Masahiro Akita

"Hao, do you know that every star in the night sky corresponds to a person on the ground. When someone unfortunately leaves, a star will fall from the sky. But in my heart, you are the bright moon, unique , different, never extinguished, no one can replace"

The train bumped along with my mood, sitting on the crowded train, people coming and going, looking at the moving scenery outside, I couldn't help but think of the rain and those unforgettable moments

【My life in college】

I am a lonely person, I am a lonely person, no one cares about me, since I was a child, no one cares about me except the ball, in their eyes, there is only the relationship between power and interests, it seems that there is not much family affection The business is real, my character is decisively affected by their education methods, they want to train me to have no feelings, no friendship, only strength.

This is a family that is unattainable to outsiders. It has a huge family business and even a company with our shares in the United States. The founder of all this is my grandfather, a legendary figure, a very courageous man. A man, because of health and age problems, he divided the land he had built into several sons to manage, and my parents took over the business in the United States, but all important discussions still have to be decided by grandpa, everyone in the family Everyone is afraid of his majesty, only I don't, because every time I see Grandpa, he loves me more, maybe it has something to do with my personality.

When I was five years old, I left my parents and went to school alone in a private school in a strange city. My mother took me to the United States from kindergarten to the fifth grade. During the short time in the private school, I met Ball, he is my most important person, that is the most beautiful memory, an indescribable feeling, it should be the budding love. The reason why I said this, I found out later, is because I am different from others, because I like boys, and I only have feelings for fat boys. I was taken aback when I found this strange. Of course, no one can replace the position of the ball in my heart.

After studying in the United States for two years, I returned to China and studied in a key high school. I went to that city and that school several times in the middle. Unfortunately, the ball is no longer there. Wearing that jade pendant, I miss all I devoted myself to studying, and finally, at the age of 16, I was admitted to a university that almost all students yearned for, but I couldn't find the ball anymore.

In the days of college, my withdrawn personality made me walk alone. Except for the roommates in the dormitory, I had no one to talk to. With that indifferent heart, I was used to loneliness. Until I met Yu, life seemed to have Improvement, I put back the innocent memory of my childhood, Ball, maybe I will never find you again in this life.

Yu's full name is Xia Yu, he is a fat man, very simple and cute, like me, he doesn't like to communicate with others, although two people who don't like to talk, although they are in the same class, but in half a year, we have been Neither of them took the initiative to speak to each other.

I don't like to look at beautiful women, I only like to admire fat men, and as the most outstanding representative of the few fat men in our class, I like to look at them when I am bored. He is seated in the last row of the classroom by the window , and I was sitting in the last row near the door, he liked to look out the window when he was in a daze, what trouble would that sad expression be?

"Hey, are you okay panda."

This is the first sentence I said to him. If it wasn’t for that, I don’t think we would have become good friends. Maybe we wouldn’t have had the chance to know each other during the four years of college. Perhaps, what happened later would not have happened.

When I came back from the library, I was wandering aimlessly in the campus, passing by the basketball court.

"Hey, Zhenghao, come and play basketball, you are the only one missing!"

It doesn’t matter if you think about it. Basketball was my favorite sport when I was studying in the United States. I haven’t played it for a long time, and my hands are really itchy.

"Okay, let's play with you for a while."

Taking off my coat, I ran over.This is a three-on-three game. The opponent is the students of class 04-2. I and our class have a group of seven balls. The loser has to do push-ups. Unfortunately, we lost the first round, maybe Because I haven’t played for a long time, my hands are a little raw, but in the next few rounds, we always win. Playing, I found that they played badly, their hands were too black, and the smell of gunpowder became stronger and stronger. Finally, they deliberately beat me once. Pushing it down was the fuse, which triggered this group fight. Although I am two or three years younger than them, I am not inferior to them in terms of fighting, but there are too many of them, a dozen or three people, how many of us Basically being beaten.Fighting, I don't know when, Xia Yu suddenly appeared, helped me take a few punches, and fought with them together. He is very strong, not to mention, this fat body is really not covered. He knocked down several of them with just one punch. In the end, the battle ended hastily with someone bleeding from the head and sent to the hospital.

Hey, are you okay, panda."

We supported each other and walked to the stone bench and sat down, spit out a mouthful of saliva, which was full of blood.

"Ha ha."

He rubbed his head and smiled inexplicably.

"why are you laughing?"

I asked strangely.

"You also said that I am a panda, both of your eyes are blue!"

He stopped laughing and stared straight at me, making me uncomfortable.

"Leaves."

Reached out and plucked a leaf from my hair, which must have been caught in the fight just now.

"Oh, thank you. Thank you for helping me just now, or I might have been in the hospital."

Patting the soil on my body, I said gratefully.

"Thank you, they are all in the same class. Besides, they play too badly. I can't stand it anymore."

He clenched his fist angrily, it turned out that he had been watching us play just now.

"You can also play basketball? Is there a chance for us to learn from each other?"

