half soul

The green eyes of the lake were fixed on the girl who was smiling calmly on the other side.

It's still here.

Is this your robbery, or mine.

Why you just refuse to be obedient, leave me alone.

Hitsugaya wanted to smile wryly, but the corners of his mouth couldn't move at all.He also wanted to say something, but his throat seemed out of control, and he couldn't utter a single syllable.Sorrow ravaged and took root in large areas in his heart, piercing him with bruises all over his body, making him unable to even touch the corners of his lips or move his tongue.Only the girl's figure was left in his eyes and reflected in his heart, occupying all his thoughts and nerves, so he could only look at her.

He kept looking at her.

Can't look away.

He watched her approach step by step.The shoes creaked as they stepped on the unmelted snow and ice on the ground.He sighed in his heart, hearing her voice filling the whole world.This world of ice and snow is his inner world, his whole heart.

Full of her voice.

"Winter Shiro. We meet again."

Please don't act like it's easy every time we meet.

Do you know what will happen next time?

...Do you know, and whether there will be a next time.

"Dongshiro, you can go back."

Are you an idiot for me to go and leave you here?

Have you figured out the consequences of my going back?

I've been telling you from the very beginning that I don't want to.

"Dongshiro, why don't you speak."

You want me to tell you what's good about you.

If I tell you, you will be obedient and leave obediently.

In the end... do you know how nostalgic it will make me be when you call my name over and over again?

Xia Li looked at Hitsugaya in front of her, her beautiful emerald eyes, and her brows that were tightened even more behind her snow-white forehead.She gently stretched out her hand, raised it inch by inch, and finally rested between Hitsugaya's eyebrows.There, it is abrupt, sad, and his entanglement.I always want her to calm down unconsciously.She used all her strength to remember the temperature and touch of her fingertips.She told herself that she would never forget even if she died, just like his figure, face and voice, which are irreplaceable in her heart.

Maybe it's the last time I saw you.

"...I won't let you..." Hitsugaya's voice was low, pretending to be too heavy.

"No, you can't stop me." Xia Li interrupted him, his eyes brightened, "Of course you can treat me as willful. But, it's just this time."

It just depends, I am a suitable person, and you are a half-soul.

These words slipped from the corner of his mouth calmly, even with a hint of coldness.

you……

Ask me why I don't speak, but interrupt me again when I speak.

Moreover, he still said such infuriating words.

Hitsugaya grabbed her shoulder, and Xia Li saw the flash of anger in his eyes. "Are you kidding, only this time!"

The shoulder was scratched and hurt.Xia Li tried not to frown.

How much strength do you want to use to reject me.

When the blood of the fittest is exhausted, I will soon lose sight of you. Do you still want to reject me?

Do you know how much I want you to stand up again, even if I can't see it.

You don't know.

"Hitsugaya Toshiro," it was rare to call his name, seriously and earnestly, she stopped smiling and looked straight into his eyes, "Do you know what you are in my heart?"

The lake-green eyes on the opposite side were inevitably covered with pain.How could he not know who was supporting him day and night.How can it be.The clear missing, as well as the despair and sadness when I learned that I escaped, those most sincere feelings burned deeply into my heart like a brand.He who hurt her was also riddled with holes and bruises.Those pains, every inch of skin and every nerve can still be clearly remembered.

How could not know.

"I..." He let go of Xia Li's hand, lowered his eyes, trying to hide the vigorous light inside, "How could I not know..."

Xia Li took another step closer.Now she is almost touching Hitsugaya's body.The snow-haired boy was slightly shocked, and felt his wrist was gently grabbed.Xia Li tilted her head slightly, and brought her lips to his cheek.So whose heartbeat soared to the limit almost at this moment.

The instigator seemed to be indifferent, her voice floated in his ears, as if it was very close, but at the same time it seemed very far away.

"No, you don't. Let me tell you."

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"I'll tell you."

Xia Li took a step back and looked at the person in front of her from a little distance away.

That person hasn't changed at all.Snow hair, green eyes.The difference may be only the more sad or resentful colors in the eyes.It cannot be said that it is still unforgettable after thousands of years, at least in those moments that she remembers, she has never been lost.

It's you.

What are you, let me tell you.

Her brows and eyes are calm.Her lips were opening and closing, and the words she uttered were as gentle as water.Hitsugaya shook his body slightly, because from the moment he heard the first word, he felt something began to shatter.

"You are death."

The haori standing in front of me flew like snow.The side eye is your coldness and unruliness, with clean and clear fine ice flakes, raging and taking root in my heart.Judging by the flash of that snow-white color in front of his eyes, he knew that there was no possibility of escaping.

