lonely three people

In the Xiyangyang hot pot restaurant, there are already dinner guests, but Qiang Zai and I are still going on. There are too many memories and emotions that we can’t wait to express. We probably mentioned the names of a hundred alumni, maybe more than that.

Why did Qiang Zai turn into a bear, and why did he work in a liquor factory as a business English major?What kind of fortune has Qiangzai, who looks shy, encountered in recent years?Are you quietly pursuing the love you think in your heart like me? Do all Gs have attachments and different but similar experiences?If we all knew each other's "identity" ten years ago, wouldn't we know the truth of sympathy when we were in school?

"Tell me how you have lived in the past few years. Why did you work in a liquor factory?" Qiang Zai gnawed his index finger and listened to my experience in the past few years. There was no embarrassment but silence. I wanted to ask him how his fingers are. What to eat, put the hot pot and don't eat your fingers.

"How can anyone compare to you, spending time in Internet cafes every day, fighting for several years without having to study... You can still work as a government employee after graduation, it's good for me to stay in a liquor factory, er, the brewery won't accept me, Heh" Xiaoqiang said calmly, it seems that he is very satisfied with the status quo, of course we have all passed the age of cynicism, when we were young, we always wanted to change the world, and then one day finally found that we have begun to adapt to the society.

I laughed, "I'm just lucky." Back then, I missed a lot of job opportunities because I liked being alone in the dormitory, and the two of us procrastinated and waited.It happened that the leader of my current company went to the school to recruit students, and I was still eating instant noodles in the dormitory. Even if I went to the interview, it would not change the result of the annihilation of the army.Just when the leader of the company walked out of the teaching building and passed the dormitory building in disappointment, he ran into me throwing garbage. Due to the construction of the building, a pot of hot and sour beef noodle soup I brought spilled on his white shirt as soon as he turned around the corner of the building.Don't ask me why I don't drink soup, I never drink instant noodle soup, and don't ask me why I take the soup and throw it outside the building, because I live on the first floor later.The next day I insisted on holding a new shirt and found the company. Through chatting, the leader knew that I was a graduate and asked me if I wanted an interview. I looked at the leader’s office and said, “I don’t have any chance for an interview. I don't know anything, and I feel that your company is not doing well..." What I never expected was that I inexplicably made the leader laugh, and I stayed, and it took ten years to do it. In 05, the salary he gave me was only [-] yuan, which shows how poor the company was at that time.Later, the director told me that he wanted me to stay and witness the start of the company because I told the truth and because I belittled the company...

"Do you remember the abandoned train station behind the school?" Qiang Zai asked me, pulling my thoughts back.

"Abandoned! At that time, every winter and summer vacation, I would go there to pick up Cao Liang." Things are different, and I heard that the school has now moved its location.

"One night during the military training of freshmen, I lost my first time, just under a flyover at that train station." Qiang Zai smiled at me, then lowered his head and played with the glass.

"Wait! What is the first time? When you were a newborn... Wait for me to calculate." I closed my eyes and calculated carefully. "Aren't you only 17 years old at that time?"

Qiang Zai nodded, "It's a man I met playing games in a nearby Internet cafe. One night he asked out to go online, and then walked to that train station."

"If it was young people today, I would think it would be nothing. The environment and education make the children of today are precocious and open, but at that time we didn't know anything at all, let alone the word Gay, even the word gay is vague. I Guaranteed you didn’t understand anything at the time.” Thinking about myself, I knew it. Compared with today’s young people, I was a 2B when I was young, and I was still using (gay) as my online name in 22 Well, and I was [-] when I had sex with someone for the first time...

"It's dark and cold at the overpass, he took off my clothes abruptly... I was very scared, he scolded me and frightened me...It hurts so much but I dare not shout..." Qiang Zaiyong only he and I could hear The volume tells of his "first night"

"How old is he?" I asked, with the scene in my head.

"In his thirties, he must be under 40 years old. I don't even know his name."

"and then?"

"Then? No more, I dare not go to that Internet cafe again. Although I don't know the name of that person, I will remember his appearance for the rest of my life. I even said that I can't get rid of it. I was so frightened that I thought of it." Tell the teacher or the parents... I didn't dare to run during gym class that week."

