Masahiro Akita

"Tian'er, you can't sleep in all the time!"

On the fourth day of October, the fourth day of anxiety, I wanted to temporarily forget all my troubles, and finally fell asleep peacefully last night. My mother woke me up early in the morning with her kindness, the first person to open my eyes The picture is my mother's smile, and my mood immediately becomes warm. This smile must be my mother's statement to the conversation last night. No matter what kind of me I am, she will continue to care and love me as always. To have such a mother is my life. It is an honor. Does the rare good mood these days indicate that something good will happen today?

Raindrops dripped inadvertently outside the window, and the watermarks on the ground, each drop was a perfect circle. During breakfast, the two of them were uncharacteristically silent, the fat man's eyes were swollen, it must have been last night I didn’t sleep well, and I found that he was always avoiding my eyes intentionally or unintentionally. What happened last night! Did Xiaojie really tell the fat man? My heart suddenly hurt, because I knew that the fat man was no longer Belongs to me, he only belongs to Xiaolu.

"I'm full and I'm off to work."

The fat man lowered his head and left in a hurry without looking at me. Is it because he was afraid of seeing me and feel uncomfortable? There was an indescribable feeling in his heart, and his mood dropped again.

"Oda, how about going mountain climbing today?"

Helping the mother clean up the dishes, Xiaojie sighed, and then suddenly said something.

"OK."

After thinking about it, I said simply. After being depressed for so long, it's time to go outside for a walk, to let go of our entangled minds, and perhaps relax a bit.

"Do you want to call Xiaolu?"

Xiaojie suddenly suggested.

"No, let's go, both of us."

Thinking of Xiaolu, my heart was suddenly pulled. I have been avoiding her intentionally or unintentionally for the past few days. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because of guilt, but I still dare not face it. The air outside is still so fresh. Especially after a light rain, the smell of the earth is fresh and cool, but the mountain road will be slippery and difficult to walk. It is a pity that the health was not good at that time, and the fat man and his mother refused to let him. Until now, he has not climbed the mountain here .

"Oda, go slowly! Wait for me!"

When I took the first step on this mountain, I felt a special feeling in my heart, urgency, depression, panic, and discomfort. I walked up desperately, and every step I took would have a picture, so I speeded up I didn’t pay attention to Xiaojie’s worries at the back. I wanted to make the picture coherent, because the mountain we climbed was the place where I was covered in blood and fainted during the struggle. In the picture, I saw myself at that time , was covered in cuts and bruises, dying, and the instinctive awareness of survival made him staggered down the mountain. The fragility of life, if there was no fat man, I would really be dead at that time.

"Oda, slow down, I'm sweating."

Standing where I was, I looked up. The sense of dread in front of me, did I fall from here? So, what will be the end of the mountain?

"Little Jie, this road is a bit steep, can you do it?"

Worried that his fat body would not be able to climb up, I asked with concern.

"Cut, underestimate me, my goal is the top of the mountain!"

Patting his chest, he said confidently.

"Okay, don't be brave!"

"kindness."

I panicked while walking, my heart beat faster, my brain hurt slightly, fragmented pictures flickered in front of my eyes again, reality and memory intertwined and switched, so I couldn't tell which object was real.

"Be careful!"

In my panic, I stepped on the air, slipped my right foot, lost my balance, and fell heavily on the ground. My head hit a hard object, and the pain came. The inertia of the slope made me unable to stop my rolling body. In an instant, the memory overlapped with the current scene, I escaped and rolled over, I seemed to remember something, time turned back, all the broken images were all linked together, played rapidly, more and more memories, more and more intense

Ball, Xiaoyu, Xiaojie. I suddenly found something that was forgotten, and I finally remembered everything. It turns out that my name is Luo Zhenghao

In just a few seconds, the feeling was so long. I was already in pain and finally stopped under the resistance of a force and was saved.

"Oda, it's broken there! Show me quickly!"

There was a rushing voice, the voice was very familiar, and it sounded distressed. I opened my eyes, and my vision became blurred, and I felt a little uncomfortable. It seemed that blood had entered the bleeding eyes. I turned my head, The man who worried about me smiled.

"Xiao Tian, ​​your head is bleeding! Why are you laughing! Did you fall stupid! Don't scare me!"

With a crying voice, he said excitedly.

I touched the jade pendant on my chest, it’s okay, it’s still there. I’m a little excited. It turned out that the childhood ball has grown into the current Xiaojie. It’s too dramatic. I found you! I didn’t expect that ball that I bullied all day when I was young You dared to bully me for half a year without my knowledge! See how I can treat you in the future! But when I think of the rain, my heart is cut like a knife, and the tears that cannot be restrained keep washing the blood in my eyes. Xiaoyu, I will definitely Those who avenge you, hold your fist tightly, I will send that despicable man to hell!