"You're someone I've only met once and never forgotten."

I think you should know too.Otherwise, I wouldn't have missed you all the time, waiting, mourning, desperate, and escaping during this long, long time.It's like melting into my blood.all the time.every second.

"It's like the snowman I built one winter."

It was just a smiling, still, simple snowball, but it occupied my heart at that time.The brows and eyes are drawn casually, but even the arc makes me love it.No matter how long it's been gone, I still remember it.You can see it when you close your eyes, as clear as the veins on the back of a leaf.

"You disappeared just like it did."

I won't cry for it, but, it means but, I will give up all future snowmen for it.Yes, all of them.why.Because I like that snowman very much.I like it very much.I like it so much... I would rather melt, the one who disappears is myself.

"I thought that the melted snowman would never come back."

The melted snowmen will not recombine, the falling petals will not restore, and the dead humans will not be resurrected.I never knew Grim Reaper did the same.But as soon as I knew it, the matter was no longer discussed, and there was no room for turning back.irreparable.

"So... if someone tells me, I can see that snowman again, maybe even bring it back..."

Do you know how surprised I am.Do you think I care what the price is.Just hearing that there is such a possibility, I burst into tears.So... Even if you try your best, you can't stop me. I want you to come back.But there is one thing I can't say.

"How could I give up."

If this is a secret love, it should be called vigorous.It is you who have to live, so even if you can't take me back again, I don't want you to be troubled and entangled for a lifetime.So how much I like you, how much I miss you... I will never tell you...

I've been talking about these things since the first day I missed you. I've said so much and for so long. Do you understand?Hitsugaya Toshiro.

The lake-green pupils locked tightly on the calm-spoken person on the opposite side.

Something crumbled in the left chest, retreating steadily.

What is that, Hitsugaya thought.It's the heart.

This time he couldn't deceive himself.He thought a lot between those fragmented sentences.

Those who sat on the top of the tallest building watched the girls write eye-catching words.Those times when you close your eyes and feel the thoughts flowing in your body.Those times when watching her quietly falling eyebrows and eyelashes shed tears when she fell asleep.Those times watching her run like the wind through the empty alleys.Those times when she looked up and stared at the color of the sky with her.When those pure thoughts are mixed with the pain of feeling betrayed.Those times when I watched her fall into danger and couldn't do anything about it.

Dare I not like it?Dare to say no love?

But what can he say, what else can he say.It was extremely difficult to even speak.

You and I are destined not to stay in the same world.

In this world, I don't say that if I like you, I can escape the fate of being exiled.

impossible.

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"You, do you really understand the result?" There was unavoidable heaviness and pain in the tone.

why.

Why is it always such mindless content that comes out of your mouth?

Can't you say a few words to make me happy, when I'm going to stay here for a long time?

Even if you never expect a response, it doesn't mean you don't want it.

Xia Li smiled again, the smile on the corner of her mouth was bleak and gorgeous.Hitsugaya only hoped that his heart would never beat again because it hurt so badly, because he was so heartbroken and her smile was so sad.

It's all because of him, the culprit.

At this time, Hitsugaya was not without panic and found that his body began to become transparent.He knew immediately that this was a harbinger of imminent departure.There was no more time and he, there was no way to stop it.

I haven't said anything yet.He looked at Xia Li's black pupils which were quiet and clear, and when he realized that he was about to leave, he was suddenly infected with a kind of urgency and nostalgia, overwhelming sadness in an instant.

He asked himself, can you say what you want to say, Toshiro Hitsugaya.

If you say so, will staying with her be a relief or a burden.

Do you tell her that I like you so wait for me to come back, or don't say anything, and tell her that I'm here to pick you up when I really come back.

It was because she was afraid that if she promised her too easily, her hope and heart would be wiped out in too unknown a time.

If that's the case, wouldn't it be better not to give her hope?

Hitsugaya told himself in his heart that at least he would not be more sad.

He knew that he had to make a decision before disappearing.

Xia Li looked at Hitsugaya's increasingly transparent body in front of her eyes, just thinking about the countless disappearances she had witnessed before, she felt that her blood was frozen like an irreversible spell.

She reached out to touch him again, but stopped an inch in front of him, making it difficult to move forward.Because she knew that if she moved forward a little further, she would pass through that transparent body, so she didn't want to make herself feel that she was in two worlds with him, even if it was just an illusion.

Hitsugaya became transparent little by little, and his vision became blurred.He could already feel that his body was not like his own, as if it was spinning uncontrollably, out of this world, making him dizzy.

There is no time, to say or not to say.

