away, as if nothing had happened. This is more like a comrade's life, inner conflicts, entanglements, body wailing, life turmoil, but in the end, who knows."

"Someone will know." Li Xiao defaulted to answering sincerely.

"Who will remember?"

"The one who really loves you."

Xue Lin was delighted to hear that, as if seeing Li Xiaomo handing in an exquisite thesis: "You are so smart, Xiao Mo. The story in the movie is indeed narrated in this way. It all happened in Peru. The male lead is a The painter, after wandering abroad, returned to his hometown where he grew up. More importantly, there is a man who loves each other deeply with him. The man is a fisherman. He has become a husband and is about to have his own child. But all , still can’t resist the mutual attraction between the two. The painter’s sexual orientation has been spread as a rumor, and he doesn’t want to be sneaky anymore. The depressed poor man wants to leave the village with the fisherman who has always loved photography, and elope to a distant place together. But the fisherman’s There are too many entanglements, such as wives, children, work, friends, etc. The painter is very entangled and wants to leave, but he is reluctant to part with this love. But misfortunes never come singly. When the painter was swimming, he was unfortunately trapped by an undercurrent on the bottom of the sea. Died by drowning, body washed up to nowhere”

Xue Lin's tone became more and more sad, which also infected Li Xiaomo, and the eyes of both of them were already a little moist.

"Then a magical place appeared. The painter's soul appeared in the life of the fisherman. He begged the painter to help him find the body that sank into the sea. Because according to the local religious customs, the soul can only be recovered when the body is buried. It is possible to find the final destination without wandering. It is very difficult to find the painter’s body and hold a funeral for him. This is not done by the fisherman alone. The participation of other people is bound to discover the close relationship between him and the painter. While the fisherman was hesitating, explosive news came. The sketches in the painter's house were accidentally seen, and the protagonists were almost all fishermen, and many of them were. Then the fisherman was out of the closet. After all kinds of suffering, the fisherman , decided to give it a go for his lover. Regardless of the contempt, rejection, and attack of the people around him, he finally found the painter's body at the bottom of the sea and held a funeral for him. His love also infected He saved the people around him, and finally got his wife's forgiveness."

Xue Lin cried while speaking, Li Xiaomo was so moved that he couldn't control himself.Which comrade does not have such a countercurrent in his heart?

"You will definitely find such a person who remembers and understands the countercurrent in your heart." Li Xiaomo guessed that Xue Lin himself said that he was moved.

"Hehe, you guys have really grown up, and you can see more and more people's hearts. Xiao Mo, I originally wanted you to watch it by yourself, but once I opened my mouth, I couldn't stop. I kept telling you that I was getting a divorce. Later, I found out that I was gay, but this is not the whole story. No one suddenly became gay. He must have come a long way.”

It turns out that you still have a story.

☆, 85. It turns out that I am someone's shadow

Xue Lin's recognition of her gay status began after her marriage ended.But his same-sex contact began in college.

During the period of living in school, there was a roommate named Xu Ran in the dormitory.This is the protagonist of Xue Lin's first love.

Xu Ran comes from a rural area. Due to his family's poverty, he suffered from severe malnutrition. He is not tall and very thin.In comparison, Xue Lin's family conditions have always been very good, and he has never suffered from hunger since he was a child.From school to high school, there has never been someone like Xu Ran in my life.Frugal, one steamed bun can eat two meals; kind, basic hygiene in the dormitory is covered; shy, rarely look up at others.Xu Ran is very quiet and always listens to others with interest. When he is not speaking, he reads silently.The poorest person in the dormitory was on the opposite bed with him, which easily attracted Xue Lin's attention.This kind of attention is more of a kind of pity.

Xue Lin's family background is good, but he is not a proud person.Good character and self-cultivation made his sympathy overflow.He often pulls Xu Ran to eat with him.When the buddies in the dormitory were eating together, Xue Lin directly wanted to help Xu Ran order a dish, but he also felt that this would easily hurt his self-esteem.So he changed tack.He first deliberately created an image in front of Xu Ran that he likes to waste food and save face.Every time he added a third of the amount of food to himself, deliberately, and then poured it out. Although his heart ached so badly, he still held back those few days.People in the same dormitory call him a prodigal.Xu Ran also cast a contemptuous look.Xue Lin's explanation is that he has been like this since he was a child. If there is less food, he will lose his appetite.Seeing that everyone has nothing to do with him.Xue Lin pretended to compromise.He suggested that everyone come and help share his meals.It's quite normal for college boys to share food, but other people's food is not bad, so at most, they just pick up a chopstick and try something new.The fire was hot and the oil was hot, so Xue Lin grasped the heat and took the opportunity to propose to Xu Ran that he let him share a portion for himself, otherwise it would be a pity that he couldn't finish eating and throw it away.Farmers know that every grain is hard work, and the nature of cherishing food prompted Xu Ran to agree.

In this way, Xue Lin and Xu Ran became best friends.In the first semester of college, after Xu Ran's nutrition kept up, he actually ushered in a second growth.Although the body has not gained weight, but the height has increased by three centimeters, the hair is black, the complexion is white, and the big eyes are piercing, which can best interpret the demeanor of youth.The two like basketball the most. As good partners, every time Xue Lin gets a pass from Xu Ran, after Xue Lin makes a shot, he will look back to search for Xu Ran, and then return with a smug smile.When the eyes collided, Xu Ran, who was as refreshing as the wind, made Xue Lin suddenly want to associate the word "beautiful" with him.

In his junior year, Xue Lin sprained his ankle while playing basketball. It was swollen for two weeks and he couldn't get out of bed.Xu Ran's help is needed for cooking, washing hair, feet, washing clothes, taking lecture notes, and even going to the toilet.Xu Ran seemed to be his right and left hand.Xu Ran often lay on Xue Lin's bed, talking to him who was bored.This behavior turned into a habit after Xue Lin's foot recovered.Once, the two got into a fight because of a joke.Xu Ran was held down by Xue Lin's shoulders and pressed down under his body. Suddenly Xu Ran stroked Xue Lin's crotch, and Xue Lin suddenly felt his blood surge.Seeing that there was no one in the dormitory, he boldly grabbed Xu Ran's.Xu Ran suddenly raised his head and kissed Xue Lin's forehead, and time froze instantly...

In that era of underdeveloped information, the two of them didn't understand this kind of emotion, this kind of behavior should not be defined in any way.But whatever, it doesn't matter whether you play games or like it, in short, it's so happy, so sweet, and life is so wonderful.This intimate relationship is still secretly continued.Everything happens so naturally, without any impurities.But no one thought that the two of them would stay together forever.Such a wish is too ambitious, far from being achievable in their world.After graduation, Xue Lin went abroad, and Xu Ran returned to his hometown city to work.Losing that intimacy, the relationship between the two became good brothers and good friends again.

"Why are you not together?" This was Li Xiaomo's question.

"Xiao Mo, it's better to miss each other than to meet each other. I don't want to continue to pick it up. On the one hand, there are entanglements in the present, and on the other hand, the past is too simple and beautiful, and I can't bear to disturb it anymore."

Seeing Li Xiaomo seeming to understand, Xue Lin said lightly: "What's more, I already have someone I like now, Xiaomo, do you know that you are very like him, which makes people have a desire to protect."

It turns out that I am someone's shadow, Li Xiaomo thought in his heart.

☆, 86. I want to be with you forever

Li Xiaomo came out from Xue Lin's house and rejected his kind offer to send him off.I want to rent a bicycle and ride back to school along Huandao Road.

late summer evening, sun