Although it was the first time I talked to him, but the way he spoke was very kind, it felt like a Tiezi I had known for a long time.

"Okay, I see that you are very good at fighting, and I have a chance to kill you. By the way, how old are you? Look at how small you are!"

This guy doesn't seem to like to talk, but he can't stop talking!

"Hehe, you found out, I'm almost seventeen, how about you?"

I rubbed my stomach, I don't know who punched me just now, it really hurts!

"I'm two years older than you. You can be admitted to this university when you're less than seventeen. You're very smart!"

He pulled up his leg, and a big bump bulged out of it.

"Where, where, it's just luck."

I humbly say that I actually felt that I didn't perform well in the college entrance examination.

"Let's have some food. To express my gratitude, I invite you today."

"Haha, okay, let me tell you first, I can eat very much!"

"It's okay, let me see how much you eat, hehe."

"Ha ha"

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This is the first time I talk to Yu, I feel that he is not as introverted as I imagined, he is very good at chatting, maybe this is the reason why life has been depressed for too long.

We chatted for a long time in the cafeteria. He told me that he was a single-parent family, because he regarded alcohol as his life. Yu’s father died because of drinking when he was very young, but he didn’t feel sad because at that time, he He and his mother were always beaten and kicked by his father who was drunk at night. Yu's mother was always in poor health and had to go to the hospital for check-ups every once in a while. Xue, money has brought him endless troubles, perhaps, this is where his depression lies. And Yu can tell me these sufferings hidden in his heart, which shows that he values ​​me as a friend very much.

After eight taels of rice, it turns out that he is really good at eating. I don’t know why, but I really like to watch him eat, his expression, as if he can’t let go of a grain of rice. A fate formed after a fight, I think, I have to cherish and become good friends with Yu, life will be less boring in the past, I moved the seat next to him, we became the same table, we will go to the library to read books and play basketball in our spare time, he studies very well Seriously, he belongs to the kind who is willing to endure hardships, but what I admire the most is that he is really economical. He doesn’t spend much money except for meals, and each meal is just the cheapest food in the cafeteria. Of course I don’t I have the heart to let my friend always eat steamed buns and pickled vegetables. Every one or two days, I will treat him to a good meal. Of course, I will find various reasons to treat him to dinner for fear that he will be embarrassed. Occasionally, he will envy me He doesn't need to worry about money because of his family conditions. But he doesn't know that everyone has troubles.

Yu is a very filial person. When there is no class, he will go out to be a tutor, and he will pick up several of them. It is not easy to be busy, and the money he earns can only temporarily maintain his aunt’s condition. He told me to wait for him After graduating, I worked hard to earn money, cured my aunt's illness, and bought a big house where my aunt, him, and his lover lived. Gradually, I found that I had a special feeling for this strong and sensible fat man, It's like the ball that I've been thinking about, suddenly appeared in my dream, and suddenly appeared in the picture when I was in a daze, and the further development of our relationship was still my accidental discovery that time.

Yu and I are not in the same dormitory. When I have nothing to do, I like to go to his dormitory to look for him. Today, Yu was not feeling well and didn’t go to class. He was bored and decided to go back to see him. He sneaked out. The door of Yu’s dormitory was unlocked. I quietly entered the room and saw him sitting at the computer desk looking at something. When I walked in, I was shocked. I also had an account on the forum he watched, and it was a website about G. I couldn’t believe it, could it be Yu is also gay? I am secretly happy, what a big worry bear, it can be regarded as meeting a like-minded bear that I like, is this really a gift from God!

"Brother Yu, are you feeling better?"

When I walked behind, I rubbed his face back and forth with my hands. Although I was a few years younger than him, I was not younger than him at all. Wearing a big vest and shorts when he was sleeping, he was startled when he heard my voice Jump.

"Hao, why didn't you go to class?!"

After closing the webpage in a panic, he turned his head and gave me a stiff smile.

"Without you, my lectures are too boring."

I answer truthfully.

"Have you had breakfast? There are cookies on the table."

He took a piece, put it in his mouth, and made a crunchy sound of chewing biscuits. Based on my previous experience, he didn't eat much last night.

"Are you feeling better?"

I asked again.

"Haha, I'll be fine as soon as you come."

Yu jokingly said, but compared to the morning, she is indeed much more energetic.

"Come out with me for some fast food later, I haven't eaten for a long time."

Then, I also took a biscuit.

"There is such a good thing, I am obliged to do it, my stomach is full of you!"

Touching his belly, he said with a smile.

"By the way, what did you watch just now, with such relish!"

Seeing his sullen look, I suddenly wanted to tease him.

"Ah, it's just a forum, just take a look."

What you say is not natural at all, idiot, you still want to hide it from me!

"What forum? Go in and let me have a look."

I continue to tease him.

"It's a forum for reading novels."

His tone of voice was clearly lacking in energy.

"Are you really reading a novel? I just saw a picture of a handsome guy!"

