father - home

I sat in an open-air cafe by the inner lake in Hamburg, where Zhao and I sat, the evening before he left.The dusk seems to rise from the lake, rising to the height of the half-waist of the poplar trees. At this time, on the lake, groups of swans and white sails rippling in the water reflect a large area of ​​light.When it was time for dinner, the grass by the lake quickly emptied.

As we strolled back, we heard doors closing and shutters being drawn against the windows.We passed the square in front of the pier, right by the fountain, Zhao looked back and smiled, just like the marble and splashing water around him, receiving and reflecting the brilliance of the setting sun.The sun shines on the square, on the thick stone pillars, on the steel hull, and on Zhao's black hair and clear eyes.

Some pigeons swooped down on the stone rock by the fountain.I blinked and looked at the empty square and the entire pier with my whole soul. He must have disembarked from one of the boats.

It was late, the pier was getting darker and darker, and nothing could be seen. The lights in the square only illuminated the fountain and the paving stones, and the pedestrians became indistinct.

Back at the hotel next to the square, I was lucky enough to rent Zhao's room a week ago.

There was the sound of running water in the bathroom, Zhao was in the shower.On the luggage rack, my brown pigskin suitcase was open. I glanced at it and rummaged through it. I found a formal suit, two shirts, a pair of leather pants, a turtleneck sweater, and a pair of black high-waist brogues. A pair of black sheepskin gloves, a camel wool scarf, two handkerchiefs, two pairs of underwear, two pairs of socks, four packs of cigarettes, and four boxes of stomach medicine, all of which I prepared for Zhao.In addition, there is a complete work of Schiller and two pairs of hand-knitted wool socks.

The two pairs of wool socks are different in hand strength, so it should not be knitted by one person.As I was watching, Zhao suddenly hugged me from behind, and the hot and humid breath sprayed on my cochlea. "Yu learned how to weave from Mrs. Reininger."

The sock fell off and I froze in place.In order not to be suspicious, and for self-restraint, I booked two separate rooms.but now……

Following Zhao's gesture, I turned around in his arms and raised my head to meet his falling kiss... This is our last hug, the last kiss... I couldn't stop shaking.

the last time……

"It's getting late, we still have to go through the customs formalities."

Just like on the wedding day, I personally put on a tie, a calf jacket, a pen, and a watch for him...

"Passports and documents have been checked?"

Zhao handed me the passport and wallet.

I opened my wallet, took a thousand dollars out of my pocket, and stuffed it.

Zhao hurriedly held it down with his hands, frowning and shaking his head.

We stared at each other silently for a long time, and finally, he let go...

I closed my eyes and listened only to the sound of footsteps in the hotel, doors opening and closing, calls and then stopped.But it's not Zhao, and it will never be Zhao again.

I sat between two windows at right angles and waited... I lay on the bed hugging the cold pillow, pressing it to my mouth, waiting... Waiting for the night to pass, for the dawn to come, for my body and mind to follow suit Looking at this cold room and the cold bed, they become cold together.

I know that this time, neither my passion nor my courage will help.In waiting, my patience is exhausted, my hopes are shattered, my life is lost, I no longer think about it, I no longer suffer, a sense of oppression, a physical suffocation, so strong, so real, it seems Breath would no longer pass through my choked throat, and it seemed that my heart would no longer have the strength to tighten or open.

Another moment of anxiety, another moment full of expectation, it was Zhao, it was Zhao's footsteps, I heard it, I sat up on the bed, biting my lips, the footsteps stopped at the door.

"Sorry, sir, the main station has a message for you."

Jade's aunt saw Werner and I enter the ward and stood up quickly.I nodded to her politely, but my eyes couldn't help but stare at the patient on the bed.Is that jade?That is clearly a haggard dying person, where does it look like a young mother who is pregnant with a new life, where is the shadow of that beautiful, charming and energetic girl?

"Her husband's business has hit her hard," Werner said to me, turning his head and lowering his voice. "When he was sent to the hospital, he was already in a state of semi-shock. The situation was very dangerous at that time, with severe dehydration, electrolyte imbalance, ketoacidosis, and basically no urine for 24 hours."

I looked at the sleeping Yu, and my heart throbbed, but I tried to pretend to be calm on the surface.Probably because I was afraid that I was in a hurry, Werner didn't mention these things on the phone.

"I have used sedatives and supplemented electrolytes for the past two days, and the situation has improved, but I still can't eat. I vomited as soon as I ate, and the vomiting caused stomach cramps, and I couldn't stop it without drugs."

"How long has this been the case?"

"It's been five days."

This is not possible, relying on infusion alone, replenishing electrolytes and glucose, ordinary people can't live long, let alone pregnant women.No wonder Werner called me.

"Is it spirit?"

Werner nodded.Jade's aunt looked at me worriedly.

It's a mental factor, yes, but what can I do?

I told Jade's aunt to go back to rest, but at first she refused.I remembered that Yu Weizhao made it back then, so I asked her to make a bowl of porridge for Yu, preferably millet porridge, and bring it at night.No matter whether you eat jade or not, you have to be prepared and give it a try.

After Jade's aunt left, Werner was called by the nurse.I took off my cap and jacket and put on the white coat Werner had given me.Jade doesn't like SS uniforms, and like Akira, I don't want Jade to be startled or upset when she wakes up.

Yu was still lethargic, on a drip in his hand.I moistened a cotton swab with water and gently moisturised her pale, chapped lips.

The girl in front of me was originally my rival in love.Zhao had liked her, the strong throbbing of youth, fortunately, has not yet developed into love.

Is that lucky?To whom?to her?To Zhao?Still to me?

Yu is smart, kind, wise, and strong. With her encouragement and help, my love found its destination and my life became complete.We became allies.For love, we do everything we can, at any cost.

Now, she and the child in her womb are the only remembrance left to me by Zhao, the living and most precious remembrance. "Take good care of Yu, and protect our child from being born safely." I felt a strong emotion surging in my chest, not just the entrusted responsibility, but also a kind of spontaneous affection, even though it was mixed with bitterness and love. grief.

Two strings of teardrops overflowed from under the long eyelashes and slid across the once rosy and delicate cheeks.

I gently wiped it off with gauze, and stroked her hair spread on the pillow with one hand. "Jade?"

Tears kept pouring out, and there was no time to wipe them away.

"Yu!" I called softly.

The girl didn't open her eyes, but turned her head towards my hand stroking her hair, and put her face on my arm, more tears wet her sleeves, her lips trembled, and her whole body trembled.

"I'm sorry, Yu, I'm late... I'm in Hamburg waiting for the news... It's good news, Yu, not exactly, but it should be good news."

Still weeping and shaking, the girl slowly opened her eyes.

don't want!Don't open your eyes!Don't look at me!

Only when you are asleep, only when you are in a dream, I can deceive myself, I can lie, but facing these eyes... they are so similar, these eyes are as beautiful as Zhao, even if they are black and blue, even Full of tears, the fire of hope burning in them is still breathtaking... I have no courage!

I don't have the courage to lie to those eyes, but I must!Gritting my teeth, taking a deep breath, I said, "The Red Cross in Hamburg told me that a Chinese was rescued in a shipwreck. Although he was seriously injured, he was alive."

"Where is he?!"

"U.K."