father - home

I was somewhat surprised that Joseph came back.In the last letter, I don't remember him saying that he would go home to visit relatives.

In June, France surrendered, and the war in Western Europe basically came to an end, but there should be many things, and it has not yet reached the time when the army allows a large number of soldiers to go home to visit their relatives.What happened?Or was Joseph wounded?Anyway, he's back, which means he's safe now.

After Joseph left, I kept an eye on the newspapers for news about the actions of the German troops.While those news are delayed, I don't have any other sources other than that.Whenever the German army took any action to annex Austria and live in the Sudetenland of the Czech Republic, I would secretly be nervous, pray and repent alone, hoping that bad luck would not come to Joseph.It is impossible for me to take the initiative to inquire about Joseph's situation. I have nowhere to ask and no one to tell.When I was in Berlin, whenever I received a letter from my mother, I would be nervous and excited; there was no mention of Joseph in the letter, or at most there was a sentence "Joseph is fine." "Joseph has returned, he is fine." Then I was relieved, I was also disappointed, and at the same time deeply sad and self-deprecating.what is this?How despicable such feelings are!How small!How worthless!Others see it this way, Joseph sees it this way, and I gradually see it this way.

The Germans invaded Poland, and the real battle began.Poland surrendered, I have no joy of victory, just a sigh of relief, no news of Joseph, no news is good news.The fighting on the Western Front started again, and I was nervous again.Joseph is a groom. In the artillery unit, he usually doesn't go very close to the front, nor does he directly confront the enemy, but I'm still nervous.After all, it is a battlefield, guns have no eyes, and danger exists everywhere.

On weekends, I finished work early and hurried home without waiting for lunch, eating an apple while driving.I didn't really feel like returning home, nor did I have the excitement and apprehension that I should have.It has been five years, this sudden meeting seems to have been waited too long, numb, strange, and boring, or the situation has undergone a qualitative change.The appearance of Zhao, the love between me and Zhao that has overcome death and received the blessings of everyone and the protection of the Lord, is so powerful and dazzling. In comparison, the relationship between me and Joseph is so thin and pale, it makes people feel ashamed I am ashamed, like a beggar compared to a king, but I am still anxious to go home, as if something is waiting for me, calling me.Not Zhao, I know, for three weeks, I've been avoiding him.Is that Joseph?If it's Joseph, it's not love because I don't feel passion.

Near the town, the road runs parallel to the railway, and I am driving side by side with a train.This is also a freight train, long and you can't see the head and tail. Several open wagons are loaded with wood, and the other carriages don't know what it is.I still remember the night Ernst raced a train loaded with the wings of an airplane in an SUV and finally passed it at the crossing.

I stopped at the crossing outside the town and waited for the long train to rumble by.

The train seemed to go on and on, and I was dazed.Passing through the small town in front of me, as soon as I turned a corner, I could see the row of brick-red roofs, I thought; after the train passed, the railings were raised, and people on foot and pushing bicycles passed the crossing one after another, I watched; The sound of car horns and people's shouts rang out, and I listened.I didn't move, thinking, someone else was thinking, I looked at the people in the aisle, and couldn't understand why it was so noisy.

"Sir!"

A man in a railway uniform stood before me.I look at him.

"Sir, you can go."

"Oh."

"Are you all right, sir?"

"No...it's fine."

I started the car, and when I crossed the railroad tracks, the car bumped a little.I drove very slowly, and the cars behind me passed one by one.The driver, the passengers, and the handlebar of the farm wagon all turned to look at me.They didn't dare to complain or swear. They just looked back at me. The passenger kept looking at me for a long time, and the driver also looked back again and again. Is it a silent condemnation, or is it trying to figure out whether the SS officer is bewitched?

I was indeed bewitched, I seemed to have lost something all of a sudden, taken away by the train that was just passing in front of me, I felt weak, I was afraid, I didn't dare to go home.I lost the courage to go home, my composure, my composure, my inner balance.The train made a stop for me, and during that stop, I suddenly realized what awkward and difficult situations I would face when I got home, and how would I face them?How can I protect Zhao from getting hurt again?

As soon as I got home, I took off my military cap and coat.After driving for more than an hour under the scorching sun at noon, the collar and collar of the military cap were soaked with sweat.The thick walls cut off the scorching heat outside and the annoying chirping of cicadas, and the high roof makes the air flow well, making the home cool and quiet.It was too quiet, so quiet that there was no sound at all.I thought Zhao was resting in the study, so I tiptoed over.The door of the study is open, no one is there!I got up in a hurry and ran upstairs, but there was nothing in the bedroom.Going around in various rooms, my mother’s bedroom is closed, she should be resting in it, other places, Yu is not there, and Joseph is not there, my steps are getting faster and faster, and the door is opening and closing more and more heavily.When I checked the last room on the second floor and closed the door in disappointment, I saw my mother standing in the corridor.She was woken up by me.

The sunlight outside the house is very strong, coming in from the window at the end of the corridor behind my mother, I can only see the figure of my mother, but I can't see the expression on her face clearly.I know that my mother is very upset.

Mother didn't say anything, just stood there, waiting for me to walk by.She should be trying to control her anger.

"I'm sorry! Mother!"

"It's a good thing you didn't run and shout."

call?Who am I calling?I was speechless, smiled wryly, and recalled my mother's words.My mother was laughing at me for panicking, not being able to see Zhao, as if I had lost my soul, how could there be any nobility and reserve?How can you look like a baron, the head of the family?

Not seeing it with the eyes, but feeling it, the mother sighed heavily. "They should all go to the vegetable field."

Go to the vegetable field?at this time?Such a hot day!I was angry and worried, but I didn't say anything.

"It rained heavily yesterday, and they said it will rain again tonight. You know that grapes are at the most critical time. They went to Putaoyuan early in the morning, and basically finished the work there in the morning. They said they would go to the vegetable field in the afternoon. Don't worry, Yu won't make Zhao tired, let alone Joseph." My mother looked back at me, "Don't forget to wear a straw hat when you go out."

I didn't dare to raise my head to meet my mother's gaze, but I could hear the tone and the words in those words.

My mother knows me best, so she is always dissatisfied.But even though he is not satisfied, he can think of everything for me and do it for me.My mother knew that I was restraining myself by not going home, and she couldn't let it go for a moment, so she called me and told me: Zhao is fine!My mother knew that I was going crazy for three weeks, so even if she was dissatisfied with my behavior, she didn't criticize me much.My mother knew that I cared too much about Zhao and loved him too much, so she comforted me: Zhao will be fine, Yu will take care of him, and at the same time remind me that there is Joseph.You and Joseph have been separated for so long, and now you are finally meeting, aren't you happy?Do you forget the old love when you have a new love?Mother said: I wear a straw hat when I go out, but I forgot.

I restrained myself and ran downstairs as soon as the door of my mother's bedroom was closed.Whether it's Zhao or Joseph, whether it's awkward or not, I can't wait.