The actor is sick, I have no medicine

This is the second time that Lu Danggui locked himself in the same closed space as Xing Xuan, who was in a state of illness.

In the case of a mental illness, the patient will lose the ability to judge the people and things around him, and may fight back at any time due to external stimuli.

Often, physicians are flexible with a variety of options when dealing with mentally ill patients.No matter how urgent the situation is, ensuring your own safety is always the top priority.

When closing the door of the darkroom behind his back, a thought suddenly flashed in Lu Danggui's mind.

If the teacher in the medical school knew that he was alone in the same room with the sick patients again and again, I am afraid that he would be mad at himself.

But he didn't want to tie Xing Xuan up. The blood spots on the chair were too dazzling, and they were the marks left after a very painful struggle.

But he couldn't let Xing Xuan get out of here and get in touch with anyone from the outside world.

The light-controlled light installed in the corner turned on the moment he closed the door, illuminating the dark square inch of the world.

The bright natural light was blocked from the bookcase by the dark room door, and there were only the two of them left in the narrow room.

Blocking the door of the dark room with his back, Lu Danggui held his breath, concentrated his attention, and stared at Xing Xuan sitting in front of him.

Consciousness has gradually begun to slacken, gradually getting out of the control of the brain, Xing Xuan hangs his head, and holds the cold chair handle tightly with both hands.He began to pant heavily with pain on his face, repeating the same sentence back and forth in his mouth——

"Tie me up, quickly..."

The chest with the tightly buttoned collar heaved violently, and the five fingers holding the chair handle curled up and loosened repeatedly.

He is fighting against the most primitive desires in his heart.

"Doctor Lu..."

What he wanted to say was, Doctor Lu, please, don't stay here with me.

The hands have an uncontrollable desire to grasp something, to dig their fingers deep in, to snap it, to tear it apart.

And the charming and fragile neck hidden under the white coat was exposed in front of him at this moment.

Bursts of tearing pain hit the brain, and the symptoms of alexithymia accompanied by the onset of schizophrenia began to gnaw at the willpower of this ordinary human being at the same time.

【If you don't tie me up again, I will kill you—】

What filled Xing Xuan's mind was not the literal sense of brutality and tyranny and the desire to kill.

He wanted to tear the person in front of him into pieces, kiss his heart, taste his flesh and blood, and melt him into his bone marrow inch by inch.Let him be one with himself forever.Not even death can separate them.

Hearing the unspeakable sobs from his throat, the little doctor standing in front of him hesitated for a moment, and picked up the automatic handcuffs hanging on the handle of the chair.

"...You reach out."

In a blur of vision, the little doctor bent down holding the handcuffs, and spoke softly to himself.

Biting his bleeding lip tightly, Xing Xuan slowly let go of the back of the chair, and handed his trembling hands to the little doctor's hands.

【click】

A crisp metal impact sounded in the narrow space, and the cold shackles formed a closed loop on his wrist.

The little doctor handcuffed his right hand to the back of the chair.

now it's right.

Xing Xuan's bloodshot eyes moved slowly.

Tie him up, and don't let him have any chance to reach out and cut off the man's slender neck.

Throwing a few pills into the warm water, lifted it up and shook it a few times, then lowered his head and took a sip, the little doctor handed the water glass to his lips: "The water is not hot, open your mouth."

Lu Danggui knew in his heart that Xing Xuan had lost the instinct to swallow.Even if he pried his lips and teeth open with his hands at this time, he couldn't make him take the medicine voluntarily.

Although dissolving the tablet in water cuts the potency in half and the taste becomes quite bitter.But if you want this person to take medicine, you can only use this method.

Xing Xuan raised his head slightly.

Seeing the little doctor raise his wrist, trying to send water into his mouth, he tugged at the corner of his mouth and rolled his throat slightly.

Loosening his lips and teeth, he swallowed the bitter liquid in the cup into his mouth.The transparent liquid overflowed the wet lips, mixed with saliva and blood, and flowed down his rolling Adam's apple, gradually sinking into the pale collarbone.