He finally made up his mind, gritted his teeth fiercely, and stared at the person opposite him with his lake-green eyes.He saw an indescribable glow in her heart, covering her eyes with mist.How could he not understand what kind of temperature it was.

"Xia Li... I will..." I will definitely come back.

"I don't want to stay here for too long, so come back quickly." Xia Li spoke out at the last moment.

I always think that someone will leave in the next second, and if I don't say it, I will never say it again.

No matter how sore her nose was and how astringent her eyes were, she was still looking at him intently.

I said, you better leave quickly, okay?

Otherwise, I am afraid that I will shed tears.

I said, maybe this is the last time I see you.

Therefore, I will not look away even if I die.

She saw him nodding in a trance.The snow-haired and green-eyed face was so plain that it seemed like it was missing.

The last thing Hitsugaya saw was his Hirinmaru, that huge dragon, quietly bent its ice blue tail, and gathered beside Xia Li.He knew that it was with her.He muttered silently in his heart, grateful for his Zanpakutō.

He thought, please replace me and accompany her for a while.I, be back soon.

for sure.

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When he opened his eyes, he saw the canopy of the tree dimly illuminated by the lamp on the ground, right above him.At the same time, the pain from all over his body hit violently, occupying all his senses in an instant, almost drowning him.Hitsugaya gritted his teeth tightly.

Pain is the feeling you no longer have a right to after becoming a half-soul.

Hitsugaya knew that he was the one who came back.

He sat up, a little bit of blood fell from his body and hit the ground, it was a bunch of mottled and dazzling flowers.Those shocking colors have already soaked the feathers on his body into the same sweet smell.He stretched out his hand cautiously, covering the red on the ground.The red that dyed his lake green eyes almost tore him apart and devoured them.The temperature at the bottom of his palm was so cold that he was shocked.So the snow-colored eyebrows twisted into tangled arcs.

Some places are more painful than this body.

Hitsugaya Toshiro is the one who returned to this world from a half-soul.

So no one knows better than him that although this body is in pain, those shocking colors are not his.

It's Xia Li's.

If you think about it, you will know how it is possible to bring a person back from nothing?Even if it is a spirit body, the answer is impossible.So, so, the reason why Hitsugaya can sit here, touch the solid ground, and feel the cold blood is all because Xia Li has almost exhausted her incomparably precious, suitable blood. Only exchange him back.

Every call is actually an exchange, at the cost of the blood of the fittest.

And it's not impossible to call back the half-soul, it just takes more, more, more.

To put it realistically and brutally, almost life and freedom.

Maybe the deadline is forever.

Hitsugaya's eyes stayed on those bright reds that were so painful to face up to but unwilling to escape for a long time.

In this world, there will be no second person who is willing to let himself bleed to the point of death for his sake Toshirō Hitsugaya without hesitation or pity...

He knew that what Xia Li wanted was neither compensation nor thanks, she didn't want anything.

Those bright reds were just evidence of her wishes, her waiting, her prayers.

Incomparably bloody, incomparably pathetic, and incomparably hopeless evidence.

Hitsugaya couldn't think of what else he could do to respond besides bringing her back as soon as possible.

Standing up slowly, feeling this long-lost body as if it didn't belong to him, the pain made the body dull and clumsy, but it couldn't stop Hitsugaya from trying to walk to the lamp.It was the lamp that Xia Li placed on the ground.It is illuminating some writing next to it.Written on the ground with white paint, the handwriting is faintly visible in the uncertain light and shade of the candle.

That was her message to him.

Hitsugaya seemed to see Xia Li very realistically, half kneeling on the ground, scribbling these words seriously.God, how much does he want to reach out to reach her and keep her.But he blinked, and there was no one left in front of him.So at that moment, something unspeakable and inseparable suddenly raged in my heart.Hitsugaya could barely suppress the turmoil in his heart, and lowered his head to read her message.

"If you dare not read the message I left for you, Brother Yi will teach you a lesson for me.

You can go wherever you like, but Puyuan, Hufu, Brother Yi and my dad should still be outside.

You can go to them first, and they will arrange it for you.

Also, if you are hungry, I put food next to it, so go and get it yourself.

If you see them, say hello for me.

——Xia Li”

Hitsugaya stood there quietly, staring at those few lines of words.His eyes went from surprise to tremor to sadness to forbearance and finally returned to calm.The snowy hair on his forehead was gently raised in the night wind, blocking his eyes, his expression was unpredictable.And the lines at the corners of his lips became peaceful and resolute again, neither happy nor sad.In the black light of the lamp, the boy slowly squatted down and stretched out his hand.His fingertips lightly traced a line that just passed the first word of each line.

Did you know, Xia Li...

I forgot who told me that goodbye is an oath.

-To be continued