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I believe that when a person chooses to study medicine, he hopes to learn the skills of saving lives, not the skills of killing people.When he becomes a doctor, he will swear in his heart that he will abide by the sacred duty of doctors to cure diseases and save lives throughout his life.So how do I explain what I'm doing now?I kill almost every day.

Thankfully, I am not the kind of random murderer with no purpose, reason, or reason. I am doing scientific experiments with the purpose of saving people.This makes me feel better: I am not an executioner, but a scientific researcher.

In the progress of mankind and the development of science, sacrifice is inevitable.But who deserves to die?Who should live?Who should turn into the white sand at the bottom of the pyramid of scientific achievements?Who can stand on the top of the tower, wear a laurel crown, and be admired by the world?Who has the right to decide the life and death of others?Is it God, or the Führer?

The Führer decided that Jews, Gypsies, Jehovah's Witnesses, (Note: Jehovah's Witnesses was a small Christian church at the time, which resisted military service.) Communists and homosexuals, all prisoners in concentration camps could become test subjects Or, become guinea pigs in the laboratory.

They are now no different from the mice in the laboratory. They only have the obligation to sacrifice and have no right to live.They are as cheap, easy to obtain, inexhaustible, and inexhaustible as guinea pigs.The difference is that compared with the white mice, they are closer to us in terms of physical structure, they are more like humans, they even have language and feelings, but they have no soul.

You can't see them as soul-like fellows, or you won't be able to live with yourself.They were just wobbling shadows of themselves, a group of nameless, constantly renewed humanoids, all light extinguished from them, everything hollowed out of them, numb to pain.They walked silently and toiled.They cannot be called living, nor can they be said to be dead.They are not afraid of death, because they have not been able to figure out what death is.In my mind, they gradually lost their faces, they were just one after another skinny men with lowered heads and stooped waists, without any trace of thought in their faces or eyes.

The head of state has clear instructions on these medical experiments, and the will of the head of state is the law of the country.I carry out orders, to be true to the SS oath, to be true to the Hippocratic Oath.

This is the ultimate reason I gave myself in desperation.But in the Nuremberg trials in the future, such reasons could not be accepted by the judges, juries and the public at all.Even at that time, this reason could not calm the worries in my own heart in the slightest.

The experimental plan was designed long ago.The subjects were placed in ice water, and as time went by, the changes in their body temperature, pulse, blood pressure and other vital signs were observed, how long did it take to reach the critical state, and then various rewarming methods were tested.Because of individual differences, physiology, physique, and willpower, each person's ability to resist the cold and physical recovery are very different.Therefore, we must carry out a large amount of human experiments, hoping to find out and design, formulate a set of economical, practical, efficient, easy-to-promote rescue methods and supporting auxiliary equipment.

When in Berlin, a small number of voluntary subjects were recruited. The entire experiment process was carried out under strict monitoring, which consumed a lot of manpower and material resources. In order to ensure that life was not endangered, they often did not persist until the critical point. End the test early.So progress is slow, costs are high, and research is nearly impossible.

But now, the subject has changed from a human to a "guinea mouse", and things are simple.According to the data of previous experiments and the actual situation encountered by the pilots in the battle, we directly set the time for the subjects to soak in ice water to be 5 hours.Generally speaking, our experimental center has priority for the prisoners in the concentration camp.Every morning, when the prisoners lined up on the playground for roll call, our laboratory sergeant would pick out those who had just entered the camp, who were still alive and strong enough to serve as "guinea pigs" for our experiments.We believe that 5 hours is a more reasonable time setting.

After 5 hours, if the subject's body temperature has not dropped to 29 degrees Celsius, we will not drag him out of the water tank, but continue to wait for his body temperature to drop to 29 degrees Celsius before rewarming.But if the subject persisted for less than 5 hours, then we could only drag a hard corpse out of the ice pool at 5 hours.Because in the first 5 hours of the test, no one will bother, spend time and energy to monitor the vital signs of the subjects.At the same time, we are preparing for a number of experiments: research on the harm and treatment methods of seawater with different salinities (note: the salinity of seawater in the Baltic Sea is much lower than that in other seawaters such as the Atlantic Ocean) on human body; research on high-altitude environment The impact of medium and low air pressure on human movement ability, coordination and thinking, cooperate with manufacturers (such as Farben, Bayer and other chemical companies) to develop drugs to solve these problems.So we are all very busy with many things and don't have that time.Even if it happens to be empty, we will not go to accompany the subject.You know, for 5 hours in a row, I watched them all the time, watched their eyes of pleading, fear, hatred and even despair; watched the process of their skin changing from white to red, then white and gray; Struggling vigorously, trembling weakly, lips trembling, teeth chattering, finally calmed down, trembling no longer, and consciousness was withdrawn.It was more than tedious and boring, it was truly a process of terror and torture.What's more, you are in danger of being deceived and fooled.The cunning and shamelessness of the Jews and other prisoners was often brought up as a warning to newcomers who had not fully adapted to the camp's methods.Those rascals, who are more humble and immoral than a guinea pig, will take advantage of our compassion and act pitifully in an attempt to end the experiment early.They have no morals, no sense of honor and responsibility, and they try to escape this opportunity that can save their dirty souls and contribute to the progress of human science.So no one is willing to suffer that punishment, and they all run away.

I am the kind of nerd who has no clear understanding of the inferiority of the Jews, often overflows with sympathy, does stupid things, is often fooled, and humiliates himself.Fortunately, there are not only good friends like Ernst who really care about me, secretly reminding and protecting me; there are also close comrades like Schenk who enlighten me with bloody and cruel reality from time to time, making me face myself squarely; plus Stella I gradually became numb and accustomed to Professor Gerhold's earnest teaching and ardent expectations, and my thoughts became simple and pure.Since this research project helps save the lives of hundreds of German soldiers; helps to speed up the progress of the war; helps to improve the development of medical technology, then my work is meaningful.Those "guinea pigs" always had to be sacrificed.If they must die, I would be doing them a favor by allowing their lives to shine a little more before they disappear, adding a little more value.Their souls should not hate me, if they have souls.

I worked so hard, more than twelve hours a day, with almost no days off.More than a month has passed, and after conducting multiple experiments initially and accumulating a large amount of data, the research still has no progress.This is something we never expected.A small number of subjects died at the test site due to willpower reasons such as timidity and fear (we have all undergone a very strict physical examination before the test, and there will be no physical weakness and disease problems.).As for the rest, they successfully went through the whole process of the experiment and were rescued by rewarming. Almost without exception, they died a few days or weeks later. The cause of death was heart and multiple organ failure, as well as some complications.

Confused by this result, I spent several days poring over the clinical records of all the subjects, trying to find the root cause of their deaths.