father - home

I didn't know when to leave the dining car, and I didn't know how to get back to the box. In short, that section became blank.The mind was blank too, no feeling, no emotion, just smoking one cigarette after another mechanically until Ernst came in and took the cigarette from my mouth.He took a few breaths and closed his eyes. "Ha... It's quite comfortable, it's almost suffocating me." He put the cigarette back into my mouth, picked up the water glass on the small table, and drank it in one gulp.

I was still lying on the bunk with all my clothes on, with my hands behind my head, my legs in riding boots raised high against the wall at the head of the bed, and I continued to smoke.

Seeing that the sparks were about to burn his lips, Ernst took the cigarette butt, threw it on the ground and stamped it out. "What? Don't you want to sleep yet? Haven't you had enough tormenting all night?" He sat on the bunk opposite and stretched out his booted legs. "Excuse me, do me a favor."

I sit up slowly, grabbing his boot and pulling it back.

"Don't you want to know about that Chinese man?" Ernst switched feet.

Without answering, I helped him take off his boots, and he did the same.I stood on the ground with bare feet, lit another cigarette and held it in the corner of my mouth. The smoke made me squint my eyes, and then I started to take off my clothes.

Ernst pushed aside the drawn curtains and looked out. "It's really dark outside, there's not even a little moonlight, and it's going to rain tomorrow." He walked around behind me and closed the door. "Smok another one and go to bed." He took out a cigarette from the cigarette case on the table, lit it, and lay down. "I went to see him just now, he is not seriously injured, he has a concussion, he may be unconscious for a while, but he will be fine."

I turned off the light, lay on my back, stared at the roof of the car, and asked, "Did you notice the look on his face?"

The light in the aisle came in through the crack in the door, and the box was not very dark.

"You mean when Schenk beat the girl to death?"

I didn't answer.

"That's normal," Ernst continued. "Ordinary people can't accept it. I was also shocked at the time. But don't worry, I think he will be fine. He should be a strong person."

Ernst was consoling me, but he knew how unconvincing his consolation was.

"Today, I should have done something, I was like a coward." My voice was muffled because of the cigarette in my mouth.

"No, you are right to do this today. You know, if you intervene, things will definitely get worse. Not only will you not be able to save him, but you may also be implicated. Now, at least Shenk doesn't want him to die. "

"Implicated." Yes, tonight, all my performances: hesitation, timidity, insensitivity, this is the key.Not because of Ernst's prior warning and timely stop, but because I was afraid of being implicated.Since Schenk announced his homosexuality, my attitude toward him has completely changed since that moment, without my realizing it at the time.I was instinctively afraid, afraid of being seen by others as caring about him; afraid of getting involved with him; afraid of revealing the secret that I was also gay.At that moment, I had abandoned him.I lost the most important things because of the fear of being revealed.All of us, all those present here today, I believe not all are born demons, but in the face of power and fear, only he tries to defend a person's dignity.

"However, his situation is not optimistic." Ernst suddenly got excited, turned his head to me, and said, "You know, Schenk is really ruthless. They only have one bucket of water a day for a car, and there is no water at all. Food. Like Shenk said, he didn’t drink a drop of water all day, so he gave it to others. You didn’t go to their carriage, it’s not a place for people to stay at all. It was originally used to transport cattle, and the carriage smelled of cows There is also a large group of men who haven't showered for many days and squeezed together. The smell is unbelievable. The most terrible thing is that the two manure buckets are full, and it won't be until tomorrow It can only be poured when the station stops in the morning, and the stench of excrement and urine almost killed me..."

"You also said that Shen Ke didn't want him to die, he just didn't want him to die quickly." I said bitterly.

"I don't see it that way. You know what? Schenk took special care of that boy to take good care of him, and told Hammer that if anything happened to the Chinese, he'd be the one to question them."

"Why did Shenk do this?"

"I don't know, but at least he should be fine until he reaches his destination." After speaking, Ernst stubbed out his cigarette and turned over.

I stopped smoking, but I still can't sleep.What I think about is not only him, but also the place I am going to and my future work.

Sure enough, the rest of the journey has been cloudy and rainy, and it was pouring rain when we arrived at Dachau Railway Station.Fortunately, the concentration camp commander sent an off-road vehicle to pick us up.

Ernst and I got off the platform and ran towards the off-road vehicle in the rain.

On the platform illuminated by searchlights, SS soldiers, some with big wolf dogs in their hands, stood by the side of the railway.Others brandished sticks, banging on the walls of wooden cars.The wolfhounds were barking, and the guards were yelling: "Come out! Come out! Quick! Come out! Come out!"

The doors are all opened.Some burly soldiers jumped into the train, waving sticks and shouting: "Get out! Get out! What are you waiting for? Move your stinky ass! Get out! Get out!" Jump outside.

The car is higher than the distance from the platform than when it came, and there is no gangway.People were pushed, squeezed, rushed, hit, decisively, hesitantly, jumped off the platform, fell in the rain, got up, and slipped again.

The wolfdogs stared at their blood-red eyes, sticking out their long and thin tongues, barking, kicking and jumping, trying to break free from the shackles of their collars, and rushed towards the group of people who looked like people, ghosts, and chaos all over the place. Crawling, crying monsters.

I hesitated by the off-road vehicle for a while, trying to find that slender, tall figure.

"Close the door! Shut the door!" Ernst pulled me into the car.

I didn't see him.

"Has the prisoner's car not arrived yet?" Ernst asked the soldier who was driving.We've all noticed this.

"No, sir, there aren't that many cars in the battalion."

"Then these prisoners?"

"They have to walk. Fortunately, it's not too far, but it will take a while."

"Really? In this case, the task of escorting is very difficult."

"No, that's a hard job, it's raining today, it's terrible!"

"No one wants to escape?"

"I can't say no, but it has never been successful. At most, there are a few angry ones. But the corpses still have to be brought back."

"Yes, we SS officers are never ambiguous."

"Sir, are you the new military doctor?"

……

Ernst chatted casually and easily with the soldiers, and I was still staring out the window, trying to find through the rain and fog.

is that himBending to help a fallen old man.Without the military uniform, the blood-stained and muddy shirt was no longer white. It was stuck to the body wetly, showing strong muscles and a graceful figure.The leather boots were gone, and the breeches hugged my long calves tightly, and I stood barefoot in the mud. For the next journey...my heart constricted.

The off-road vehicle quickly left the station, left the town, and arrived at the camp not long after.

Reported for the day, assigned accommodation, followed by a simple but warm welcome dinner attended by all officers.Ernst didn't see Second Lieutenant Shenk at the dinner party, so Ernst asked casually.An officer said: He is not done yet.Another said: Who is to blame, he likes that.

I was heartbroken when I heard that.Probably because I was not in a good mood and I was a little tired. After drinking a few drinks, I passed out.

Start work the next day, and new stress sets in.Although there was always a faint worry in my heart, but I had no time to take care of it.