father - home

After talking so much at once, my father was a little out of breath.

I helped him drink some water and took his pulse again. "Do you want to take a break?"

Father shook his head and suddenly changed the subject. "Unfortunately, you haven't met your grandfather. If you did, you would know what is arrogance and what is stubbornness. But he is a good man, dare to speak out, and hates evil like hatred. Although he is like me, he doesn't care about politics. Never partisan, but he was Baron Meissenbach, in hereditary lands, with not only privileges but responsibilities.

"From the very beginning, he looked down on Hitler and despised what the Nazis did. He called Hitler a 'little bastard' and a 'lunatic'. He always said: If this continues, Germany will be destroyed by that lunatic sooner or later. , before the war. Your grandfather had many Jewish friends. They were lawyers, bankers, and doctors. When they were persecuted by the Nazis and deprived of their jobs, property, and housing, others hid away, but your grandfather stood out openly. Run around for them, find connections, and find ways. But in such a situation, doing so will not only fail to save them, but will also implicate yourself. Because the Jewish property and houses are privately occupied by the villains of the Nazi Party. In the end, even Our Caesar Manor has also been favored.

"They first requisitioned all the adult horses in the manor in the name of the army. Your grandfather tried everything to no avail. Joseph really couldn't let go of his horses, so he went with them. Then came the manor. In the name of helping the Jews, Arrested your grandfather, but your grandfather's title made them unable to deal with them casually. So, they said to your grandmother: You can use the manor as a bond in exchange for your grandfather's freedom, otherwise, you will never see your grandfather again It was only then that I knew something was wrong at home, so I hurried back. But how can I save your grandfather and keep the manor at the same time? At this time, the professor helped me."

I know that my father's doctoral supervisor is Professor Hubertus. Strughold, a famous aviation medicine scientist.

"Professor Hubertus Strughold?"

Father nodded.

"What was the result?"

"Your grandfather came out and couldn't afford to be sick. The manor is preserved, but I can no longer stay out of the world. In order to prevent this from happening again, to protect my parents, to protect the manor, and to find a way to get Joseph back sooner, I join the the SS."

I never knew about these things, and no one ever told me about them.Nor is the father mentioned in his memoirs.In his memoirs, he makes no excuses for his motivation for joining the SS.He said in his memoirs: "No matter what the reason is, it cannot be a reason to join the SS. Joining the SS is a very wrong decision I made voluntarily. The plethora of crimes committed cannot be forgiven under any circumstances."

"That's why you joined the SS?"

"Yes."

"You never mentioned it before, not in the memoirs."

"Why do you mention it? Do you justify yourself? Millions of people have died. In the face of tyranny, some people choose to resist, but I join forces with them in order to protect myself. What reason can I have to justify myself?"

"Then why did you tell me, do you want me to know you better from now on, or..."

Dad read my mind. "I don't want to ask for your forgiveness. I won't defend myself. I just want to tell you the truth at that time."

"Do you regret it?"

"I regret it, of course I regret it. But... things are always so strange, as if they were deliberately arranged by God. If I didn't join the SS, I wouldn't have met him, your biological father, Fu Zhao."

Father fell into deep thought again, his eyes were always looking at the orchids, and there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, as if what he was looking at was not flowers, but people.

Although I was anxious, I didn't know what to say, so I could only wait.

After a long time, my father asked, "You said you have read my memoir?"

"Yes, I would like to know more about you."

"Thank you! Heinz! Then you know that before I went to Dachau, I didn't know the situation there?"

"Yes." I nodded.

"It's all true and it's not that I'm defending myself."

"I believe."

"Thank you, Heinz!"

My father's grateful gaze made my heart ache.In fact, when I first watched it, I was contemptuous and contradictory.On the one hand, I thought my father was justifying himself by saying this, but on the other hand, I didn't believe that my father was a born killer.But now, it seems I should trust him.

His father recorded in his memoirs: Due to his excellent grades, his father was still left in Professor Straghold's research group after he received his doctorate.His job is to do medical research, to study how to rescue the pilots in case of high-altitude hypoxia, drowning, suffocation, hypothermia, heart failure and other conditions, so as to save more lives.Therefore, joining the SS did not change his father's life in any way, but he was also a lieutenant of the SS while having the status of a scientific researcher.This situation gave my father peace of mind and lasted for nearly a year.

Gradually, their research almost stagnated.Due to the lack of a large amount of first-hand information, and the vital signs and critical indicators of people when the above-mentioned dangers occur, the next work cannot be carried out at all.There is only one solution, and that is human trials.But where do people come from?Marshal Hermann Göring would never allow any of his pilots to participate in this extremely dangerous experiment, so could other volunteers be recruited?

On September 1939, 9, the German army invaded Poland, and the Second World War broke out.Saving the lives of more pilots has become extremely urgent, so the Luftwaffe, the SS and the Institute of Aviation Medicine in Berlin are working together to overcome these problems as soon as possible.The direct benefit of this cooperation is to solve the problems of the test subjects.

In October 1939, a month after the war began, his father received an order to report to the Dachau concentration camp, 10 kilometers northwest of Munich. (Note: Dachau Concentration Camp Konzentrationslager (KZ) Dachau is the first concentration camp established by Nazi Germany. It is located in an abandoned arsenal near the town of Dachau in Bavaria, southern Germany. On March 16, 1933, the Dachau Concentration Camp was completed and opened. 3 On April 22, 1945, the U.S. Army liberated the Dachau Concentration Camp. The Dachau Concentration Camp held 4 people successively, of which 29 died, including 21 Jews.) The SS has established a "facility" for this research project there. Excellent" laboratory.And the dual identity of the father makes him the most suitable candidate.That is to say, before the father went to Dachau, he did not know what was going on there.

"I remember very well that the day I set off for the Dachau concentration camp was October 1939, 10, the second Monday in October."

"Wait, you mean October 10th," I called, interrupting my father suddenly.Isn't this too coincidental?

"It's October 10th, what's the matter?" My father asked me puzzled.

"Today is September 10."

“10月9日？今天是1966年10月9日？”

I nodded repeatedly. "Yes, don't you know?"

"Really? What a coincidence. I don't look at the calendar now. So, it's been 27 years, and it was 27 years ago today. I met him for the first time—your own father."

I felt like I was suffocating.Father's cheeks became more red, his lips were paler, the prominent veins on his temples throbbed slightly, and his deep blue eyes sparkled.I knew he was too excited and should go to rest.But I'm also excited.I picked up the medicine bottle that Joseph put on the coffee table, looked at it, poured out two pills, and handed them to my father.

My father took medicine, drank water, looked at me for a while, and began to recall the past.