I feel a little proud, haha, it depends on how you explain it.

"Ah, that's the author, hehe, very handsome author, but still not as handsome as you."

I'll go! He can really round! Author! That's fine too!

"What kind of novel? Is it a bear monkey novel, Dayouxiong."

I looked at him with a smirk, and his face turned red immediately. I don't know if it was surprise or embarrassment, excitement or excitement.

"Ho, you, too?"

he asked tentatively.

"kindness."

I nodded, why do I feel a little embarrassed!

"Really?"

He asked again worriedly.

"Ah."

I answered again with confidence.

"Okay! How dare you play me just now!"

A bear rushed over and pushed me onto the bed with great strength. It was a bit heavy on me, making a lot of noise, and the atmosphere was a bit wrong. I felt that he had reacted, and I was also successful in the rain after that coincidence. He told me that on the first day of school, he had that special feeling when he saw me. At that time, he liked to watch me sleeping against the wall while listening to the class, and he always wanted to find opportunities Talking to me, it's just that our personality made us meet half a year later, until that basketball game, that unexpected group fight.Most of the time we are stuck together, I like to touch his chest, the kind that feels good, when there is no one, I will sneak up on the big lump under him, and he will hit me on the head and say that I am old It's easy to be so colorful in the future!When I take a bath with him, I can’t help but look down at him. He will smile and let me look at my own. No relationship, the reason is that Yu said that I am too young, and I will talk about it when I become an adult. This feeling seems to return to my childhood. When the ball was there, I thought of the ball again unconsciously. I don’t know if he is doing well? Become How does it look now? Is it still as cute as when I was a child?

Yu looks silly, but in fact he is a very romantic person. He always surprises and moves me with a sudden romantic sentence. On special days, he will buy me presents, although they are not very expensive , but each one can impress me, in my opinion, no amount of money can buy it, because behind each gift is a precious memory.

"Ho, happy holidays."

On Christmas night, snowflakes floated in the night sky, walking on the cold and warm street, I wrapped a blue scarf around Yu's neck as a gift, and Yu took out a small box and handed it to me. Cut the package, open the box, and there is a nice glove inside.

"Why only one?"

I asked puzzled.

"Because, I want to save one to hold your hand."

As he spoke, he grabbed my hand and held it tightly, walking quietly among the crowd. The feeling was really warmer than wearing gloves. Although it was just a simple sentence, I was so moved.

In the summer of 2006, it was the first time I celebrated my birthday with the rain. That day happened to be the final of the World Cup in Germany, Italy VS France. He supported Italy, and I supported France. The fierce confrontation and crazy shouts made me very regretful for my favorite team. I lost, and the most annoying thing is that instead of comforting me, he said that Italy's victory was a matter of course! It made me very angry.I secretly hope that in the next World Cup, France will definitely defeat Italy, regain the Hercules Cup, and redeem the regrets of 06. (PS: I didn’t expect that Italy and France didn’t even appear in the group stage of the 2010 World Cup. I’m so disappointed…) As a birthday present, I bought a digital camera for him. Although I like it very much, he was very angry and said that I Don, there is no need to buy such expensive things, let me not spend money randomly in the future.

"Hey, why are you going!"

"Wait a minute, it's so hot, I'm going to buy ice cream."

After a day of shopping, eating, watching movies, and playing, I am tired but full of happiness.When we came to this square, we rarely go here. To be honest, this is the first time for me to come here.Sitting on the chair, I admire everything around me, the blue sky, the boundless ocean, the free seagulls, the pigeons eating, the children playing, the tourists, the cool sea breeze, and the comfortable mood. This is really a relaxing experience. A place with a good mood.

"Here, ice cream."

Yu ran over panting, sweating, and handed an ice cream to me with a smile.

"Why are you running so fast! You are so fat and tired!"

Take the ice cream, take a bite, sweet in your mouth, sweet in your heart.

"I'm afraid of melting, hehe."

He sat next to me, wiped his sweat, and said with a smile.What a thoughtful word, although the ice cream has not melted, but my heart has already melted.

"Let's take a photo together, we haven't had a photo before."

It suddenly occurred to me that Yu had a camera on his body, and I really wanted to record this beautiful moment and the scenery here. I took out the camera and pointed it at the camera. The shutter sounded, and we were frozen in that picture forever. , is the first photo of me and Yu, but also our only photo together.

"Show me! Show me!"

Yu snatched the camera and watched it by herself.

"Well, not bad, not bad, with a bright smile, that's all."

With that said, he put away the camera.

"I haven't seen it yet!"

I said a little depressed.

"Haha, I'll show you after I wash it out."

"cut."

"Yu, I don't know why, but I feel very good when I sit here. How about we come here to play when we are on vacation?"

"Okay, listen to you."

"Haha, that's about the same."

"Hao, what will you do if one day I die?"

"Halo! Can we stop saying such unlucky words?!"

"haha okay."

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