"Xiaotian, why are you crying again! Could it be that you fell into a fool? Come on, I'll carry you to the hospital!"

As I said that, the ball gently lifted me up. I took back the sadness just now and put the sadness back in my heart.

"I'm fine, don't worry."

After I finished speaking, I gave him another smile.

I didn't tell him I was a mouse, I was going to surprise him on Valentine's Day.

"Also said it's okay! Laugh for a while, cry for a while, you see you laugh again! Come, I'll carry you!"

The ball wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and helped me onto his back. I went down the mountain very carefully, but the back of the ball was still soft, not unconsciously reminding me of a night in my childhood.

"Mouse, mouse, what's the matter with you?"

After finishing the last page of homework, Ball clumsily ran to my bed and asked nervously.

"It's okay, just a little pain in the stomach."

Afraid that he would be worried, I endured the severe pain and forced a little smile to him!

"He said it's okay! Look at you laughing like you're crying!"

Ball said worriedly.

"Don't worry, it will be fine in a while."

The weak voice is so painful that I can't even speak!

"Go, I'll carry you to the infirmary."

He picked me up and the ball put me on his back.

"Mouse, you are so thin, why are you so heavy! Hey, I'm so exhausted!"

"Cut, Bai Chang is so fat, his whole body is weak."

"Who said that!"

"Okay, okay, slow down!"

"oh."

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"Oda, you usually look thin, why are you so heavy today!"

Come back from memory, breathless, very familiar dialogue, I didn't expect that the ball hasn't changed at all after so many years, it's still so cute.

"Oh, Bai Chang is so fat, and his whole body is weak."

"Who said that!"

"Okay, the road is bad, so don't fall!"

"See, my flesh is not for nothing!"

"Well, slow down."

"oh."

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Be careful all the way. Under my command, the ball carried me to the only small clinic in the village. It was the same as when I was a child. His clothes were wet with sweat. In fact, it was not that serious, just a little dizzy. That's all, but the ball insists on backing, so I can't help it.

"Fortunately, the wound is not deep, so you have to pay attention in the future."

The doctor wrapped bandages round and round on my head, making me look like a soldier who survived the battlefield, but my vision is no longer blurred, only the wound still hurts a bit.

"Yes, I see, thank you."

After leaving Jane's office, we walked together on the way home, this idiot still wanted to carry me, I felt sorry for him, but I didn't let him.

When I got home, my mother was shocked when she saw me. I smiled and comforted her and said it was nothing but a slight injury, but my mother still looked single-minded. When the fat man came back in the afternoon, he was still concerned about my injury after being surprised. There is no more weirdness in the morning, just like when I first met me, and then angrily scolded the ball, saying that the ball made no sound at all.

"Brother, don't blame Xiaojie, I was not careful, and on the way to the clinic, Xiaojie was carrying me!"

To help the ball out of the siege, I answered truthfully.

"If I had gone with you, surely nothing like this would have happened."

The fat man continued to complain, feeling that he was speaking like a child.

"It's all my fault. I insisted on climbing the mountain. If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have gone."

He lowered his head remorsefully, as if he had committed some serious crime, and he felt a little helpless, as for it! It was just bleeding from the head, so there is no need to make such a fuss!

"If I hadn't been thrown on the head, I wouldn't have gotten my memory back."

After saying this, the fat man, the ball, and the mother all looked at me in surprise, as if they saw an alien.

"Tian'er, what you said is true or false!"

The fat man asked suspiciously.

"Well, it's true, I remembered my name, the reason why I was dying, the person who killed me, and all the previous things. So, I have to leave tomorrow, there are some The matter is still waiting for me to deal with it, and I will come back to you when it is resolved."

Be strong-willed, blurt out, and hope they understand.

"Well, now that you've talked about this, then mother won't stop you, it's just your injury"

I stopped in the middle of the conversation, and my mother still only cares about my body.

"Don't worry, it's just a small injury, it's gone for a long time."

I'll say it lightly, but it still hurts.

"Ugh."

With a sigh, there was no sound in the room anymore, maybe they acquiesced, there are some things that must be decided by themselves.

In the evening, the fat man took the initiative to say that he was going to his mother's house, and left me and the ball in his own room. It seems that he really quit, the guilt in his heart, fat man, I am sorry for you. Lying on the bed on his back, all the troubles All come to mind, after this night, everything will be a new beginning, I hurt too many people, Xiaolu is, Fatty is, and the rain.

"Oda, I will go back with you tomorrow!"

It was a quiet night, and it turned out that Pi Qiu didn't sleep either, so what was he thinking?

"You can stay with your mother for a few more days, and I'll take care of it myself."

If you don't want to get the ball involved, it's better not to follow him.