The water in the cup had bottomed out, and Lu Danggui was about to remove the cup when his hand suddenly froze in midair.

Xing Xuan lowered his head and gently rubbed the back of his hand with his cold lips.

Putting the water glass on the ground, the little doctor picked up the other handcuff on the back of the chair.

【click】

There was another sudden sound in the air, and a handcuff was placed on his left hand.

However, this hand was not firmly bound to the chair handle like the right hand just now.

Xing Xuan stared blankly at the little doctor in front of him.

At the other end of the chain, the little doctor picked up another handcuff and handcuffed it to his own wrist.

A pair of shackles bound two people.

"If you really can't bear it, just shake your wrist, and I'll know."

A light male voice came from the ear, and the man's tone gradually softened: "Remember, I'm still here, not just you."

While talking, the little doctor raised his hand and taught him how to shake.

A silver metal chain was wrapped around their wrists, tightly linking the two of them together.

Like a red line.

The light control light in the corner flickered slightly, casting a dim yellow light between the little doctor's eyebrows: "Xing Xuan, the medicine still has ten to 15 minutes to work."

"Hang on, it'll be over soon."

It took a long time for the person on the chair to respond. Lu Danggui thought that the medicine had begun to take effect in Xing Xuan's body, and was about to go up to check the person's condition when he suddenly felt a little wet on the back of his hand.

The person sitting on the chair began to tremble violently, and the chain tied between their wrists also dangled in mid-air.

Xing Xuan raised his eyes, looking at himself dimly.

The corners of the eyes were slightly raised, with a red mark at the end of the eyes.There were drops of water on the eyelashes, and the figure of himself standing in the light was reflected in the pupils.

It is a pair of very beautiful eyes.

He opened his mouth, and his chest heaved very violently, as if he wanted to speak, but he couldn't speak for a long time.

After struggling for a while, Xing Xuan let out a few meaningless breath sounds.Word by word, very difficult to speak.

It seemed that all the strength in him had been exhausted just to say these few words.

"road."

"doctor."

"I."

"I--"

"I'm very--"

The last word was not formed in his mouth, and Xing Xuan stopped trembling all over his body.

This is a very strange feeling, as if there is some fog blocking the depths of his brain, which is being slowly pushed away with his hands.

The neuropathic pain in his head was intensifying, the cerebral blood vessels began to spasm and contract, and endless pain came from the nerve endings, trying to prevent him from saying this sentence.

But he still wanted to speak out.

It's not just like before, all kinds of emotions are transformed into cold words, which flash in the mind, but can't stir up any waves.

Seeing Xing Xuan standing up stiffly, Lu Danggui thought it was a side effect accompanying the effect of the medicine, and an adverse reaction occurred in this person's body.

Worried that this person wouldn't listen to what he said, he slowly bent down: "...Xing Xuan?"

Xing Xuan opened his mouth and said a few words silently to him.

Seeing Xing Xuan's mouth shape, Lu Danggui froze for a moment.

In the process of communicating with others, alexithymia has a very obvious feature, that is, they do not deliberately use adverbs of degree in the conversation.

They cannot convey the emotions in their hearts to the outside world, so they are also unable to tell others about the magnitude of their emotions.

For example, the happiness of a normal person can be divided into general happiness, very happy, and crazy happy.The sadness of a normal person can also be divided into light sadness, great grief and extreme grief.

However, for Xing Xuan, there is no difference between them.

To him, happiness and sadness are just two thin and cold adjectives.He doesn't have an incidental emotional response, let alone classify it into degrees.

However, in what Xing Xuan said just now, an adverb of degree appeared.

He said, very.

Her heart skipped a few beats, and Lu Danggui slowly bent down in front of Xing Xuan.

The doctor's intuition made him keenly extract something from Xing Xuan's words, but he was still not completely sure.

Putting the still movable hand on the back of Xing Xuan's head, Lu Danggui leaned forward slightly and hugged him gently.