"Beast!" This kind of thing can be said that Qiang Zai was inexplicably (raped), not only physically but also mentally.

"I didn't dare to meet or even talk to strangers until I graduated, but I found that I liked boys and failed to make a girlfriend. It was definitely after graduation."

I nodded. I knew that Qiangzai had a girlfriend when I was in school, but someone like Qiangzai, who is honest and dare not even hold a girl's hand, must have never touched his so-called girlfriend. "Go on."

"Later, it became easier to find a bf online. I found a bf from a liquor factory. I was only paid 300 yuan a month in the brewery. Fortunately, I also went to work in a liquor factory. Then we rented a house near the brewery. "I finally saw a happy smile on Qiang Zai's face.

"How long have you been with him... your bf?" I poured cold water on it, because I knew that Qiang Zai belonged to more than that, otherwise I wouldn't have caught him sending out friendship messages in the chat group.

"Six years, until last year when he had to go back to the countryside to get married. He is 35 years old, eh, he can't stay anymore, huh," Qiang Zai smiled wryly.

"We have no right to help him choose the fate of others. Even though we are reluctant, we still have to see him off calmly and wish him happiness silently." Suddenly I thought of Mu Shan and Cheng Yang... Man, sometimes But I have to bow my head to the reality, "You still miss him, if I were you, I would definitely not give up, and I must still have illusions in my heart."

Qiangzai nodded, "Well, I can't let it go, after so much experience, the end result is like this, because of this damn relationship, I am neither human nor ghost, my father died and I couldn't close my eyes, and my mother refused to recognize me as a son , Haha, Xiaomeng, tell me... tell me, what are we people doing for? What did we do wrong? How should we live?"

"Are you out of the closet?" I wonder why Qiang Zai mentioned his parents.

"No, listen to me. Later my father got seriously ill. My mother asked me to go home to take care of my father and help me out. It means that I have worked for a few years. Do I have some money?" Qiangzi was helpless. He shrugged his shoulders, spread his palms with me and said: "I only have such a small salary, and I have to pay the rent and my bf's firewood, rice, oil and salt. I'm stretched. I don't have the money to pay for it. I don't even have the face to go home. ..."

I wondered, "Where's your bf, didn't he show any attitude?"

"He resigned as soon as I arrived at the liquor factory, so he didn't say anything and didn't have money to help."

"Wait, what does your bf do when you work in a liquor factory?" I understand the pressure and hard work of supporting a family with a meager salary, but it shouldn't be a problem for two men to support themselves!

"He plays games at home every day, heh"

"Damn!" I jumped at the table, "You mean you have raised a white-eyed wolf for six years, what's more, this is better than the first person you mentioned (worse but not worse), it's all What kind of person, who ate and drank your food and slept with you for 6 years, felt that you (remnant flowers and willows) are no longer young, and just found a reason to kick you, I said, can we grow up! Angry!"

"Actually, he's been very nice to me, all the time," Qiang Zai said weakly.

I hit Qiang Zai on the head hard with my chopsticks and said, "Stop talking, you are an idiot, I have no interest in your story anymore." I pushed away the chair and turned to leave.

"Where are you going, direction!"

"Going to the bathroom, we've been sitting here for a long time, and our prostate glands are about to explode!" Suddenly, I realized that I was talking a bit with a big tongue, and sure enough, talking too much with people with a big tongue would also cause infection, so I had to be careful.

Why does Qiang Zai wear work clothes to meet his old classmates!He just showed me a photo of him lying on the snow. He said that the down jacket he was wearing in the photo was bought by his bf online. Wearing a down jacket, and this down jacket is also his only new clothes in the past year. He doesn't have any good clothes suitable for this season to wear to meet me, and work clothes are the cleanest.

Leaning against the wall of the bathroom to smoke, he was not in a hurry to go back.I always feel that I am a man with a story, and I always feel that other people's love is not as steadfast as my own, not as advanced as my love... But, who loves lightly again, only myself is light, everyone who releases love It is always easy for people to forget themselves and value the ones they love.Believe it or not, if I ask Qiang Zai (do you regret it? Do you feel bitter?) he will definitely say no.

However, there is always a kind of man in this world who will confuse (idiots) like Qiangzi with a down jacket that costs more than 100 yuan and is made of unknown fur.