"Oda, now that you have recovered your memory, then, do you still love me?"

His voice was pitifully small, as if I would leave him.

"Of course I love you, even if you don't want me, I will follow you with a stern face."

I smiled and gave him a soft kiss on the cheek.

"Then I will go with you even more. I said I would never part with you again."

Grabbing my hand and exerting force, I felt the sincerity, confidence, persistence and encouragement in the palm of my hand.

"Fool, it's not that I won't come back, don't worry."

Putting my legs on his, I comforted him.

"That's not okay, I'll go with you if you go, I'll go wherever you go."

This ball is still exactly the same as when I was a child, he will follow me wherever I go.

"Hey, let's say it first, you are only allowed to go back with me, and you have to go to work after the holiday, you know!"

Seriously, that's the only way to decide.

"My lord, my wife!"

Damn! He didn’t tell me I would have forgotten it! He actually regarded me as his wife! And he even had sex with me! This fat man, I must have sex with you once today! Let you know what a husband is!

"Whose wife are you talking about! See if I can spare you!"

I jumped on him like a hungry tiger, and the sudden untimely severe pain in my head made me stop.

"Ah~"

I couldn't control it, so I screamed out.

"What's wrong, Oda? Does the wound hurt?"

Ball asked nervously.

"Well, let me let you go today, count yourself lucky!"

Lying back on the bed, I rubbed my injured head.

"It doesn't matter, show me quickly!"

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt anymore."

"Oh, by the way, Oda, what's your real name?"

"Why are you asking this?"

"Ask."

"Don't tell, I'm afraid your heart can't take it!"

"Cut, what name can be so powerful! Could it be Yang Erche Namu!"

"screw you!"

"Ha ha."

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The silent night was broken by the slight snoring of the ball. It seems that he is exhausted today. I looked at his face through the moonlight. He was sleeping soundly and cute. It seemed that he was back to his childhood, pure and beautiful. Suddenly that The despicable man jumped into my mind again, and my mood immediately turned from warmth to hatred, Luo Qiang, I will definitely give you back everything I lost tenfold

Destiny is like an irregular turntable, tossing and turning, floating and uncertain, turning joys and sorrows, turning bitterness and sweetness. Maybe this is the arrangement of my fate, entangled and bound, and no matter whether the future is good or bad, I will no longer be bound by fate, my fate will be written by myself.

I got up early from the bed, luckily the ball hadn't woken up yet, I got dressed and walked out of the house.

"Mother, brother! You wake up so early!"

I walked quietly to the living room, just in time to be met by them, guilty of guilt, and shocked me.

"I knew you kid was going to do this trick again, and you were going to sneak around again, didn't you?"

The fat man was naked to the waist, his eyes were half-opened, and he knew he was still asleep.

"Let your brother see you off, be careful on the way, mother is waiting for you at home."

I nodded silently, the fat man went into the room and took a piece of clothing, and we walked out of the house like this.

"Mom, pay more attention to your body!"

Before leaving, I raised my head and looked at my mother reluctantly.

"Well, let's go."

Waving your hand, what is left to me is still a smile

Walking on the quiet path in the early morning, I used to walk with the fat man countless times. Now the past is going with the wind, and I am no longer the same mentality as before. Regarding the fat man, I have too much guilt, too many regrets , have love, but can't love, but can't love.

"Brother, I'm sorry."

There was nothing to say all the way, but I finally opened my mouth first, and thousands of words were combined into this sentence of sorry, which contained too many apologies.

"Hey, the weather is nice today."

The fat man changed the subject, but I could feel the sadness behind his words at the moment.

"There is no destiny, but we are brothers for life, and you will always be my brother, right?"

Bow your head, my heart is so heavy.

"kindness."

After a pause for a few seconds, the fat man squeezed out a word, and it was so difficult to say it.

At the end of the village, I stopped.

"Brother, just send it here, you"

In the middle of the conversation, I was suddenly hugged tightly by him, getting tighter and tighter, familiar warmth, familiar breath, without too many words, we have always maintained this posture, heart-to-heart communication, moved each other, because This may be the last time we hug.

"Brother, no matter what you are dealing with, you must pay attention to safety, call brother if you have something to do, and remember to come back."

After a long time, the fat man let go of his arms, looked at me quietly, put his hands on my shoulders, and refused to let go.

"kindness."

"If he bullies you, tell me, and I'll beat him up for you."

"kindness."

"Come back and have a look when you have time, my mother and I will miss you."

"Well, brother, I'm leaving."

"kindness."

With a heavy heart and a heavy touch, I walked forward with a heavy heart, one step after another, and walked a long way. I looked back, and the fat man was still standing there smiling and waving to me. I turned my head, stopped looking, and moved forward resolutely. go, go with a tear