After adjusting his breath a few times, Lu Danggui slowed down and said, "Xing Xuan, what do you want to tell me?"

He returned to the professional state when he was a doctor in the hospital and communicated with patients.

At this stage, you can't be in a hurry, let alone rush, if you take a wrong step, you will lose everything.

After saying this, Lu Danggui didn't say anything, just stood where he was, quietly waiting for Xing Xuan's answer.

In the narrow space, Xing Xuan lowered his head, his forehead resting on the waist of the person in front of him.

With wide red eyes, he stared motionlessly at the little doctor's trousers on the floor.

It was very quiet in the dark room, only the breathing of each other could be heard.

The emotions in the brain are blank, but something is about to come out.

Just now, when the little doctor grabbed his right hand and handcuffed him to the handle of the chair, he couldn't help but have a ridiculous thought in his heart.

He once longed to be as free as a bird, as gorgeous as a rose, to walk in this world unrestrainedly, without being restrained by anyone, so that life is meaningful.

This is also the reason why he persisted until now.

However, if it is the person in front of him.

If it is Lu Angelica.

Even if his legs and wings were broken, and he was imprisoned in this square inch forever, he would be happy with it.

He was willing to be put in chains and become a captive of Lu Danggui alone.

As long as this person is willing to stay and stay by his side, he will always be in his sight.

However, when he willingly gave all his physical and mental freedom to the person in front of him, the person in front of him didn't lock him up, nor let go of his wings.

He left heaven and entered his own hell.

Then tell yourself you're not alone.

"road."

"doctor."

From the first time he got sick many years ago, he thought that he would never have the chance to say this sentence in his life.

This is an obsession that has been lingering in his heart for more than 1000 days and nights. The emotional area of ​​​​the brain has been blocked for so long that he almost forgot the word.

But when this person chose to put on the chains and go into the darkness with himself, he broke through the last blockade in his heart.

"Doctor Lu, I'm very—"

Xing Xuan slowly raised his head, he stared blankly at the person standing in front of him, tears also fell down:

"……I miss you."

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Behind Lu Danggui, a light suddenly lit up on the wall of the dark room.

The black and white monitoring screen appeared on the small screen, and the second secretary's voice came from the screen:

"Boss, Xing Dong's car has just arrived downstairs, and it will arrive in five minutes."

This line is an encrypted line between her and the boss. As long as the boss stays alone in the dark room, she will keep an eye on the dynamics of the group on behalf of the boss, in case of emergency.

Before hanging up the call, the second secretary heard the boss coldly say on the other end of the phone: "Help me relax."

Obeying the boss's order, she hurriedly released all the restraints on the boss through remote control as usual after the illness ended.

Before Lu Danggui could react to what happened suddenly, the handcuffs tied to the back of the chair suddenly fell off.

In the next second, he felt a chill in his wrist.

The handcuffs that were still on Xing Xing's hands just now were picked up by Xing Xing and handcuffed to his own hands.

Lu Danggui: ...? ? ?

What the hell kind of twist is this? ? ?

Obviously the person who got sick was Xing Xuan, why did the person who was tied up suddenly become himself?

Standing up slowly from the seat, Xing Xuan tidied up the messy neckline, and pressed the door of the dark room.

The laxity and confusion in his eyes gradually faded away, and all the indifference in the past returned.

After 15 minutes, the medicine had already worked in his body.

Watching Xing Xuan press the door of the dark room, as if he wanted to lock himself in alone, Lu Danggui couldn't help frowning:

"Xing Xuan, what are you doing!"

"Quickly put me—"

Through the dim light, Lu Danggui saw Xing Xuan's footsteps pause.

"No matter what you see later," he turned around and said to the little doctor in the dark room, "Doctor Lu, please keep quiet."

After speaking, he closed the door of the darkroom and walked out without looking back.

The author has something to say: The relationship between Cheng Cheng and Xiaolu is about to break through, so the description of these two chapters will be more detailed, and the next chapter will continue with the plot ヽ(▽??)ノ

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